Unavoidable.

This is not the path of my choice,but I'll have to take the high road.
This is not my original plan,but I have to accept.
Sometimes you don't want to leave but sometimes you just have to learn how to.
Sometimes we want to stay,but sometimes we need to let go.
Don't make decisions when you're angry.
Don't make promises when you're happy.

Unforeseen circumstances.

Lights&colours

It's not always easy to speak your mind, sometimes you need to be forced to do it. Sometimes, it's better to just keep things to yourself, play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So you shut your mouth, keep your secret, and find other ways to keep yourself happy.They say the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity, it's probably true. But sometimes, it's the only way to stay alive.

All these lights and bright colours will only mean something if my words were taken at how sincerely I meant it.

Are we ready?

Months of anticipation at last coming down to the final 3 days!Planning for a wonderful Diwali this year since I've missed all the happiness and fun of Raya thanks to final exam.It shall starts with a date with my love ♥

Completely loving all the songs esp dil dara :)

13 years.

This date 13 years ago when I was just 10 years old, a movie which continues to be my favourite ever movie until today was released.Since then KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI has joined the league of my ultimate love stories and KARAN JOHAR has me as his loyal fan for life.I personally think he is the best debut director Bollywood ever produced with 10 Filmfare awards in that year.Try to beat that!I fell head over heels again for Shah Rukh that time,and no doubt Kajol remains as my one and only favourite actress from the Indian fraternity.There's nothing that I dont like about the movie,absolutely nothing because from my eyes KKHH is perfect to the T.From my bias judgement this is an epic love story considering the fact I still can watch it again and again although I've watched for only God knows how many times.


With this I'm ending this entry with the most endearing quote that I love from the first time I heard Rahul said it in the movie;


"Hum ek baar jeete hai ek baar marte hai shadi bhi ek baar hoti hai aur pyaar...ek hi baar hota hai"

Tum nahi samjoghe,aaj bhi kuch kuch hota hai ♥

God is Great.

I just don't want to leave this place,to be back in the concrete jungle where everything moves fast,everyone in a hectic life,and every single things cost you. I hate packing luggage and unpacked them all over again, I rather stuck in this island forever and living my Hawaii Five-O kinda life,because it seems so wonderful here.Everywhere I turn I cant's stop saying MasyaAllah because he is the great painting of these breathtaking scenery.1 day when I start making my own money I would love to travel to all the beautiful islands. I'm always in awe of the sea's creatures, there are so many beneath it that drive the curiosity out of me every time I'm in the middle of it.

There's a life underneath the sea,so much to discovered:)

I'm a BIG girl.

Emilia- Big Big World

The reason why Mix.Fm is my favourite radio station regardless of the fact that they keep changing their djs and contrary to popular belief that they were designed for middle aged people is simply because they play the tracks which bring good old memories to me every time I tuned to them. This song transported me back to the year 1998,when life was so much more uncomplicated,and in 2011 I'm still listening to this easy catchy tune.I'm going to dedicate each verse of this song to the person who I wrote last entry of mine.

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

We never get to old to miss our friends :')

Just another story.

Finally eh you've hit that button. In real life you have already disconnected us for only God knows why so for me its just about time for you to do it in the cyber world, nothing to be shock of. Nothing to be regret of as I know it,you know it,we all know it that it was solely your choice.So don't blame us now when we are HAPPIER without you. Its been a wonderful journey knowing you this 5 years and like you said, wish we would know earlier but somehow you prove your words are just words and you take a sudden 360 degrees turn from all the beautiful things we had and act as if we never knew before. You left us just like that!(add a snap here) without a sign nor warning.Until the day I die I would never regret having you as 1 of my bestest friends ever but hey, again you've made up your mind and I'm pretty sure you are not going to change it anytime soon.I just hate it when you talk to someone every single day and then it just stops. And they leave you with no choice, clueless.


I'm just going to appreciate my life and the friends I have with me all this while and like what In-chan told me,'I believe there is nothing sadder than lose a friend, but lose a faith in yourself, is even worse, right? So don't let it affect u in any way'. Just remember one thing,I will be your friend if you need me, even if you've hurt me because I just can't bare the thought of being estranged from anyone I've always care about. Completely hate it,it's my worst nightmare.

LIFE GOES ON,AS IT NEVER ENDS. -BSB,SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY-

Boboy goes PLKN.

There was a phase in my life where I hated, despised, and detested my brother. Like SERIOUSLY. And now as we both grow up, nothing has changed much really. But being the wiser one I can say that now days I have slow down my role as ‘the mean bad elder sister’ and let him do all the thinking as what’s best for his life. That’s basically 1 of my mission this long break, to not to stressed up over petty things and keep calm even when I feel the need to jump on him and strangle him but I need to let go. As much as I’m over the moon about the calling from National Service(NS) there’s a tiny part in myself where I feel a bit worried about him handling the world outside, surviving among strangers and others since all this while we have provided him with almost every comfort an ungrateful brat ever wished for. Well I need to keep it positive, he’ll be fine I guess. He’s not a little boy anymore, he’s like 6 feet something, 3 times my size, and all his big talks come in handy now that he has the chance to prove he is capable of taking care of himself. I know my parents are damn worry too although they show a sign of happiness that their little boy is now in a mission to serve the country (exaggerate!) but deep down inside I just pray and hope that he will become more responsible (as if he is all this time!) and grow up to be a kind son who respects his parents and treat them like how normal children will do. That is my only wish.

I wanted so bad to join PLKN during my time but too bad I wasn’t selected!

As Destiny's Child's Emotion playing at the background,here I am sitting with mixed emotions of what is my real feeling since I'm now(not official until final results come out)granted with this freedom of not being a student anymore.For the last 3 days since our last paper,I've been spending quality and wonderful time with friends especially with my classmates of colourful characters from the special small batch January intake of 2008.Each and everyone of 31 of them leave footprints in either good or bad way in my life,I'm glad I know them but more blessed to have them as part of my family for the rest of my life.I barely sleep this past 3 days and that explains the record of 17 straight hours of sleeping today.Wake up with headache but with the same emo feeling of leaving this place,my room looks like a hurricane has hit it with junks all over the place.4 years of memories in this huge room,some to keep,some to give away and some are meant to be thrown away in order for me to keep moving forward.My view on Melaka in whole changed dramatically as I'm about to kiss farewell and goodbye,maybe the curse,the anger,the dissatisfaction towards this place is solely on reason of that we've been away from home heaven home but truthfully its actually a nice place once you explore it with people you love.

Less than 6 hours I'll reach home after a month but again less than 24 hours I'll leave it again for ME time,seriously need time to just chill and breathe and shall starts the process the thought of what's my plan for future.Not just important but I'll used this opportunity to come clean and say whatever been in my heart for the last 4 years with them.When these people been with me through thick and thin therefore I should be honest with them,that's the least I can do.Sadly our early plan could not be carried out due to some unfortunate events took place in between times but as long as we're having great time together who cares where we spend it together right.Back from vacation I'll have to settle a lot of delayed appointments,won't be home most of the time,really hope as new semester kick off I'll be home and just be with my family doing nothing.With hope that I would not be a student anymore at that time.Amin.Can't wait for Boboy's exam to finished so that we can have our family's vacation,feels like forever I've not meet them so hope everything's going to be fine.Until then,let's continue with this packing.Its raining heavily now,same goes in my heart as each notes,stuff,gifts,etc I'm packing has its own piece of memory.

Thank you for everything Melaka;especially life experinces which I'll never gain anywhere else:')