It's that time again, Where same melody is playing in the background, Head is spinning,heart is pumping insanely, words are stumbling,mind is empty, My mouth says no,never but, My heart says give it a chance.
It's that time again, When I doubt my doubtfulness, I questioned my so called 'principles', I avoid those looks, And I delayed my decisions.
It's that time again, Flashbacks keep coming, They stay.
It's that time again, I'm gasping for fresh air, When they are actually everywhere, It's not the problems nor the pollutions, It's that tiny little thing called LOVE.
It's that time again, Love bug struck again, Where there were you,me and us.
Now I truly understand why is it hard to make decision.Its not about making choice between a good one and a bad one but between 2 great things as well as 2 bad things. I'm in dilemma,seriously this not like the 1st time this thing ever struck me but it just that all this time I've been delaying some stuff,some decision that needs to take action because we are not growing younger by each day,no 1 does logically thinking except certain mr.Benjamin Button(dying to watch that movie,if not because the unwanted incident T_T)
What if we made a wrong decision and taken a wrong steps when we thought its the best could happened but it weren't?After what happened 4-5 years ago I just cant afford to take those tiny little wrong steps all over again,I may carry the burden all my life but what about them,my loved ones..arghhhh!This is when I pray that I could turn back times and enjoy life to the fullest like I did during schooling days.Though there were tons of problem but it seems like they swept in a second and it never ever put me in such a dilemma situation.
*Sigh* this is my 277 times for the past 3 days,there is something in my heart that need to be released out but just CANT..or maybe I just refused to do so!Who knows that maybe I capable of juggling 2-3 stuff at a times,or maybe I was just thinking too much when things actually not that hard as I thought they are,or maybe I just being NORMAL & should worry about it!Well I hope weekends at home will sure help me in deciding,or again..maybe I just should delay it! :)
me,confuse+dilemma+dizzy = tiny little thing called...
When there are enough reasons in this world now days for people start fighting with each other or even bombing other nation as easy as A,B,C there is something that connect us no matter which walk of life are we from, the colour of our skin or even kind of upbringing we have during our growing years which is MUSIC. I am a very universal listener when it comes to music,just throw me any rhythm or melody from whatever language it is formed I can just enjoy it no matter if I don't even understand a word as long as it goes easy in my ears!It can be range from R&B,ballade,jazz(most fav!),rock,hip hop,etc.
We used to think and believe that(we still are actually!)the West won't recognized East talent no matter how hard we tried, how far we reach!They say the skies are the limit but even we reached certain level,we know for a fact that the power of entertainment industry which is belongs to the Hollywood won't stand up and applaud or give us some tokens of acknowledgment but this things is about to change when my favourite composer A.R.Rahman won 2 Oscars at the recent 81st award for Best Score and Best Original Song for the much talked about movie of this year,SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!Its about time for the man known as Mozart of Asia as well as India in particular and Asia in whole to received this kind of recognition for the great works they have done all this year!Its the perfect time for him to get his due!
I watched the ceremony as well as the after party shows at Oprah's,(cant stand the sight of her,move her body like the Bollywood dancers,haha)Jay Leno's,etc and the moment he performs is like everyone in the auditorium and world are singing our lungs out,call me DRAMA QUEEN if you want but what the heck that is what I was and am feeling even now!I love Dreams On Fire,Latiqa'a Thema and ofcourse Jai Ho(means may victory be yours,indeed it has!).I have always be smitten by the works by A.R.Rahman,from chaiyya chaiyya to kabhi kabhi aditi(which has been my ringing tone for the longest time ever,pza also loves it!).Kemo also loves Guzarish :) That speaks a lot right,because these people dont even listen to Hindi songs before, I mean not as avid as I am!:p
As a director wannabe I always searching or keen in watching good movies,Slumdog Millionaire(S.M) is 1 of it,but first I want to find the book 1st because its always been said that a book/script always sounds/picturised better than the screeplay or the acting itself. 'Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind' also in my list right now,thanks to Ranbir & Imran.Its a good year for me to learning new stuff as I did started few things already,I'll sum up later maybe after the 1st quarter of this year end.I will be 21 years old soon so its now or never.
p/s : Happy 21st Birthday to Kcot, wish we'll remain as crazy as we were before all of us turn 21 (",)
Nothing for the past fortnight give me that required boost of spirit to start writing a new entry for my blog except yesterday's article in NST,where as usual I was going through the EPL extra when I'm like so far way disconnected from the football world.Usually the longest time I skipped watching EPL games was like 1-2 weeks but this time around its been like 1 full month.All Red Devils supporters dont forget tonight Final Carling Cup!GLORY..GLORY UNITED!Well..well people that is not the point here,what I'm trying to focus on here is the article titled 'DIRTY TALK' where the interview was joined by the well known activist who are women btw as well have the privileges and opportunities to stand up for the women rights.
When we talk about helping out women why is it called feminist?Doesnt it sounds like we are hating the other gender to the max?When we are actually NOT,we just asking for what we deserved if not as much maybe more than the male are getting right now. When we have to still fighting for our own deserving rights sounds like we are not in that so called fast forward of the 21st century,does it?Why does people take women for granted when we are far more superior than men in terms of many ways,this is not my words but I quote in by reading and watching a lot of shows where men openly confessing this fact so what went wrong?In the real world as hard as its to believe there are actually numbers groups of people who volunteering working towards and for others women's independence without asking any renumeration,in now days scenario where money taking over love and materialistic seems as the IN thing it is hard to digest this fact isnt it?But believe me that work is as noble as a teacher or doctor,that is my personal p.o.v though :)
An activist or humanist will be a more appropriate choice for these brave ladies who when there is no one dare enough in throwing out their piece of mind these ladies come and speak their volumes up,when there is no support nor backup from the people that should do their job,they lend their shoulder and dedicated their time,money and energy in order to provide all those battered, hopeless and abandoned women but what do they get in return?Hatred and bad talking from the society,its easy to pointing fingers at others when what you do all this while is just sit and talk(mock is the right word I guess), if you think it is that easy well stand up and speak up your mind.Will you?Please do so! Im not perfect either but at least I'm trying my best to put my perspective in the same way of direction as their's.
This topic is been brought up mainly because all those people asking about why dO i named my blog the way I did.Simple,it defines me!Ok,sometimes about the sarcastic part I dont even realised it was there but friends are the one who always remind me(thats what they are for right?to make sure our feet planted firmly on the ground)how I deserved the 'Queen of Sarcasm's' title but being me I wont realised till the minute they say 'OMG/OUCH, you're being mean & sarcastic,AGAIN!'.For the 2nd part of my blog's title which is single,ermmm thats my status.Which part of it is hard to understand?duhhh~hahaha...
I strongly think when we have so many love in our life insyaALLAH we will never go wrong.But when we specifically talking about serious relationship it takes time,effort and physically&mentally prepared to be in it.Because we need to put as much dedication to nurture the love we get same as we did the time we're looking for it.I would love to stand by my opinion that there can never be a 3rd person who brings problem or put an end to a relationship,only when the 2 persons involved doesnt love each other anymore than is when the 3rd person issues will be created by them. As I wrote/describe myself in about me section Im a huge relationship phobic I've ever known so there it goes.A lot of people ( read : friends!) keep asking about my so called invisible boyfriend at every chance they have especially at our reunion or any hangout session but..I'll make it into a conversation so that you can get a glimpse what am I going through being a single lady all this time and its getting serious and hard being one these days.And below are some excerpts of the conversation faced by a single girl :-
On 1 not so fine reunion day... friend : (after exchange warm hugs,air kissing,and all that this is the main question ask by most acquaintances) hey cheda,whats up?OMG,u look slimmer compare to the last time we met!(yeah,i wish!just added this 1 to make it more fiction.hahaha)
me : fine,tq but i know u just saying that*blushing*how r u?hows ur life?
friend : great,so u'r coming here alone?wheres ur bf?
me : (tersenyum malu T_T) then I say 'no lah,where got bf'
friend : u'r lying!no need to lie us lah.
me : (mocking them in my heart) "If u dont want to believe me better dont ask next time!"hahaha..then as usual the cunning me will change the topic in a heart beat and no one will ever realised that.
So far I have all the love I need for now,what about you?
Sarah just said to us that the theme song in Spa-Q 2 is so like describing our situation right now and the title above have been my shout out at YM and MSN for the past 2 weeks.Ok,it may not be related but believe me as we go through it will.Hopefully.We are not fans of Datuk Siti Nurhaliza but we do love some of her works,and the latest one listed in our list.The song title is 'Cinta Padamu' and the lyrics are so perfect to fit this moment that I can used the phrase of art imitates the life of us,coincidently.I hate this feeling and this cold air that I've experienced before during our foundation days,but lucky as we can called it that we FLWbers stick together during ups and downs and through thick & thin especially Debob,Z,Fif,and us the Sweet Bunch & The Cots.Alhamdulillah,nothing till date can make us to be those we'r not fancy of in this life.Its not that before we dont fight and all that but we never give it a chance to become an insurmountable obstacle between us,we know each other very well to get affected by those old lame rumours.Really pray that this mayhem will go away.Far away!
Each year on this day made me wonder how good life will be if Nenek Jo still around :) Miss nenek every moment!3 years ago when she left us forever I thought that I will never be able to survive or move on but I guess I was wrong because who said once they are no more in this world they will be forgotten forever.Far at sight but really close in our heart:) I miss those days when we used to talk on the phone every Friday(since I was 5 because that is the time I discovered how easy to used the telephone,hehe),when we used to eat ice-cream every time we watch Hindi movies together(nenek introduced me the lime+vanilla ice-cream),and those moments we went to market and mocking the Apek who wouldnt give us cheaper price for pyjamas..Basically I miss every minute I've spend with nenek!When you are not coming from a big family like me,you will, believe me appreciate and cherish every and each relationship that you have in your life.But Im not saying that people who do have big family doesnt do that,it just that from my perspective for this past 20 years I do attached to people quite easily ONCE I know for sure I love them and they are among the best thing happen in my life.Im so dependent on my parents(ayah & along most of it) makes me feel that its hard to make it in this concrete jungle who doesnt give a damn about TLC when you feel down.That is why I love all my close friends very...very dearly!Thanks for bear with me all this time,Im just being me.hehe..Hope to be friends till......basically FOREVER!
As it will be damn hard for me to put the whole experience before and after the journey to and in Perlis in writing so I will put pictures and caption for each of it:) Plus since coming back from the most happening kg there;Kg.Perit I dont feel like writing much because there are like thousands of pictures in my collection so let them do the talking ok.And this would be probably my longest post till date.
~15TH jAN 09 : We during the Fasi Camp,suppose to be learning&training session for us who listed to be the Fasi at primary/secondary school at Perlis INSTEAD it became the monkey camp!we've been attacked by the hungry&disturbed monkeys!!!S.C.A.R.Y!
~17th Jan 09 : The day we're leaving for Perlis,still window shopping for bigger bags/backpacker/roller bag!And some of stuff that needed by most girls which is like nitty gritty stuff like mini container for all the toiletries.Plus before that we were put into quarantine in the exam hall and need to sit there and finished a set of Modern Math questions paper as we are the chosen 1 to become the Math teacher(GOD,save the kids at the school!haha)In the process I meet some POYO friends who think they are math genius when they are not,hahaha..that include us kcot!:p
~On the journey to Perlis 9.40pm until 8.40am the next day we've taken quite some pictures also which completely shows of the excitedness in us(OK,ME!)of going to a REAL kampung for the 1st ever time in my entire life!The first picture basically all of us the girls who went there except for the girl who taken the picture,SORRY:P then the 2nd one is me and my partner in love+crime,miss kcot who sitting beside me in the bus.Than we atleast stopped at 3 R&R(Rehat&Rawat)which are at Seremban,Bukit Merah and Gurun to pray and get some refreshment.
~ 18th & 19th Jan 09 :
The adventurous started the moment we land our huge bags, haha..on the land of Kg.Balik Guar and heading to the Balai Raya where the opening ceremony took place.Moment of truth was when my name been announced by the MC with 2 others name who is my foster sister;Sal & Put(THE BEST SENGETS!) and then and there we met our foster parents En.Desa bin Seman & Pn.Rokiah bt Ismail and guess what we get the most warmest welcome by Mak.:) Then that night after prayers at the mosque we ate kuih-muih made by Mak Lang(Azmi's mak),and all of them were deliciously finger licking good man!The best seri muka till date,yumm..yumm..make my mouth watering even thinking about it!The next day sports division started our 1st job which is set up the much awaited DT race which I can said after last minute alteration it run quite a success.Regardless what others might think,Im very proud with my team.On the event all the contestants(4 groups of 5-7)have to find route using the clues we've prepared around the Kampung and the winner is Nonot's team!Karim & some of other international had to be excluded in certain checkpoints,poor them:)
~20th Jan 09 : Today I do not join the IT workshop at both schools(SK Chuping & SMK Dato Jaafar),obviously its because of my lack of IT streak,in short for my kuno-ness.So as the peson in charge for all indoor activities we went to the kindergarten for our colouring contest and given away the huge hampers to the tiny but talented kids:) Then its all about wrapping the hampers and fr the 1st time I tried my hand on carom game,me and my partner Izzat and look like this is 1 of those thing I dont have talent in!hahaha,all scores scored by Izzat! T_T
~21st Jan 09 : I am Miss Cheda the Faci & Teacher for the Form 5 students at the secondary school,never imagined I'll be in this position not even in my dream!I dont think I have the quality of a good Teacher or a Faci which is for me PATIENT!The students were very down to earth,superwarm it almost feels like they had know me for years before,seriously.The attached to you quite easily and fast,we still keep in touch till today,I wish hem all the best for SPM as well as future.Dont let the talks bring you guys down,just remember the 'I Believe I Can Fly' moment and it will make you guys feel invigorated all over again.Evening is when we show our hardworking side by joining the villagers in gotong-royong held at several places around kampung,joined by representative from CIMA(Cement Industries Malausia Berhad) who was our biggest sponsor thanks to Saiful & the whole team of sponsorship division,well job guys.Do you think I stay till the end?Yes,the answer is NO.Our parents took us to the Padang Besar!weehoooo:)Sal bought the whole jersies store,haha..then ayah brought us to eat the most famous dish in Perlis which is Pulut Ayam. Before the full rehearsal of Malam Kebudayaan took place that night,Im so proud of myself that at last I've learnt how to ride a motorcycle,thanks to Cikgu Fateen and supports from the crowd(Sarah,Not & pakcik2 kampung).This is absolutely my 1st step in pursuing my dream in getting license for huge bike,damn excited!And the 1st time also I karoake along with the girls.
~22nd Jan 09 : Never will I forgot all the love I've received from the Perlis students,I will really cherish the experince for the time me being the Faci to them.If not because it really does happened to me myself I wont ever believe that LOVE spread that easily and that it attached close to your heart the moment we click with others.Now do I strongly believe that 'strangers are only people than not yet become our friends'.(",) Being link to someone:) Gossip momento!haha..Malam Kebudayaan is truly a bight to remember,Mohabbatein 's violin tune from the mini orchestra grabbed my attention the most and obvioulsy my own perfomance,duhhh:p Congrats to Not and Pza from all of us!Each of perfomances were a treat,all gave their best in the spirit of M.B DT 09. Around of applause to Pza & Nik for the mind blowing back drop as well as stage design,we love!Photography session was unevitable being us,so all night long continue till 1-2 am we posing here and there and I would like to take this opportunity to thanks from bottom of my heart to my personal cameraman,Tandi.hehehe..he been very responsible since the start of DT till the end,TERIMA KASIH BANGAT YA!
~23rd Jan 09 : All we do was eat on this day,the event was Kenduri Sekampung.We cooked and worked together with the aunties/uncles from both kampung,1 cow sponsored by CIMA unfortunately I dont eat beef soup nor all the veggies & ulam but being there itself give me satisfaction of hanging around people that I care the most.Me and Put travel across other district to meet my juries for tomorrow event,alhamdulillah all my work settled without much delay nor major problem.After helping them with the coconut thingy and give to Shahmi's house our foster parents took us to Bandar Kangar,ronda2 and eat the very nice 'pasembor'.It kind like rojak but with noodle and not so thick gravy.Today is the eve before my/our biggest event which is the Family Day DT09 tomorrow.Every single things need to be taken care today itself,Juza falls sick.I had minor nervous attack,so worried whether everything will go smoothly as we planned.We had Forum Perdana at night,the topic was family and here and there touched about the Gaza issue.Somehow I felt that the panels do not make each subtopic connected in a right direction,just an opinion.
~24th Jan 09 : The DAY!Aerobic & poco2 were the best part until I almost broken my glasses & finger in the netball games still doesnt make us the WINNER!haha..Indoor part was tense but still manageable with the help of Kak Ana,Kak Ros and Jannah,May GOD bless them.Tradisional activities were fun to be watched as well as laughed at the people spontaneous bahaviour during the game.:) We enjoyed throughout the day although damn exhausted!The closing night was a huge success thanks most importantly to Head Of Marketing,Sarah who without her none of these things are possible to be achieved in a short time under pressure somemore.
~25th Jan 09 : FLASHBACK took place,we cant believe its the end of the road of journey for us!The 1st day was a bit tough but the last day was tougher,tears follow the goodbye moment.:( Going to miss foster family,the kampung and the life there!NEVER will I let go this sweet experience slipped from my memory.HATE to say this but seriously deep in heart I will miss both my crazy+cenget foster sisters too,they're the best I could asked for.No one to quarrel with during breakfast,lunch or dinner.No more bed sharing and no more all those stupid jokes moment between us.I'll miss all the people who directly or indirectly contribute to the warmness in their smile and attitude.Tour around Perlis;went to Padang Besar again get souvenirs,Gua Kelam and journey continues to KL.
~26th Jan 09 : ZzzzzZZZZZ + Hahahahaha + Clik..clik = 3am reached home after sent Pza and Yusof.Hugs and kisses with all for the last time before we heading to enjoy(TRY TO!) the rest of holiday before new sem started.
Wow,its been what..like 3 weeks since the last time i dropped by here,and i feel really good to be back home sweet home.But still I do miss the other home,family and sisters.The Perlis chapter will always remain one of the sweetest memories in my life,ever!I'll post some of the pictures from the 2 weeks journey later because somehow not in the mood just yet,thanks to my injured finger I guess,hehehe(the other reason being that I left hp USB back at E.P) 1 part I hate the most is this oily and darker skin,arghhh!It just wont go away no matter how hard I scrub everyday :p Obviously not 1 of my plan this year to turn into a ugly duckling AGAIN!
Hard to make a summary when every inch of the experience feel hard to let go,for the past 1 year I think that was the best time I've spend and socializing with people,I had a blast for that period and hopefully our relationship between foster parents,sisters and the whole committee as well as members of Desa Tercinta 2009 will bond forever even if we will not join the next DT event because I cant afford to open my heart to other family as mine is the best a foster child could have,Alhamdulillah...May GOD bless them,insyaALLAH :) I've learn alot from the process making this event a successfull one,congrats to sarah for all the hardwork which paid off when the closing saw the arrival of Chief Minister of Perlis,bravo to nora for the really nice poems,hoorey to pza for the mind blowing backdrop,last but not the least to ksya well done for being the best MC.Not to forget to all the High Com ofcourse who without them none of these will be able to fulfilled,especially toSports Divisionwhere I appreciate every and each of the members.Thanks to Juza for giving me this opportunity and for bear with me all this time and to Ucop,Bob,Haziq,and Duang I'll miss you guys.I have such a great time being one of the boys,hehehe..
I know this might been way to late but I miss you man!1 of my bestfriend had left Malaysia to pursue her studies at New Zealand,man ( Siti Alya ) thanks for the I miss you notes!Our hangout will never be the same,as one by one of you guys had fly away and left me alone :( Enough of sad mode,I wish the best for us dunia & akhirat ok!
p/s : to all who invovlved in the making of the story above,sorry for anything that might hurt your feeling with my jokes or gestures!:) Happy New Semester,ALL THE BEST!
me,hate this sparained finger and broken spectical!
They made my 16 journey so sweet and 5 years after they still make me feel good being a Malaysian teenager who don't really have superb English because we can always campur-campur our language maa! They made my night never been the same again,full of cheerful&laugh all the way mid night hour.Im talking about my favourite ever TV host Rina & Phat Fabes of the 8TV Quickie team,on the 1st day of New Year of 09 they left the show after effortless put a smile on millions of viewers faces(including mine!).
So sad for not having the opportunity in watching them again make a fool of themselves day after day,talking to callers as if they know us long enough like a buddy and all that were just to make the show full of life,I'm going to damn miss that!Seriously!I dont just like them for all the prizes I've won(grateful though!) but also just being themselves on national television,infront of thousand they just being the normal shorty Rina O and the fatty Phat.
I learn alot from them and the most important thing that I do strongly believe is that no matter what and how your look is it shouldnt be a barrier of how far can you go in searching and fulfilling your dream.Other host may come and go(Adam,Marion,Kesh,Edlin,Aisyah,Razif,Belinda,Henry,Prem&Zehr)but there will be no other like both of them,in short QUICKIE wont be the same anymore!They wont be quickie after all because the 15 minutes will felt like forever to reach the credit moment.There's nothing different about them after this,I may still watch and support them but not as full hearted as I did before.Merely because the pioneer or the important pieces are not there anymore :(
I may have forgotten to include this one in my new year resolution.I guess it just meant not to be change forever,in my life at least.Hehehe :p But on the serious note,I do want to study and have revision like normal student does,which is on daily basis.
Oh come on,who really does that?Seriously?(not anyone that I know so far,not even the Cots!kidding girls!)If there is,he/she must have been originated out of this galaxie,okay fine Debob/Sha/Azam/Cva(just to name a few) are among that clan but that is because they are born genius![being a modest girl I am :) ]
Ehmm,my goal next semester(as this semester already comes to its end with FINAL starting tomorrow) is to endeavor to have consistent revision hour every single day(back to old days at school,yes as hard as for you guys to believe it I'm quite organize+diligent back then!) I don't have to sit at my desk and read books/acts/cases from cover to cover but to possibly make sure I understand thoroughly rather than memorising it for the sake of answering exam papers!But for us it just inevitable right to read the notes till the 11th hour,nevertheless if there a wish there will be a way somehow.
It really a big deal for me simply because we're going to be a 2nd year student in couple of weeks!How scary man with the line up of super intimidating(in a truly good ways actually)lectureres like the Dean of School of Law;the strict Madam Flora Techner,My Academic Advisor;the cool Madam Isabella Wong,the Constitutional expert;Dr.Ahmad Masum and others.Interesting part is that I'm going to be a dancer next semester(insyaALLAH)for my choice of co-curriculum and guys this is the time for me to shows off my hidden talent!Hahaha.Cant wait,seriously!Till next semester,I'll be updating the level of hardworkingness.
Universal language for LOVE it is(for me atleast!)
Its that time again, I met him,loved him,lost him, And we met again, This time he is completely stranger, By my choice, I can see him smilling, Yet still I walked away, Yes,love does hurt.
Its that time again, Our 'song' on the airwaves, I love it, Humming all the way, Bring back good memories, As well as the bad one, Yet still I switch off the radio, Yes,love does hurt.
Its that time again, 40 full moons have passed by, But why does the same name appear, Why the pain still there, Why the scars still visible, Why the tears still dropping, Why is there no space for new love, Yes,love does hurt.
Its that time again, He WAS my friend, And it stays that way, Aah,just let it go! But I cant,why? Because,Love does hurt.
Last year sure did end pretty fast(we tend to repeat the same thing year after year don't we?)but seriously time flies in a blink in 2008,I cant believe that it almost a year we spend as Degree Law student and as well as have been a Malacca resident for that period (have to not that I want to!).I want to go straight and just listing up my so call new RESOLUTIONS for this brand new year of 2009!
1 thing for sure this time I want to get it right,not that completely fully right but if I could accomplished at least half of it than it would be such satisfying as if I fulfilled all of it.The same sense of victory I would say if I able to achieve,but we will see with my perseverance and GOD's willing whether all the wanting can be pull off successfully.Here it goes :
It is important for me to LOVE myself before I love others so; I want to be a better Muslim,citizen,daughter,sister,student,friend,in all I want to improved myself as a PERSON!In order to become a better person in whole I need to get rid this short-temperness of mine,hate it not just because the higher B.P from day to day(hahaha!) but also want to eradicate the negative side of me!Its crucial for me as well to just be ME(the usual flamboyant+nonchalantly cHeda) without need to portray someone else's image and personality just because its cool to do so.
Develop a more serious view in what I am currently studying,LAW it is. Crucial for me to expand my skills & knowledge for future benefit.Hopefully I can have proper schedule starting 2nd year,most vital thing is to actually FOLLOW it rather than have 1 without practising it.
Pick up on my reading,I guess its about time since I do think I enjoy reading for the last couple months of last year. Amcorp Mall sure have numbers of book store that selling affordable reading material from a lot of field whether its teenage novels,investigation kind a type,biographies,etc.Plus want to master some of languagesthat I love to use in daily life as well as been influenced from the movies,tv serial or short films I watched all this time.
Financialstability.Yes and no(recession factor).Basically Im turning 21 this year so I do think I need to increase my bank balance,don't want to just rely on Ayah or festive angpaus but I should have my source for financial as well right.Wish for a more luck this year in joining whatever contest so that there's posibility in me joining the businesswomen clan.Hahaha..But on the serious note,insyaALLAH no more wasting money on baseless stuff.
Wardrobe makeover.No explanation needed.
Exercise and healthy lifestyle.Same here,just need to be more consistent and full of determination as I believe in myself.
Live life to the full.Now the priority would be to focus on things that I've always passionate about so I want to try my hands on all the things I always dreamt of such as outdoor activities,learning instruments,go out and meet new people,etc.Should stop hesitate and just go for it you know,because all this time so much of delaying took place and nothing seems to work out.
Seriousness.Take my role of film critic and a wannabe movie director more seriously,want to have basic and complete knowledge(try to!)in movie making.I always been a movie buff and always have my point of view so why not I try to made it my bread and butter,maybe as a 'part time job'.Who knows what will happened untill I try right,so thats what exactly I will do.
Dreams.I cant remember since when,but always been a travel&living huge fan so savings starting now on so that I could cross the globe when time is right.EPL,world cup and others extravaganza sports events also are under my list place to be.
Passion.Basically this is related to the point above,desiredly want to turn my hobby/enthusiasm in living or breath in the Bollywod world or for collecting its bits and pieces into something that people appreciate or at least value as time goes by.
I love my family to death so I desperately from day to day always want to impress them and made them happy in every way I involve.
Thats it for now,hope this new year give me new spirit in discover new world out there! HAPPY NEW YEAR:)
I believe everyone hate the feeling of loosing someone or something that we love,or anything that very close to our heart and life.But whatever it is,I want to believe that everything happen for a reason.There is always a silver lining behind dark cloud.I don't consider myself as full optimistic because sometimes I do act or feel pessimistic towards this life,whoever says life is fair I think they need to rethink!It is very disheartening to see people leaving us no matter how close or not we were to that particular person,maybe we just being human and cry for times that we think the tears need to come out but the truth is we scare..not sure what but something,the thought that our loved one walk out from our live is scary enough for me, at least.Regardless our skin color,beliefs,religion and even which part of the world we are from, still we will or we did experience such feeling right.And obviously its not the best feeling to go through!To those out there who needs condolences just remember that all this comfort wont be there with you forever,just chin up look forward and live life to the fullest ok.That is what Im going to do in this brand new year,no more hesitation(only when it need to be there then..)
p/s: AL-FATIHAH for arwah Mohd Izzuddin Khair.Amin.
Where should i start?Owh let me start with clearing up some issue,sthere are people who questioning my fanaticness,obsession, fascination or whatever they want to name it for someone named Shahrukh. All of that are wrong choices of words actually,exact one would be LOVE,Je Taime(expressing it in french!)haha,cant understand where does I get this gene of adoring the art called Bollywood!Not a single person in my family understand(or atleast try to!),but I love ayah and along for always supporting my passion not directly(no way they will follow me for movies,etc).Except once i did lie literally to along,but technically it was her fault for not asking me what movie we are going to watch that particular day hahaha,funny incident!Should see her reaction once the light goes off and there were the actors who she completely tried hard to avoid.But indirectly they are the spine behind my fixation :) mama & boboy too quite a adherent number of times!
Well well,today I went to pyramid to catch the latest product by the famous combo Adi-Shahrukh-YahsrajFilms(to those who are totally,absolutely&wholly no idea what am i talking about..they are the reason behind supersuccess of DILWALE DULHANIA LE JAYENGE!Please tell me you guys did heard about this movie atleast once in your lifetime?!)Its ok,if never heard about it before..REMEMBER,im the 1 who told you guys ok!Lets make way for me the movie critique :
STORY OF A LAYMAN.To all ordinary people out there.From the perspective of a normal person.Those 3 sentences kind a summed up my view on this movie,Shahrukh once again play himself(if you want someone else,than go watch someone else!)but this time he just playing a middle class guy who works in a 4x4 cubicle in the office,who friends are just ordinary like any Tom,Dick and Harry,his house extra normal and not as gigantic and out of nowhere like those in 1 of Karan's movies.Plainly he is not the super charming RAJ or Rahul again this time!Good news right.The performance,dialogues,songs,scenes,screenplay are just simply at the right place and at the right time.Love the debutant also,Anushka is better than Deepika(personal opinion!).She had no qualms in acting opposite the biggest star in the fraternity,by that she scored big time!Wish all the best for her in the Filmfare next year.OMG2,the moment Kajol appeared I was like "they are so made for each other"and enjoy throughout the songs as well the movie.And seriously all it takes is just Kajol's cameo appearance for less than 5 minutes for the audience to completely forgot about the debutant!
In short Shahrukh has again proved his mettle and yet another jem from the King himself.His not the boy next door anymore but the normal geek who happened to be super cute!After all what do we expect from Adi other than emotional,sensitif,and romance saga although cant reach the same like the predecessor one.All in all i give 2 thumbs up after a long time!Maybe I'll consider to go and watch it for the 2nd time as i have exta 1 free stub,it has been forever since I want to try the new cinema at Capsquare so maybe that is my next destination!
First of all let meapologize for those(as if there's anyone who read my blog!)who feel irritates or annoys with the audio of Shahrukh's new movie..bottomline is do i CARE?NO!ngehehe,how mean right..but i love this widget,cant help it!okay,the reason for this posting is because the big day tomorrow..
REMINDER!
DATE : 26TH DECEMBER 2009; TOMORROW!
VENUE : PYRAMID
PARTIES : ME & SHAHRUKH
STATUS : MR&MRS KHAN TILL ETERNAL :)
p/s: MERRY XMAS to all my friends who celebrating this joy celebration..hope everyone having a blast after quite a hectic year!GOD BLESS..
Yesterday night,the night before Raya Haji i fought AGAINwith Boboy!This time he sure had cross the limit,i was so pissed of with him but never thought(ok,i did!)at that point of time he will do & said that to me.I'm his sister although he always treat me like I'm his brother maybe because I'm not as feminine or soft like Along but that is not an excuse for him not to respect me!This is not the 1st time we fight,yell or curse each other but after all these years I had enough.I'm so sad,me and Along actually cried because of his rudeness but he remains the same,HEARTLESS!I don't want to end up like not talking to each other for more than 2 years(its not Along fault at all!),like ayah said we are the only family we have so why cant we act like 1.I hate him!Call me childish if you want but I'm not jealous or whatsoever I just think like a sister should!
I dont really give a damn about him but it such a devastating for me to just watch without doing anything his bad manner towards my parents and when ayah and mama feel sad each time we quarrel like there is no tomorrow.I scream my lungs out every time his rudeness doesn't affect him at all,for GOD sake his not a child anymore why cant they get it!Just because his the only 1 staying at home that does not give him the passport in doing so,talking.screaming rudely to ayah and mama!I'm not saying I'm the angle in the house but sometimes someone need to teach him a lesson or two,cant simply act the same way when you were like 3 years old!I know my parents love us equally(there'r occasions where I've doubt it!:p)
ayah,love you till death!
I love my parents to death,maybe I'm the most emotional child to them but GOD knows how deep is my love for them as they are the only family I have,for a 20 years old girl I'm quite non dependent when it comes to surviving in the world or home without my ayah and mama! All I do is want to give them as many happiness as I could,I may not declare my worship for them from the roof top but they know whatever it takes for me to fight for their love or attention I will do it!I may not the best daughter in the world but 1 thing I will never stop to do is trying to be 1,for their eyes atleast :) One thing for sure they are thebest parents a girl can have!With the new year just around the corner I wish I will be a better person all around!
First of all congrats to Shahrukhfor this award,he had been knighted with Datukship for those who came in late.No one else(in Malaysia at least) feel as happy+excited+thrilled for him as i am!I may be the unofficial Datin for him but he is always the official King Khan in my heart,*wink*!At the ceremony I seriously think he looks sharp and charming in those baju melayu and samping,it cant be more perfect than black can it?Regardless what people have been criticizing since the news came out I always support the idea because they don't know the true reason behind it,or they pretend do not know about it as they just cant accept the fact some one else get the title without having to pay for it!This Bollywood heartthrob really deserve it,period!
srk : where are you cheda,i need you now in this special occasion :p
What made me feel so bad was that we were actually so close yet so far away because of the dates and information misunderstanding,the ceremony took place at a place that very close to my place in Malacca plus all the route he went,all the places he visited are all there right infront of me!This sad+disappointed+heart broken feeling wont leave me at least for the next 3-4 weeks, I really need times to swallow this bitter fact,arghhhhhhh!Hope he will fulfilled his promise to come back,at near future hopefully(I know he will!)Never felt so distressing about leaving Malacca for home but this time it really torn my heart in pieces :( But its ok i think,GOD sure have better plan for me in future(insyaALLAH).Glad Shahrukh took this opportunity to talked about Islam and tackle the issue of jihadin relating to the Mumbai blast 26/11,well spoke I must say.I know people out there sure will argue about his stand when it comes to religion,he may appears to be not a perfect muslim but who are we to judge?Are we perfect ourselves in this sense,honestly?He is like so intelligent,smart and brilliant for me as he thinks and talks really super fast and all got substance not just politically correct.
He may be Raj or Rahul in the reel life but you can't miss that effervescent winsome charm that serenades your affectionate attention effortlessly even in the real life!He may not have the greek god looks nor the abs like a washboard but he will always be MY SHAHRUKH forever eventhough he is a Datuk now.Here comes the hindi part,hehe :) PYAR woh hameesha!
I always knew there's a hidden talent deep down inside me (so selfproclaimed didnt i?)but what the heck i know i adore the world of directing not as a bossy but in the art field i meant.Movie buff as well as tv's addict but for a reason which is i have a secret and ambitious dream of becoming a FILM DIRECTOR one day!I love the work of Yasmin Ahmad the most when it comes to local talent(she's really well known across the globe as well!)not because all the controversies made up by the medias but i think without doing so much she actually did awesomely many things,means simple but perfect to the T!From China i really fond of works done by Wong Kar Wai where simplicity brings us to the root itself where we don't have to look far away from our daily life itself!Khabir Bhatia and his better half,Mira are also among those who influenced the types of my directing school will look like.Hollywood wise im sure there are tons of talented director,hard to really have a pick!
Don't know where the future will lead me after graduated with degree in law but NYC is always be part of my plan,im in my way of collecting,watching,living and absorbing every little inches of material in the world of cinema right now..im considering all the listed and suggested films by the well known director or the people who have dedicated their life in learning & breathing films(Ranbir and Imran that is)
Will start the storyline,cast,screeplay,songs(a must!)etc(cheWAhhhhh!) early next year,still brainstorming though..always been influenced by k.jo's classy+drama+romance+emotional type of story but i need or more to want to include social messages as for my satisfaction and we do need that don't we in this urban-i dont-even know-my neighbour's name-world because to create awareness about small things is harder than educate people about huge issues that has been always potrayed in daily soap opera/movies/ads,etc.Its takes effort,creativeness(lack in this department!),sincerity and so much more to make this works!Will i or wont i succeed just work,wait,pray and see :)
From writing to typing,it doesn't really change me much though..still cant avoid the trait of babbling non-stop for almost every post but if those days i have to think carefully before doodlling anything this time in this way modern world i can write,delete and write again..hehe :) Its really help me as a indefinite people who cant think straight of what to say,keep changing my mind every 3 seconds!I don't write stuff that might made the world shattering nor bring huge changes in this man eating world but at least i hope my thoughts(sound serious but believe me its NOT!) can add some salts,spices and sugar to our life :)
i hope by starting to be an avid reader(novels,even FILMFARE used such a great medium in delivering although it just gossips al the way! )i could improve my English,writing is easy but not communicating with such a full confidence!it makes me choke sometimes!hate it,because i know i can simply handle it without this unprepared nerve wrecking moments!
There were times where people who constantly blogging bugs me off,in short its kind a annoys me!i know..i know,for no reason why should i felt that way!for sure not because of jealousness,NO WAY because i admired them in some way(creativeness + ability to make people listen to you without have to speak!).Its not easy to do!Well for me,this blogging thing happen incidently,from a final project in our last sem of foundation in law till now it just a time pass for me.
But now officially,im ADDICTED to blogging..not at malacca(for some reason,read : Privateness) only at my home! :p dying to keep writing as cool thoughts as possible but only when i have time,don't want to keep writing for the sake of new entries!
In short it defines universal happiness for most of people,and i wont pretend that im not 1 of them..i am but maybe at different level of understanding and perception of the importance!its almost 4 in the morning,im not sure what am i babbling right now..haha..i would say money play such a massive part in our lives that sometimes im feeling like screaming my lungs out every time i cant afford to buy something that others can but you have to work for it right or else it wont come flying from the sky and straight to your bank account!i always plan to keep all my winning cash but at the end it wont fulfilled my wishes instead all of them will be spent to stuff that i cant even appreciate after a while(most of the time as fast as i reach home from shopping complex!)so because of im reaching the number 21 in 8 months i think it cant be more right time for me to start thinking about my future..i have a list of things i want to try my hands on before atleast i reach 30 years old,the question is do i have the capacity of fulfilling it..its all in my mind as well as my effort..hopefully if there's hardwork it will pays off 1 day..better be late than never!
HAJI
whatever for my family!
Charity that close to my heart
traveling backpackers,around the globe!
my dream houses & collection of cars and superbikes i fond of!
vacation abroad,luxury items!
my swatch collection!
wardrobe makeover!
BOLLYWOOD & srkajol
Manchester United & EPL
Master/Phd NY/Harvard in Law & Film Direction
Direct movies,become somebody in any field i LOVE!
*Devoted & dependent person who love her parents & family to death*A learning muslimah *Frustrated ex-science stream head girl*Lawyer in training*Millionaire in the making*Movie buff,t.v addict &music devotee*Bollywood fanatic*Movie Director wannabe*
