Teach me the trick HOUDINI.

Foster The People - Houdini (VEVO Presents)

Don't call yourself a FRIEND of someone if the only thing you need them for is to know what's the latest gossips,who's doing what, why did they break up,and etc.You should at least start with 'How are you?'. That's very rude and cheap of you. Be very ashamed of yourself!



Not to care much about people would definitely be my top new year's resolution in 3 days.



Sometimes I just want to disappear.

Foster The People's music haunting my life for months now with their awesome tracks!Welcome to KL in 2 weeks!

Cheda the Crab

Lately so many people tagged me on zodiac posts, don't know why but I love reading to all of them. In summary we can see that most of them described Cancerian (and all other zodiacs) the same way using different words.We can't really believe on such things but even Datuk Dr.Fadzilah Kamsah has the same theory for all this zodiac thingy.This is just for fun because I like to regard myself as a true blue Cancerian in and out,lol.

Cancer Woman (22nd June to 23rd July)

"Have you met a Cancerian woman recently Are you a little confused as to what she really is - chirpy or somber or distant She is all of these and still, she is none of these. More confused A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are some of her mood swings only. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of that shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. A Cancer woman will never make the first move in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways.

This is because of two reasons, her shyness and the fear of being rejected. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too. This female has some secrets and she won't like your prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time. It is your attention and appreciation she is the most concerned about. A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a five-star hotel chef.

However, you will have to learn to live with her mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of the traits of her characteristics profile. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a two-year old baby.

You will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.. Cancerian women are quite careful with money. Neither will they be stingy, not totally extravagant. They have a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money or old buttons or empty jars. They also carefully save things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on their fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. Then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. Infact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.

They will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she knows this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked break and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again!"

Hard on the outside (MACHO GITU!), soft in the inside (bak kata budak2 skrg,'dalam hati ada taman'.Like seriously,euwwwww!).-Cheda the Crab- ♥

p/s: Fun fact; ironically I'm allergic to crab though.My lips will swollen so humongous (my sister said I look like black people/Ning Baizura when it happened!Racist kan?hahaha)once I eat them but that aint gonna stop me from doing so.

A girl.

A girl, no matter how many times she denies it,

she will always remember every detail,every moment,every piece of memories you've left her.

No matter how much she tries to forget, it will always be there.Always.

I'm not talented.

There's reason why we respect,love and look up to MALE/EXPERIENCED lecturers;simply because they won't entertained ASS-KISSERS!They are totally impartial and they are the real epitome of what a 'teacher' should be. YOU and your cronies should include in your teaching guidelines that we don't need to open our mouth in all freaking tutorial class and just be a YES MAN to all your ridiculous antics to get the high marks those undeserved people got.That will do to be your favourite student in this mean world right?!

Mode: The worst course marks in my 5 years as a law student,I mean for us who are not blessed with the talent of kissing a$$!!!

F: 'Sabarlah Cheda,sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar'.

Berusaha sedaya-upaya bersabar,counting backwards from 100..99..98..97..

Lazying theme song

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks

Final FINAL exam in 2 weeks. Notes and books still left untouched. Lazying around. Munching foods non-stop. Lepak-ing with gfs. Unravel a 1 year secret everyone wants to know. Looking back at the lovely pictures. Write an email thinking to press the button send but keep it in draft instead. Do it over and over again. 5 last papers that'll determine whether or not I can say bye-bye to MMU. Have not firm-hunting for chambering place. Planning for a vacation but a lone-ranger backpacker sounds almost impossible. One of the most stressful phase in my life so far. Weight issue. Size issue. Friendships issues. Heart issues. Trust issue. List of things to get brings to M.I.A.M.I (Money Is A Major Issue). Ahhh time to get things together and plan my future well. Ok,that sounds a bit too serious.LOL.

Forever young!

Straight from the heart...

Its an apology if you say it from here (while he's pointing to his heart).............silence.Tears.


It may takes years but once it come straight from your heart,we'll be here listening and forgiving.Till then don't give us fake hopes and faker (if there such word?!) sorries for acting like a bitch when you plan to continue doing so.Say sorry if you really mean it not because we want to hear it.

And they say sorry seems to be the hardest words,the same people who did wrong yet too ignorant to admit it.Shame on you.

Never Say Goodbye

The more people leaving and walk out of this life for the utmost ridiculous and unthinkable reason ever, the more I miss this song. Such a addiction back in 2006 during the time when I was doing my Foundation in Law (15kgs lighter,just so you know). Korean dramas was a big thing back then, new wave of phenomenon and now the K-Pop wavelength is stronger than ever it was before. Still love watching them but more selective nowdays and yes my drama box collection are getting bigger from day to day,newest addition to my collection is 'Lovers in Paris' and 'Smile Again' where both have my favourite Korean actor; oppa Lee Dong-gun ♥

The sad thing is you left us puzzled and never said goodbye :'(

Suck it up!

There will come a phase when you feel you are done being sad, crying your heart out and all the emo thing and suddenly there's a new fresh spirit pushing you towards happiness regardless whether it's your genuine feeling or not. We just need to suck it up, life is too short so be happy or else you'll regret the time you are wasting thinking about others' happiness when they don't even give a shit about your feeling nor do they respect your sincere effort.

At times when I feel bad in doing something I had to do half halfheartedly instead of willingly I do need to hear the 'harsh yet true' words like what I've heard today like 'Can you not be so weak?','Can you stop worrying about that person,that person doesn't even care about you so suck it up!','Sorry to say but you are such a cry baby,be strong woman!Nothing can be solved with that tears', and etc. Yes I know we can close our eyes so that we don't have to see the people we don't want to see but I can't just shut my heart to stop having the feeling I have. Its so not me, how I wish I can control my feeling and my emo-ness. Believe me I'm on the road towards progress,so for now I'm trying my best to suck it up! Funnily I have reached the phase where I don't feel like breaking down instead I feel like lets enjoy the final moments we have together. So yeah Cheda, you better suck it up!Every moment in my life reminds me to very special quotes that I learn from movies(hell yeah,I'm a movie buff!) or the series I'm addicted to(hell yeah,I'm a couch potato!A fat one indeed!) like this particular moment I like to quote Ellen Pompeo's ♥ role:

'There is a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn’t because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don't have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever' . -Meredith Grey,Grey's Anatomy-

Love will come through; it’s just waiting for you. I will love you even when I hate you.

Flashback........

We may think we left the past behind, but it has a way catching up with us. I'll face that in less than 10 days, whether I like it or not I have no choice but to suck it up. When we want to run far away, we are forced to confront our past. And the secrets that already deep buried will come back into the light, and then if we were strong enough we are able to move on . Yes, we all need to leave the past behind and move on towards the future and if we're lucky we will get help getting there. Life never stop to surprise me but yet still its surprising how much of difference 266 days can make.

Smile :')

Sadness gives me reason to put my Nat King Cole's playlist in the replay mode. No more tears at this moment so even though my heart is aching I'll try to smile.................................................

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile......................................................

Please stay by my side and smile with me :)

Unwanted souvenir

People have scars, at all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal history, proofs of their old wounds, most of all our old wounds heal living nothing behind except scars but some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry around and the pain is still lingered. What’s worst; between new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should have heal long ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us of where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future, that’s what we like to think but that’s not the way it is. Is it? Something we just have to learn over and over and over again. Scars are souvenirs we never asked for. Try getting used to having them at unforeseen times, believe me they aren’t going anywhere. But as they say, those that didn’t kill you will only make you strong but how long can we stand the pain? Because there’s no such thing as painkillers for our heartache. No, I’m not a bitter person I’m just feel like writing after seen how many scars we all have and after heard about a new wound that my good friend just got, I know how hurt you must feel. I do that’s why I hope yours will heal soon. Till that happens lets just all of us not to be that ‘clumsy’ because we can’t afford another scar, can we?

Don't make scars as your best friend; then again as if we have a say on this matter.

D76.

courtesy: NR.

Cosmo: 'There is a difference between love and like, wrong and right. Never forgive, if you're not ready to forget.'

Hopeless,stop trying.

No new news?

Reasons to avoid reading the newspaper nowdays, although (once upon a time) law library used to be one of our favourite lepak place where we can sit there for hours and read almost all the newspapers for the day while catching up with latest cases (liar) or gossips. Not any more when all the news keeps repeating themselves:

1) 1) More babies found! Either under the bridge, in the bush, etc. Kes buang bayi sangat2 teruk kebelakangan ini(like seriously!not that before we don’t have such cases but..), poor babies bitten by bugs, dogs, and some even were purposely drowned in the river. Don’t they ever heard about using protection? Do not bring innocence life to this mean world knowing they won’t be loved.

2) 2) More divorce cases. Not helping, scary.

3) 3)More girls (especially Malay, 99% of them I think) running away from home to follow their so called true love who they just known for like less than a month (most cases) Lombok guys. Come on lah, seriously why do we even need to bother and waste our money to help them when the government has been spread awareness regarding this issue for countless (millions!) times plus don’t your parents ever teach you not to trust a stranger? Malaysian are so kind-hearted, every time these ungrateful people start to crying out loud once facing trouble living ‘abroad’ we will start a fund to support their finance or bring them back.

4) 4) Some more divorce cases.*gulp* Where is the love people?

5) 5)More underage or unmarried girls carrying pre-marital pregnancy, which most of it lead to the first news above or was lead by another social issues or problems. And thanks to Melaka gov for starting a shelter or more like a school actually for those ‘unfortunate’ girls which provides education, and other necessity for life. Yes, parents did all they can in providing their children with all the learning they need which teachers or schools can’t provide but sometime we need to teach them the hard way, when they can get all the things easily where the space for improvement?

6) 6) More tragic bus accidents, more death and misery, all the images are so traumatize for some people. Yes, malang tidak berbau but all of us (who takes bus as main transportation going back to hometown) beg to all drivers please be responsible towards others’ life.

7) 7) More divorce cases, believe me! If you an avid newspapers’ reader you’ll notice this.

Filmfare anyone?