Talentime

Date : 3^rd April 2009

Cinema : MBO,Malacca

Movie : Talentime

Director : Yasmin Ahmad

I wanted to do the review for quite sometimes now, but there are too many things going on since that canceled supposed to be 1^st date but it’s ok now that I remember I want to give all the applauses to the film and all the crews as they deserved it. Totally! But because of the invitation 2 days back to come to FINAS for the public screening (FREE) reminds me to how much I adore this film. As well as for certain Mahesh Jugal Kishore.hahaha:p

Ok, actually there are a pinch of irritated feeling blooming inside of me as this film doesn’t get its due financial wise! Compare to all those rubbish(Selamat Pagi Cinta, I’m not single,to name a few) who get box office title or at least get back the net revenue, its kind a pissed me off that Malaysian seems do not appreciate great Malaysian movie made by true Malaysian at heart. But putting that aside, it did received recognitions from international film festival and although some people say awards doesn’t make a difference (those are people who never get an award, that’s why!) but it does for me and I feel happy for them. Congrats.

It does fit my list of a perfect movie with its spontaneous element, the laid back sense of humor (SO MALAYSIAN!), the awesome line of actors, and mind blowing OST tracks. From 1 track to the other its growing slowly inside you.

O re piya has been 1 of my favourite track lately. Listening to it each time reminds me to the superb art by Yasmin Ahmad which is one of my all time top choice; Talentime. The great lyrics by Rahat Fateh Ali Khan (a well known Sufi singer as well as a poet) strike a chord to a lot of things actually be it about love, multi-cultural life, sacrifices we made in this life and boundaries we overcome as a human. It’s all been wrapped up beautifully in 1 hour and some minutes. And that summed up why I love this director. The thing I love about her works is that by doing so little she did so much actually!

So, I hope you will buy the DVD and watch it. Try to watch all of Yasmin’s works and you will understand why I think she is the most Malaysian director we have.

me,smitten by Mahesh :)

Skeleton coming out from the closet--->TOMOK

Yes, its about time I guess.

Yes, Im (we) are smitten by 1 of the contestant who were in OIAM.

Yes, I (we) now wear & somehow love yellow.

This are some excerpts of mine during the 10 weeks journey :

Kaisya & Sarah's dialogue during Top 40 going to Top 12 : Cheda, Abg New Boys kau yang jiwang meleleh tu masuk Top 12 lah.Muahahaha(their evil laughing are now haunting them as they are 1 of the Moks!)

Week 1: What,budak suara sengau tu masuk top 12?Biar betul!
Week 2 : Syafinaz & Paul must have gone crazy by choosing him man!
Week 3 : Hmm,dapat imuniti mamat lentok ni!Bagus ke?Crazy in love bkn byk nyanyi pon,oklh!
Week 4 : Ya ALLAH,I love his version of 'Ingin Bersamamu'.Syafinaz's was boring!
Week 5 : Best gile lagu 'Umbrella' dia nyanyi!Ella..eh2..ella.
Week 6 : Went late to class to watch his re-run of OIAM.
Week 7 : Abggggg Tomok!!!!!
Week 8 : OMG,Amylea is out!Next is Aweera,if Tomok Im going to @#$@@$!
Week 9 : Yeahhh,he deserved to be in final!ALL THE BEST MY TOMOK!
WEeek 10 : Dupp..dapp..dupp..dapp..The winner of the Hottest season yet of OIAM is TOMOK!!!Yeayyy!


Yes, we the Moks are TOMOK MANIA! So,the moral behind this story is dont ever judge TOMOK without watching him performing nowdays!hehehe..

And know what, I have a video which was aired nationally to proved just that.

Day & time : Monday, 4th May 2008.
Channel : 8TV,Media Prima.

Yes,the screaming voices were mine(ours!).Yes, the maniac were us. Believe me we never went gaga over Malaysian artiste/star/celeb like this except :-

Me : Datuk Shah Rukh Khan ( he is half Malaysian way before that datukship!I rest my case:p)
Sarah : Siti Nurhaliza
Pza : Ashraf Muslim
Kaisya : Ally Iskandar(numbes of choices,Im not sure)

me,LOVE Adam Lambert & Danny Gokey :)

Living in denial!

So, I went off quite happily and confidently [that I'm actually going to do my 'revision' for final at home] back to home sweet home,Shah Alam. Like a bird flying back to its nest.Like a baby crawling back to his mama. I thought like always this time I will do the same. Nothing can make me doubt my decision of spending this so called study week at home but I was wrong. Where should I even start it...the moment I realized my foolishness is when...

On the bus,that very damn hot evening the air conditioner chose not to work. So there I was sweating, trying to get some sleep or pretend to as I don't like looking outside the window just because someone is sitting beside me[read : stranger!no luck = no single seat] I decided to continue reading Daisy's back in town by Rachel Gibson before somehow something struck my mind reminding to the distractions I will faced this 1 week 'holiday'. Maybe because the faces of friends who said the other night that 'I cant study at home, don't know how you pull it through' come flashes couple of time at the back of my mind.

At that point of time I'm sweating even more and my heart beats 7 times faster! What was I thinking, am I living in denial! Sure I agree with them, because I don't think I will lift a finger on my books or notes! When I didn't do that at my place in Mallacca[boring x 3] what made me think I will at my mini heaven[home!]

During my nerve shock period I didnt realised its home already.


First place I went[after salaming & hugs+kisses ayah&mama ofcourse] was the kitchen, just to see whether I'm right again!Yes,Mama cooked my favourite chicken dishes again.Not a single time did she forget to do that since I moved and have my weekends at home.Thanks Mama!:) Mama ajaking me for wedding this weekend,according to her this girl[our neighbour] is my friend and she is getting marry.If you say; saying hi and bye only once in your life to a person considered as a friend than let it be. Then Mama ask this and that, telling me this and that and after 4 weeks without them make me kind a laid back and listen and only listen.With this love I think I can start study anytime soon.We'll see.

Then, went straight to room where I know someone was there because looked like it've been cleaned up since the last time I was there.The floor looks shining, the AC's air more fresher, and the room smells great[not because I'm a messy girl but because the room besides mine have been sanitized as well!] I dont prefer other people do the cleaning workfor me, not for my room atleast but as that boy damn lazy than what to do. But at least yeay!I wont be smelling the 'kandang kambing' smell for quite sometime. A great start I must say, me and Boboy havent start fighting,YET! Perfect surrounding for me study mode.We'll see.


Freshing up myself .Unpacking my huge almost torn apart luggage.Try to remember something really important but couldnt to.The thinking process took a long time.After sets of pause and play..suddennly,PAPP[sound of me slapping my head]...




I left my Dell's wire at EP.This must be sign from GOD isnt it?That what most of normal -people who having final exam in 2 weeks would think- but not me! Thank GOD I have my ACER at home.Then I put back a big smile on my face.Lucky me.We'll see how lucky I'll be.



That night I should have started study, instead I watched delay game of Chelsea v.Barcelona with Ayah.What a stupid refree we had for a such important game.Too many fauls, so many hand balls, and there should have been numbers of penalty kick awarded to the Blues[Im not their supporter but just telling right things that should have done] .For me UEFA is like a mini World Cup in the world of football so when you lose such integrity there is no more fun watching it. Barca should have not win it and step to the final leg.I lose my chance of watching Terry slipped again in the final!hahahaha..Jokes apart Hiddink's boys deserved the spot better.I will start study tomorrow morning.We'll see.





10 am.The plan was 8am.Better late than never.Working day so empty house all belong to me, alone.The temptation of the remote,TV,the comfort of the sofa,etc all belong to me.How can I start study?I always wrong about myself being determined when it comes to study.For a change I thought this time will be different, Im wrong AGAIN!The car key is back in my hand.So after lunch vroomm I went looking for Mother's Day's presents.This year I have a clear vision of what I want to do and buy.Somehow because the 21 factor I have solid plan as well as solid financial support this time around.Back at late evening.I'll start at night then.We'll see.



Open my black diary,listing down stuff I want to settle in this 1 week.Ironically STUDY listed on top of my to-do list.Funnily, the process didnt even start YET!


Its 9pm,tired of doing nothing went down take my dinner and watch 'Princess Diaries 2 : Royal Engagement'[love Anne Hathaway!].Then Adam Lambert showed up on Idol show,who can say no to him!Yes!he's in top 3!Later that night when Im about to print the rest of Comp Law I notes Shahrukh shows up in Koffee with Karan at Star World.Tell me if I ever say NO to his charming+cute dimples!I'll go up and finished my printing,works and will start study later.We'll see.



Its 2am.








Black ink ran out of tank.









Yet another excuse.







And here Im sitting and blogging!Writing my next entry.The 1 million question is....




When will I start study?We'll see.




You unthankful girl, for all this time God and your lovely parents have given you so much and this is what you gave in return?LAZINESS!!!

me,will choose the right path.Soon!:)

For now.....NO!

That is the perfect choice of word for now,NO!

It wont be long I promised you,but I don't know why I doubt my own words.For now.

I think..I guess..I do believe all of this meant for the best for us.For now.

I don't want to say YES just because people want me to say so.When the right time comes I will say YES,because I want to.Because I ready to.Because I believe I should say so.Because my heart give the signs to do so.But its a NO,for now.

Its never about you,seriously![meredith's impression!] its always about me and my unready & unprepared self![this time I wont blame on my relationship phobic's nerve]

Now you may think your heart being crashed into pieces, your dreams been denied, and your right been rejected but believe me it all for your own good. If not for us.For now though.

There's always silver lining behind dark cloud remember?So,let us keep it that way. Let us find and search for our silver or even a gold lining then.

See you when I see you.

For now,have a great life ahead.






P/S: Waiting impatiently for the great game of the year between Manchester United vs. Barcelona.Congrats for both team,may the best team wins(read:MU!)

me,the undecisive girl :)

Just SAY if you MEAN it!

From 1 hot news to the other,

1 sizzling gossip to the other,

1 bad day to the other,

1 avoidable argument to the other,

and the list just wont stop there, no signs of slowing down as obviously we can never expect what is going to happen in our life as we are talking.[or blogging] Wish I have the power to see the future, at least my future so that I can stop doing whatever it takes in order to avoid bad tudung days,moody peoples, or worst case scenario when is the time I will broke big time due to our shophaholicness! [Raven from Disney is my favourite when it comes to future prediction]


3 weeks without LOVE from home I guess have made me down a bit, we may look happy on the outside but who knows what is going on inside if not us ourselves.... T_T It comes with the territory I guess, its your wish to study away from home so just take and learn how to live with it!Face the world and dont weep like a baby!


I may not like 1 of those people who can just snap and throw tantrums to whoever they wants and the next second you know they are cracking some jokes with you but I do have the intentions of doing that everytime people showing some attitude problems. I try not to treat people with disrespect(throwing nasty attitude simply because you think you are right even the whole world know its WRONG). [its not stand for your right,its STUPID indeed!] Because I know I hate people who does so to me! I can but I just wont do that because my parents taught me way better than that.Most of the times when we are in the bad mood we tend to say not so good things or act in bad ways which we MAY regret later but I believe no one would say anything that we didn't meant to say!



And its absolutely true about 'respect & treat people like how you want them to respect you".



Once,1 of my bestfriend who is totally opposite from myself in the sense of short temperness had told me that as long as you can keep the monster inside you,keep it grounded there! It's really important to take care of the feelings people around you although sometimes you may suffer but atleast it can help you improve the level of patienceness. And somehow it shows how well you carry youself. I dont listen simply because she's telling me,I listen and try to follow slowly because I do really respect her.Most of the time I may take her for granted but deep down inside she is 1 the nicest human being I ever come across in my entire life so far.


She calmed me at times when I about to lose my temper. She guide me when Im about to go down the wrong path. She is the 2nd sister I never had. She somehow made me appreciate whatever I have in life more than ever. She's the angle side of me(if i ever had!) because we are completely different but we clicked right away since the 1st day.She is Siti Sarah Julgafli,or now better known as Sarah Joel. I never tell her this,but I know that she knew I LOVE her!


So,when you feel that you cannot take it anymore just think about great things in life that you have accomplished and more good things coming your way if you channel your energy and positive attitude towards them. Beacuse you are worth more than these stupid-wasting time-and happiness thingy-!

P/S : Thanks alot boys for having me during the MU match,really appreciate it to be the only rose among the torns!hahaha(",)

me,the dreamer who have forseen MU will win the game this morning!:)

ALERT : Confession Mode

Breathe in and out!I have foreseen this would happened!(Saiful's words!hehe)

I knew I would delay this confession as long as possible,the excuses: no right time,I was trying to tell you but you were too busy,no mood,etc. Who knows me better than me myself. But back to the reality world I have to settle this thing as soon as possible.You can stopped people from talking but can you make your head silence from asking loads of question.Reasonable ones I must say.

Listen!I want to tell you something,it may not worth a million dollars kind of secret but because you are among the important & beautiful pieces of puzzle in my life so you do matter for me :) If this going to be 1 of many sweetest memories in my life,I seriously want you to be part of it simply because you does matter in my life and those who mind about this thing doesn't matter.

I think I have developed a bit of nonjudgmental attitude each day started this year so I really hope you wont judge me like others are doing!

P.S : Dying to know the result of Chelsea v. Barcelona. Purposely didn't go to watch the game,waiting anxiously for sleepless night tomorrow as Manchester United is playing tomorrow against Arsenal. May the best teams win and give us a great game for final!GLORY..GLORY UNITED!

me,addicted to paper planes.M.I.A rocks! :)

How to start?

Its been almost 2 weeks I have this thing going round my head and heart. I wish I could just let it go.But its too burdening and I have no plan whatsoever or appropriate lines on how to kick start my 'confession'. Its not something wrong or illegal like murder or complicated like love thingy but still it takes my focus+energy+the cHedaness for quite some times now.


InsyaALLAH tonight everything will be settled. All the love gurus be prepared. You have no idea what is coming your way.


I miss my freelance adviser cum love guru in Poland & Sabah, cant wait for July to come :)



p/s : I really hope to know the readers from Italy,Germany and Arab Saudi who always drop by here.Just want to say hye & thanks for reading:)

me, who have broke some hearts :)

G.L.O.R.Y.

Last night/early morning my phone keeps beeping(my ring tone wasn't the normal beep..beep but just want to give you the picture) but i didn't even bother to open and read the messages coming in as was damn sleepy after a long-tiring-shop till you drop day. Yesterday was our historical day in Malacca so no classes and chill out all the way BUT only after we have discussed and divided our works for the assignments and presentation OK!Just to sound a bit responsibility kind a student. The bad part was that I haven't start searching for any materials yet!


Well the title of this entry got to do with the Manchester United's victory today!They qualified (as usual!) to the next round of UEFA and will be meeting Arsenal while for Chelsea; they will go against Barcelona. The messages from Afif,Kamil,Ady,and some other friends are enough to make me smiling all day long. They are my MU buddies, and once a MU's supporter we will always be one. Take my words!OTW to class, inside the lift Andy excitedly told me again about the news that I'm willing to hear again and again; Ronaldo scored the winning goal.As soon as I landed on the chair in the Criminal Law I class me and Saiful giving each other look /signs that we indeed proud we'r moving to next round.


Its my 10th year being a fan, and everytime I watch their game I will always remember among my early experience watching the Red Devils's legendary player (my favourite!) Ole Gunner Solskjaer a.k.a The babyface assasin. Seriously who can ever forget the magic moment when he scored the winning goals at the final game of UEFA 1998-1999 ,and they were against Bayern Munich if I'm not mistaken. My dad who is my football gang have been a great supporter when it comes to watching weekly games or go to stadium to watch games as well ( the 1st game I literally watch was when I was still inside my mother's tomb as my father is a footballer since old days)getting me MU's stuffs when he himself not a MU fan.


The phenomena I hate these days is that people tends to hate Manchester United for the reasons that of their greatness and capability of sweeping off away all the trophies that up for grab each season!Stop doing that because its obviously not done in sport spirit. Its more towards jealousness and for the sake of following the team that their bf/click/partner is supporting.Watch the games first girls that speak your mind!


With new talented+young faces coming out I really hope my team will stay GLORIOUS along the road and I wish more and more victory for us in the future and Old Trafford wait for me, I will for sure be there 1 day!

me,+ love my namesake 'MACHEDA' & will stick with MU forever :)

Cut it short

Yaikss!It takes me 59 entries to at last realized that I'm not just talk too much but write as many as if not much than what I've said in real life. Somehow it shows how slow things progressing lately, its not the age factor people!It's kinda bother me to read long entries as if I'm writing the whole screenplay of a movie.

I've planned to start to trimmed a bit all my words for each entries because the purpose is to write like what I used to do in my diary, which is absolutely not a novel or short stories!Well, we see how it goes as I cant promise when it come to stuff like this, I'm not an expert in shutting my mouth up so what makes I think I can possibly do this. I don't know how it goes with my writing after this.We'll see.

It's not a bad thing though for me.Either talk too much or write too many things. As they say there will never be too much in this world. One is too much but thousands will never enough.

Time to go, time for me to write as many words as I can before 5 pm tomorrow for the Torts assignment or else I'll be dead(Selen's words)

me,the girl with many things to talk about :)

I hate my-not-so-pretty-self!

When there are loads and tons of works need to be done that is when my laziness strike hard! It’s not an old habit as my middle name should be lazy after crazy after shopaholic, seriously. It just won’t go away and leave me alone. Sometimes I’m wonder where the hell I get this trait because it certainly did not runs in the family except for certain son in the family!*evil me-mocking-the not so little brother- of mine*

* Instead of looking for and finish the stuff I need to pass up next week & the weeks after (4 tough assignments lining up!) I busy filling my time listing up stuffs I want to buy/get/won before I turn 21 in couple of months (",)

* Instead of completing the Publicity & Public Relations letters, works as well as the sponsorship thingy I went out and explore my city (Shah Alam) as if I’ve been away for years. The places of RRCM(Ronda-ronda cari makan) today were SACC Mall, Plaza Alam Sentral, Plaza Masalam, Ole-ole, Kompleks PKNS, and last but not least my favourite kedai mamak(which means more and more calories stuffed inside my stomach and every inch of my body!) The thing is that I missed driving so much that it’s like mandatory for me to drain the car tank before I left for Malacca. :p

*Instead of saving cash for our BIG VACATION early plan early next year, I’ve spent most of my money on DVDs/CDs(Hindi movies + Korean box set, books (non-academic), MU collector stuff, new casing for my 5300, accessories replacing the old ones, foods and more foods plus the stupid-money wasting-stuffs like the Princess bag! Why owh why! T_T

*Instead of preparing for the final exam of this semester which around the corner says our tu-to lecturer (her around the corner means 3000km for us! hehehe) I’ve spend quite a quality time sketching/drafting my 1^st movie. Nothing has been finalized just yet as it too early and too many uncertainties need to be clear. And because of that I need to watch more movies, I love it! Watching movies made me content, but will turned sad the day after when I know I’m going to die (like Selen’s always said!) with the untouched works!

* Instead of not thinking of someone I keep thinking of that person and the question, and the offer and the possibilities and the outcomes and the future! Because I chose to.

me, the never so pretty girl :)

Keep humming...

This entry basically dedicated to my passion towards music, I love music so much that I seriously think what's life without TASHAN...hahaha, Joke…joke...Can’t help it! What I meant was what’s life without music. It will be damn boring and dull.

P/S : TASHAN means STYLE in Hindi, so I don’t expect everyone gets my joke but I know my girls will because it came about from a movie we watched together which we thought it was the worst movie ever made in history, but saved by SELAMAT PAGI CINTA which we seriously think deserved the award better! :p

Name it,BM, BI, oldies, hindi, etc. All kind of songs have been dedicated to me and I loved as well as appreciated it so much for at least they were thinking of me when listening to the songs. But I never really get to know the story behind each dedication, I mean what exactly the 'real' explanation behind them. I wish I knew because it well bring lots of different meaning/reactions as well as my journey in this life would/could be really different from what I had and what will I go through. They were dedicated by friends/buddy/acquaintances/or just by someone that I know during my voyage in this world so far. Somehow each of the songs remains special in my heart and will be continuing humming by my not-one in a million- voice for a very long time. So, thank you so much for all of them. Here the list so far :-

1) She will be loved by Maroon 5 : It was a huge hit and hot during my schooling days, when I was 17 to be precise and someone asked the DJ to play it for me with a short & sweet wishes. We girls really went gaga over it and keep talking about it till now. Kind of hate it, because we need to move on. There will be hundreds of songs waiting for us. xp

2) Aao na from Kyun?Ho Gaya Na : Yes, it is a Hindi song from a movie by Vivek Oberoi and Aishwarya Rai. Extremely sweet slow number, a ballade that makes you smile for the entire song. I don’t even think that the person dedicated this song to me ever listen or watch Hindi movies but he is sweet/kind enough to say I look like the heroine. T_T I know everyone will raise their hands for not agreeing with this, who cares! hahaha..Frankly speaking even I don’t like the actress.

3) Superhuman by Chris Brown feat Keri Hilson : I personally love this song, so when it came out and during the so called new-song-period someone said ; I dedicate this song to you because that’s how I feel about you. I don’t know whether to agree or not, but I do accept it because it is a very pleasant song to hear to. I never ask why though. My mistake I guess.

4) Akan tiba by Alif OIAM : At first as I don’t watch the drama(this song is the title song for ‘Rona Roni Makaroni’, a Malay drama at Astro) I don’t know the song when it was at its hype stage but my sister downloaded for me into my laptop. At first go I’d already fall in love with the song as it has this jazz/blues touch which is apparently my favourite. And when someone who also love the song dedicated to me I simply can’t refuse it can I?hehe...

5) Loving you by Minnie Riperton : Dedicated by a very good friend. Never knew about this song, I seriously thought it’s the latest song playing in the radio when being asked but get to know it’s from the year of 1975. Being a music lover makes me irritated sometimes when I have no clue which songs are they chattering about moreover when it was dedicated to me, because I always thought (POYO!) I should at least know about it. But now at least I can say that I’m ‘up-to-date’ in my time as that was way back before I was even born. The music is slow yet nice to listen to, and it has a new version remixed by Akon. Still prefer the old one though.

Whatever it is I'm happy that each song keeps a story that makes me happy with my life.

me, the sentimental lady:)

I am expecting a BABY sister :(

I always knew this will happen 1 day, if not now it will 1 day.

When you have a mother who have been in a career where compassion play an important role which is a nurse for 30 years and still counting and come about to be one that specialist in the field of pediatric, the love she have for kids are unimaginable. Furthermore when it comes to the not so lucky children in the sense of they don’t have any guardians or the one that are physical/mentally challenges kids.


So, last night when I got to know about having another little sister in my life, my heart completely shattered (drama queen! I know) but that’s how I felt, the feeling of you losing the balance of half space of peace and happiness in your life after the other half been destroyed the moment I had my brother 14 years ago. When my parents revealed to me that they are expecting another child, I was like… WHAT!!! It’s totally a jaw dropping moment!


Silence filling every inch of the room. No movement, no words exchange, I’m basically screaming from inside as my voice stuck at my throat.


Don’t get me wrong but at this age, a baby sister? Well, I am not that old ok! But, SERIOUSLY. Rather then thinking about my age, they should think about their age, is this the perfect stage of life to have another child? The answer is obviously NO!

While I’m basically gasping for air in order to set my mind on the right track back (after entirely losing it the moment the news delivered!) and give them a piece of my mind in a very mannerly way, I heard this very familiar song playing in the background…sounds like alarm from my phones then..


‘Adik,adik..bangun. Sembahyang subuh,” said Ayah who as usual waking me up in the morning. I just sat there for couple of minutes and finally breathe out a sigh of relief Owh,GOD! Lucky that was a dream, a nightmare I must say. The worst so far after the engagement ceremony I ‘WENT THROUGH’ last week!Hahahaha:p


P/S: I do love kids (just make sure they aren’t my little sisters) but somehow it’s always not vice versa, the same case when it comes to cats (that's why I'm scared of them!)

me, the dreamer :)

Religion & People : Muslim & Human

I don't normally lose my temper over small things,except for repeated annoyance if that can be considered as small! A lot of people around me knows that I'm not a hot temper kind a person but I am short tempered. But the moment a good friend of mine told me to read something on the net about something that we did last semester I completely lose it! Not for the nitty gritty thing but for the sake of standing in for what I think and believe is right and no one should question one's belief unless they have a face to face opinion to tell us.

So basically this post mainly is about the letter/comment I reply to someone out there. Someone who shouldn't be named because if that person wants me to know about what he/she has wrote then he/she obviusly had let me know about it and not let me getting to know about it from someone else. Ok,for those who's kinda confuse about the issue here, it's actually about those who have query about our position in this sensitive or taboo matter called religion. Here is my words to that someone:-

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Salam and hye there,

As a friend told me about your virtually ‘attack’ and I am here not as blogger as didn’t log in so I will write to you as a layman who pointing out my own point of views.

I am here not to defend nor do I want to take sides in your argument about the Muslim students who took part in the charity Christmas bazaar last semester/year. It just that I think I have the right in giving my opinion as a MUSLIM as well as a HUMAN in whole because friends are telling me about this and as I know them very well so I wont let outsiders judge us as easy as that.

First of all I think you have overlooked the entire situation without even giving us a chance in defending ourselves, if I'm not mistaken you are among the important people in the Usrah Institution right? So how could you talk behind our back and didn’t even bother to give us advice or a talk or two, not just because we are your colleague at University but your junior also. And if keeping that aside we are your sisters in the Islam perspective, so why don’t you just confront us and telling them what is better and what shouldn’t we do at that point of time?

Secondly, that charity event for your information was intended in helping a Malay/Muslim charity house; Pusat Penjagaan Kanak-Kanak Terencat Akal Melaka in Bukit Baru who's owner is a Malay/Muslim and also 2 others charity home. So if you think that the charity event was held to help non-Muslim charitable house then you are completely wrong. There are too many problems already in this world because of our attitude of tearing apart the people from the religions and not the opposite way like we thought all this time. By helping others from different religion doesn’t make us a lessen Muslim or Human neither it lessen our IMAN or AKIDAH, because KEIHLASAN HATI MANUSIA HANYA TUHAN YANG TAHU. So,renung-renungkanlah dan selamat beramal (",)

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me,tired of discrimination!:)

The Reader

Date: 20^th March 2009

Place & Time: TGV, One Utama, Damansara

Movie: The Reader

I never really write reviews publicly for movies other than the one which is Bollywood/Hindi based because that will be like hundreds as I watch a lot of movies despite of whatever its language is but this one probably is an exception because finally Kate Winslet won the Oscar for best actresses after several times nominations. I love her work, Ksya loves it, we all do actually but what takes the board so long to hand her the prestigious award. Since the 81^st Oscar ceremony I’ve been waiting eagerly for this movie to be premiere in Malaysia essentially not because of the story or whatsoever but to at least watched 1 of Kinslet’s many brilliant work as I never had the opportunity to watch even the legendary Titanic movie maybe for the age factor I guess.

I should try harder in reading between the lines as I realized the significant fact about this movie quite late for an expert amateur movie buff I am, but better late than never right. It was set up in the background of early 1950s at Germany, it were lovely and nice to see scenery and play and moving to the 80s and 90s in the USA. It was a very beautifully crafted movie about the love between the kid, Mchael Berg(David Kross when he was young and Ralph Fieness for the grown up ) and the woman, Hanna Schmitz without being exaggerated or vulgar about it; they displayed the affection and love in a very explicable way and the title of this film was chosen not for nothing as it reveal very vital information in every scenes.

I love the whole thing from the way they flaunt their love for the person to the reading material where they bring in the aged and well-known poem like ‘The Odyssey by Homer’ and the book ‘The Lady with Little Dog’ by Anton Chekov.

The rough road Hanna took was a disheartening choice for me to except it even just as a viewer because I as the hardcore romantic always prefer happy ending but this movie had the most horrible way ending one could imagine. But who ever said that life is fair isn’t it? The happily ever after is just rubbish and didn’t not existed in the real world, so wake up and be realistic. But how Michael live his life made me sympathy for him as no lover should suffer like he does and most importantly no person should hate love because they had been hurt before. One who have experienced it knows how it feels but even so we should endeavor in giving love a second chance(an advice for my self as well).

Nevertheless if you don’t have an open mind, the possibilities of having the feeling of obnoxiousness towards the main characters are very high.

me,trying to be a better reader :)

Slumdog Millionaire

Date & Time: 14^th March 2009, 3.20pm show.

Cinema: TGV, Capsquare, KL.

Movie: Slumdog Millionaire

After weeks or months of anticipation waiting to watch the much talked about this Golden Award, BAFTA and Oscar winning movie finally I’ve succeeded in persuading my 3 other very patient friends (thanks to Ksya, Pza & Iza for making my weekend sweeter other than because of the ronda2 KL thingy) who sweet enough to bear with my fixation of watching Hindi/Bollywood based movies and sitting in the cinema hall and enjoy the movie thoroughly! Although at 1^st I was very worry with what would be their reactions, whether they will be able to stand the 2 hours, can they survive watching a ‘hindi’ movie’ because for all of them this is their foremost experience and etc but luckily they all loved it so all the worries have been swept away.

In the beginning the irritating sounds of crying comes from a kid for the first 10-15 minutes was driving me crazy, I believe no one like to be disturbed when we are in the middle of something we love or something that we paid! I think no one does.

The story is as simple as about from poor to rich, from slum to sweet life of rich and famous and from NOBODY to SOMEBODY. But what makes the essence reliable are the great job in the cinematography and screenplay as we never experienced those things faced by all the slums kid from living and breathing their life at the worst slum in the Asia, trained to be a ‘professional’ beggar and begin to be expose to the world of drugs, prostitution and crimes at a very tender age. What may not very ‘exact’ mood for me would be the language using by the kids which is English, I mean like who would feel the real pain if they sounded so well educated but in the other hand that actually showed how they adapt with the world around them. The flow of scenes between in the studio of the quiz show and in the jail and back to the flashback were brilliant, awesome without taking so many times of our for the dance scenes they replaces it with nice background music for each incident and the rap by MIA, the Lathika theme as well as the Mausam & Escape theme are like top of my playlist now.:) A.R.Rahman is the brain behind it, again as usual! Other than the great performance by the kids, Dev Patel and his brother in the movie, I don’t think others deserved to share the credit not even Freida Pinto. In a way I glad Shah Rukh didn’t accept the offer of the host character which later played by Anil Kapoor because at this stage I cant picture him in a negative role, I mean not in that cheap way. Danny Boyle has nailed it by brought the book; Slumdog Millionaire known as Q & A by Vikas Swarup to a great movie, I’m in the middle of reading of the book but I can feel it featured more about the genuine slum world.

Hats off as the story was engaging from the word go till the end, even the end credit with the Jai Ho dance was a treat because people tend to skip those thing when it actually were the backbone for this great work of art of story telling. What should I write that haven’t been written, what should I tell that haven’t been told so basically I’d summarise my P.O.V as the audience/movie buff/wannabe director. The true color of India in whole have been showed, or portrayed without have to be a hypocrite and yet doesn’t lessen its values, dignity, and the great or white side of it. Although the film shows that there are always the grey sides of everything but we have the power to make decision between what is right or wrong! Never blames others for the outcome of your future life as that will not make your life easier or simpler.

me,the movie buff :)

Its that time again...

It's that time again,
Where same melody is playing in the background,
Head is spinning,heart is pumping insanely,
words are stumbling,mind is empty,
My mouth says no,never but,
My heart says give it a chance.

It's that time again,
When I doubt my doubtfulness,
I questioned my so called 'principles',
I avoid those looks,
And I delayed my decisions.

It's that time again,
Flashbacks keep coming,
They stay.

It's that time again,
I'm gasping for fresh air,
When they are actually everywhere,
It's not the problems nor the pollutions,
It's that tiny little thing called LOVE.

It's that time again,
Love bug struck again,
Where there were you,me and us.



me,keep humming MAROON 5's "She will be loved!"

In dilemma...

Now I truly understand why is it hard to make decision.Its not about making choice between a good one and a bad one but between 2 great things as well as 2 bad things. I'm in dilemma,seriously this not like the 1st time this thing ever struck me but it just that all this time I've been delaying some stuff,some decision that needs to take action because we are not growing younger by each day,no 1 does logically thinking except certain mr.Benjamin Button(dying to watch that movie,if not because the unwanted incident T_T)

What if we made a wrong decision and taken a wrong steps when we thought its the best could happened but it weren't?After what happened 4-5 years ago I just cant afford to take those tiny little wrong steps all over again,I may carry the burden all my life but what about them,my loved ones..arghhhh!This is when I pray that I could turn back times and enjoy life to the fullest like I did during schooling days.Though there were tons of problem but it seems like they swept in a second and it never ever put me in such a dilemma situation.

*Sigh* this is my 277 times for the past 3 days,there is something in my heart that need to be released out but just CANT..or maybe I just refused to do so!Who knows that maybe I capable of juggling 2-3 stuff at a times,or maybe I was just thinking too much when things actually not that hard as I thought they are,or maybe I just being NORMAL & should worry about it!Well I hope weekends at home will sure help me in deciding,or again..maybe I just should delay it! :)

me,confuse+dilemma+dizzy = tiny little thing called...

Music to my ears

When there are enough reasons in this world now days for people start fighting with each other or even bombing other nation as easy as A,B,C there is something that connect us no matter which walk of life are we from, the colour of our skin or even kind of upbringing we have during our growing years which is MUSIC. I am a very universal listener when it comes to music,just throw me any rhythm or melody from whatever language it is formed I can just enjoy it no matter if I don't even understand a word as long as it goes easy in my ears!It can be range from R&B,ballade,jazz(most fav!),rock,hip hop,etc.

We used to think and believe that(we still are actually!)the West won't recognized East talent no matter how hard we tried, how far we reach!They say the skies are the limit but even we reached certain level,we know for a fact that the power of entertainment industry which is belongs to the Hollywood won't stand up and applaud or give us some tokens of acknowledgment but this things is about to change when my favourite composer A.R.Rahman won 2 Oscars at the recent 81st award for Best Score and Best Original Song for the much talked about movie of this year,SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!Its about time for the man known as Mozart of Asia as well as India in particular and Asia in whole to received this kind of recognition for the great works they have done all this year!Its the perfect time for him to get his due!

I watched the ceremony as well as the after party shows at Oprah's,(cant stand the sight of her,move her body like the Bollywood dancers,haha)Jay Leno's,etc and the moment he performs is like everyone in the auditorium and world are singing our lungs out,call me DRAMA QUEEN if you want but what the heck that is what I was and am feeling even now!I love Dreams On Fire,Latiqa'a Thema and ofcourse Jai Ho(means may victory be yours,indeed it has!).I have always be smitten by the works by A.R.Rahman,from chaiyya chaiyya to kabhi kabhi aditi(which has been my ringing tone for the longest time ever,pza also loves it!).Kemo also loves Guzarish :) That speaks a lot right,because these people dont even listen to Hindi songs before, I mean not as avid as I am!:p

As a director wannabe I always searching or keen in watching good movies,Slumdog Millionaire(S.M) is 1 of it,but first I want to find the book 1st because its always been said that a book/script always sounds/picturised better than the screeplay or the acting itself. 'Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind' also in my list right now,thanks to Ranbir & Imran.Its a good year for me to learning new stuff as I did started few things already,I'll sum up later maybe after the 1st quarter of this year end.I will be 21 years old soon so its now or never.

p/s : Happy 21st Birthday to Kcot, wish we'll remain as crazy as we were before all of us turn 21 (",)

me,who love humming great music :)

FEMINIST or HUMANIST..

Nothing for the past fortnight give me that required boost of spirit to start writing a new entry for my blog except yesterday's article in NST,where as usual I was going through the EPL extra when I'm like so far way disconnected from the football world.Usually the longest time I skipped watching EPL games was like 1-2 weeks but this time around its been like 1 full month.All Red Devils supporters dont forget tonight Final Carling Cup!GLORY..GLORY UNITED!Well..well people that is not the point here,what I'm trying to focus on here is the article titled 'DIRTY TALK' where the interview was joined by the well known activist who are women btw as well have the privileges and opportunities to stand up for the women rights.

When we talk about helping out women why is it called feminist?Doesnt it sounds like we are hating the other gender to the max?When we are actually NOT,we just asking for what we deserved if not as much maybe more than the male are getting right now. When we have to still fighting for our own deserving rights sounds like we are not in that so called fast forward of the 21st century,does it?Why does people take women for granted when we are far more superior than men in terms of many ways,this is not my words but I quote in by reading and watching a lot of shows where men openly confessing this fact so what went wrong?In the real world as hard as its to believe there are actually numbers groups of people who volunteering working towards and for others women's independence without asking any renumeration,in now days scenario where money taking over love and materialistic seems as the IN thing it is hard to digest this fact isnt it?But believe me that work is as noble as a teacher or doctor,that is my personal p.o.v though :)

An activist or humanist will be a more appropriate choice for these brave ladies who when there is no one dare enough in throwing out their piece of mind these ladies come and speak their volumes up,when there is no support nor backup from the people that should do their job,they lend their shoulder and dedicated their time,money and energy in order to provide all those battered, hopeless and abandoned women but what do they get in return?Hatred and bad talking from the society,its easy to pointing fingers at others when what you do all this while is just sit and talk(mock is the right word I guess), if you think it is that easy well stand up and speak up your mind.Will you?Please do so! Im not perfect either but at least I'm trying my best to put my perspective in the same way of direction as their's.

me,not a girl not yet a women :)

What is wrong about being S.I.N.G.L.E?

This topic is been brought up mainly because all those people asking about why dO i named my blog the way I did.Simple,it defines me!Ok,sometimes about the sarcastic part I dont even realised it was there but friends are the one who always remind me(thats what they are for right?to make sure our feet planted firmly on the ground)how I deserved the 'Queen of Sarcasm's' title but being me I wont realised till the minute they say 'OMG/OUCH, you're being mean & sarcastic,AGAIN!'.For the 2nd part of my blog's title which is single,ermmm thats my status.Which part of it is hard to understand?duhhh~hahaha...

I strongly think when we have so many love in our life insyaALLAH we will never go wrong.But when we specifically talking about serious relationship it takes time,effort and physically&mentally prepared to be in it.Because we need to put as much dedication to nurture the love we get same as we did the time we're looking for it.I would love to stand by my opinion that there can never be a 3rd person who brings problem or put an end to a relationship,only when the 2 persons involved doesnt love each other anymore than is when the 3rd person issues will be created by them. As I wrote/describe myself in about me section Im a huge relationship phobic I've ever known so there it goes.A lot of people ( read : friends!) keep asking about my so called invisible boyfriend at every chance they have especially at our reunion or any hangout session but..I'll make it into a conversation so that you can get a glimpse what am I going through being a single lady all this time and its getting serious and hard being one these days.And below are some excerpts of the conversation faced by a single girl :-

On 1 not so fine reunion day...
friend : (after exchange warm hugs,air kissing,and all that this is the main question ask by most
acquaintances) hey cheda,whats up?OMG,u look slimmer compare to the last time we
met!(yeah,i wish!just added this 1 to make it more fiction.hahaha)

me : fine,tq but i know u just saying that*blushing*how r u?hows ur life?

friend : great,so u'r coming here alone?wheres ur bf?

me : (tersenyum malu T_T) then I say 'no lah,where got bf'

friend : u'r lying!no need to lie us lah.

me : (mocking them in my heart) "If u dont want to believe me better dont ask next time!"hahaha..then as usual the cunning me will change the topic in a heart beat and no one will ever realised that.

So far I have all the love I need for now,what about you?

me asking where is the love to the world?

MAYHEM is so the IN thing right now!

Sarah just said to us that the theme song in Spa-Q 2 is so like describing our situation right now and the title above have been my shout out at YM and MSN for the past 2 weeks.Ok,it may not be related but believe me as we go through it will.Hopefully.We are not fans of Datuk Siti Nurhaliza but we do love some of her works,and the latest one listed in our list.The song title is 'Cinta Padamu' and the lyrics are so perfect to fit this moment that I can used the phrase of art imitates the life of us,coincidently.I hate this feeling and this cold air that I've experienced before during our foundation days,but lucky as we can called it that we FLWbers stick together during ups and downs and through thick & thin especially Debob,Z,Fif,and us the Sweet Bunch & The Cots.Alhamdulillah,nothing till date can make us to be those we'r not fancy of in this life.Its not that before we dont fight and all that but we never give it a chance to become an insurmountable obstacle between us,we know each other very well to get affected by those old lame rumours.Really pray that this mayhem will go away.Far away!


me,who dont like this feeling anymore!

6th February 2006

Each year on this day made me wonder how good life will be if Nenek Jo still around :) Miss nenek every moment!3 years ago when she left us forever I thought that I will never be able to survive or move on but I guess I was wrong because who said once they are no more in this world they will be forgotten forever.Far at sight but really close in our heart:) I miss those days when we used to talk on the phone every Friday(since I was 5 because that is the time I discovered how easy to used the telephone,hehe),when we used to eat ice-cream every time we watch Hindi movies together(nenek introduced me the lime+vanilla ice-cream),and those moments we went to market and mocking the Apek who wouldnt give us cheaper price for pyjamas..Basically I miss every minute I've spend with nenek!When you are not coming from a big family like me,you will, believe me appreciate and cherish every and each relationship that you have in your life.But Im not saying that people who do have big family doesnt do that,it just that from my perspective for this past 20 years I do attached to people quite easily ONCE I know for sure I love them and they are among the best thing happen in my life.Im so dependent on my parents(ayah & along most of it) makes me feel that its hard to make it in this concrete jungle who doesnt give a damn about TLC when you feel down.That is why I love all my close friends very...very dearly!Thanks for bear with me all this time,Im just being me.hehe..Hope to be friends till......basically FOREVER!


me who missing Nenek & schooling days :)