Firework.

Here I am with people I love the most, eating a pine of Baskin Robbins and watching extravagantly beautiful fireworks going on. We were never taught to celebrate New Year nor do I'm so into it as I grow up,so here we are outside our porch and witnessing the whole world(exaggerating) welcoming 2012. Have a great and blessed new year to all. Mari mulakan tahun baru dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Bye-bye 2011.After 1y3m4w still IMY.

Wrap up 2011.

Random-ness of 2011

Started this year with lovely experience wearing saree for the 1st time ever in my life,attending final law night. Although its not how I imagined my final law night would be but indeed it was 1 of those happy night I would always cherished. Met my favourite Quickie host;Adam Carruthers and can't believe I was 16 when 8tv officially hit the airwaves. Then gained 10 kgs,healthy lifestyle long gone since I'm back home which sadly give me reason to miss Melaka. Rendavous with Shah Rukh Khan for the 2nd time,stalked him at shooting scene (DON 2) in Melaka. It was in the middle of final exam for my 1st semester of final year, I can't believe I gamble my future for the love of my life.LOL.Made few nice and colorful personality friends from beautiful and unique background and stories. Survived 3 months of attachment at Khamdan & Co, blessed to have such guidance and colleagues. Went to few interviews and finalised to do my pupillage at Seah Balan Ravi & Co, hope everything going to be super fine. Attended my 1st ever concert with Ksya, believe me it was so hard but I fought for it since Maroon 5 is like the ultimate band crush since I was 14. Murah rezeki with all the contest I've joined, cash,concert tickets (Switchfoot, Maroon 5, Elton John, Pitbull, Far East Movement, Aladdin The Musical,etc) and stuffs.


In the middle of the year got to be part of the beautiful engagement of my friends; Saiful and Nik. 1st experience as well as a gadis pengangkat dulang, got to witness the real full ceremony Malay tradition of adat bertunang. Reject 3 propositions,not much to elaborate here. After 7 years I decided to leave Nokia for Blackberry, since the ambassador himself SRK did the same.hehe. At 23 years old, my father thinks I'm old enough to start using post-paid and no matter how sucks Maxis service getting each day I'm still choosing to be their loyal customer. Then the surreal world of mine Twitter, where I wish the people I adore are my buddies (psycho) and to actually have them replied is like so unbelievable considering million fans of theirs. Oh I love my fake doctors in Greys Anatomy, The Good Wife, Glee, etc and of course my Bollywood hunks and Hollywood stars. Not to forget Malaysia local stars. Head over heels.On the sports side, went for Harimau Muda Olympic qualification and damn I had goosebumps everytime Negaraku played in the stadium and thousands of us on our feet sing along. Accompanied The Blues biggest supporters to Chelsea Asia Tour.


I hit the bottom of emotion this year as I lost a dear great friend but God is Great, He replaced a better and awesome friend for me. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua yang terjadi and I hope to know the truth before I died. Then the biggest achievement this year I guess was the fact that I've graduated, after 5 years being a Law student.Alhamdulillah, now its time to start thinking and working my way up to pay all the debt to my parents. Apart from that I got to meet my favourite pair of bickering DJs Dilly and JD, after few times speaking on the phone that day when Lee DeWyze came to town to performed American Idol's first showcase here they recognized me and since then they call me every now and then. Another my not so famous moment is an evening jog with FaFau and she invited for a movie date. I feed my soul by going to more musical this year, although I won the tickets but prior to some engagement to law activities I had to missed The Sound of Music UK production as well as The Lion King and Wicked in Singapore.



As a Muslim nothing much can I be proud of but on the bright side I'm so grateful to be the chosen 1 to guide my dear Lulu to the path she's going now, tears will always be in my eyes every time this topic come out. The fact that she look at me as a role model really moved me inside.Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Besar.


Do new things; stupid disco roller skate, reckless car accident, stalked international celebrity, learn Spanish, develops interest in cooking, most extreme visit to dentist, performing medley dance infront of our own law student(traumatized for life), learned how to use some high-tech gadgets(for a noob like me everything seems like a high-tech,hehe), vacation to an island with friends, 1st time flying to the East, etc.

Bring it on 2012.

Inspiring.

I'm easily inspired by any great quotes that I heard or read from movies,books,songs,TV series,any person in real life,etc. 1 sentence can really change my life at certain point,yes that's how I am. I love watching movies that made us feel good about ourself once it ends, regardless how crappy our life can be at that particular moment. Good movies are those which can make you want to leave the cinema and start doing things you love, be a better person, achieve more, be positive about life and the list goes on. This movie buff learn anew thing today; I quote from 'New Year's Eve' : 'How would you feel if you know you wont failed when you do things that you love? Start do those things!' Its so true right,the fact is we are such coward that we always feel we are not good enough compared to others therefore we decided not to do things we love, even before we try it we predict we'll failed. This inspired me for a better year InsyaAllah, don't think too much just go for it Cheda! All Is Well! :)


You should try too.



Don 2, The Muppets, New Year's Eve, Songlap, Alvin & The Chipmunks, Mission Impossible 4 and Sherlock Holmes 2.All in 1 week,man I need to marry a cinema owner.Hahaha.

Teach me the trick HOUDINI.

Foster The People - Houdini (VEVO Presents)

Don't call yourself a FRIEND of someone if the only thing you need them for is to know what's the latest gossips,who's doing what, why did they break up,and etc.You should at least start with 'How are you?'. That's very rude and cheap of you. Be very ashamed of yourself!



Not to care much about people would definitely be my top new year's resolution in 3 days.



Sometimes I just want to disappear.

Foster The People's music haunting my life for months now with their awesome tracks!Welcome to KL in 2 weeks!

Do they?

According to our parents and every adults who have kids, they know best.Especially when it involving us, our decision in life, our choice of friends or partners, the way we dress and the list goes on. I won't argue with that but seriously if they keep saying they know everything when can we do our own mistakes and start learn from them? They can't keep they eyes on us forever right? Nor can they protect us from this evil world, but why does it seems like parents feel like they have the power and absolute control of our life. Things like this make me more not to ever have child because I believe everyone should have their own say of how they want their life to be. Yes, of course parents should guide when child starts to astray and things like this but sometimes I wish parents in Malaysia, or maybe Asian should try to let loose and trust their children a bit more.


Most of the time yes they will say to you that,'You think what's the best for your future and we'll support you no matter what' but once you made a decision they'll use this method called psychological reverse (like my mother) and make you question your own judgement, indirectly force you to change your mind and follow what they actually wanted you to do. It is our responsibility to make sure they are happy after all this years taking such great care of us but don't you think that's like more to emotional blackmailing people by reminding them what have you done and how they should pay you back? I'm just saying because as a 23 years old lady who's starting to sketch my journey of adulthood I don't think I've given a due that I deserved.



I wish I could practise my pupillage at either Adam Bachek & Associates or Dennis Nik & Wong but my parents are too worried and concern about my safety so I decided to accept the offer from the firm near my house. Its a great firm, they provided everything that I could ever wish for plus it was suggested by a lawyer that I trusted . I pray this coming 9 months I will learn as much as I could and pass with enough knowledge that could help me as a young lawyer. At the end of the day I wish whoever choice I'm taking I'll end up well and be able to make them proud of me 1 day soon.Amin.



This entry is inspired by a question that been lingering in my mind since people keep saying 'parents know best'. But do they?

I have the BEST parents any girl could asked for!

Controversy

You know right the recent controversy of our sponsored student abroad who married his gay partner, who still in debt with his sponsor and who has not contacted his family for almost 4 years?Yeah that guy, the same guy we are thinking. You should see and listen how my mother bombard this guy every time his stories making headlines in the local news, at first Malaysian feel sorry for his parents but after knowing the real deal people start to feel more sorry for them for have to face the society who got to know about their son's dirty laundry before them. Since the day this news hit the shore I been keeping quiet on the faith and religion issue as who am I to judge him or anyone who living and choosing this kind of lifestyle but deep down inside I've been praying to Allah to protect Muslim all over the world from this sin. Its scary how advance and liberal Muslims now days are.


While everyone from every single walk of life been criticizing him up down and sides I think there's actually 1 good thing came out of it and that is from now on every parents without being discriminative would give permission to their son/daughter and blessed them with their choice regardless whatever race they choose their spouse to be as long as they are not the same sex! Isn't that like the greatest thing ever? See there's always a silver lining behind those dark clouds. I think they should be from now on because this at least will protect one's faith when they are surviving the outside world far away from their comfort home where no one to tell them what is wrong and right, what is prohibited in our religion (as if we don't know but we do need that extra reminder every now and then because as we know manusia mudah lalai) and etc.



Think about it and you'll agree with me.

Say NO to discrimination against LOVE! :D

2 cents.

*Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams,its because that person misses you. This is according to psychological facts, there have been a studies on this.



*It really gets to me when guys coming to weddings wearing t-shirt,jersey,slippers or sandals. We don't expect you to dress up but a simple baju Melayu will do,its not that hard isn't it?Be a bit considerate when it comes to others' happy and big day, don't treat it as if its just another regular day.



*Don't use your parents' name, wealth and reputation to show off when the fact is we have not achieve ANYTHING!This is dedicated to all young drivers who committed hit and run cases and get off from law and enforcement just like that because who your parents are. Its unbelievable how down to earth the parents are, when they are the 1 who earns thousands and drives a 7 series. Youth now days been spoilt too much, seriously too much and yet they show no respect at all nor grateful with what they have. All they know is to show off and bragging to others about what they have when the fact is they are worthless! Not even a cent!

p/s: I will never forget you Mr.Mercedes driver and your plat no!Tak guna bawa kereta mahal-mahal tapi kesedaran sivik kosong!



*If you have a problem with someone tell that person and not the entire world who will eventually spread around and add some exaggeration to it and before you know it you let a priceless friendship down to he drain. People take advantage on others' vulnerability because we ourself let that happened. So whatever problem you have settle it with 1 baby step which is talk about it to the RIGHT person.



*From the age of 5 (literally), I've been training myself to not grow up into my mother. There's nothing wrong with her,she's perfect in any way that a woman would dream to grew up as and I would be lucky if I got to be at least half as great as her as a mother or even a fantastic cook! Its just that I used to be wondering why would women spend too much on shoes and handbags and remember saying to myself that I will never ever be like that but guess what,like Bieber said 'Never Say Never!' because I turn out to be exactly like that.I simple have fetish for handbags, they make me happy like seriously! Thank God I don't have my eyes on gold jewellery like she does,or maybe the time is not here yet.Lol.

Excited with the new look on our notes and ceiling in 2012 :)

Love On Top - Beyoncé

Janamdin Mubarak.



xoxo ♥♥♥

Unhappy endings.

Have you ever feel that everything falls in it place and everything goes as what you plan but at the end of the day you still don't feel happy when logically speaking you should be.There's something just missing but you can't figure it out, all day long you feel uneasy and you feel like screaming on top of your lungs but still the answer you're looking for is yet to make its appearance. At times like this I thought maybe He has the answer and we should just continue have faith and seek for His help. I always do daily/weekly list of things to do, even when I have already ticked all of them still I feel deep down inside there's something that should make it to the list but what? I guess I'm just too used to be around people during my normal days that now I'm alone at home without friends and I only got to meet 'meet' my family during weekends makes me feel empty and lonely, Wow I never thought I would make this an issue because before I'm looking forward to 'ME' time but now I learn that too much of it make me sick.



Talking about happiness,I'm a person who is realist rather than an optimist. When I watch a movie,drama,etc I will forever criticize why must they have a happy ending when the whole story from beginning is a total mess.I know how people love watching stories that end with happy ending but the fact is thats not the case in real life.A bad ending does not neccessarily means its over, it means we have another chance to fix it and make it works so why must we think so negative about it.This mostly has something to do with my addiction with the series 'Happy Ending', I'm totally digging this maniac bunch of friends which really makes me miss my friends so damn much!They are so crazy yet I feel connected with them, that so not showing I'm a maniac myself. When I thought I have already following countless numbers of series and can't afford to be an avid fan of another I proved myself wrong,AGAIN! There actually a moment or two where I thought 'what if' our life is like that series, could it work? Is it even possible? But like they say a person who have always see you as someone special would never wanted to be just friends so like Nikky said its the best option for everyone.


Try to be a jobless person for almost 2 months than you'll understand what I'm talking about. I have downloaded and watched almost EVERY series that I love until 1 point I think Hollywood should produce their new episode twice in a week rather than once. This is insane!I'm like literally attached with my couch and hard-drive. I have nothing to complain about,this is the only time I guess I'll have this amount of free time so enjoy while you can.

Uneasy feeling.

Cheda the Crab

Lately so many people tagged me on zodiac posts, don't know why but I love reading to all of them. In summary we can see that most of them described Cancerian (and all other zodiacs) the same way using different words.We can't really believe on such things but even Datuk Dr.Fadzilah Kamsah has the same theory for all this zodiac thingy.This is just for fun because I like to regard myself as a true blue Cancerian in and out,lol.

Cancer Woman (22nd June to 23rd July)

"Have you met a Cancerian woman recently Are you a little confused as to what she really is - chirpy or somber or distant She is all of these and still, she is none of these. More confused A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are some of her mood swings only. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of that shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. A Cancer woman will never make the first move in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways.

This is because of two reasons, her shyness and the fear of being rejected. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too. This female has some secrets and she won't like your prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time. It is your attention and appreciation she is the most concerned about. A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a five-star hotel chef.

However, you will have to learn to live with her mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of the traits of her characteristics profile. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a two-year old baby.

You will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.. Cancerian women are quite careful with money. Neither will they be stingy, not totally extravagant. They have a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money or old buttons or empty jars. They also carefully save things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on their fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. Then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. Infact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.

They will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she knows this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked break and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again!"

Hard on the outside (MACHO GITU!), soft in the inside (bak kata budak2 skrg,'dalam hati ada taman'.Like seriously,euwwwww!).-Cheda the Crab- ♥

p/s: Fun fact; ironically I'm allergic to crab though.My lips will swollen so humongous (my sister said I look like black people/Ning Baizura when it happened!Racist kan?hahaha)once I eat them but that aint gonna stop me from doing so.

A girl.

A girl, no matter how many times she denies it,

she will always remember every detail,every moment,every piece of memories you've left her.

No matter how much she tries to forget, it will always be there.Always.

I have something to tell you.

I still get those goose bumps and bad hunch every time they tell me, ‘I got something tell you, but 1st promise you won’t feel sad and gloomy like you always did before'. Most of the time I gave them fake promise because I badly wanted to know although I know I can't handle it and will get my heart broken into pieces all over again. The more I keep guessing the more it getting worse, so know what yeah just tell me whatever you guys have.I'll be ok...soon.

In another time,I'll make you stay..

What's in the pointer?

Here I am, after 5 long years of journey being a law student I end up on this hot chair of various interviews to get a place to do my Pupilage. I started pretty late since only in December I start eyeing for firms and stuffs compare to my friends who some of them already gaining experience for more than a month now, my philosophy is chill until the completion letter is out.LOL. This is another phase I can't wait to get over with and get on with my life, 1001 questions running in my mind right now of what will they expect from a fresh graduate. Will they test me solely on the education part or do they want to see how we carry our self, our confidence level or maybe like most of the stories I heard they will be most impressed with how a street smart survived in the real world.


That brings me to 1 thing that I regret the most for not be able to accomplished within my 5 years, you know when we done with school we listened to a lot of people who aim for 4 flat when they entered an University and so do I.That was 1 of my dream, seeing my own sister who was a JPA's scholar as well as later a TM's achieved that really drives me to at least tried my best but sadly I never get to fulfilled that because the truth is I'm such a procrastinator and I just have to be satisfied with my highest GPA of 3.78 and CGPA of 3.64. I was never the smartest in the class, nor the straight As student like I used to be in school therefore I just have to be grateful to finally graduated as a 2nd class student. I always envy few of my classmates in the special small batch, they are supersmart and they know how to divide their time smartly without jeopardize their future. I guess I'm a bit too late to regret all this but I will not give up from here.There are so much out there need to be discovered so I will not stop here. At the end of the day I like to believe and endorse to people out there, pointer might be crucial but it is not EVERYTHING that will decide how you'll shape up your future.Yeah I might sound like a loser who try to feel good about herself, but think about it and you'll agree with me.Don't feel down, there is still time for YOU to do your best!



Like they say,'Tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negara China dan hingga ke liang lahad' meaning there is no boundaries of where and until when you should strive for more educations.

December:Honeymoon period ends for this lazy fat couch potato,time to pull it together & get serious..Wish me luck people!

FAR EAST MOVEMENT.

Have an extra pair of tickets worth RM103 each,selling for RM70.Contact me here ASAP,thank you.


p/s: Those GENUINELY interested must be available to go to the concert by 7pm to collect the tickets at KL LIVE CENTRE and must meet me at SHAH ALAM before 3pm tomorrow.

Rocking DECEMBER :)






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