In between office and Courts.

After 3 years,finally!I made it on the last night of Cuci-cuci The Musical Last Kopek!The most funny theater musical so far, lots of bloopers from the casts and its worth every penny :)

Got to entered the VIP's room and met the gorgeous Vanida Imran, and tell how stunning she is in person!And told the dashing Hans Isaac when and where we met twice before.But I look so fat not gonna post any pictures with them but still yayy xD

1st Future Music Festival in Malaysia, its actually an annual event around the world esp Australia.

Won this for Jumbo actually, I will forever imagine her face & her high pitch voice everytime Jessie J's Domino playing on air now.hehehe. So cute!

Yeah Rox & Sarah might be disappointed that Kylie Minogue was replaced by Girls Generation @ SNSD, Orianthi and Kellis but I sure made some guys damn happy with this F1 concert tickets, as their seats were exactly infront of the stage!


Contest addict on roll babeh!

"I Will Always Love You"

♥

Others call it coincident but I look at it as God's interference, the day world was shattered with the demise of such great singer (RIP Whitney Houston) I received such pleasant surprise, an email that meant a lot to me.More than words. Now, I know for sure I'll keep moving forwards but with each step I'll think about you dear.Bittersweet memories, that is all I'm taking with me.I hope life treats you kind, and I hope you have all you've dreamed of. And I wish to you, joy and happiness. But above all this, I wish you love.

Many nights we've prayed, with no proof anyone could hear but with now I know for sure He listens to every each prayer of ours.

I will always love you.Only Allah knows that.

The best cupcakes in town turns 2 years old today :)

24th January

I can still remember vividly the great things that happened in my 23rd January (last year). But now my 24th January has passed by like a bullet train in Japan, too fast that I don't have enough time to enjoy the 'ride'. I'm in a whole new phase, some of the faces diminished slowly, yet the memories stay where they belong dearly;in my heart that is. Working life take most of not just your time but also mentally and emotional strength, when you came back you just want to lay down doing nothing, not interested in talking to people, makan tidak mengikut waktu i.e suka-suki hati bila busy tak makan, sleep and more sleep. Oh man I can feel how old my body turning to.But I'm a fighter, therefore I still find time to do stuffs that make me happy.

I love looking how much happiness big family brings ♥ Thanks Sha for letting me share a tiny piece of that happy moment.

2012 Resolution: Do adventures outdoor stuff,in progress with our 1st was ATV ride in Kemensah. Cuak gak dowh jungle tracking ni,dah lama akak x join.hahaha.

The super funny CEO,Uncle Izham picked me to be his 'Get-To-Know-A-Follower-Day' and yeah he put so much misery!But I adore him so much :)

The doctor with smoking hot eyes re-tweeted me,I know I'm such a celebs stalker!Well I did warn you right the moment you requested to follow me,lol.haha.

I'm officially a registered GLEEK. My mission this year is to spread the petition for LIVE TOUR by Glee stars across ASIA especially Malaysia.

Foster The People live in KLCC, the coolest & most awesome-est gig EVER! Kinda pissed off why they were not given a bigger venue, when Bieber can get Stadium Negara why are these talented guys only get KL Live which can only accomodate 3000 people?Not fair at all!Booooooooooooooo..



Looking forward for more 'spices' in life ♥

Bismillahirramanirrahim.

Raihan - Dimulakan dengan Bismillah

Started this new chapter in my life with one short yet powerful word,'Bismillah' and at the end of the week I would like to end it by saying Thank You Allah and 'Alhamdulillah'.


1st week went pretty well,although the working hour is not 9am to 6pm (kena tipu time interview!) but the fact you only got to leave the office once your master leave, the fact you have to work on Saturday to finished submission for cases coming the coming week, the fact they can't pronounce my name correctly (damn cute!) and give me tons of new names while keep questioning whether I'm a Malay, the fact that I'm the only Muslim, the fact that there's not even 1 halal restaurants in that area, and the fact that I'm feeling so intimidated with how the real legal world works; I'm having a good time learning new stuffs. Looking forward for another 268 days. But I am not complaining, don't deserve to because so far I'm so blessed and grateful to have such nice and wonderful colleagues and also lawyers who are willing to guide me through this journey. And my chambee-mate, couldn't ask for a nicer person.For someone who studied in UK and is one of the partner's daughter, she's really down to earth and helpful.


Yeah,I keep whining how tired I am at the end of each day but as time goes by I hope I'll stop doing so.I'll try my best. The keyword is TRY.Don't put so much hope. Can't imagine how our mothers can be up as early as 4.30am, do house chores and prepare breakfast for us, leaving for work at 6.45 and only come back at 6pm then still able to prepare mouth watering home cooked meal for dinner and the list goes on. Mothers are truly superhuman, so much respect for them man. I can never do that, when I'm tired I don't feel the need to eat but sleep is all I can think of so just imagine if I were to be a mother, poor kid as I bet the children have to sleep with empty stomach.hahahaha.

High Court is the hugest 'playground' with so many rules,kinda hate it already!Still be going there again and again.

Still keeping all my Raihan's cassettes since their 1st album:)

Who are you?

Don't say you are sorry when you don't even mean it sincerely from your heart, everyone knows why you say sorry to me. Its because my loyal great friends informed me what bad things you say behind me.Of course I forgive you, I always did but I'll never forget it and I don't really have space in my life for people hati busuk like you. I can be a hypocrite infront of you but that's not because I am a bitch per se but because my parents taught me we should treat people even those with doucle faces with respect regardless what shit they did to us. Plus this year just kicked start I'm looking forward to do more deeds, and forgiving people like you is definitely 1 of that.Have a nice life! :)


Oh ya people just remember 1 important thing in life; Not all people likes you and not all hates me.

Be nice,it makes us a happier person.

Firework.

Here I am with people I love the most, eating a pine of Baskin Robbins and watching extravagantly beautiful fireworks going on. We were never taught to celebrate New Year nor do I'm so into it as I grow up,so here we are outside our porch and witnessing the whole world(exaggerating) welcoming 2012. Have a great and blessed new year to all. Mari mulakan tahun baru dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Bye-bye 2011.After 1y3m4w still IMY.

Wrap up 2011.

Random-ness of 2011

Started this year with lovely experience wearing saree for the 1st time ever in my life,attending final law night. Although its not how I imagined my final law night would be but indeed it was 1 of those happy night I would always cherished. Met my favourite Quickie host;Adam Carruthers and can't believe I was 16 when 8tv officially hit the airwaves. Then gained 10 kgs,healthy lifestyle long gone since I'm back home which sadly give me reason to miss Melaka. Rendavous with Shah Rukh Khan for the 2nd time,stalked him at shooting scene (DON 2) in Melaka. It was in the middle of final exam for my 1st semester of final year, I can't believe I gamble my future for the love of my life.LOL.Made few nice and colorful personality friends from beautiful and unique background and stories. Survived 3 months of attachment at Khamdan & Co, blessed to have such guidance and colleagues. Went to few interviews and finalised to do my pupillage at Seah Balan Ravi & Co, hope everything going to be super fine. Attended my 1st ever concert with Ksya, believe me it was so hard but I fought for it since Maroon 5 is like the ultimate band crush since I was 14. Murah rezeki with all the contest I've joined, cash,concert tickets (Switchfoot, Maroon 5, Elton John, Pitbull, Far East Movement, Aladdin The Musical,etc) and stuffs.


In the middle of the year got to be part of the beautiful engagement of my friends; Saiful and Nik. 1st experience as well as a gadis pengangkat dulang, got to witness the real full ceremony Malay tradition of adat bertunang. Reject 3 propositions,not much to elaborate here. After 7 years I decided to leave Nokia for Blackberry, since the ambassador himself SRK did the same.hehe. At 23 years old, my father thinks I'm old enough to start using post-paid and no matter how sucks Maxis service getting each day I'm still choosing to be their loyal customer. Then the surreal world of mine Twitter, where I wish the people I adore are my buddies (psycho) and to actually have them replied is like so unbelievable considering million fans of theirs. Oh I love my fake doctors in Greys Anatomy, The Good Wife, Glee, etc and of course my Bollywood hunks and Hollywood stars. Not to forget Malaysia local stars. Head over heels.On the sports side, went for Harimau Muda Olympic qualification and damn I had goosebumps everytime Negaraku played in the stadium and thousands of us on our feet sing along. Accompanied The Blues biggest supporters to Chelsea Asia Tour.


I hit the bottom of emotion this year as I lost a dear great friend but God is Great, He replaced a better and awesome friend for me. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua yang terjadi and I hope to know the truth before I died. Then the biggest achievement this year I guess was the fact that I've graduated, after 5 years being a Law student.Alhamdulillah, now its time to start thinking and working my way up to pay all the debt to my parents. Apart from that I got to meet my favourite pair of bickering DJs Dilly and JD, after few times speaking on the phone that day when Lee DeWyze came to town to performed American Idol's first showcase here they recognized me and since then they call me every now and then. Another my not so famous moment is an evening jog with FaFau and she invited for a movie date. I feed my soul by going to more musical this year, although I won the tickets but prior to some engagement to law activities I had to missed The Sound of Music UK production as well as The Lion King and Wicked in Singapore.



As a Muslim nothing much can I be proud of but on the bright side I'm so grateful to be the chosen 1 to guide my dear Lulu to the path she's going now, tears will always be in my eyes every time this topic come out. The fact that she look at me as a role model really moved me inside.Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Besar.


Do new things; stupid disco roller skate, reckless car accident, stalked international celebrity, learn Spanish, develops interest in cooking, most extreme visit to dentist, performing medley dance infront of our own law student(traumatized for life), learned how to use some high-tech gadgets(for a noob like me everything seems like a high-tech,hehe), vacation to an island with friends, 1st time flying to the East, etc.

Bring it on 2012.

Do they?

According to our parents and every adults who have kids, they know best.Especially when it involving us, our decision in life, our choice of friends or partners, the way we dress and the list goes on. I won't argue with that but seriously if they keep saying they know everything when can we do our own mistakes and start learn from them? They can't keep they eyes on us forever right? Nor can they protect us from this evil world, but why does it seems like parents feel like they have the power and absolute control of our life. Things like this make me more not to ever have child because I believe everyone should have their own say of how they want their life to be. Yes, of course parents should guide when child starts to astray and things like this but sometimes I wish parents in Malaysia, or maybe Asian should try to let loose and trust their children a bit more.


Most of the time yes they will say to you that,'You think what's the best for your future and we'll support you no matter what' but once you made a decision they'll use this method called psychological reverse (like my mother) and make you question your own judgement, indirectly force you to change your mind and follow what they actually wanted you to do. It is our responsibility to make sure they are happy after all this years taking such great care of us but don't you think that's like more to emotional blackmailing people by reminding them what have you done and how they should pay you back? I'm just saying because as a 23 years old lady who's starting to sketch my journey of adulthood I don't think I've given a due that I deserved.



I wish I could practise my pupillage at either Adam Bachek & Associates or Dennis Nik & Wong but my parents are too worried and concern about my safety so I decided to accept the offer from the firm near my house. Its a great firm, they provided everything that I could ever wish for plus it was suggested by a lawyer that I trusted . I pray this coming 9 months I will learn as much as I could and pass with enough knowledge that could help me as a young lawyer. At the end of the day I wish whoever choice I'm taking I'll end up well and be able to make them proud of me 1 day soon.Amin.



This entry is inspired by a question that been lingering in my mind since people keep saying 'parents know best'. But do they?

I have the BEST parents any girl could asked for!

2 cents.

*Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams,its because that person misses you. This is according to psychological facts, there have been a studies on this.



*It really gets to me when guys coming to weddings wearing t-shirt,jersey,slippers or sandals. We don't expect you to dress up but a simple baju Melayu will do,its not that hard isn't it?Be a bit considerate when it comes to others' happy and big day, don't treat it as if its just another regular day.



*Don't use your parents' name, wealth and reputation to show off when the fact is we have not achieve ANYTHING!This is dedicated to all young drivers who committed hit and run cases and get off from law and enforcement just like that because who your parents are. Its unbelievable how down to earth the parents are, when they are the 1 who earns thousands and drives a 7 series. Youth now days been spoilt too much, seriously too much and yet they show no respect at all nor grateful with what they have. All they know is to show off and bragging to others about what they have when the fact is they are worthless! Not even a cent!

p/s: I will never forget you Mr.Mercedes driver and your plat no!Tak guna bawa kereta mahal-mahal tapi kesedaran sivik kosong!



*If you have a problem with someone tell that person and not the entire world who will eventually spread around and add some exaggeration to it and before you know it you let a priceless friendship down to he drain. People take advantage on others' vulnerability because we ourself let that happened. So whatever problem you have settle it with 1 baby step which is talk about it to the RIGHT person.



*From the age of 5 (literally), I've been training myself to not grow up into my mother. There's nothing wrong with her,she's perfect in any way that a woman would dream to grew up as and I would be lucky if I got to be at least half as great as her as a mother or even a fantastic cook! Its just that I used to be wondering why would women spend too much on shoes and handbags and remember saying to myself that I will never ever be like that but guess what,like Bieber said 'Never Say Never!' because I turn out to be exactly like that.I simple have fetish for handbags, they make me happy like seriously! Thank God I don't have my eyes on gold jewellery like she does,or maybe the time is not here yet.Lol.

Excited with the new look on our notes and ceiling in 2012 :)

Unhappy endings.

Have you ever feel that everything falls in it place and everything goes as what you plan but at the end of the day you still don't feel happy when logically speaking you should be.There's something just missing but you can't figure it out, all day long you feel uneasy and you feel like screaming on top of your lungs but still the answer you're looking for is yet to make its appearance. At times like this I thought maybe He has the answer and we should just continue have faith and seek for His help. I always do daily/weekly list of things to do, even when I have already ticked all of them still I feel deep down inside there's something that should make it to the list but what? I guess I'm just too used to be around people during my normal days that now I'm alone at home without friends and I only got to meet 'meet' my family during weekends makes me feel empty and lonely, Wow I never thought I would make this an issue because before I'm looking forward to 'ME' time but now I learn that too much of it make me sick.



Talking about happiness,I'm a person who is realist rather than an optimist. When I watch a movie,drama,etc I will forever criticize why must they have a happy ending when the whole story from beginning is a total mess.I know how people love watching stories that end with happy ending but the fact is thats not the case in real life.A bad ending does not neccessarily means its over, it means we have another chance to fix it and make it works so why must we think so negative about it.This mostly has something to do with my addiction with the series 'Happy Ending', I'm totally digging this maniac bunch of friends which really makes me miss my friends so damn much!They are so crazy yet I feel connected with them, that so not showing I'm a maniac myself. When I thought I have already following countless numbers of series and can't afford to be an avid fan of another I proved myself wrong,AGAIN! There actually a moment or two where I thought 'what if' our life is like that series, could it work? Is it even possible? But like they say a person who have always see you as someone special would never wanted to be just friends so like Nikky said its the best option for everyone.


Try to be a jobless person for almost 2 months than you'll understand what I'm talking about. I have downloaded and watched almost EVERY series that I love until 1 point I think Hollywood should produce their new episode twice in a week rather than once. This is insane!I'm like literally attached with my couch and hard-drive. I have nothing to complain about,this is the only time I guess I'll have this amount of free time so enjoy while you can.

Uneasy feeling.

What's in the pointer?

Here I am, after 5 long years of journey being a law student I end up on this hot chair of various interviews to get a place to do my Pupilage. I started pretty late since only in December I start eyeing for firms and stuffs compare to my friends who some of them already gaining experience for more than a month now, my philosophy is chill until the completion letter is out.LOL. This is another phase I can't wait to get over with and get on with my life, 1001 questions running in my mind right now of what will they expect from a fresh graduate. Will they test me solely on the education part or do they want to see how we carry our self, our confidence level or maybe like most of the stories I heard they will be most impressed with how a street smart survived in the real world.


That brings me to 1 thing that I regret the most for not be able to accomplished within my 5 years, you know when we done with school we listened to a lot of people who aim for 4 flat when they entered an University and so do I.That was 1 of my dream, seeing my own sister who was a JPA's scholar as well as later a TM's achieved that really drives me to at least tried my best but sadly I never get to fulfilled that because the truth is I'm such a procrastinator and I just have to be satisfied with my highest GPA of 3.78 and CGPA of 3.64. I was never the smartest in the class, nor the straight As student like I used to be in school therefore I just have to be grateful to finally graduated as a 2nd class student. I always envy few of my classmates in the special small batch, they are supersmart and they know how to divide their time smartly without jeopardize their future. I guess I'm a bit too late to regret all this but I will not give up from here.There are so much out there need to be discovered so I will not stop here. At the end of the day I like to believe and endorse to people out there, pointer might be crucial but it is not EVERYTHING that will decide how you'll shape up your future.Yeah I might sound like a loser who try to feel good about herself, but think about it and you'll agree with me.Don't feel down, there is still time for YOU to do your best!



Like they say,'Tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negara China dan hingga ke liang lahad' meaning there is no boundaries of where and until when you should strive for more educations.

December:Honeymoon period ends for this lazy fat couch potato,time to pull it together & get serious..Wish me luck people!

Anger management

There was a time when Ksya always said I need to meet someone regarding my anger management issue,and that time I always stand up for myself in defence saying I didn't have any anger issue or whatsoever.I have a wonderful childhood, fabulous friends,amazing family and colourful life so where does this question even comes from? End up I'll always bash her up until she developed this syndrome which only physically abused kids had,I'm not kidding.This sounds funny,it does look funny every time I saw her funny face and gestures trying to avoid everytime I raise my hand even if its just for a soft touch.Think about it now make me gelak terguling-guling.At the end of the day most of them started to follow Ksya's hypothesis that I definitely having anger issue.Its really boiled me inside, sometimes counting numbers in my head does help me to cool down a bit, then I come to a conclusion that actually I'm just super duper easily irritated by people and a bit of short tempered.So since we just celebrated our Muslim's new year again I keep a resolution to train myself to be patient and like Ayah said everytime I had a fight with Boboy;'If its not true,why must you react and start a fight?' and like Nasy said,'People don;t change in a day' so both make me even stronger to strive for my goal.InsyaAllah.I don't need a heart attack at such young age do I.

Rise above hate.- John Cena-

KTM.

When we are in a uncontrollable rage,we tend to think that we actually would/could do something about it. Until much later we realised nahh, I won't be able to do that simply because I don't the time,power nor the money.Sigh.

Like few days ago when I had to wait for 1 and a half hour for that darn KTM to reach my station,I cursed whoever responsible for that situation although for the fact I have no idea who is that WHOEVER. I wish 1 day there will be no more KTM and all of them will be replaced by LRT,Star,Monorel,Putra or whatever that moves way faster than that siput babi KTM.


Then when I had to literally fight for life to get into the ladies couch as if I'm running for gold in Olympic again I had this monologue that when I'm rich enough I will buy my own couch for every public transport.Then the reality hits me,'when you are rich,why the heck you want to buy a couch of train when you can afford a driver to drive you around?' Ya,its kinda true.


While waiting for my train I had successfully 'explored' New Delhi and Mumbai, I bought those 2 tour guide book at a store near me just to kill my time. Thanks to all the hours put together waiting for KTM my whole life I've been around the world for free.Yesterday I went to German and Hungary.


This is just merely ranting of a lady with anger over her country's public transport, talking about this actually reminds me how I drive my parents and friends crazy for the fact that I refer to every single type of train as KTM. Frankly, I never bother to know what's the difference.They all look the same for me.lol.

I need a chauffeur ;)

Define ME.

People say the nicest things when you informed them about something good happening or just happened,but 1 of the best and memorable words that I don't think I'll ever forget is that;"Just promise you won't stop being the colourful bubbly person you are once you step to the real world,that's really define who you are".

I do really appreciate it.Thank you SZ.When one hates you,just remember there are 7 billions other people out there.

Being ME.

Last words

When I listed down all the lecturers' names who has taught me over these 4 years, those who made this Degree of Law LLB (Hons) possible, there are around 20 plus but unfortunately some of them have left to a better place and great offer so when I'm back to get stuffs done its just some sort of token of appreciation to meet each and one of them personally with little gift and express my gratitude and just kinda getting their blessing in embarking towards this new phase.It was indeed so much fun meeting and chatting with them, it may be for the final time,their last words were so motivating and inspiring.Among those we able to catch up were:



Mdm J: She told us what to expect from a chambering period,what type of firms should we apply for,how to prepare ourselves before applying.She also informed us that she'll be involved in our ILKAP training in February.

p/s:Gulppp,you tell me whether its a good thing or a bad one.



Mdm.G: For me she's the epitome of what a real sincere teacher should be.Its always a pleasure listening to her words of advice,she's so motherly.I have such a respect for her,and her thoughts of how should we deal with our career,life and everything in between.

p/s: She explained to us the new MMU exam system,I'm sad and pity for those who will be suffering from now on because it seems lecturers have lost their immunity completely in protecting and fighting for students' rights.



Mdm.F: The way she took a whole minute looking at us with that proud(I think so) smile,and a huge sigh of relief and that big hug I guess that explains a lot.Time do flies is basically the essence of our conversation that time.Also her 2 cents on how we should dealing with the outer world after this,and how to always keep ourselves grounded and always respects others with respect no matter how big we become 1 day.She even reminded us that she's no longer the Head of Law School,as if we don;t know that.hahaha.

p/s: I beg to differ with ALL my seniors who kept putting thoughts in our innocent mind since our 1st semester of how bad,fierce,and mean our senior lecturers are when they completely OPPOSITE of everything what we've been told.I'm glad all the senior lecturers remember the early years of us there.



Mr.G: The 1st thing he asked was,(he always does,since my 1st year) 'you always in a group of your girls,so everyone is graduated already?'.He also reminiscing our early years,what subjects he taught us,and wish us luck and words of advice.

p/s: Will miss those little things like his trademark of hair flipping and rubbing his stomach while talking to us.



Dr.MZ: Why didn't you reply all my comments in your FB?You saw my comments on your album,regarding Pikaia?I'm pretty sure your friends would love to know more about that,why don't you post a video on that and tag Ms.Atikah?

Me: Owh..ermm..about that sir,I'm sorry maybe I've missed that 1 because there are too many notifications.(I feel bad but I promise will reply it soon,and see how I use my charm to change the topic!Successful attempt,phewww) Sir,take care and don't miss us too much that you liked 16 of my profile pictures in 5 minutes.hahaha

Dr.MZ: Laughing here.That's a great punching line to depart.

p/s: I rest you assured sir,NONE in my friend list would love to learn about ANYTHING Jurisprudence-ly in FB.They might deleted me after a while.lol.



Ms.A: She's the best!We can talk about anything under the roof with her,even she has been with us since 1st year and she's definitely our unofficial counselor.Her room is our comfort zone,once you go in you never want to leave that room.Yes,its that good.She will be missed dearly,the most I personally think.

p/s: Her vacation plan sounds so great that its inspired me to work hard and saving!




Dr.M: The second I entered the room.'What's with that cheeky smile?What are you up to?'

Me: God,no.There's no cheeky smile.You always have something against me aren't you?We are here to day hi,asking how are you doing.So please be nice.(enter cheeky smile here,haha)Its been quite a long time since we sit down and catching up,the last time you were just Ms.M to me but look at you now we call you Dr.M.

Dr.M: Ya,its been quite a time.Last time you were so skinny in my class,what happened now?You look bloated?(Moment of silent.here where I ran to the corner of the room and cry my heart out!she's mean and its an ugly truth pun.How can you hate her,so witty) What have you been doing,stop lazying around and do something worth will you?

Me: I will once the letter is out,now I'm just enjoying doing stuffs that I don't get to do in the last 4 years.

p/s: She asked about further education planning,tell her once we decided where to go,long distance relationship,Shah Rukh Khan and Delhi,and lots more. More sarcasms later we departed,but it always a fun and rejuvenating feeling meeting her.



p/s:She definitely has been 1 of my favourite although I'm not to her,but only her sarcasms can match mine and she always has something to rebut back and thus our sarcastic sense is kinda compatible with each other,but of course everytime I had to back off because at the end of the day she is my lecturer and she was the one who gave me grades right.So,give her chance lah.lol.



All my lecturers play such an important role in my life,eventhough like 1 of my friend said that we actually paid for our education thus over appreciation is not necessary but by doing this really makes me feel good about myself and moving forward.Hope to meet them soon,not with the student title anymore but somebody title.InsyaAllah,amin:)


Signing off,
A graduated Law Degree student.

Impolite

I'm not normally an impolite person nor I'm rude(I think!except with family members that's a whole different story),so when I'm being one I realised it quite fast and apologize to those who concern but in some situations I just need to wear the mask and act like one in order to let other feels good about their self because they are indeed a good person. An advise from a wise friend of mine; in order to let go and make someone move on, we have to ignore them totally no matter how hurtful it can be, let them hate you for their own benefit and they will eventually depend less on their feelings towards you and slowly will focus on other things. And when they have come to their senses, they will then understand your intentions. That is my pure and only sincere intention. I'm sorry.

Let go.

Unavoidable.

This is not the path of my choice,but I'll have to take the high road.
This is not my original plan,but I have to accept.
Sometimes you don't want to leave but sometimes you just have to learn how to.
Sometimes we want to stay,but sometimes we need to let go.
Don't make decisions when you're angry.
Don't make promises when you're happy.

Unforeseen circumstances.

1 line

With this 1 line, it wrap up the 5 extraordinary years with this beautiful people who they called friends but for me they are the extended family I never had. With this 1 line I will carry those beautiful memories between us forever, till death do us apart that is. With this 1 line I hope in 1 more day to go I will say farewell and so long to my University life but a relation for life with these great souls which I'm grateful enough to find at the very beginning of my early adulthood. With this 1 line I'm going to cry my heart out because like a kid who doesn't want to go to school without her kindergarten's friends I feel alone exploring new world without them by my side. With this 1 line I'm going to embrace whatever awaits for me in the future and with this 1 line I will forever cherish our blessed friendship. Amin.

With this 1 line, I hope there will never be even 1 day where I have to live without the smiles and laughters of you girls; 'Can't imagine how's life going to be after 5 years having you in the house, now we won't having you walking with us to campus and back.But pretty sure exciting stuff is waiting your way out there!'.


Love them sincerely.

How's life going to be alone out there,that's the question.

Scared and freaking out(as usual) but I'm eager to go out and create my own stuff.It's about time I guess.

I'll be fine I guess.Hopefully.With all the prayers and wellwishes I believe I will succeed.InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah please let tomorrow's paper be my last FINAL final paper after 5 struggling years in the law school.Please.

With that 1 line I'm going to go all out.Amin.

Completed 16 years of being a student:')

I'm not talented.

There's reason why we respect,love and look up to MALE/EXPERIENCED lecturers;simply because they won't entertained ASS-KISSERS!They are totally impartial and they are the real epitome of what a 'teacher' should be. YOU and your cronies should include in your teaching guidelines that we don't need to open our mouth in all freaking tutorial class and just be a YES MAN to all your ridiculous antics to get the high marks those undeserved people got.That will do to be your favourite student in this mean world right?!

Mode: The worst course marks in my 5 years as a law student,I mean for us who are not blessed with the talent of kissing a$$!!!

F: 'Sabarlah Cheda,sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar'.

Berusaha sedaya-upaya bersabar,counting backwards from 100..99..98..97..

Maaf.

A lot of heart warming sms/tweets/messages asking for forgiveness coming in. But why are our egos so big that we can't do this more often and more sincerely?1 thing to ponders upon this Raya not only a reminder for myself as well as for friends out there.

I would also like to quote my friend P;"You ask for my forgiveness but you can't find it in your heart to forgive mine?? Well, that is plain selfish and redundant. Don't bother sending me Raya wish".

I'm pretty sure both of us are thinking about the same person but who knows I might be wrong. Nobody's perfect, and you know what sorry is not such a hard word to say out loud, if I can say it, when we actually did say it so what stops you from uttering those words? Life is too short buddy (still traumatize and hugely affected by scenes from Final Destination 5, stupid scary laser eye treatment!) so make every seconds count because no one knows whether will we still be here for next Raya (so many people have left us for the past 1 year, those who I never expected but 'ajal maut di tangan Tuhan'.)

'Nobody knows where we might end up..nobody knows' -Psapp,The Rocket.