Straight from the heart...

Its an apology if you say it from here (while he's pointing to his heart).............silence.Tears.


It may takes years but once it come straight from your heart,we'll be here listening and forgiving.Till then don't give us fake hopes and faker (if there such word?!) sorries for acting like a bitch when you plan to continue doing so.Say sorry if you really mean it not because we want to hear it.

And they say sorry seems to be the hardest words,the same people who did wrong yet too ignorant to admit it.Shame on you.

SRK meets SIN Part II.

24 hours of chasing finally paid off, although Jurisprudence was always at the back of my mind being the last final paper for this semester. When we are too excited we tend to do something we forgot that we shouldn't or cannot do, I almost texted someone out of conscious before a scream from outside waken me up. I completely forgot I lost the right, regardless of less one more person to share every tit bits of happiness took place in my life I gained 9 new friends. Pictures are taken from my own red hot Sony (grow older when it becomes slower and slower, really need my own DSLR) as well as courtesy of the willingly sacrifice himself for our happiness ; Fahad, and the talented and good looking director wannabe, Nirmal.

Shah Rukh Khan with the DON's get up; ugly wig and the stubble Look rough and tough eh? Biceps some more this time, macho to the max!

Thanks to SRK's head of security's Mr.Yusuf, he kept his promise. He was indeed touched by our preserverance and determination.

SRK while signing MY picture!

Leaving for shooting at Penjara Sg.Udang,Melaka.

Classic SRK in black and white mood.

I can feel and see how exhausted he is at that time, regardless he still spent some times for us.

With the dashing director cum actor and great singer, the Akhtar's gena is obviously in Farhan.

The man who makes it possible for us to watch DON in Malaysia.

Macho DON look.

Suave criminal look.




Boman is such a funny and humble star.



SRK.Enough said.

This date last year.

How fast time flies, tell me about it again and again and like the rest of us I’ll never get tired listening to it nor will I do anything to change my habit of procrastination . They say I’m good with dates, numbers, and in remembering every little event that occurred in my life but the truth is I’m not. Because it doesn’t take me that much effort to remember all that stuffs, all of them are in me so they come out automatically. They are all stored at the back of my mind so all it needs is just a reminder or a déjàvu and pop! This date last year, 1 t-shirt, 1 drama, 1 argument, 1 accusation, 1 friendship and 1 big change have stirred my life.

1 t-shirt: It took me by surprise; mini heart attack was this close (while doing the finger thingy)! They say it was too soon, they gave me the look, they say it won’t last and what did I say? Does it matter now? I don’t think so because I guess they know better than me back then and maybe even now.

1 drama with a pinch of argument and an accusation: It takes two to tango; well it takes a group to do a bhangra. An unnecessary drama driven by an unnecessary argument created by unnecessary accusation, it all started with vague and confusing confessions lead to a terrible outcome.

1 friendship: To think of it people with shallow mind who attacked me using family, religion and race element just for the sake of talking bad and spread awful rumours about me does not deserve to be called a friend. I don’t think they even know what that means.

1 big change: Well, gain some and lose some. Gained awareness how to protect our privacy and the information that we display for public’s eyes in our social network page and lose the ability to judge people no matter how long have we known them, how deep we care for them and how sincere is our feeling towards them.

365 days in a blink :'(

We are.

Monster are real and ghosts are real too.
They exist inside of us, and sometimes we let them win.

Stephen King.

Each episodes of criminal minds taught me different side of people that we never knew existed. And what jealousy can do to us, we never know until a murder took place and a body founded. Creepy but it's true.

Loving Dr.Reid ♥

Wow!It's 19th Syawal.

Bak orang tua-tua berkata,'pejam celik dah besar anak-anak kita' and for young people like me(ahemm!) I prefer to say 'gila cepat dah hujung tahun!' or for short time flies really fast without we even realizing it.

Gosh,it feels like yesterday I started my degree and wallahh now final exam for my 2nd year 2nd semester ends already. It feels like yesterday we started our fasting month,and weehooo now we finished two-third Raya already.It feels like it was yesterday I was 40kgs and see now who's added extra 10kgs.And this weekend we might having a mini gathering with a friends whom last time I met when we were 12 and with the help of super-duper technology we met again virtually 2-3 years back and well well,guess who from shorter than all the girls grew up as a tall handsome guy(I really hope he'll miss this entry!).He's actually a year junior by age from me but we were in the same class.Never knew we would be such a good friend eventough we barely talk at school(as far as I can remember lah)

Seriously.We are 21?!People say we feel the time flies unnoticed because we waste most of our time but I strongly disagree as my whole life been filled with great,exciting,mind blowing stuff and will continue so.InsyaAllah.

None above are bad things as they happened at the right phase of everyone's life but..haihhhh...it just too soon I guess.Or maybe as usual I refused to accept that we are indeed growing each day.

Ok,enough talking about age[literally] its time for me to actually OFFICIALY start my Hari Raya Aidilfitri thank you to our final exam.Hope you guys are happy &smilling where ever you are. ^_^ Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin!

me,appreciate Raya to the max!:)

You will always be around.

Sometimes the smallest thing can change your whole life. Sometimes a stranger’s words make you realized what you worth of. Sometimes the loss of lives make you grasped the fact that life is indeed very short. I still remember the eve of our Independence Day 12 years ago when I was so young and like 20kgs lighter[that was not the point here] that was the 1^st time I think I’ve ever take a celebrity’s death in a disbelief or shock state. It was Princess Diana horrifying accident which bring to the tragic end of her life that actually make me cry while watching the funeral live telecast around the world, thanks to Elton John’s heartbreaking way of singing 1 of my favourite. This year basically bring back the memory of how I take the news of the death of person I’ve been admire either my whole life or just started in the middle or for the past 5-6 years. There’s not necessary the impacts have to be in a direct way.

Never admit that I was the biggest fan but I do love all MJ’s works, who doesn’t? His songs give inspirations to all walks of life. If 1 year ago I wrote an entry about how I adore her films and ads, how I would love to create even if 1 percent of what she did but now she’s gone leaving behind a great legacy which untouchable for a long time I believe. Yasmin Ahmad is (refused to used past tense) the best! And how irony can thing gets is as I just humming the song ‘Pergi Tak Kembali’ few days ago when this morning the shocking news left nation in depressing period as Ramadhan just around the corner and the fact that we will never listen to his beautiful voice for takbir on the eve of Raya. Al-fatihah to all of them,R.I.P!

p/s: condolences to Aamir & Kiran too who have lost their 1st baby.

me, hate gloomy news.

I am expecting a BABY sister :(

I always knew this will happen 1 day, if not now it will 1 day.

When you have a mother who have been in a career where compassion play an important role which is a nurse for 30 years and still counting and come about to be one that specialist in the field of pediatric, the love she have for kids are unimaginable. Furthermore when it comes to the not so lucky children in the sense of they don’t have any guardians or the one that are physical/mentally challenges kids.


So, last night when I got to know about having another little sister in my life, my heart completely shattered (drama queen! I know) but that’s how I felt, the feeling of you losing the balance of half space of peace and happiness in your life after the other half been destroyed the moment I had my brother 14 years ago. When my parents revealed to me that they are expecting another child, I was like… WHAT!!! It’s totally a jaw dropping moment!


Silence filling every inch of the room. No movement, no words exchange, I’m basically screaming from inside as my voice stuck at my throat.


Don’t get me wrong but at this age, a baby sister? Well, I am not that old ok! But, SERIOUSLY. Rather then thinking about my age, they should think about their age, is this the perfect stage of life to have another child? The answer is obviously NO!

While I’m basically gasping for air in order to set my mind on the right track back (after entirely losing it the moment the news delivered!) and give them a piece of my mind in a very mannerly way, I heard this very familiar song playing in the background…sounds like alarm from my phones then..


‘Adik,adik..bangun. Sembahyang subuh,” said Ayah who as usual waking me up in the morning. I just sat there for couple of minutes and finally breathe out a sigh of relief Owh,GOD! Lucky that was a dream, a nightmare I must say. The worst so far after the engagement ceremony I ‘WENT THROUGH’ last week!Hahahaha:p


P/S: I do love kids (just make sure they aren’t my little sisters) but somehow it’s always not vice versa, the same case when it comes to cats (that's why I'm scared of them!)

me, the dreamer :)

terkejutnya aku!!!

apa da jadi ngan sume classmate ku dahulu!!!i still cant believe what i saw yesterday..first of all i dont think me,myself change drastically since high school except for the weight i gain =) but this is too much because i barely know them anymore!!i feel relieved know that z,cva,ena,alya,and nard are still my gud frens because they are all what i ever need...tapi bile smlm aku tgk gmbr2 yg tersebar atau sengaja disebarkan oleh sesetengah pihak i juz feel damn shocked!is it the old frens i know..ape da jadi dengan drg yang dulu,yang selalu memberiku kata-kata nasihat tentang aurat,pergaulan,and stuff..WHAT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!where are they?!inikah yang terjadi bila ibu bapa jauh di mata dan kawan-kawan mengawal kehidupan kite..bila teman lelaki mengawas pergerakan kite?!if this what frens and bf for i think better i live wif my parents forever coz she's changing so much that i could'nt believe she is what she is!!i used to respect her for her life principle but now go to hell with all the crap talk..what i can say is that i hope she realised what she is doing and regret it before it to late..

i wish..=)

i never ever thought my life as a college student would be real tough like today..seriously, i meant it!when i was in school i always wished that i'll be a college student as soon as possible but now im wishing im back at school..I MISS SCHOOLING DAYS BADLY!there are millions of reasons why i want to go back to the past and top of my list is i miss all my good friends coz we had soooooooo much fun and is not that im not loving all the great friends i have now is just that all my classmate or school's friends know me well because we grow up together so they understand me better i would say. Not just that, i missed the fame i got back then not that im being chocky but almost everyone knew who is Saiyidah Izzati Nur because the good things not because the bad side, today i have to build back my image from bottom and its hard!!with position we can get a lot of things easier and its actually an advantage for a student because the principle,teachers, and everyone in the school being so nice to us so we go to school with a happy feeling as we know we will spend quality time there!and 1 thing about new friends is that they judge ourselves the second they meet us and that is so not cool..but not all of them just certain people!they made me feel that im the worst leader when im the best head girl, club's president,etc back then(as the teachers said,hahahaha)...and back then there are so little people that want to have problems with you,but now its totally different but all that actually help me a lot to grow up!

but back to reality where i am today, im really lucky to have such a cool bunch of new friends...we are at the same 'state of mind' if you get what i meant!i can always depend on them whereever,or whenever i need them!!ehmm, i guess i need to let go the past and live with the present with what i have now and what is coming in the future as good as i can handle it..so,bring it on coz if i can get through the ups and downs in my life for almost 19 years i bet i can face the next 20-30 years..touchwood!chow..