7 days in Ramadhan

Ramadhan always makes me happy and tranquil for the fact that :-

• I know whatever I'll be doing throughout this month is absolutely my decision and not affected by the devils' whispers so if I able to go deeds and avoid all the negativeness than I'll be content with myself for the whole year.
  

• The only month we 1 family sit and eat together, put aside all the works,busy&havocness of life and just enjoy our meal without any disturbance.

• Chances of doing as much as ibadah with no rushing and hoping to get rewarded with as many as pahala and forgiveness from GOD compare to other months.

• Time where I can meet and catch up with old friends as most of them coming home for holiday, most of my BFF studying outside the country so it feels good to meet the faces you familiar with after such a long hiatus.

• I would like to think I'm a bit softer and calmer in this month as each year during Ramadhan me & Boboy less or didn't fight at all(except at dining table as his old habit hard to stop!)

• Spend and talk less I guess, as we grow older nothing really excites me at the bazars we went every day compare to the years when we were little kids where we think all the kuih need to be on the table during berbuka when the fact is NOT! I try to safe money in this month so that we can shop nearly to raya as then when it'll have the craziest sale ever.

• And as they say this month is all about forgiving, as well as try to let go all the bad thing in the past. It will certainly help in giving you an exciting new phase of life as no grudge in your heart means no more stress.

me, have to let go the hope to get a full Ramadhan this year :)

Why are we the way we are? ♥

Why are we the way we are? ♥


We scared because others are,
We scared because others telling us to,
We scared because others' experiences,
We scared because we think others know best.


We think too much as there's uncertainty,
We think too much as there's doubt,
We think too much as there's hesitation,
We think too much as there's vagueness somewhere down the road.


We want to do it but afraid it might change later,
We want to do it but can't afford to make more mistakes,
We want to do it but small steps bring huge effects,
We want to do it but something wont let us to.


We lie for the fact to cover own feeling,
We lie for the fact we know we are falling deeply,
We lie for the fact that we know we'll be happy,
We lie for the fact we petrified with what the future holds.


We worried for all the wrong reasons,
We worried for no reason,
We worried for avoidable reasons,
We worried simply to find a reason.




me, the way I am!:)
0510am

You will always be around.

Sometimes the smallest thing can change your whole life. Sometimes a stranger’s words make you realized what you worth of. Sometimes the loss of lives make you grasped the fact that life is indeed very short. I still remember the eve of our Independence Day 12 years ago when I was so young and like 20kgs lighter[that was not the point here] that was the 1^st time I think I’ve ever take a celebrity’s death in a disbelief or shock state. It was Princess Diana horrifying accident which bring to the tragic end of her life that actually make me cry while watching the funeral live telecast around the world, thanks to Elton John’s heartbreaking way of singing 1 of my favourite. This year basically bring back the memory of how I take the news of the death of person I’ve been admire either my whole life or just started in the middle or for the past 5-6 years. There’s not necessary the impacts have to be in a direct way.

Never admit that I was the biggest fan but I do love all MJ’s works, who doesn’t? His songs give inspirations to all walks of life. If 1 year ago I wrote an entry about how I adore her films and ads, how I would love to create even if 1 percent of what she did but now she’s gone leaving behind a great legacy which untouchable for a long time I believe. Yasmin Ahmad is (refused to used past tense) the best! And how irony can thing gets is as I just humming the song ‘Pergi Tak Kembali’ few days ago when this morning the shocking news left nation in depressing period as Ramadhan just around the corner and the fact that we will never listen to his beautiful voice for takbir on the eve of Raya. Al-fatihah to all of them,R.I.P!

p/s: condolences to Aamir & Kiran too who have lost their 1st baby.

me, hate gloomy news.

18th june 2009

In Love with you.

With you beside me,
My heart sings a song,
Without you,
My music is gone.

If I have you with me,
I have everything,
If you're gone,
There's not a thing here.

To have you with me,
is to live a wonderful dream,
When you're around,
it feels like, I've found every joy,
When you're gone, happiness doesn't satisfy me.

It's my life that's asking...for you

When you're with me,
I can find my way,
When you're gone,
there is no path.

When you're here,
There is everything,
Without you, who's left,
If you're with me,
every moment is bliss.

When you're with me,
I feel even the breeze has the colour of love,
When you're gone,
life is without spirit,
When I found you,
I found life.


Tum Ho Tho, 18th June 2009.


me, love humming this:)