Keep humming...

This entry basically dedicated to my passion towards music, I love music so much that I seriously think what's life without TASHAN...hahaha, Joke…joke...Can’t help it! What I meant was what’s life without music. It will be damn boring and dull.

P/S : TASHAN means STYLE in Hindi, so I don’t expect everyone gets my joke but I know my girls will because it came about from a movie we watched together which we thought it was the worst movie ever made in history, but saved by SELAMAT PAGI CINTA which we seriously think deserved the award better! :p

Name it,BM, BI, oldies, hindi, etc. All kind of songs have been dedicated to me and I loved as well as appreciated it so much for at least they were thinking of me when listening to the songs. But I never really get to know the story behind each dedication, I mean what exactly the 'real' explanation behind them. I wish I knew because it well bring lots of different meaning/reactions as well as my journey in this life would/could be really different from what I had and what will I go through. They were dedicated by friends/buddy/acquaintances/or just by someone that I know during my voyage in this world so far. Somehow each of the songs remains special in my heart and will be continuing humming by my not-one in a million- voice for a very long time. So, thank you so much for all of them. Here the list so far :-

1) She will be loved by Maroon 5 : It was a huge hit and hot during my schooling days, when I was 17 to be precise and someone asked the DJ to play it for me with a short & sweet wishes. We girls really went gaga over it and keep talking about it till now. Kind of hate it, because we need to move on. There will be hundreds of songs waiting for us. xp

2) Aao na from Kyun?Ho Gaya Na : Yes, it is a Hindi song from a movie by Vivek Oberoi and Aishwarya Rai. Extremely sweet slow number, a ballade that makes you smile for the entire song. I don’t even think that the person dedicated this song to me ever listen or watch Hindi movies but he is sweet/kind enough to say I look like the heroine. T_T I know everyone will raise their hands for not agreeing with this, who cares! hahaha..Frankly speaking even I don’t like the actress.

3) Superhuman by Chris Brown feat Keri Hilson : I personally love this song, so when it came out and during the so called new-song-period someone said ; I dedicate this song to you because that’s how I feel about you. I don’t know whether to agree or not, but I do accept it because it is a very pleasant song to hear to. I never ask why though. My mistake I guess.

4) Akan tiba by Alif OIAM : At first as I don’t watch the drama(this song is the title song for ‘Rona Roni Makaroni’, a Malay drama at Astro) I don’t know the song when it was at its hype stage but my sister downloaded for me into my laptop. At first go I’d already fall in love with the song as it has this jazz/blues touch which is apparently my favourite. And when someone who also love the song dedicated to me I simply can’t refuse it can I?hehe...

5) Loving you by Minnie Riperton : Dedicated by a very good friend. Never knew about this song, I seriously thought it’s the latest song playing in the radio when being asked but get to know it’s from the year of 1975. Being a music lover makes me irritated sometimes when I have no clue which songs are they chattering about moreover when it was dedicated to me, because I always thought (POYO!) I should at least know about it. But now at least I can say that I’m ‘up-to-date’ in my time as that was way back before I was even born. The music is slow yet nice to listen to, and it has a new version remixed by Akon. Still prefer the old one though.

Whatever it is I'm happy that each song keeps a story that makes me happy with my life.

me, the sentimental lady:)

I am expecting a BABY sister :(

I always knew this will happen 1 day, if not now it will 1 day.

When you have a mother who have been in a career where compassion play an important role which is a nurse for 30 years and still counting and come about to be one that specialist in the field of pediatric, the love she have for kids are unimaginable. Furthermore when it comes to the not so lucky children in the sense of they don’t have any guardians or the one that are physical/mentally challenges kids.


So, last night when I got to know about having another little sister in my life, my heart completely shattered (drama queen! I know) but that’s how I felt, the feeling of you losing the balance of half space of peace and happiness in your life after the other half been destroyed the moment I had my brother 14 years ago. When my parents revealed to me that they are expecting another child, I was like… WHAT!!! It’s totally a jaw dropping moment!


Silence filling every inch of the room. No movement, no words exchange, I’m basically screaming from inside as my voice stuck at my throat.


Don’t get me wrong but at this age, a baby sister? Well, I am not that old ok! But, SERIOUSLY. Rather then thinking about my age, they should think about their age, is this the perfect stage of life to have another child? The answer is obviously NO!

While I’m basically gasping for air in order to set my mind on the right track back (after entirely losing it the moment the news delivered!) and give them a piece of my mind in a very mannerly way, I heard this very familiar song playing in the background…sounds like alarm from my phones then..


‘Adik,adik..bangun. Sembahyang subuh,” said Ayah who as usual waking me up in the morning. I just sat there for couple of minutes and finally breathe out a sigh of relief Owh,GOD! Lucky that was a dream, a nightmare I must say. The worst so far after the engagement ceremony I ‘WENT THROUGH’ last week!Hahahaha:p


P/S: I do love kids (just make sure they aren’t my little sisters) but somehow it’s always not vice versa, the same case when it comes to cats (that's why I'm scared of them!)

me, the dreamer :)

Religion & People : Muslim & Human

I don't normally lose my temper over small things,except for repeated annoyance if that can be considered as small! A lot of people around me knows that I'm not a hot temper kind a person but I am short tempered. But the moment a good friend of mine told me to read something on the net about something that we did last semester I completely lose it! Not for the nitty gritty thing but for the sake of standing in for what I think and believe is right and no one should question one's belief unless they have a face to face opinion to tell us.

So basically this post mainly is about the letter/comment I reply to someone out there. Someone who shouldn't be named because if that person wants me to know about what he/she has wrote then he/she obviusly had let me know about it and not let me getting to know about it from someone else. Ok,for those who's kinda confuse about the issue here, it's actually about those who have query about our position in this sensitive or taboo matter called religion. Here is my words to that someone:-

..........................................................................................................................................................................

Salam and hye there,

As a friend told me about your virtually ‘attack’ and I am here not as blogger as didn’t log in so I will write to you as a layman who pointing out my own point of views.

I am here not to defend nor do I want to take sides in your argument about the Muslim students who took part in the charity Christmas bazaar last semester/year. It just that I think I have the right in giving my opinion as a MUSLIM as well as a HUMAN in whole because friends are telling me about this and as I know them very well so I wont let outsiders judge us as easy as that.

First of all I think you have overlooked the entire situation without even giving us a chance in defending ourselves, if I'm not mistaken you are among the important people in the Usrah Institution right? So how could you talk behind our back and didn’t even bother to give us advice or a talk or two, not just because we are your colleague at University but your junior also. And if keeping that aside we are your sisters in the Islam perspective, so why don’t you just confront us and telling them what is better and what shouldn’t we do at that point of time?

Secondly, that charity event for your information was intended in helping a Malay/Muslim charity house; Pusat Penjagaan Kanak-Kanak Terencat Akal Melaka in Bukit Baru who's owner is a Malay/Muslim and also 2 others charity home. So if you think that the charity event was held to help non-Muslim charitable house then you are completely wrong. There are too many problems already in this world because of our attitude of tearing apart the people from the religions and not the opposite way like we thought all this time. By helping others from different religion doesn’t make us a lessen Muslim or Human neither it lessen our IMAN or AKIDAH, because KEIHLASAN HATI MANUSIA HANYA TUHAN YANG TAHU. So,renung-renungkanlah dan selamat beramal (",)

..........................................................................................................................................................................

me,tired of discrimination!:)

The Reader

Date: 20^th March 2009

Place & Time: TGV, One Utama, Damansara

Movie: The Reader

I never really write reviews publicly for movies other than the one which is Bollywood/Hindi based because that will be like hundreds as I watch a lot of movies despite of whatever its language is but this one probably is an exception because finally Kate Winslet won the Oscar for best actresses after several times nominations. I love her work, Ksya loves it, we all do actually but what takes the board so long to hand her the prestigious award. Since the 81^st Oscar ceremony I’ve been waiting eagerly for this movie to be premiere in Malaysia essentially not because of the story or whatsoever but to at least watched 1 of Kinslet’s many brilliant work as I never had the opportunity to watch even the legendary Titanic movie maybe for the age factor I guess.

I should try harder in reading between the lines as I realized the significant fact about this movie quite late for an expert amateur movie buff I am, but better late than never right. It was set up in the background of early 1950s at Germany, it were lovely and nice to see scenery and play and moving to the 80s and 90s in the USA. It was a very beautifully crafted movie about the love between the kid, Mchael Berg(David Kross when he was young and Ralph Fieness for the grown up ) and the woman, Hanna Schmitz without being exaggerated or vulgar about it; they displayed the affection and love in a very explicable way and the title of this film was chosen not for nothing as it reveal very vital information in every scenes.

I love the whole thing from the way they flaunt their love for the person to the reading material where they bring in the aged and well-known poem like ‘The Odyssey by Homer’ and the book ‘The Lady with Little Dog’ by Anton Chekov.

The rough road Hanna took was a disheartening choice for me to except it even just as a viewer because I as the hardcore romantic always prefer happy ending but this movie had the most horrible way ending one could imagine. But who ever said that life is fair isn’t it? The happily ever after is just rubbish and didn’t not existed in the real world, so wake up and be realistic. But how Michael live his life made me sympathy for him as no lover should suffer like he does and most importantly no person should hate love because they had been hurt before. One who have experienced it knows how it feels but even so we should endeavor in giving love a second chance(an advice for my self as well).

Nevertheless if you don’t have an open mind, the possibilities of having the feeling of obnoxiousness towards the main characters are very high.

me,trying to be a better reader :)

Slumdog Millionaire

Date & Time: 14^th March 2009, 3.20pm show.

Cinema: TGV, Capsquare, KL.

Movie: Slumdog Millionaire

After weeks or months of anticipation waiting to watch the much talked about this Golden Award, BAFTA and Oscar winning movie finally I’ve succeeded in persuading my 3 other very patient friends (thanks to Ksya, Pza & Iza for making my weekend sweeter other than because of the ronda2 KL thingy) who sweet enough to bear with my fixation of watching Hindi/Bollywood based movies and sitting in the cinema hall and enjoy the movie thoroughly! Although at 1^st I was very worry with what would be their reactions, whether they will be able to stand the 2 hours, can they survive watching a ‘hindi’ movie’ because for all of them this is their foremost experience and etc but luckily they all loved it so all the worries have been swept away.

In the beginning the irritating sounds of crying comes from a kid for the first 10-15 minutes was driving me crazy, I believe no one like to be disturbed when we are in the middle of something we love or something that we paid! I think no one does.

The story is as simple as about from poor to rich, from slum to sweet life of rich and famous and from NOBODY to SOMEBODY. But what makes the essence reliable are the great job in the cinematography and screenplay as we never experienced those things faced by all the slums kid from living and breathing their life at the worst slum in the Asia, trained to be a ‘professional’ beggar and begin to be expose to the world of drugs, prostitution and crimes at a very tender age. What may not very ‘exact’ mood for me would be the language using by the kids which is English, I mean like who would feel the real pain if they sounded so well educated but in the other hand that actually showed how they adapt with the world around them. The flow of scenes between in the studio of the quiz show and in the jail and back to the flashback were brilliant, awesome without taking so many times of our for the dance scenes they replaces it with nice background music for each incident and the rap by MIA, the Lathika theme as well as the Mausam & Escape theme are like top of my playlist now.:) A.R.Rahman is the brain behind it, again as usual! Other than the great performance by the kids, Dev Patel and his brother in the movie, I don’t think others deserved to share the credit not even Freida Pinto. In a way I glad Shah Rukh didn’t accept the offer of the host character which later played by Anil Kapoor because at this stage I cant picture him in a negative role, I mean not in that cheap way. Danny Boyle has nailed it by brought the book; Slumdog Millionaire known as Q & A by Vikas Swarup to a great movie, I’m in the middle of reading of the book but I can feel it featured more about the genuine slum world.

Hats off as the story was engaging from the word go till the end, even the end credit with the Jai Ho dance was a treat because people tend to skip those thing when it actually were the backbone for this great work of art of story telling. What should I write that haven’t been written, what should I tell that haven’t been told so basically I’d summarise my P.O.V as the audience/movie buff/wannabe director. The true color of India in whole have been showed, or portrayed without have to be a hypocrite and yet doesn’t lessen its values, dignity, and the great or white side of it. Although the film shows that there are always the grey sides of everything but we have the power to make decision between what is right or wrong! Never blames others for the outcome of your future life as that will not make your life easier or simpler.

me,the movie buff :)

Its that time again...

It's that time again,
Where same melody is playing in the background,
Head is spinning,heart is pumping insanely,
words are stumbling,mind is empty,
My mouth says no,never but,
My heart says give it a chance.

It's that time again,
When I doubt my doubtfulness,
I questioned my so called 'principles',
I avoid those looks,
And I delayed my decisions.

It's that time again,
Flashbacks keep coming,
They stay.

It's that time again,
I'm gasping for fresh air,
When they are actually everywhere,
It's not the problems nor the pollutions,
It's that tiny little thing called LOVE.

It's that time again,
Love bug struck again,
Where there were you,me and us.



me,keep humming MAROON 5's "She will be loved!"

In dilemma...

Now I truly understand why is it hard to make decision.Its not about making choice between a good one and a bad one but between 2 great things as well as 2 bad things. I'm in dilemma,seriously this not like the 1st time this thing ever struck me but it just that all this time I've been delaying some stuff,some decision that needs to take action because we are not growing younger by each day,no 1 does logically thinking except certain mr.Benjamin Button(dying to watch that movie,if not because the unwanted incident T_T)

What if we made a wrong decision and taken a wrong steps when we thought its the best could happened but it weren't?After what happened 4-5 years ago I just cant afford to take those tiny little wrong steps all over again,I may carry the burden all my life but what about them,my loved ones..arghhhh!This is when I pray that I could turn back times and enjoy life to the fullest like I did during schooling days.Though there were tons of problem but it seems like they swept in a second and it never ever put me in such a dilemma situation.

*Sigh* this is my 277 times for the past 3 days,there is something in my heart that need to be released out but just CANT..or maybe I just refused to do so!Who knows that maybe I capable of juggling 2-3 stuff at a times,or maybe I was just thinking too much when things actually not that hard as I thought they are,or maybe I just being NORMAL & should worry about it!Well I hope weekends at home will sure help me in deciding,or again..maybe I just should delay it! :)

me,confuse+dilemma+dizzy = tiny little thing called...

Music to my ears

When there are enough reasons in this world now days for people start fighting with each other or even bombing other nation as easy as A,B,C there is something that connect us no matter which walk of life are we from, the colour of our skin or even kind of upbringing we have during our growing years which is MUSIC. I am a very universal listener when it comes to music,just throw me any rhythm or melody from whatever language it is formed I can just enjoy it no matter if I don't even understand a word as long as it goes easy in my ears!It can be range from R&B,ballade,jazz(most fav!),rock,hip hop,etc.

We used to think and believe that(we still are actually!)the West won't recognized East talent no matter how hard we tried, how far we reach!They say the skies are the limit but even we reached certain level,we know for a fact that the power of entertainment industry which is belongs to the Hollywood won't stand up and applaud or give us some tokens of acknowledgment but this things is about to change when my favourite composer A.R.Rahman won 2 Oscars at the recent 81st award for Best Score and Best Original Song for the much talked about movie of this year,SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!Its about time for the man known as Mozart of Asia as well as India in particular and Asia in whole to received this kind of recognition for the great works they have done all this year!Its the perfect time for him to get his due!

I watched the ceremony as well as the after party shows at Oprah's,(cant stand the sight of her,move her body like the Bollywood dancers,haha)Jay Leno's,etc and the moment he performs is like everyone in the auditorium and world are singing our lungs out,call me DRAMA QUEEN if you want but what the heck that is what I was and am feeling even now!I love Dreams On Fire,Latiqa'a Thema and ofcourse Jai Ho(means may victory be yours,indeed it has!).I have always be smitten by the works by A.R.Rahman,from chaiyya chaiyya to kabhi kabhi aditi(which has been my ringing tone for the longest time ever,pza also loves it!).Kemo also loves Guzarish :) That speaks a lot right,because these people dont even listen to Hindi songs before, I mean not as avid as I am!:p

As a director wannabe I always searching or keen in watching good movies,Slumdog Millionaire(S.M) is 1 of it,but first I want to find the book 1st because its always been said that a book/script always sounds/picturised better than the screeplay or the acting itself. 'Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind' also in my list right now,thanks to Ranbir & Imran.Its a good year for me to learning new stuff as I did started few things already,I'll sum up later maybe after the 1st quarter of this year end.I will be 21 years old soon so its now or never.

p/s : Happy 21st Birthday to Kcot, wish we'll remain as crazy as we were before all of us turn 21 (",)

me,who love humming great music :)

FEMINIST or HUMANIST..

Nothing for the past fortnight give me that required boost of spirit to start writing a new entry for my blog except yesterday's article in NST,where as usual I was going through the EPL extra when I'm like so far way disconnected from the football world.Usually the longest time I skipped watching EPL games was like 1-2 weeks but this time around its been like 1 full month.All Red Devils supporters dont forget tonight Final Carling Cup!GLORY..GLORY UNITED!Well..well people that is not the point here,what I'm trying to focus on here is the article titled 'DIRTY TALK' where the interview was joined by the well known activist who are women btw as well have the privileges and opportunities to stand up for the women rights.

When we talk about helping out women why is it called feminist?Doesnt it sounds like we are hating the other gender to the max?When we are actually NOT,we just asking for what we deserved if not as much maybe more than the male are getting right now. When we have to still fighting for our own deserving rights sounds like we are not in that so called fast forward of the 21st century,does it?Why does people take women for granted when we are far more superior than men in terms of many ways,this is not my words but I quote in by reading and watching a lot of shows where men openly confessing this fact so what went wrong?In the real world as hard as its to believe there are actually numbers groups of people who volunteering working towards and for others women's independence without asking any renumeration,in now days scenario where money taking over love and materialistic seems as the IN thing it is hard to digest this fact isnt it?But believe me that work is as noble as a teacher or doctor,that is my personal p.o.v though :)

An activist or humanist will be a more appropriate choice for these brave ladies who when there is no one dare enough in throwing out their piece of mind these ladies come and speak their volumes up,when there is no support nor backup from the people that should do their job,they lend their shoulder and dedicated their time,money and energy in order to provide all those battered, hopeless and abandoned women but what do they get in return?Hatred and bad talking from the society,its easy to pointing fingers at others when what you do all this while is just sit and talk(mock is the right word I guess), if you think it is that easy well stand up and speak up your mind.Will you?Please do so! Im not perfect either but at least I'm trying my best to put my perspective in the same way of direction as their's.

me,not a girl not yet a women :)