Merdeka Raya

I didn't plan to be this mean on this blessed and happy day but who can stop me from bragging about our big win against Arsenal?Its 8-2 ok,come on at least give me a week until next weekend's game. I missed the 1st 2 weeks' games since EPL kick started, I've already missed the Community Shield we won against Manchester City so I'm not gonna let this one passed by.Its so great to finally watching this young squad playing, De Gea gave me heart attack for letting the early goals but its understandable for goalkeeper to get used with English style of playing since in La Liga I personally think the game is a bit too fast and too many tricks played by the players. Its a wise bid Ferguson made to buy Young because that boy can surely scores, the decision to give away Welbeck as a loan player to Sunderland definitely pays back and the magic combination the rest like Smalling, Jones and Cleverly have is unbelievable and need to be witnessed by yourselves to know I'm not exaggerating. Its a nice feeling to be back home after so long,on the comfort of your couch, accompanied by your loud family members and watch your favourite team playing, and the icing on the cake was they win big!2nd history made by them after won 9-0 against Ipswich long time ago. And for Arsene Wenger, do something man! There are reasons why Fabregas, Nasri and the rest left The Gunners.Yes great players just want to play in the 1s squad of 11 but winning trophies boost their pride, confidence and price as well so start buying players especially defenders. This raya is just a simple one for our family, having so many things happened lately I'm just glad and grateful to be celebrating with my small family. Untill next time Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin and Happy 54th Independence Day to all Malaysians.

ManUtd lapan Arsenal dua,
Gembira hati tidak terkata,
Ramadhan hampir meninggalkan kita,
Menandakan Raya sudah tiba. :)

Have a wonderful holiday everyone:)

Bye-bye.

Ramadhan has come to its end,do I regret anything? Absolutely yes,being so caught up in final year's priorities limited my time to seek and gain more deeds.Nevertheless I feel very grateful to be able to go through this month with friends yet again. I'll always maintain that they are the extended families I never had ever. By far this year, 23rd Ramadhan as a Muslim really test my patient in terms of handling stress problems encountered left right and front which didn't give us signal before dropping by. Whether problems related with school matters,people behaviours,future planning,etc only 1 thing I've decided to follow which is to; 'Live without pretending, Love without depending, Listen without defending, and Speak without offending.' As long as we live our life with full sincerity, whatever judgmental perceptions people want to put on us let them be because we can't control what others want to think about us an we? Until next time,happy final night Tarawikh and drive safely to those who have left to kampung and have great time with beloved families.

With love from city girl :)

Let go.

Being nice to someone you hate or to someone who treats you bad doesn't make you a hypocrite but it shows you have matured enough and your parents have taught you well.Thanks, Alhamdulillah ♥

It's been a lovely weather this past few days,lets seek for Lailatul Qadar night.

5 years ♥

'Because when the sun shines, we'll shine together, Told you I'll be here forever, Said I'll always be your friend, Took an oath,I'ma stick it out till the end.'

That's a promise my friend, a promise we made 5 years ago under a rainbow coloured umbrella.You'll always be here in my ♥ whether you still are my friend or not. Just because you have left doesn't meet I'm not going to stay around..a bit longer. With the hope and continuous prayers you'll take a detour and come back.

Its raining but we are here to stay :')

I miss last Ramadhan:')

Its 5.00am, 13th day of Ramadhan. Here I am taking 5 minutes break from 1001 things of our heart-less PP curse ( I can't imagine how Nik,Angie, and other counsels are doing their tremendous heavy part compare to mine.), my last duty of balancing MULS’ account, outlines for all the assignments, daily chores, etc. It’s almost half way of this blessed month, yet I feel so empty. Now days its all about rushing. Rush to do research for our assignments, rush to finished the preparation for mock-trial, rush to completed my list of things to do before going back to home for Raya, rush to plan a lot of meet up with close friends cum family, rush to understand all the blur topics of each subjects, I’m even rushing from Tarawikh to house because my head just can’t let go the million things we need to get done. They even haunt me during my sleep. The promise I made to myself in becoming a better Muslim have yet to be fulfilled, I really hope the 2^nd half of Ramadhan will open up ways for me to spend more time in finding Lailatul Qadar. InsyaAllah.

It’s almost sound as if I'm always finding reason to blame our hectic schedule as a final year student, but I'm not. I'm not that old procrastinator anymore. It’s even impossible to take break and go home for berbuka puasa with family without feeling guilty abandoning the unfinished business in Melaka, we don't even have time to go out berbuka with friends yet like we religiously do every year since I've entered my Degree life, I miss those who have gone a bit more in this month maybe since I know we literally have no one anymore to visit on 1^st day of Raya. So I open that one songs’ folder which I hope could cheer me a little bit this cold, lonely morning. Raya songs' folder that is. The calls from Ayah and Mama since early this week until today make me sebak to the max, and the text from Along earlier made me sad, like depressed gloomy sad. Its true this coming Raya we don't really have anywhere to go. The life sad of a small family like us, that is why I can’t imagine how life would be if not for the 4 people I have in my life regardless how imperfect I am they always be there for me. How can one not have tears for moment like this? More than for stress of the works; burden I would like to blame these tears for the melodramatic lyrics of the Raya songs I’m listening right now.

It’s bizarre to think about the things that have changed from last Ramadhan till date, whether it’s for the better or for the worse both have impeccable effect on me for making the person I am today. Somehow this busy schedule give us the opportunity to forget for a little while about things we don’t wish to think, no matter how hurtful it is since you see the problem walks in front of you every day of our life but you just have to give your damn best not to think about it. We have tried our best, now the only thing we can do is tawakal and doa. If He wants to help us, He will. Maybe for now, this is for everyone’s best. Not in million years would I ever think that we would’ve end up here. Never. But yet I’ve been proven wrong. Never say never Cheda. I’ll always cherish all the great fond memories we had shared along the years, till the day I know what’s the problem, you shall always remain part of me. Forever. (Sigh of relief) Ok time to get back to work while waiting for Subuh azan. Life goes on. And ya nothing lasts forever so appreciate whatever you have today because you never know until when they’ll be by your side.

These moments were my BEST Ramadhan I had so far during my University life, I have no regrets meeting and knowing these great friends. Where ever they will be later in future I wish them all the happiness regardless we will be in each others' life or not at that time. Only love and prayers for them, nothing less.

p/s: Watching everyone busy doing shopping for their kids at the mall just now make me feels pathetic with my dull life that I went there only to by all the criminal evidence stuff, the 'BLOOD', zip lock bag for the evidence, etc. Haven't do any Raya shopping yet!

Raya songs mode ON. Sebak. Sedih. Terharu.

That moment when...

That awkward moment when...your non-Muslim friends confused whether to air kiss your cheek 2 or 3 times when we meet and hug.

That guilty moment when...you sing an inappropriate song in the Mosque,last Tuesday (and many times before) 1 song that is stuck in my head was OMG by Usher.I have this tendency of humming and singing songs that I hate,the moment I realised it I would say 'Damn,I hate this song..wth did I sing it!


That horror moment when...you wake up from a bad dream and feels like its really happened to you when you sleep, sweating, you feel scared, etc.But so sad the feeling was never the same with good dreams!*sigh*

That dejavu' moment when...you meet someone who says or do something that reminds you to a past situation,and all you did was stand there and try to think really hard when did this occurred until someone have to ask,'hey,are you even listening to what I say?'

That humiliating moment when...your mother still treats you like a 7 years old especially when meeting her friends,she'll order you to;'Salam aunty,cium tangan orang tua, cakap sopan2,etc' as if I won't do it if she doesn't tell me to.

That coincidence moment when...you called your lecturer and find out her caller ringtone is the song that you listen every night,Ms.As's is 'Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart' by Alicia Keys.Still love how she text me,referring me as Kajol.hehehe.

That sad moment when...all the thing you can think of in your lectures 'is 'my student life is coming to its end in few more days' and this feeling has been with me since 1st class in this semester.Yes I will miss my University life but at the same time I can't wait for that freedom of not facing some people who give you nothing but pain and troubles.

That panic moment when...you have so much on your plate that you have trouble to figure out which 1 should you chew first,with so little time I'm trying my best to balance my final year student life.I don't have extra time to juggle other things for now.Especially not another drama as I have enough slots right now,including the unwanted ones.

That confusing moment when...your friend changed into someone you can't recognized at all.It feels like you never know this person. Why and how that person changed is a mystery no one will ever succeed in unravel it.And that is when Keane's song 'Everybody's changing keep playing again and again in your mind.

That stupid moment when...you have a fight with your brother about some international football players from few leagues who have had affairs with women out of wedlock but end up with serious topic like religion and who's guilty when a man commit an infidelity. Until your father has to stop you and ask,'What this will give you?Will they pay you to take their side?'.

That irritating moment when...while you are doing your Tarawikh prayer and suddenly boooommMMMM!!!!! The boys outside the mosque were playing fire crackers,and instead of paying attention and khusyuk to your prayer all you can think of is; 'Kalau aku jumpa budak2 ni mmg best gile kalau dapat belasah dorang!Buat sakit jantung aku je tiap malam terkejut macam ni!' then you remember hat OMG its Ramadhan and you are praying for God's sake.There goes your pahala.

That childish moment when...all you can think of on a sunny day during Ramadhan is a swimming pool full of your favourite drink and you are swimming while drinking it.I know right! I have this crazy thing over Pepsi,its not that I drink it on regular day.I rarely drink any carbonated drinks except for when I go for movies.

That inferior moment when...you saw guys who wear skinnier jeans that you are!and they even prettier than girls,arghhhhh.Ok that's it.

Yeah,there are always moments that make you feel this and that but you can never say it out loud.

Positively patient

Even in this blessed month I dare to admit that I'm not a patient person, because I am although its getting better as year goes by seiring dengan penambahan umur (older and wiser). But I learn to be one now, that's how much I care about you.That's how much we care about you! Friendship always has its ups and downs, it taught us to be patient as well. Its not what you try to held back infront of your friends which might hurt his/her feeling but to control your self not to talk bad behind them. InsyaAllah I will keep my words and promise till the day I die, because they are family and as family members you just don't wash your dirty linens on public no matter how mad you are. As they say keep your words positive because your words become your behaviors. That's a great mantra for life. Yes it's true, you are not responsible for what people think about you but you are responsible for what you give them to think about you. All I can do now is to keep praying and have faith in God (Do dua for them and help them for Allah SWT's sake), that your ego won't stay up in your head as long as you wish it to be. I've tried all I can possibly do, we cannot possibly help the unhappy by being one of them plus my life is too damn wonderfully happy to think about you and the unresolved and unknown (mystery unravel!) issues all the time. I've said this before and let me say it again, giving up is not a choice and I refused to even to think about it until the day you realised your mistake and it will NEVER too late to say it out loud as we will NEVER judge you no matter what. Demi Allah, I meant each words I said. And now the attitude you are carrying with you reminds me to one phrase," Since Shaitan has been locked up in Ramadhan, all what we are showing now is our true colours.".



p/s: From 1 woman to another,(euwwwwwwwwwww!) Please women,do not blame the hormon for every single of your bitchiness!That's just plain heartless and selfish!


Insight of Ramadhan :When breaking fast & suhoor, Allah remind us in Qur'an, "Eat & drink: But waste not by excess, for Allah loveth not the wasters." (7:31)

Hikmah Tarawikh

Feels like sharing the hikmah behind each night of Tarawikh, every year I will look back at the book about the hikmah to remind myself of what I might be missing out of each night.Hope all of us granted good health to perform all ibadah in this month.Amin:)

1. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Pertama
Diampuni dosa orang-orang yang beriman sebagaimana keadaannya baru dilahirkan.

2. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kedua
Diampunkan dosa orang-orang yang beriman yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih, serta dosa-dosa kedua ibubapanya.

3. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketiga
Para malaikat di bawah 'Arasy menyeru kepada manusia yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih itu agar meneruskan solatnya pada malam-malam yang lain, semoga Allah akan mengampunkan dosa-dosa mereka.

4. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keempat
Orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih akan memperolehi pahala sebagaimana pahala yang diperolehi oleh orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat, Zabur, Injil dan Al-Quran.

5. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelima
Allah SWT akan mengurniakan pahala seumpama pahala orang-orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang di Masjidil Haram, Masjidil Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsa.

6. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keenam
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya pahala seumpama pahala malaikat-malaikat yang bertawaf di Baitul Makmur serta setiap batu dan tanah berdoa untuk keampunan orang-orang yang mengerjakan tarawih malam itu.

7. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketujuh
Seolah-olah ia dapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa a.s serta menolong Nabi itu menentang musuhnya Fir’aun dan Hamman.

8. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelapan
Allah S.W.T mengurniakan pahala orang yang bersolat tarawih sebagaimana pahala yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Ibrahim a.s.

9. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesembilan
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan pahala dan dinaikkan mutu ibadat hamba-Nya seperti Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

10. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesepuluh
Allah SWT mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.

11. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesebelas
Ia meninggal dunia di dalam keadaan bersih dari dosa seperti baru dilahirkan.

12. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduabelas
Ia akan dibangkitkan pada hari kiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya-cahaya.

13. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketigabelas
Ia akan datang pada hari kiamat di dalam keadaan aman sentosa dari sebarang kejahatan dan keburukan.

14. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keempatbelas
Malaikat-malaikat akan datang menyaksikan mereka bersolat Tarawih serta Allah S.W.T. tidak akan menyesatkan mereka.

15. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelimabelas
Semua malaikat yang memikul ‘Arasy dan Kursi akan berselawat dan mendoakannya supaya Allah mengampunkannya.

16. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keenambelas
Allah S.W.T. menuliskan baginya dari kalangan mereka yang terlepas dari api neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga.

17. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketujuhbelas
Allah S.W.T menuliskan baginya pahala pada malam ini sebanyak pahala Nabi-Nabi.

18. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelapanbelas
Malaikat akan menyeru: Wahai hamba Allah sesungguhnya Allah telah redha denganmu dan dengan kedua ibu bapamu (yang masih hidup atau yang sudah mati).

19. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesembilanbelas
Allah S.W.T akan meninggikan darjatnya di dalam Syurga Firdaus.

20. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh
Allah S.W.T mengurniakan kepadanya pahala sekelian orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang soleh.

21. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh satu
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah mahligai di dalam syurga yang diperbuat dari cahaya.

22. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh dua
Ia akan datang pada hari kiamat di dalam keadaan aman dari sebarang huru-hara pada hari tersebut.

23. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tiga
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah bandar di dalam syurga daripada cahaya.

24. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh empat
Allah S.W.T akan membuka peluang untuk dua puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

25. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lima
Allah S.W.T akan mengangkat seksa kubur darinya.

26. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh enam
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan pahala empat puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

27. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tujuh
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya kemudahan untuk melintasi titian sirat sepantas kilat.

28. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lapan
Allah S.W.T akan menaikkan kedudukannya seribu darjat di akhirat.

29. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh sembilan
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya pahala seribu haji yang mabrur.

30. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketigapuluh
Allah S.W.T akan memberi penghormatan kepada orang yang bertarawih pada malam terakhir dengan firman-Nya (yang bermaksud): Wahai hambaku!, makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang Engkau ingini untuk dimakan di dalam syurga dan mandilah kamu di dalam sungai yang bernama salsabil serta minumlah air dari telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. yang bernama Al-Kautsa.

Have a blessed Ramadhan :)