6th LEAP YEAR.

The best leap year ever!Thanks Pos Malaysia for this DON 2 Limited Edition Shah Rukh Khan's collection,I am now a very proud owner.

1 year after our rendezvous,you still look suave as ever jaan ♥

"I Will Always Love You"

♥

Others call it coincident but I look at it as God's interference, the day world was shattered with the demise of such great singer (RIP Whitney Houston) I received such pleasant surprise, an email that meant a lot to me.More than words. Now, I know for sure I'll keep moving forwards but with each step I'll think about you dear.Bittersweet memories, that is all I'm taking with me.I hope life treats you kind, and I hope you have all you've dreamed of. And I wish to you, joy and happiness. But above all this, I wish you love.

Many nights we've prayed, with no proof anyone could hear but with now I know for sure He listens to every each prayer of ours.

I will always love you.Only Allah knows that.

The best cupcakes in town turns 2 years old today :)

From 1 Muslim to another :)

I have been spending quite some time recently with my childhood friends since I have the luxurious of free time in the last 2 months. For the past 5 years we rarely meet except for special occasions like Hari Raya or birthdays since everyone is busy with studying and considering the fact 2 of them are studying abroad make it more difficult. But when we meet I always had the best time of my life, laughing all the way talking about the same memories we shared during our schooling days (believe me,we laughed like bunch of maniac over THE SAME FREAKING stories!),what’s happening in our current life and how old we get now and each time we (more like me alone!) will be in denial. 1 of our hot topic is ‘kau selalu kena ejek time sekolah sebab tak join sekolah agama kan?’ The thing is my father thought we (my sister and I) will get tired attending 2 schools in the same day, some more with extracurricular activities, etc plus its highly important to state here that it is NOT compulsory under our country’s education system. It’s more like the parents’ choice for their children, to give them equal chance to excel in both worlds so that they will have choices later in pursuing in term of career wise. I always felt ashamed and had low self esteem every time other kids start to make fun of me for not going to sekolah agama because in the society's view by attending that school you are taught to be a better Muslim. Let me tell you its all crap! The fact is, its so opposite in the real life, especially talking about present time. Contrary to popular belief those who doesn’t attended the sekolah agama would definitely be someone social in his way of life, looking to the people who did went but acting like they don’t would make you want to say MasyaAllah everytime you see them these days.

Most of my good friends did attend and they shine in both schools, but none of them (as far as I know) trail to that path of further studies. Let me clear the fact that I have no qualm in confessing that the reason why I’m wearing hijab /tudung is not because I realised my duty as a Muslim but to be honest that is what my parents want me to do as they think it’s about time since I’ve reached the right age. I wasn’t forced nor given ultimatum instead they firmly reasoned me out, for sure I was rebelling inside but somehow I don’t feel it as an oppression neither, I clearly know this day will come it’s just a matter of time. I’ve been taught by amazing ustazah (s) since I was a kid, even they weren’t the type of people or educator who preach the teaching of ‘Kalau kau tak pakai tudung, kau orang jahat’ (If you don’t wear tudung you are a bad person) instead they were the one who instilled in myself that the image projects by a Muslim lady when she chooses to not to wear tudung is the matter of between her and the creator, as Allah is the only One has the right to judge his ummah. I was not raised in a family of alim ulama, to know how your religion works doesn’t make you pious people it’s just make you a responsible servant to God and wilfully follow the law written by Allah because we want that happiness in akhirat, because we believe in heaven and hell as well as we are followers of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W.

I was 18 when I started wearing it ‘professionally’ meaning to classes, going out with family, etc but when it comes to outdoor activities like my Taekwando class, playing futsal with friends, having fun at waterpark or anything that falls under that same category I will leave it behind without feeling any guilt (THEN). I grew up in a multimixracial-religion family and am surrounded by women who doesnt wear tudung and that doesn’t make them less saint to those who does, it’s just that the mix cultural and amalgamation of few races in our family makes that as a choice rather than a compulsory option. My own mother started wearing tudung only after given birth to my brother if I’m not mistaken, I was 7 and that makes her 37 years old. During their (our parents) time wearing clothes that can be consider kinda revealing now days for example the ladies not covering their hair, wearing miniskirts, etc was not such a big deal as a Muslim but as time goes by the practise of Islam in our country is roving to the right path and more civilised in the religion sense itself. The society used to put themselves as Malay first then only Muslim, but today it’s the other way around when they realised that’s the true teaching of the Al-Quran no matter what colour you are, what race or caste you belong too, what language you spoken, etc in the eyes of Allah all Muslims are the same. As years have passed by, at the age of 21 years old I start to feel that I don’t think I can be seen in public without my tudung anymore, somehow slowly naturally it planted firmly in myself that now it is part of your identity and not a choice you can make anymore and I feel happy knowing I’m now wearing it for Allah and not because I give a damn of what would people say behind my back nor for my parents solely. Before, I was a bit hesitant to wear it full time because I still be wearing short sleeve shirts, fit outfit, and etc but my father told me if you want to wear tudung wear it completely as it is not an accessory which just complement your fashion as a Muslim. I’m not saying am no more wearing fit jeans, etc but I gradually changing for the better I hope as my age grows and it is a conscious decision and not because of my father say so.

3 months ago when a new great friend of mine informing me her intention to learn how to wear tudung, and asked me for help I couldn’t be happier as a Muslim as well as a friend. We were in the midst of the chaos in preparing for our last final exam in University, when she told me that and her choice of words literally made my eyes teary. She said,’Cheda, entah kenapa I rasa terbuka hati nak pakai tudung lepas kawan dengan you.I x ada sangat kawan rapat yang pakai tudung, nanti you ajar I boleh? I rasa you lah role model terbaik boleh tolong I sekarang, I nak belajar pakai selendang macam you lepas habis final exam nanti.’ And I of course who was so excited for her, dump my Civil Procedure notes at that time and start browsing online to buy her first selendang. I taught her how to wear it on our last day in Melaka, using my forever rainbow-ish collection of selendang in my room witnessed by Sarah. All of us felt so grateful to be able to help our friend, Lulu is the friend I never thought I can be friending this close with. We know each other since first year but hit off really well only in our last 4 months of our student’s life thanks to mock trial which combined our 2 groups of colourful personalities and dramas. She is such a soft spoken, kind-hearted and so polite. I kept telling her that because she’s kinda too good to be true, and Fariz is such a lucky man to have her, hopefully they’ll end up together pretty soon. And since she’s from Ipoh I make a conclusion that orang Ipoh memang baik-baik because even Nisa has the same character. She took time to be comfortable before start wearing it full time who knows somewhere near in future. Baby step is more than enough compare to stand still and not thinking forward.Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Its true that every single things happen for a reason, we may not see it at first but along the journey He will show the sweetness of every choice and decision you made. For someone who at first started wearing tudung for her parents’ sake and now being someone who has inspired others to also wear it, I couldn’t ask for a bigger hikmah than this. Thank you Allah, pray that all of us will always be under His blessing and not to stray from this path, Amin.

Please protect us from evil Ya Allah, Amin...

24th January

I can still remember vividly the great things that happened in my 23rd January (last year). But now my 24th January has passed by like a bullet train in Japan, too fast that I don't have enough time to enjoy the 'ride'. I'm in a whole new phase, some of the faces diminished slowly, yet the memories stay where they belong dearly;in my heart that is. Working life take most of not just your time but also mentally and emotional strength, when you came back you just want to lay down doing nothing, not interested in talking to people, makan tidak mengikut waktu i.e suka-suki hati bila busy tak makan, sleep and more sleep. Oh man I can feel how old my body turning to.But I'm a fighter, therefore I still find time to do stuffs that make me happy.

I love looking how much happiness big family brings ♥ Thanks Sha for letting me share a tiny piece of that happy moment.

2012 Resolution: Do adventures outdoor stuff,in progress with our 1st was ATV ride in Kemensah. Cuak gak dowh jungle tracking ni,dah lama akak x join.hahaha.

The super funny CEO,Uncle Izham picked me to be his 'Get-To-Know-A-Follower-Day' and yeah he put so much misery!But I adore him so much :)

The doctor with smoking hot eyes re-tweeted me,I know I'm such a celebs stalker!Well I did warn you right the moment you requested to follow me,lol.haha.

I'm officially a registered GLEEK. My mission this year is to spread the petition for LIVE TOUR by Glee stars across ASIA especially Malaysia.

Foster The People live in KLCC, the coolest & most awesome-est gig EVER! Kinda pissed off why they were not given a bigger venue, when Bieber can get Stadium Negara why are these talented guys only get KL Live which can only accomodate 3000 people?Not fair at all!Booooooooooooooo..



Looking forward for more 'spices' in life ♥

The M word

'The most important career choice you'll make is who you marry'. -Sheryl Sandberg COO Facebook-

And suddenly that girl said;'But the best career decision is not to get married' and I just like give the weirdest smile ever because she reminds me to someone.I think that was me.

Such a turn on...........

Unexplainable things music does to your heart.I've been struck by..I've been hit by these 2 cellists.

PURE AWESOME-NESS!Great day ends with mind-blowing music,what more can I asked for,it feels like ages since I have the luxury of sitting back and enjoy..just chillax around.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Santana v Sebastian

People just can't question why one can be such a huge fan of Michael Jackson and GLEE like MYSELF especially after watching this.


Oh God, I think I have a girl crush on Naya Rivera a.k.a Santana!That husky beautiful voice,that LIMA HIGH attitude and the whole thing makes her character very 'likeable' is my favourite since 1st season.

I hope all Malaysian GLEEKs will sign up the petition for GLEE live tour in Asia,dying to watch them here!Ok I so want to learn how to play cello after watching this,awesome-ness!

Brittana ♥

Kafir

"In Islam, it doesn't matter which family you were born into (ie pious Muslim/non-Muslim family). BUT what matter most is how you die. Each of us are judged on what we know and we are only responsible based on WHAT WE KNOW". Allah will guide in many different ways. So dont simply go and brand people as Kafir. (so true!)". -Quoted from someone,its an usrah delivered by brother Shakirit,who is well-versed on comparative religion. He spoke about Misconception in Islam-

Iman.Amal.Takwa

The LEGEND ex-captain

Our ex-captain Gary Neville came to town,the one who dedicated his whole professional life in Manchester United. It was such an honour to be selected as 1 out of 10 lucky fans among thousands in the crowd for a meet&greet session with the Red Devils's legend himself.Most exciting part where I got to go on stage after a lucky draw selection and asked him a question but being too freaking nervous I told him how I love Man Utd and been watching him since I was 11,take picture (they didnt allowed us to use our own camera but the newspaper people take pictures for us) and have my jersey signed.Have to sacrificed one of my favourite jersey but its all worth it! The most shocking part was when he got down on 1 knee,for what?!Thank you Mr.Potato,next time please bring Solksjaer,Giggs or Scholes please? Back in July when Van Der Sar was here bringing the league championship trophy, I was in Melaka;Criminal Procedure class to be exact.We were so devastated when our friends sent picture with him from Menara TM so this time I just got to be here and I'm glad I did ♥

GGMU :)

Bismillahirramanirrahim.

Raihan - Dimulakan dengan Bismillah

Started this new chapter in my life with one short yet powerful word,'Bismillah' and at the end of the week I would like to end it by saying Thank You Allah and 'Alhamdulillah'.


1st week went pretty well,although the working hour is not 9am to 6pm (kena tipu time interview!) but the fact you only got to leave the office once your master leave, the fact you have to work on Saturday to finished submission for cases coming the coming week, the fact they can't pronounce my name correctly (damn cute!) and give me tons of new names while keep questioning whether I'm a Malay, the fact that I'm the only Muslim, the fact that there's not even 1 halal restaurants in that area, and the fact that I'm feeling so intimidated with how the real legal world works; I'm having a good time learning new stuffs. Looking forward for another 268 days. But I am not complaining, don't deserve to because so far I'm so blessed and grateful to have such nice and wonderful colleagues and also lawyers who are willing to guide me through this journey. And my chambee-mate, couldn't ask for a nicer person.For someone who studied in UK and is one of the partner's daughter, she's really down to earth and helpful.


Yeah,I keep whining how tired I am at the end of each day but as time goes by I hope I'll stop doing so.I'll try my best. The keyword is TRY.Don't put so much hope. Can't imagine how our mothers can be up as early as 4.30am, do house chores and prepare breakfast for us, leaving for work at 6.45 and only come back at 6pm then still able to prepare mouth watering home cooked meal for dinner and the list goes on. Mothers are truly superhuman, so much respect for them man. I can never do that, when I'm tired I don't feel the need to eat but sleep is all I can think of so just imagine if I were to be a mother, poor kid as I bet the children have to sleep with empty stomach.hahahaha.

High Court is the hugest 'playground' with so many rules,kinda hate it already!Still be going there again and again.

Still keeping all my Raihan's cassettes since their 1st album:)

McFreak

'No matter how much of a freak you end up being, chances are there's still someone out there for you. Unless of course, they've already moved on'. -Grey's Anatomy.

All this hiatus thingy for USA TV shows is killing me, I need my dose of drama.


Missing my Glee,Csi(s),The Good Wife,Happy Endings,The Big Bang Theory,Switched At Birth, and obviously Grey's Anatomy!

TV is my mini cinema:)

Hate it but live with it.

Hate how they act foolishly just to attract attention,unnecessarily.
Hate how they faking their accent.
Hate how they bitching about others as if its a cool thing to do.
Hate how they think they know you.
Hate how they make you feel they are the real friends.
Hate how they insincerely stick by your side when I'm not around.
Hate how they think its fun to humiliate a girl publicly.
Hate how they think hurting a girl physically is fun to do.
Hate how they think they know the real story.
Hate how they judge me when I don't even know them.
Hate how they judge me when I never even talk to them.

Hate how they look at me and rolling they eyes to show protest for NO reason.

Hate how they .................................................and then I stop because all other reasons are just

because................I simply,

Hate how they change you.

I love my life!

1st day.

First day as pupil in chambers, I'm freaking out as usual but this time I play it cool by not showing it off. I play my age,ok saying that make me feel old..really old.This is it,5 years reading law come to its moment of truth.My motto is to ask as much as you want,it's okay to be stupid for 5 minutes rather than paid the price for the rest of your life.Alhamdulillah everything went well, need to buck up because this is totally a different game compared to attachment, INDEPENDENT is proven to be chambering students' middle name.


When I was 7,on my 1st day in school my father couldn't stay with me for the rest of the day like other parents because my mother gave birth to my brother and today my 1st working experience in the real sense, I felt the deja'vu vibe because once again I'm surviving alone as they went to send the same boy to PLKN.


Just like that 17 years have passed.


That 7 years old cute girl whose ambitious is wanted to be a lawyer when she grows up now is so close to her dream.InsyaAllah.

Just be yourself but wiser each day:)

Who are you?

Don't say you are sorry when you don't even mean it sincerely from your heart, everyone knows why you say sorry to me. Its because my loyal great friends informed me what bad things you say behind me.Of course I forgive you, I always did but I'll never forget it and I don't really have space in my life for people hati busuk like you. I can be a hypocrite infront of you but that's not because I am a bitch per se but because my parents taught me we should treat people even those with doucle faces with respect regardless what shit they did to us. Plus this year just kicked start I'm looking forward to do more deeds, and forgiving people like you is definitely 1 of that.Have a nice life! :)


Oh ya people just remember 1 important thing in life; Not all people likes you and not all hates me.

Be nice,it makes us a happier person.

2012 bring it on!

A tradition I start for myself since I can remember, on the 1st day of every New Year I read back my diary of last year. Its the first book I read each year,literally.Such a dramatic and emotional ride.We can learn so much and change a lot for a better self by reading back what we did and how we view things for the last 1 year.Hope I'd have a more interesting diary this year

♥

Firework.

Here I am with people I love the most, eating a pine of Baskin Robbins and watching extravagantly beautiful fireworks going on. We were never taught to celebrate New Year nor do I'm so into it as I grow up,so here we are outside our porch and witnessing the whole world(exaggerating) welcoming 2012. Have a great and blessed new year to all. Mari mulakan tahun baru dengan Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Bye-bye 2011.After 1y3m4w still IMY.

Wrap up 2011.

Random-ness of 2011

Started this year with lovely experience wearing saree for the 1st time ever in my life,attending final law night. Although its not how I imagined my final law night would be but indeed it was 1 of those happy night I would always cherished. Met my favourite Quickie host;Adam Carruthers and can't believe I was 16 when 8tv officially hit the airwaves. Then gained 10 kgs,healthy lifestyle long gone since I'm back home which sadly give me reason to miss Melaka. Rendavous with Shah Rukh Khan for the 2nd time,stalked him at shooting scene (DON 2) in Melaka. It was in the middle of final exam for my 1st semester of final year, I can't believe I gamble my future for the love of my life.LOL.Made few nice and colorful personality friends from beautiful and unique background and stories. Survived 3 months of attachment at Khamdan & Co, blessed to have such guidance and colleagues. Went to few interviews and finalised to do my pupillage at Seah Balan Ravi & Co, hope everything going to be super fine. Attended my 1st ever concert with Ksya, believe me it was so hard but I fought for it since Maroon 5 is like the ultimate band crush since I was 14. Murah rezeki with all the contest I've joined, cash,concert tickets (Switchfoot, Maroon 5, Elton John, Pitbull, Far East Movement, Aladdin The Musical,etc) and stuffs.


In the middle of the year got to be part of the beautiful engagement of my friends; Saiful and Nik. 1st experience as well as a gadis pengangkat dulang, got to witness the real full ceremony Malay tradition of adat bertunang. Reject 3 propositions,not much to elaborate here. After 7 years I decided to leave Nokia for Blackberry, since the ambassador himself SRK did the same.hehe. At 23 years old, my father thinks I'm old enough to start using post-paid and no matter how sucks Maxis service getting each day I'm still choosing to be their loyal customer. Then the surreal world of mine Twitter, where I wish the people I adore are my buddies (psycho) and to actually have them replied is like so unbelievable considering million fans of theirs. Oh I love my fake doctors in Greys Anatomy, The Good Wife, Glee, etc and of course my Bollywood hunks and Hollywood stars. Not to forget Malaysia local stars. Head over heels.On the sports side, went for Harimau Muda Olympic qualification and damn I had goosebumps everytime Negaraku played in the stadium and thousands of us on our feet sing along. Accompanied The Blues biggest supporters to Chelsea Asia Tour.


I hit the bottom of emotion this year as I lost a dear great friend but God is Great, He replaced a better and awesome friend for me. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua yang terjadi and I hope to know the truth before I died. Then the biggest achievement this year I guess was the fact that I've graduated, after 5 years being a Law student.Alhamdulillah, now its time to start thinking and working my way up to pay all the debt to my parents. Apart from that I got to meet my favourite pair of bickering DJs Dilly and JD, after few times speaking on the phone that day when Lee DeWyze came to town to performed American Idol's first showcase here they recognized me and since then they call me every now and then. Another my not so famous moment is an evening jog with FaFau and she invited for a movie date. I feed my soul by going to more musical this year, although I won the tickets but prior to some engagement to law activities I had to missed The Sound of Music UK production as well as The Lion King and Wicked in Singapore.



As a Muslim nothing much can I be proud of but on the bright side I'm so grateful to be the chosen 1 to guide my dear Lulu to the path she's going now, tears will always be in my eyes every time this topic come out. The fact that she look at me as a role model really moved me inside.Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Besar.


Do new things; stupid disco roller skate, reckless car accident, stalked international celebrity, learn Spanish, develops interest in cooking, most extreme visit to dentist, performing medley dance infront of our own law student(traumatized for life), learned how to use some high-tech gadgets(for a noob like me everything seems like a high-tech,hehe), vacation to an island with friends, 1st time flying to the East, etc.

Bring it on 2012.

Inspiring.

I'm easily inspired by any great quotes that I heard or read from movies,books,songs,TV series,any person in real life,etc. 1 sentence can really change my life at certain point,yes that's how I am. I love watching movies that made us feel good about ourself once it ends, regardless how crappy our life can be at that particular moment. Good movies are those which can make you want to leave the cinema and start doing things you love, be a better person, achieve more, be positive about life and the list goes on. This movie buff learn anew thing today; I quote from 'New Year's Eve' : 'How would you feel if you know you wont failed when you do things that you love? Start do those things!' Its so true right,the fact is we are such coward that we always feel we are not good enough compared to others therefore we decided not to do things we love, even before we try it we predict we'll failed. This inspired me for a better year InsyaAllah, don't think too much just go for it Cheda! All Is Well! :)


You should try too.



Don 2, The Muppets, New Year's Eve, Songlap, Alvin & The Chipmunks, Mission Impossible 4 and Sherlock Holmes 2.All in 1 week,man I need to marry a cinema owner.Hahaha.

Teach me the trick HOUDINI.

Foster The People - Houdini (VEVO Presents)

Don't call yourself a FRIEND of someone if the only thing you need them for is to know what's the latest gossips,who's doing what, why did they break up,and etc.You should at least start with 'How are you?'. That's very rude and cheap of you. Be very ashamed of yourself!



Not to care much about people would definitely be my top new year's resolution in 3 days.



Sometimes I just want to disappear.

Foster The People's music haunting my life for months now with their awesome tracks!Welcome to KL in 2 weeks!

Do they?

According to our parents and every adults who have kids, they know best.Especially when it involving us, our decision in life, our choice of friends or partners, the way we dress and the list goes on. I won't argue with that but seriously if they keep saying they know everything when can we do our own mistakes and start learn from them? They can't keep they eyes on us forever right? Nor can they protect us from this evil world, but why does it seems like parents feel like they have the power and absolute control of our life. Things like this make me more not to ever have child because I believe everyone should have their own say of how they want their life to be. Yes, of course parents should guide when child starts to astray and things like this but sometimes I wish parents in Malaysia, or maybe Asian should try to let loose and trust their children a bit more.


Most of the time yes they will say to you that,'You think what's the best for your future and we'll support you no matter what' but once you made a decision they'll use this method called psychological reverse (like my mother) and make you question your own judgement, indirectly force you to change your mind and follow what they actually wanted you to do. It is our responsibility to make sure they are happy after all this years taking such great care of us but don't you think that's like more to emotional blackmailing people by reminding them what have you done and how they should pay you back? I'm just saying because as a 23 years old lady who's starting to sketch my journey of adulthood I don't think I've given a due that I deserved.



I wish I could practise my pupillage at either Adam Bachek & Associates or Dennis Nik & Wong but my parents are too worried and concern about my safety so I decided to accept the offer from the firm near my house. Its a great firm, they provided everything that I could ever wish for plus it was suggested by a lawyer that I trusted . I pray this coming 9 months I will learn as much as I could and pass with enough knowledge that could help me as a young lawyer. At the end of the day I wish whoever choice I'm taking I'll end up well and be able to make them proud of me 1 day soon.Amin.



This entry is inspired by a question that been lingering in my mind since people keep saying 'parents know best'. But do they?

I have the BEST parents any girl could asked for!

Controversy

You know right the recent controversy of our sponsored student abroad who married his gay partner, who still in debt with his sponsor and who has not contacted his family for almost 4 years?Yeah that guy, the same guy we are thinking. You should see and listen how my mother bombard this guy every time his stories making headlines in the local news, at first Malaysian feel sorry for his parents but after knowing the real deal people start to feel more sorry for them for have to face the society who got to know about their son's dirty laundry before them. Since the day this news hit the shore I been keeping quiet on the faith and religion issue as who am I to judge him or anyone who living and choosing this kind of lifestyle but deep down inside I've been praying to Allah to protect Muslim all over the world from this sin. Its scary how advance and liberal Muslims now days are.


While everyone from every single walk of life been criticizing him up down and sides I think there's actually 1 good thing came out of it and that is from now on every parents without being discriminative would give permission to their son/daughter and blessed them with their choice regardless whatever race they choose their spouse to be as long as they are not the same sex! Isn't that like the greatest thing ever? See there's always a silver lining behind those dark clouds. I think they should be from now on because this at least will protect one's faith when they are surviving the outside world far away from their comfort home where no one to tell them what is wrong and right, what is prohibited in our religion (as if we don't know but we do need that extra reminder every now and then because as we know manusia mudah lalai) and etc.



Think about it and you'll agree with me.

Say NO to discrimination against LOVE! :D

2 cents.

*Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams,its because that person misses you. This is according to psychological facts, there have been a studies on this.



*It really gets to me when guys coming to weddings wearing t-shirt,jersey,slippers or sandals. We don't expect you to dress up but a simple baju Melayu will do,its not that hard isn't it?Be a bit considerate when it comes to others' happy and big day, don't treat it as if its just another regular day.



*Don't use your parents' name, wealth and reputation to show off when the fact is we have not achieve ANYTHING!This is dedicated to all young drivers who committed hit and run cases and get off from law and enforcement just like that because who your parents are. Its unbelievable how down to earth the parents are, when they are the 1 who earns thousands and drives a 7 series. Youth now days been spoilt too much, seriously too much and yet they show no respect at all nor grateful with what they have. All they know is to show off and bragging to others about what they have when the fact is they are worthless! Not even a cent!

p/s: I will never forget you Mr.Mercedes driver and your plat no!Tak guna bawa kereta mahal-mahal tapi kesedaran sivik kosong!



*If you have a problem with someone tell that person and not the entire world who will eventually spread around and add some exaggeration to it and before you know it you let a priceless friendship down to he drain. People take advantage on others' vulnerability because we ourself let that happened. So whatever problem you have settle it with 1 baby step which is talk about it to the RIGHT person.



*From the age of 5 (literally), I've been training myself to not grow up into my mother. There's nothing wrong with her,she's perfect in any way that a woman would dream to grew up as and I would be lucky if I got to be at least half as great as her as a mother or even a fantastic cook! Its just that I used to be wondering why would women spend too much on shoes and handbags and remember saying to myself that I will never ever be like that but guess what,like Bieber said 'Never Say Never!' because I turn out to be exactly like that.I simple have fetish for handbags, they make me happy like seriously! Thank God I don't have my eyes on gold jewellery like she does,or maybe the time is not here yet.Lol.

Excited with the new look on our notes and ceiling in 2012 :)

Love On Top - Beyoncé

Janamdin Mubarak.



xoxo ♥♥♥

Unhappy endings.

Have you ever feel that everything falls in it place and everything goes as what you plan but at the end of the day you still don't feel happy when logically speaking you should be.There's something just missing but you can't figure it out, all day long you feel uneasy and you feel like screaming on top of your lungs but still the answer you're looking for is yet to make its appearance. At times like this I thought maybe He has the answer and we should just continue have faith and seek for His help. I always do daily/weekly list of things to do, even when I have already ticked all of them still I feel deep down inside there's something that should make it to the list but what? I guess I'm just too used to be around people during my normal days that now I'm alone at home without friends and I only got to meet 'meet' my family during weekends makes me feel empty and lonely, Wow I never thought I would make this an issue because before I'm looking forward to 'ME' time but now I learn that too much of it make me sick.



Talking about happiness,I'm a person who is realist rather than an optimist. When I watch a movie,drama,etc I will forever criticize why must they have a happy ending when the whole story from beginning is a total mess.I know how people love watching stories that end with happy ending but the fact is thats not the case in real life.A bad ending does not neccessarily means its over, it means we have another chance to fix it and make it works so why must we think so negative about it.This mostly has something to do with my addiction with the series 'Happy Ending', I'm totally digging this maniac bunch of friends which really makes me miss my friends so damn much!They are so crazy yet I feel connected with them, that so not showing I'm a maniac myself. When I thought I have already following countless numbers of series and can't afford to be an avid fan of another I proved myself wrong,AGAIN! There actually a moment or two where I thought 'what if' our life is like that series, could it work? Is it even possible? But like they say a person who have always see you as someone special would never wanted to be just friends so like Nikky said its the best option for everyone.


Try to be a jobless person for almost 2 months than you'll understand what I'm talking about. I have downloaded and watched almost EVERY series that I love until 1 point I think Hollywood should produce their new episode twice in a week rather than once. This is insane!I'm like literally attached with my couch and hard-drive. I have nothing to complain about,this is the only time I guess I'll have this amount of free time so enjoy while you can.

Uneasy feeling.

Cheda the Crab

Lately so many people tagged me on zodiac posts, don't know why but I love reading to all of them. In summary we can see that most of them described Cancerian (and all other zodiacs) the same way using different words.We can't really believe on such things but even Datuk Dr.Fadzilah Kamsah has the same theory for all this zodiac thingy.This is just for fun because I like to regard myself as a true blue Cancerian in and out,lol.

Cancer Woman (22nd June to 23rd July)

"Have you met a Cancerian woman recently Are you a little confused as to what she really is - chirpy or somber or distant She is all of these and still, she is none of these. More confused A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are some of her mood swings only. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of that shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. A Cancer woman will never make the first move in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways.

This is because of two reasons, her shyness and the fear of being rejected. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too. This female has some secrets and she won't like your prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time. It is your attention and appreciation she is the most concerned about. A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a five-star hotel chef.

However, you will have to learn to live with her mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of the traits of her characteristics profile. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a two-year old baby.

You will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.. Cancerian women are quite careful with money. Neither will they be stingy, not totally extravagant. They have a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money or old buttons or empty jars. They also carefully save things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on their fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. Then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. Infact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.

They will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she knows this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked break and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again!"

Hard on the outside (MACHO GITU!), soft in the inside (bak kata budak2 skrg,'dalam hati ada taman'.Like seriously,euwwwww!).-Cheda the Crab- ♥

p/s: Fun fact; ironically I'm allergic to crab though.My lips will swollen so humongous (my sister said I look like black people/Ning Baizura when it happened!Racist kan?hahaha)once I eat them but that aint gonna stop me from doing so.

A girl.

A girl, no matter how many times she denies it,

she will always remember every detail,every moment,every piece of memories you've left her.

No matter how much she tries to forget, it will always be there.Always.

I have something to tell you.

I still get those goose bumps and bad hunch every time they tell me, ‘I got something tell you, but 1st promise you won’t feel sad and gloomy like you always did before'. Most of the time I gave them fake promise because I badly wanted to know although I know I can't handle it and will get my heart broken into pieces all over again. The more I keep guessing the more it getting worse, so know what yeah just tell me whatever you guys have.I'll be ok...soon.

In another time,I'll make you stay..