Firework.

Here I am with people I love the most, eating a pine of Baskin Robbins and watching extravagantly beautiful fireworks going on. We were never taught to celebrate New Year nor do I'm so into it as I grow up,so here we are outside our porch and witnessing the whole world(exaggerating) welcoming 2012. Have a great and blessed new year to all. Mari mulakan tahun baru dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Bye-bye 2011.After 1y3m4w still IMY.

Wrap up 2011.

Random-ness of 2011

Started this year with lovely experience wearing saree for the 1st time ever in my life,attending final law night. Although its not how I imagined my final law night would be but indeed it was 1 of those happy night I would always cherished. Met my favourite Quickie host;Adam Carruthers and can't believe I was 16 when 8tv officially hit the airwaves. Then gained 10 kgs,healthy lifestyle long gone since I'm back home which sadly give me reason to miss Melaka. Rendavous with Shah Rukh Khan for the 2nd time,stalked him at shooting scene (DON 2) in Melaka. It was in the middle of final exam for my 1st semester of final year, I can't believe I gamble my future for the love of my life.LOL.Made few nice and colorful personality friends from beautiful and unique background and stories. Survived 3 months of attachment at Khamdan & Co, blessed to have such guidance and colleagues. Went to few interviews and finalised to do my pupillage at Seah Balan Ravi & Co, hope everything going to be super fine. Attended my 1st ever concert with Ksya, believe me it was so hard but I fought for it since Maroon 5 is like the ultimate band crush since I was 14. Murah rezeki with all the contest I've joined, cash,concert tickets (Switchfoot, Maroon 5, Elton John, Pitbull, Far East Movement, Aladdin The Musical,etc) and stuffs.


In the middle of the year got to be part of the beautiful engagement of my friends; Saiful and Nik. 1st experience as well as a gadis pengangkat dulang, got to witness the real full ceremony Malay tradition of adat bertunang. Reject 3 propositions,not much to elaborate here. After 7 years I decided to leave Nokia for Blackberry, since the ambassador himself SRK did the same.hehe. At 23 years old, my father thinks I'm old enough to start using post-paid and no matter how sucks Maxis service getting each day I'm still choosing to be their loyal customer. Then the surreal world of mine Twitter, where I wish the people I adore are my buddies (psycho) and to actually have them replied is like so unbelievable considering million fans of theirs. Oh I love my fake doctors in Greys Anatomy, The Good Wife, Glee, etc and of course my Bollywood hunks and Hollywood stars. Not to forget Malaysia local stars. Head over heels.On the sports side, went for Harimau Muda Olympic qualification and damn I had goosebumps everytime Negaraku played in the stadium and thousands of us on our feet sing along. Accompanied The Blues biggest supporters to Chelsea Asia Tour.


I hit the bottom of emotion this year as I lost a dear great friend but God is Great, He replaced a better and awesome friend for me. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua yang terjadi and I hope to know the truth before I died. Then the biggest achievement this year I guess was the fact that I've graduated, after 5 years being a Law student.Alhamdulillah, now its time to start thinking and working my way up to pay all the debt to my parents. Apart from that I got to meet my favourite pair of bickering DJs Dilly and JD, after few times speaking on the phone that day when Lee DeWyze came to town to performed American Idol's first showcase here they recognized me and since then they call me every now and then. Another my not so famous moment is an evening jog with FaFau and she invited for a movie date. I feed my soul by going to more musical this year, although I won the tickets but prior to some engagement to law activities I had to missed The Sound of Music UK production as well as The Lion King and Wicked in Singapore.



As a Muslim nothing much can I be proud of but on the bright side I'm so grateful to be the chosen 1 to guide my dear Lulu to the path she's going now, tears will always be in my eyes every time this topic come out. The fact that she look at me as a role model really moved me inside.Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Besar.


Do new things; stupid disco roller skate, reckless car accident, stalked international celebrity, learn Spanish, develops interest in cooking, most extreme visit to dentist, performing medley dance infront of our own law student(traumatized for life), learned how to use some high-tech gadgets(for a noob like me everything seems like a high-tech,hehe), vacation to an island with friends, 1st time flying to the East, etc.

Bring it on 2012.

Inspiring.

I'm easily inspired by any great quotes that I heard or read from movies,books,songs,TV series,any person in real life,etc. 1 sentence can really change my life at certain point,yes that's how I am. I love watching movies that made us feel good about ourself once it ends, regardless how crappy our life can be at that particular moment. Good movies are those which can make you want to leave the cinema and start doing things you love, be a better person, achieve more, be positive about life and the list goes on. This movie buff learn anew thing today; I quote from 'New Year's Eve' : 'How would you feel if you know you wont failed when you do things that you love? Start do those things!' Its so true right,the fact is we are such coward that we always feel we are not good enough compared to others therefore we decided not to do things we love, even before we try it we predict we'll failed. This inspired me for a better year InsyaAllah, don't think too much just go for it Cheda! All Is Well! :)


You should try too.



Don 2, The Muppets, New Year's Eve, Songlap, Alvin & The Chipmunks, Mission Impossible 4 and Sherlock Holmes 2.All in 1 week,man I need to marry a cinema owner.Hahaha.

Teach me the trick HOUDINI.

Foster The People - Houdini (VEVO Presents)

Don't call yourself a FRIEND of someone if the only thing you need them for is to know what's the latest gossips,who's doing what, why did they break up,and etc.You should at least start with 'How are you?'. That's very rude and cheap of you. Be very ashamed of yourself!



Not to care much about people would definitely be my top new year's resolution in 3 days.



Sometimes I just want to disappear.

Foster The People's music haunting my life for months now with their awesome tracks!Welcome to KL in 2 weeks!

Do they?

According to our parents and every adults who have kids, they know best.Especially when it involving us, our decision in life, our choice of friends or partners, the way we dress and the list goes on. I won't argue with that but seriously if they keep saying they know everything when can we do our own mistakes and start learn from them? They can't keep they eyes on us forever right? Nor can they protect us from this evil world, but why does it seems like parents feel like they have the power and absolute control of our life. Things like this make me more not to ever have child because I believe everyone should have their own say of how they want their life to be. Yes, of course parents should guide when child starts to astray and things like this but sometimes I wish parents in Malaysia, or maybe Asian should try to let loose and trust their children a bit more.


Most of the time yes they will say to you that,'You think what's the best for your future and we'll support you no matter what' but once you made a decision they'll use this method called psychological reverse (like my mother) and make you question your own judgement, indirectly force you to change your mind and follow what they actually wanted you to do. It is our responsibility to make sure they are happy after all this years taking such great care of us but don't you think that's like more to emotional blackmailing people by reminding them what have you done and how they should pay you back? I'm just saying because as a 23 years old lady who's starting to sketch my journey of adulthood I don't think I've given a due that I deserved.



I wish I could practise my pupillage at either Adam Bachek & Associates or Dennis Nik & Wong but my parents are too worried and concern about my safety so I decided to accept the offer from the firm near my house. Its a great firm, they provided everything that I could ever wish for plus it was suggested by a lawyer that I trusted . I pray this coming 9 months I will learn as much as I could and pass with enough knowledge that could help me as a young lawyer. At the end of the day I wish whoever choice I'm taking I'll end up well and be able to make them proud of me 1 day soon.Amin.



This entry is inspired by a question that been lingering in my mind since people keep saying 'parents know best'. But do they?

I have the BEST parents any girl could asked for!

Controversy

You know right the recent controversy of our sponsored student abroad who married his gay partner, who still in debt with his sponsor and who has not contacted his family for almost 4 years?Yeah that guy, the same guy we are thinking. You should see and listen how my mother bombard this guy every time his stories making headlines in the local news, at first Malaysian feel sorry for his parents but after knowing the real deal people start to feel more sorry for them for have to face the society who got to know about their son's dirty laundry before them. Since the day this news hit the shore I been keeping quiet on the faith and religion issue as who am I to judge him or anyone who living and choosing this kind of lifestyle but deep down inside I've been praying to Allah to protect Muslim all over the world from this sin. Its scary how advance and liberal Muslims now days are.


While everyone from every single walk of life been criticizing him up down and sides I think there's actually 1 good thing came out of it and that is from now on every parents without being discriminative would give permission to their son/daughter and blessed them with their choice regardless whatever race they choose their spouse to be as long as they are not the same sex! Isn't that like the greatest thing ever? See there's always a silver lining behind those dark clouds. I think they should be from now on because this at least will protect one's faith when they are surviving the outside world far away from their comfort home where no one to tell them what is wrong and right, what is prohibited in our religion (as if we don't know but we do need that extra reminder every now and then because as we know manusia mudah lalai) and etc.



Think about it and you'll agree with me.

Say NO to discrimination against LOVE! :D

2 cents.

*Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams,its because that person misses you. This is according to psychological facts, there have been a studies on this.



*It really gets to me when guys coming to weddings wearing t-shirt,jersey,slippers or sandals. We don't expect you to dress up but a simple baju Melayu will do,its not that hard isn't it?Be a bit considerate when it comes to others' happy and big day, don't treat it as if its just another regular day.



*Don't use your parents' name, wealth and reputation to show off when the fact is we have not achieve ANYTHING!This is dedicated to all young drivers who committed hit and run cases and get off from law and enforcement just like that because who your parents are. Its unbelievable how down to earth the parents are, when they are the 1 who earns thousands and drives a 7 series. Youth now days been spoilt too much, seriously too much and yet they show no respect at all nor grateful with what they have. All they know is to show off and bragging to others about what they have when the fact is they are worthless! Not even a cent!

p/s: I will never forget you Mr.Mercedes driver and your plat no!Tak guna bawa kereta mahal-mahal tapi kesedaran sivik kosong!



*If you have a problem with someone tell that person and not the entire world who will eventually spread around and add some exaggeration to it and before you know it you let a priceless friendship down to he drain. People take advantage on others' vulnerability because we ourself let that happened. So whatever problem you have settle it with 1 baby step which is talk about it to the RIGHT person.



*From the age of 5 (literally), I've been training myself to not grow up into my mother. There's nothing wrong with her,she's perfect in any way that a woman would dream to grew up as and I would be lucky if I got to be at least half as great as her as a mother or even a fantastic cook! Its just that I used to be wondering why would women spend too much on shoes and handbags and remember saying to myself that I will never ever be like that but guess what,like Bieber said 'Never Say Never!' because I turn out to be exactly like that.I simple have fetish for handbags, they make me happy like seriously! Thank God I don't have my eyes on gold jewellery like she does,or maybe the time is not here yet.Lol.

Excited with the new look on our notes and ceiling in 2012 :)

Love On Top - Beyoncé

Janamdin Mubarak.



xoxo ♥♥♥

Unhappy endings.

Have you ever feel that everything falls in it place and everything goes as what you plan but at the end of the day you still don't feel happy when logically speaking you should be.There's something just missing but you can't figure it out, all day long you feel uneasy and you feel like screaming on top of your lungs but still the answer you're looking for is yet to make its appearance. At times like this I thought maybe He has the answer and we should just continue have faith and seek for His help. I always do daily/weekly list of things to do, even when I have already ticked all of them still I feel deep down inside there's something that should make it to the list but what? I guess I'm just too used to be around people during my normal days that now I'm alone at home without friends and I only got to meet 'meet' my family during weekends makes me feel empty and lonely, Wow I never thought I would make this an issue because before I'm looking forward to 'ME' time but now I learn that too much of it make me sick.



Talking about happiness,I'm a person who is realist rather than an optimist. When I watch a movie,drama,etc I will forever criticize why must they have a happy ending when the whole story from beginning is a total mess.I know how people love watching stories that end with happy ending but the fact is thats not the case in real life.A bad ending does not neccessarily means its over, it means we have another chance to fix it and make it works so why must we think so negative about it.This mostly has something to do with my addiction with the series 'Happy Ending', I'm totally digging this maniac bunch of friends which really makes me miss my friends so damn much!They are so crazy yet I feel connected with them, that so not showing I'm a maniac myself. When I thought I have already following countless numbers of series and can't afford to be an avid fan of another I proved myself wrong,AGAIN! There actually a moment or two where I thought 'what if' our life is like that series, could it work? Is it even possible? But like they say a person who have always see you as someone special would never wanted to be just friends so like Nikky said its the best option for everyone.


Try to be a jobless person for almost 2 months than you'll understand what I'm talking about. I have downloaded and watched almost EVERY series that I love until 1 point I think Hollywood should produce their new episode twice in a week rather than once. This is insane!I'm like literally attached with my couch and hard-drive. I have nothing to complain about,this is the only time I guess I'll have this amount of free time so enjoy while you can.

Uneasy feeling.

Cheda the Crab

Lately so many people tagged me on zodiac posts, don't know why but I love reading to all of them. In summary we can see that most of them described Cancerian (and all other zodiacs) the same way using different words.We can't really believe on such things but even Datuk Dr.Fadzilah Kamsah has the same theory for all this zodiac thingy.This is just for fun because I like to regard myself as a true blue Cancerian in and out,lol.

Cancer Woman (22nd June to 23rd July)

"Have you met a Cancerian woman recently Are you a little confused as to what she really is - chirpy or somber or distant She is all of these and still, she is none of these. More confused A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are some of her mood swings only. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of that shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. A Cancer woman will never make the first move in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways.

This is because of two reasons, her shyness and the fear of being rejected. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too. This female has some secrets and she won't like your prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time. It is your attention and appreciation she is the most concerned about. A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a five-star hotel chef.

However, you will have to learn to live with her mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of the traits of her characteristics profile. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a two-year old baby.

You will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.. Cancerian women are quite careful with money. Neither will they be stingy, not totally extravagant. They have a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money or old buttons or empty jars. They also carefully save things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on their fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. Then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. Infact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.

They will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she knows this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked break and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again!"

Hard on the outside (MACHO GITU!), soft in the inside (bak kata budak2 skrg,'dalam hati ada taman'.Like seriously,euwwwww!).-Cheda the Crab- ♥

p/s: Fun fact; ironically I'm allergic to crab though.My lips will swollen so humongous (my sister said I look like black people/Ning Baizura when it happened!Racist kan?hahaha)once I eat them but that aint gonna stop me from doing so.

A girl.

A girl, no matter how many times she denies it,

she will always remember every detail,every moment,every piece of memories you've left her.

No matter how much she tries to forget, it will always be there.Always.

I have something to tell you.

I still get those goose bumps and bad hunch every time they tell me, ‘I got something tell you, but 1st promise you won’t feel sad and gloomy like you always did before'. Most of the time I gave them fake promise because I badly wanted to know although I know I can't handle it and will get my heart broken into pieces all over again. The more I keep guessing the more it getting worse, so know what yeah just tell me whatever you guys have.I'll be ok...soon.

In another time,I'll make you stay..

What's in the pointer?

Here I am, after 5 long years of journey being a law student I end up on this hot chair of various interviews to get a place to do my Pupilage. I started pretty late since only in December I start eyeing for firms and stuffs compare to my friends who some of them already gaining experience for more than a month now, my philosophy is chill until the completion letter is out.LOL. This is another phase I can't wait to get over with and get on with my life, 1001 questions running in my mind right now of what will they expect from a fresh graduate. Will they test me solely on the education part or do they want to see how we carry our self, our confidence level or maybe like most of the stories I heard they will be most impressed with how a street smart survived in the real world.


That brings me to 1 thing that I regret the most for not be able to accomplished within my 5 years, you know when we done with school we listened to a lot of people who aim for 4 flat when they entered an University and so do I.That was 1 of my dream, seeing my own sister who was a JPA's scholar as well as later a TM's achieved that really drives me to at least tried my best but sadly I never get to fulfilled that because the truth is I'm such a procrastinator and I just have to be satisfied with my highest GPA of 3.78 and CGPA of 3.64. I was never the smartest in the class, nor the straight As student like I used to be in school therefore I just have to be grateful to finally graduated as a 2nd class student. I always envy few of my classmates in the special small batch, they are supersmart and they know how to divide their time smartly without jeopardize their future. I guess I'm a bit too late to regret all this but I will not give up from here.There are so much out there need to be discovered so I will not stop here. At the end of the day I like to believe and endorse to people out there, pointer might be crucial but it is not EVERYTHING that will decide how you'll shape up your future.Yeah I might sound like a loser who try to feel good about herself, but think about it and you'll agree with me.Don't feel down, there is still time for YOU to do your best!



Like they say,'Tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negara China dan hingga ke liang lahad' meaning there is no boundaries of where and until when you should strive for more educations.

December:Honeymoon period ends for this lazy fat couch potato,time to pull it together & get serious..Wish me luck people!

FAR EAST MOVEMENT.

Have an extra pair of tickets worth RM103 each,selling for RM70.Contact me here ASAP,thank you.


p/s: Those GENUINELY interested must be available to go to the concert by 7pm to collect the tickets at KL LIVE CENTRE and must meet me at SHAH ALAM before 3pm tomorrow.

Rocking DECEMBER :)






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Anger management

There was a time when Ksya always said I need to meet someone regarding my anger management issue,and that time I always stand up for myself in defence saying I didn't have any anger issue or whatsoever.I have a wonderful childhood, fabulous friends,amazing family and colourful life so where does this question even comes from? End up I'll always bash her up until she developed this syndrome which only physically abused kids had,I'm not kidding.This sounds funny,it does look funny every time I saw her funny face and gestures trying to avoid everytime I raise my hand even if its just for a soft touch.Think about it now make me gelak terguling-guling.At the end of the day most of them started to follow Ksya's hypothesis that I definitely having anger issue.Its really boiled me inside, sometimes counting numbers in my head does help me to cool down a bit, then I come to a conclusion that actually I'm just super duper easily irritated by people and a bit of short tempered.So since we just celebrated our Muslim's new year again I keep a resolution to train myself to be patient and like Ayah said everytime I had a fight with Boboy;'If its not true,why must you react and start a fight?' and like Nasy said,'People don;t change in a day' so both make me even stronger to strive for my goal.InsyaAllah.I don't need a heart attack at such young age do I.

Rise above hate.- John Cena-

Stalker

I don't care.I don't care.I don't care.You can say it out loud for thousand of times but who are we trying to lie?We know we care.

Lain kali jangan stalk orang. Padan muka dah sakit hati dan marah membuak-buak. Lain kali jangan stalk orang kalau tak boleh nak handle or face the truth(how to say this in Malay without sounds weird?)

Serve you right.Padan muka.Tidur dengan rase jealous.Ingat lain kali jangan stalk orang no matter how bad you wanted to know about the person.

Stalker is a pass time job for penganggur.

Rockstar

I was so young when Shah Rukh Khan stole my heart,considering the age I didn't have the opportunity to watch all his works on silver screen since I started going to cinema at a later age,16. So when my heart was stolen for the 2nd time by this charming lad named Ranbir Kapoor I made a promise that will never missed his performance(except when they did not enter Malaysia screening),ever!This movie marked our 7th date together, he never disappoints me.Love his intense,naive,young rockstar with a heart broken that need to be mend and how he fell head over heels for this classic looking new actress named Nargis Fakhri knowing he'll be hurt.What else should I say about AR Rahman's magic touch,his music for me is like the only melody which I find it difficult for anyone not to love regardless the language.Enter my ears and stays in my heart.Completely addictive and bravo yet again to its director,Imtiaz Ali.He knows human's relationship like no one else.In short I'm in love with Ranbir all over again!

Tend to be bias to people I love,so watch it yourself to judge:)

KTM.

When we are in a uncontrollable rage,we tend to think that we actually would/could do something about it. Until much later we realised nahh, I won't be able to do that simply because I don't the time,power nor the money.Sigh.

Like few days ago when I had to wait for 1 and a half hour for that darn KTM to reach my station,I cursed whoever responsible for that situation although for the fact I have no idea who is that WHOEVER. I wish 1 day there will be no more KTM and all of them will be replaced by LRT,Star,Monorel,Putra or whatever that moves way faster than that siput babi KTM.


Then when I had to literally fight for life to get into the ladies couch as if I'm running for gold in Olympic again I had this monologue that when I'm rich enough I will buy my own couch for every public transport.Then the reality hits me,'when you are rich,why the heck you want to buy a couch of train when you can afford a driver to drive you around?' Ya,its kinda true.


While waiting for my train I had successfully 'explored' New Delhi and Mumbai, I bought those 2 tour guide book at a store near me just to kill my time. Thanks to all the hours put together waiting for KTM my whole life I've been around the world for free.Yesterday I went to German and Hungary.


This is just merely ranting of a lady with anger over her country's public transport, talking about this actually reminds me how I drive my parents and friends crazy for the fact that I refer to every single type of train as KTM. Frankly, I never bother to know what's the difference.They all look the same for me.lol.

I need a chauffeur ;)

Concerts

Its that time again,back being a concert promoter.Those who are interested to buy a pair of tickets to Pitbull's concert on the 1st December for a way cheaper price as well as a pair to Sir Elton John's on this coming 22nd November worth RM760,selling for RM600 but still can be negotiate.Contact me at tanisha_shrek@yahoo.com :)

Its the time to....dance!

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Exact feeling.

When I thought there's nothing GLEE can do to surprise me after 1 great cover to another, I was yet proven wrong. When they announced the Adele's week I had a preconceived notion that it won't do her justice but oh man I'm wrong again.This is 1 of the best episode so far,I always have loved Naya Rivera and with this Santana Lopez is going to stay around longer.I hope.Its simply mind-blowing. An awesome 3 mash-up songs of all time!

"Rumour has it...sometimes in last in love and sometimes it hurts instead...The scars of your love remind me of us,they keep me thinking that we almost had it all,the scars of your love,they leave me breathless,I can't help feeling that we could have had it all...You had my heart inside your hand,and you played it to the beat."

Define ME.

People say the nicest things when you informed them about something good happening or just happened,but 1 of the best and memorable words that I don't think I'll ever forget is that;"Just promise you won't stop being the colourful bubbly person you are once you step to the real world,that's really define who you are".

I do really appreciate it.Thank you SZ.When one hates you,just remember there are 7 billions other people out there.

Being ME.

Last words

When I listed down all the lecturers' names who has taught me over these 4 years, those who made this Degree of Law LLB (Hons) possible, there are around 20 plus but unfortunately some of them have left to a better place and great offer so when I'm back to get stuffs done its just some sort of token of appreciation to meet each and one of them personally with little gift and express my gratitude and just kinda getting their blessing in embarking towards this new phase.It was indeed so much fun meeting and chatting with them, it may be for the final time,their last words were so motivating and inspiring.Among those we able to catch up were:



Mdm J: She told us what to expect from a chambering period,what type of firms should we apply for,how to prepare ourselves before applying.She also informed us that she'll be involved in our ILKAP training in February.

p/s:Gulppp,you tell me whether its a good thing or a bad one.



Mdm.G: For me she's the epitome of what a real sincere teacher should be.Its always a pleasure listening to her words of advice,she's so motherly.I have such a respect for her,and her thoughts of how should we deal with our career,life and everything in between.

p/s: She explained to us the new MMU exam system,I'm sad and pity for those who will be suffering from now on because it seems lecturers have lost their immunity completely in protecting and fighting for students' rights.



Mdm.F: The way she took a whole minute looking at us with that proud(I think so) smile,and a huge sigh of relief and that big hug I guess that explains a lot.Time do flies is basically the essence of our conversation that time.Also her 2 cents on how we should dealing with the outer world after this,and how to always keep ourselves grounded and always respects others with respect no matter how big we become 1 day.She even reminded us that she's no longer the Head of Law School,as if we don;t know that.hahaha.

p/s: I beg to differ with ALL my seniors who kept putting thoughts in our innocent mind since our 1st semester of how bad,fierce,and mean our senior lecturers are when they completely OPPOSITE of everything what we've been told.I'm glad all the senior lecturers remember the early years of us there.



Mr.G: The 1st thing he asked was,(he always does,since my 1st year) 'you always in a group of your girls,so everyone is graduated already?'.He also reminiscing our early years,what subjects he taught us,and wish us luck and words of advice.

p/s: Will miss those little things like his trademark of hair flipping and rubbing his stomach while talking to us.



Dr.MZ: Why didn't you reply all my comments in your FB?You saw my comments on your album,regarding Pikaia?I'm pretty sure your friends would love to know more about that,why don't you post a video on that and tag Ms.Atikah?

Me: Owh..ermm..about that sir,I'm sorry maybe I've missed that 1 because there are too many notifications.(I feel bad but I promise will reply it soon,and see how I use my charm to change the topic!Successful attempt,phewww) Sir,take care and don't miss us too much that you liked 16 of my profile pictures in 5 minutes.hahaha

Dr.MZ: Laughing here.That's a great punching line to depart.

p/s: I rest you assured sir,NONE in my friend list would love to learn about ANYTHING Jurisprudence-ly in FB.They might deleted me after a while.lol.



Ms.A: She's the best!We can talk about anything under the roof with her,even she has been with us since 1st year and she's definitely our unofficial counselor.Her room is our comfort zone,once you go in you never want to leave that room.Yes,its that good.She will be missed dearly,the most I personally think.

p/s: Her vacation plan sounds so great that its inspired me to work hard and saving!




Dr.M: The second I entered the room.'What's with that cheeky smile?What are you up to?'

Me: God,no.There's no cheeky smile.You always have something against me aren't you?We are here to day hi,asking how are you doing.So please be nice.(enter cheeky smile here,haha)Its been quite a long time since we sit down and catching up,the last time you were just Ms.M to me but look at you now we call you Dr.M.

Dr.M: Ya,its been quite a time.Last time you were so skinny in my class,what happened now?You look bloated?(Moment of silent.here where I ran to the corner of the room and cry my heart out!she's mean and its an ugly truth pun.How can you hate her,so witty) What have you been doing,stop lazying around and do something worth will you?

Me: I will once the letter is out,now I'm just enjoying doing stuffs that I don't get to do in the last 4 years.

p/s: She asked about further education planning,tell her once we decided where to go,long distance relationship,Shah Rukh Khan and Delhi,and lots more. More sarcasms later we departed,but it always a fun and rejuvenating feeling meeting her.



p/s:She definitely has been 1 of my favourite although I'm not to her,but only her sarcasms can match mine and she always has something to rebut back and thus our sarcastic sense is kinda compatible with each other,but of course everytime I had to back off because at the end of the day she is my lecturer and she was the one who gave me grades right.So,give her chance lah.lol.



All my lecturers play such an important role in my life,eventhough like 1 of my friend said that we actually paid for our education thus over appreciation is not necessary but by doing this really makes me feel good about myself and moving forward.Hope to meet them soon,not with the student title anymore but somebody title.InsyaAllah,amin:)


Signing off,
A graduated Law Degree student.

Impolite

I'm not normally an impolite person nor I'm rude(I think!except with family members that's a whole different story),so when I'm being one I realised it quite fast and apologize to those who concern but in some situations I just need to wear the mask and act like one in order to let other feels good about their self because they are indeed a good person. An advise from a wise friend of mine; in order to let go and make someone move on, we have to ignore them totally no matter how hurtful it can be, let them hate you for their own benefit and they will eventually depend less on their feelings towards you and slowly will focus on other things. And when they have come to their senses, they will then understand your intentions. That is my pure and only sincere intention. I'm sorry.

Let go.

All praise for HIM :')

There has been few happy occasions lately,especially the convocations of my girls.Although its not my turn yet but I'm indeed very proud and happy for all of them.They are my person,who always wish me well and pray for my success as well. It feels like just yesterday we were still in school,I grew up with these girls and I'm so glad and excited to get the chance to be there and shared their happiness on their convocation day.I'm blessed to share the warm love from their big family as well,congratulations again girls!Love you all and wish you all the very best with future undertakings :)

And Alhamdulillah,syukur Ya Allah after celebrated Along and Boboy's birthday yesterday.1st of November and my jaan Shah Rukh today I received the long awaited good news.Syukur again,after 5 long years I am now a Law graduate.Its a suspense final semester though,but I'm so grateful for His blessing and everything in between.It seems my 'work' starts tomorrow,hope I'll get through 1 phase at a time.Amin.

I wish all my friends the best in whatever they decided to do:)

Unavoidable.

This is not the path of my choice,but I'll have to take the high road.
This is not my original plan,but I have to accept.
Sometimes you don't want to leave but sometimes you just have to learn how to.
Sometimes we want to stay,but sometimes we need to let go.
Don't make decisions when you're angry.
Don't make promises when you're happy.

Unforeseen circumstances.

Lights&colours

It's not always easy to speak your mind, sometimes you need to be forced to do it. Sometimes, it's better to just keep things to yourself, play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So you shut your mouth, keep your secret, and find other ways to keep yourself happy.They say the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity, it's probably true. But sometimes, it's the only way to stay alive.

All these lights and bright colours will only mean something if my words were taken at how sincerely I meant it.

Are we ready?

Months of anticipation at last coming down to the final 3 days!Planning for a wonderful Diwali this year since I've missed all the happiness and fun of Raya thanks to final exam.It shall starts with a date with my love ♥

Completely loving all the songs esp dil dara :)

13 years.

This date 13 years ago when I was just 10 years old, a movie which continues to be my favourite ever movie until today was released.Since then KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI has joined the league of my ultimate love stories and KARAN JOHAR has me as his loyal fan for life.I personally think he is the best debut director Bollywood ever produced with 10 Filmfare awards in that year.Try to beat that!I fell head over heels again for Shah Rukh that time,and no doubt Kajol remains as my one and only favourite actress from the Indian fraternity.There's nothing that I dont like about the movie,absolutely nothing because from my eyes KKHH is perfect to the T.From my bias judgement this is an epic love story considering the fact I still can watch it again and again although I've watched for only God knows how many times.


With this I'm ending this entry with the most endearing quote that I love from the first time I heard Rahul said it in the movie;


"Hum ek baar jeete hai ek baar marte hai shadi bhi ek baar hoti hai aur pyaar...ek hi baar hota hai"

Tum nahi samjoghe,aaj bhi kuch kuch hota hai ♥

God is Great.

I just don't want to leave this place,to be back in the concrete jungle where everything moves fast,everyone in a hectic life,and every single things cost you. I hate packing luggage and unpacked them all over again, I rather stuck in this island forever and living my Hawaii Five-O kinda life,because it seems so wonderful here.Everywhere I turn I cant's stop saying MasyaAllah because he is the great painting of these breathtaking scenery.1 day when I start making my own money I would love to travel to all the beautiful islands. I'm always in awe of the sea's creatures, there are so many beneath it that drive the curiosity out of me every time I'm in the middle of it.

There's a life underneath the sea,so much to discovered:)

I'm a BIG girl.

Emilia- Big Big World

The reason why Mix.Fm is my favourite radio station regardless of the fact that they keep changing their djs and contrary to popular belief that they were designed for middle aged people is simply because they play the tracks which bring good old memories to me every time I tuned to them. This song transported me back to the year 1998,when life was so much more uncomplicated,and in 2011 I'm still listening to this easy catchy tune.I'm going to dedicate each verse of this song to the person who I wrote last entry of mine.

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

We never get to old to miss our friends :')

Just another story.

Finally eh you've hit that button. In real life you have already disconnected us for only God knows why so for me its just about time for you to do it in the cyber world, nothing to be shock of. Nothing to be regret of as I know it,you know it,we all know it that it was solely your choice.So don't blame us now when we are HAPPIER without you. Its been a wonderful journey knowing you this 5 years and like you said, wish we would know earlier but somehow you prove your words are just words and you take a sudden 360 degrees turn from all the beautiful things we had and act as if we never knew before. You left us just like that!(add a snap here) without a sign nor warning.Until the day I die I would never regret having you as 1 of my bestest friends ever but hey, again you've made up your mind and I'm pretty sure you are not going to change it anytime soon.I just hate it when you talk to someone every single day and then it just stops. And they leave you with no choice, clueless.


I'm just going to appreciate my life and the friends I have with me all this while and like what In-chan told me,'I believe there is nothing sadder than lose a friend, but lose a faith in yourself, is even worse, right? So don't let it affect u in any way'. Just remember one thing,I will be your friend if you need me, even if you've hurt me because I just can't bare the thought of being estranged from anyone I've always care about. Completely hate it,it's my worst nightmare.

LIFE GOES ON,AS IT NEVER ENDS. -BSB,SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY-

Boboy goes PLKN.

There was a phase in my life where I hated, despised, and detested my brother. Like SERIOUSLY. And now as we both grow up, nothing has changed much really. But being the wiser one I can say that now days I have slow down my role as ‘the mean bad elder sister’ and let him do all the thinking as what’s best for his life. That’s basically 1 of my mission this long break, to not to stressed up over petty things and keep calm even when I feel the need to jump on him and strangle him but I need to let go. As much as I’m over the moon about the calling from National Service(NS) there’s a tiny part in myself where I feel a bit worried about him handling the world outside, surviving among strangers and others since all this while we have provided him with almost every comfort an ungrateful brat ever wished for. Well I need to keep it positive, he’ll be fine I guess. He’s not a little boy anymore, he’s like 6 feet something, 3 times my size, and all his big talks come in handy now that he has the chance to prove he is capable of taking care of himself. I know my parents are damn worry too although they show a sign of happiness that their little boy is now in a mission to serve the country (exaggerate!) but deep down inside I just pray and hope that he will become more responsible (as if he is all this time!) and grow up to be a kind son who respects his parents and treat them like how normal children will do. That is my only wish.

I wanted so bad to join PLKN during my time but too bad I wasn’t selected!