Yes or No?

You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone. And when it's time to act and you're all alone with your back against the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one telling you what you already knew. The one that's almost always right. How come I still don't have enough guts and courage to just go ahead and make that 1 decision, I guess I still need His guidance. InsyaAllah. Sooner or later I will have to choose 1 out of the 2 path.

Who knows it can be this hard?

Make things RIGHT.

At many times we tend to do mistakes in our life, one after another. At all times, it's whether we get hurt or we hurt another people we love. Mistakes change our life and the way we are, little by little. Often, we regret what we have done but seldom notice the changes. Eventually, those mistakes will strike again and we start to realize that we have not done with the past. It is then come the urge to make things right. That's when we have to revisit the past, recollect the pieces, fix the damages and make things right.

A new resolution which keep pending year after year is to lead a mistake-less life(of course it is impossible but looking at those which are avoidable) because I'm afraid there are people(our loved ones) out there experience unbearable hurt once we commit a mistake , when you have felt it you don't want others to suffer the same because it's killing you slowly.Emotionally.Tired of people who keeps regretting their mistakes but doing nothing about it(one of the finger pointing at me obviously). Tired also with those who replicating the same promise but no progress and yet repeat the same old mistakes and curse life, God, others for it. But not our own self.

Never say never and also it's never too late as people like to say so let's make things right.

New life mantra :)

Bad habits Part II

I hate myself for being able to spend like no body business even when I'm like super broke. What that phrase mean was, I do have the cash but it should be use for other purposes. Which is far important than spending it carelessly like water. I wish to change that(again!) in this new year. I hate the fact that everyone around me already have their own income(MOST if not all),yet me still receiving allowances from my father and sister and for the record I don't know(actually I think I know,the whole world knows.In denial!) why they never...never enough for me although I plan each time on how and what I should spend them on. Seriously I do. I'm a planner you see. When I'm a state of miserably broke especially when its holiday I tend to hate myself even more, its killing me when TopGear (we subscribe the magazine monthly) arrived at our home because I know I am not destined to own those hot rides! It requires damn hard work to even buy the cheapest ride in that mag, which is like *cryblood* Again it is really killing me slowly to go to the most happening motor show, and looking at all those beautiful rides and that is all I can do...for now. Its fine with me to not have the luxury to buy the best dresses, stilettos, jeweleries,vagera2 but being me since like forever I can already picture myself in a Porsche or riding a Harley so more than the high end fashion couture I want them more than anything so for now that's my mission and passion.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Ok I feel better now.

I have fetish for cars and bikes:)

A brand NEW YEAR.

I do have high hopes in this brand new year, especially for a happier life, to be a better Muslim and person in general, improve my performance in academics, personal achievement in various fields that I have passion for, financial wise as well as life in whole. In short the hopes are dedicated to me,myself. Its all up to me to make it work so InsyaAllah with a focused mind, prayers and hardworking I'll be able to achieve 70% of them. Salam Awal Muharram to dear all Muslims around the world, on this meaningful day lets us start it with the right step.

Doa Awal Tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam satu Muharram. Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan

dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan”.

Berikut adalah Doa Awal Tahun

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Amin to all wishes:)

Farewell my friend

We dedicated this for you dear Gemy;

We thought of you with love
Today but that is nothing new
We though about you
Yesterday and days
Before that too

We think of you in silence and from far
All we have now is memories and
Your picture in a frame,of our mind

Your memory is our keepsake
With which we'll never part
GOD has you in His keeping
We have you in our heart.

365 days have passed,
You are still being missed by all,
More than you, we need this,
Thee 30th November shall be our farewell day from now on
Because forever you will always remain part of Damai-ians.

With ♥ D.30th Nov 2010.

Sincere wish

"A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her." -So, be a good one in order to get better one. InsyaAllah. Amin.

I'm not a good person, yet.