Anger management

There was a time when Ksya always said I need to meet someone regarding my anger management issue,and that time I always stand up for myself in defence saying I didn't have any anger issue or whatsoever.I have a wonderful childhood, fabulous friends,amazing family and colourful life so where does this question even comes from? End up I'll always bash her up until she developed this syndrome which only physically abused kids had,I'm not kidding.This sounds funny,it does look funny every time I saw her funny face and gestures trying to avoid everytime I raise my hand even if its just for a soft touch.Think about it now make me gelak terguling-guling.At the end of the day most of them started to follow Ksya's hypothesis that I definitely having anger issue.Its really boiled me inside, sometimes counting numbers in my head does help me to cool down a bit, then I come to a conclusion that actually I'm just super duper easily irritated by people and a bit of short tempered.So since we just celebrated our Muslim's new year again I keep a resolution to train myself to be patient and like Ayah said everytime I had a fight with Boboy;'If its not true,why must you react and start a fight?' and like Nasy said,'People don;t change in a day' so both make me even stronger to strive for my goal.InsyaAllah.I don't need a heart attack at such young age do I.

Rise above hate.- John Cena-

Stalker

I don't care.I don't care.I don't care.You can say it out loud for thousand of times but who are we trying to lie?We know we care.

Lain kali jangan stalk orang. Padan muka dah sakit hati dan marah membuak-buak. Lain kali jangan stalk orang kalau tak boleh nak handle or face the truth(how to say this in Malay without sounds weird?)

Serve you right.Padan muka.Tidur dengan rase jealous.Ingat lain kali jangan stalk orang no matter how bad you wanted to know about the person.

Stalker is a pass time job for penganggur.

Rockstar

I was so young when Shah Rukh Khan stole my heart,considering the age I didn't have the opportunity to watch all his works on silver screen since I started going to cinema at a later age,16. So when my heart was stolen for the 2nd time by this charming lad named Ranbir Kapoor I made a promise that will never missed his performance(except when they did not enter Malaysia screening),ever!This movie marked our 7th date together, he never disappoints me.Love his intense,naive,young rockstar with a heart broken that need to be mend and how he fell head over heels for this classic looking new actress named Nargis Fakhri knowing he'll be hurt.What else should I say about AR Rahman's magic touch,his music for me is like the only melody which I find it difficult for anyone not to love regardless the language.Enter my ears and stays in my heart.Completely addictive and bravo yet again to its director,Imtiaz Ali.He knows human's relationship like no one else.In short I'm in love with Ranbir all over again!

Tend to be bias to people I love,so watch it yourself to judge:)

KTM.

When we are in a uncontrollable rage,we tend to think that we actually would/could do something about it. Until much later we realised nahh, I won't be able to do that simply because I don't the time,power nor the money.Sigh.

Like few days ago when I had to wait for 1 and a half hour for that darn KTM to reach my station,I cursed whoever responsible for that situation although for the fact I have no idea who is that WHOEVER. I wish 1 day there will be no more KTM and all of them will be replaced by LRT,Star,Monorel,Putra or whatever that moves way faster than that siput babi KTM.


Then when I had to literally fight for life to get into the ladies couch as if I'm running for gold in Olympic again I had this monologue that when I'm rich enough I will buy my own couch for every public transport.Then the reality hits me,'when you are rich,why the heck you want to buy a couch of train when you can afford a driver to drive you around?' Ya,its kinda true.


While waiting for my train I had successfully 'explored' New Delhi and Mumbai, I bought those 2 tour guide book at a store near me just to kill my time. Thanks to all the hours put together waiting for KTM my whole life I've been around the world for free.Yesterday I went to German and Hungary.


This is just merely ranting of a lady with anger over her country's public transport, talking about this actually reminds me how I drive my parents and friends crazy for the fact that I refer to every single type of train as KTM. Frankly, I never bother to know what's the difference.They all look the same for me.lol.

I need a chauffeur ;)

Concerts

Its that time again,back being a concert promoter.Those who are interested to buy a pair of tickets to Pitbull's concert on the 1st December for a way cheaper price as well as a pair to Sir Elton John's on this coming 22nd November worth RM760,selling for RM600 but still can be negotiate.Contact me at tanisha_shrek@yahoo.com :)

Its the time to....dance!

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SOLD OUT!

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Exact feeling.

When I thought there's nothing GLEE can do to surprise me after 1 great cover to another, I was yet proven wrong. When they announced the Adele's week I had a preconceived notion that it won't do her justice but oh man I'm wrong again.This is 1 of the best episode so far,I always have loved Naya Rivera and with this Santana Lopez is going to stay around longer.I hope.Its simply mind-blowing. An awesome 3 mash-up songs of all time!

"Rumour has it...sometimes in last in love and sometimes it hurts instead...The scars of your love remind me of us,they keep me thinking that we almost had it all,the scars of your love,they leave me breathless,I can't help feeling that we could have had it all...You had my heart inside your hand,and you played it to the beat."

Define ME.

People say the nicest things when you informed them about something good happening or just happened,but 1 of the best and memorable words that I don't think I'll ever forget is that;"Just promise you won't stop being the colourful bubbly person you are once you step to the real world,that's really define who you are".

I do really appreciate it.Thank you SZ.When one hates you,just remember there are 7 billions other people out there.

Being ME.

Last words

When I listed down all the lecturers' names who has taught me over these 4 years, those who made this Degree of Law LLB (Hons) possible, there are around 20 plus but unfortunately some of them have left to a better place and great offer so when I'm back to get stuffs done its just some sort of token of appreciation to meet each and one of them personally with little gift and express my gratitude and just kinda getting their blessing in embarking towards this new phase.It was indeed so much fun meeting and chatting with them, it may be for the final time,their last words were so motivating and inspiring.Among those we able to catch up were:



Mdm J: She told us what to expect from a chambering period,what type of firms should we apply for,how to prepare ourselves before applying.She also informed us that she'll be involved in our ILKAP training in February.

p/s:Gulppp,you tell me whether its a good thing or a bad one.



Mdm.G: For me she's the epitome of what a real sincere teacher should be.Its always a pleasure listening to her words of advice,she's so motherly.I have such a respect for her,and her thoughts of how should we deal with our career,life and everything in between.

p/s: She explained to us the new MMU exam system,I'm sad and pity for those who will be suffering from now on because it seems lecturers have lost their immunity completely in protecting and fighting for students' rights.



Mdm.F: The way she took a whole minute looking at us with that proud(I think so) smile,and a huge sigh of relief and that big hug I guess that explains a lot.Time do flies is basically the essence of our conversation that time.Also her 2 cents on how we should dealing with the outer world after this,and how to always keep ourselves grounded and always respects others with respect no matter how big we become 1 day.She even reminded us that she's no longer the Head of Law School,as if we don;t know that.hahaha.

p/s: I beg to differ with ALL my seniors who kept putting thoughts in our innocent mind since our 1st semester of how bad,fierce,and mean our senior lecturers are when they completely OPPOSITE of everything what we've been told.I'm glad all the senior lecturers remember the early years of us there.



Mr.G: The 1st thing he asked was,(he always does,since my 1st year) 'you always in a group of your girls,so everyone is graduated already?'.He also reminiscing our early years,what subjects he taught us,and wish us luck and words of advice.

p/s: Will miss those little things like his trademark of hair flipping and rubbing his stomach while talking to us.



Dr.MZ: Why didn't you reply all my comments in your FB?You saw my comments on your album,regarding Pikaia?I'm pretty sure your friends would love to know more about that,why don't you post a video on that and tag Ms.Atikah?

Me: Owh..ermm..about that sir,I'm sorry maybe I've missed that 1 because there are too many notifications.(I feel bad but I promise will reply it soon,and see how I use my charm to change the topic!Successful attempt,phewww) Sir,take care and don't miss us too much that you liked 16 of my profile pictures in 5 minutes.hahaha

Dr.MZ: Laughing here.That's a great punching line to depart.

p/s: I rest you assured sir,NONE in my friend list would love to learn about ANYTHING Jurisprudence-ly in FB.They might deleted me after a while.lol.



Ms.A: She's the best!We can talk about anything under the roof with her,even she has been with us since 1st year and she's definitely our unofficial counselor.Her room is our comfort zone,once you go in you never want to leave that room.Yes,its that good.She will be missed dearly,the most I personally think.

p/s: Her vacation plan sounds so great that its inspired me to work hard and saving!




Dr.M: The second I entered the room.'What's with that cheeky smile?What are you up to?'

Me: God,no.There's no cheeky smile.You always have something against me aren't you?We are here to day hi,asking how are you doing.So please be nice.(enter cheeky smile here,haha)Its been quite a long time since we sit down and catching up,the last time you were just Ms.M to me but look at you now we call you Dr.M.

Dr.M: Ya,its been quite a time.Last time you were so skinny in my class,what happened now?You look bloated?(Moment of silent.here where I ran to the corner of the room and cry my heart out!she's mean and its an ugly truth pun.How can you hate her,so witty) What have you been doing,stop lazying around and do something worth will you?

Me: I will once the letter is out,now I'm just enjoying doing stuffs that I don't get to do in the last 4 years.

p/s: She asked about further education planning,tell her once we decided where to go,long distance relationship,Shah Rukh Khan and Delhi,and lots more. More sarcasms later we departed,but it always a fun and rejuvenating feeling meeting her.



p/s:She definitely has been 1 of my favourite although I'm not to her,but only her sarcasms can match mine and she always has something to rebut back and thus our sarcastic sense is kinda compatible with each other,but of course everytime I had to back off because at the end of the day she is my lecturer and she was the one who gave me grades right.So,give her chance lah.lol.



All my lecturers play such an important role in my life,eventhough like 1 of my friend said that we actually paid for our education thus over appreciation is not necessary but by doing this really makes me feel good about myself and moving forward.Hope to meet them soon,not with the student title anymore but somebody title.InsyaAllah,amin:)


Signing off,
A graduated Law Degree student.

Impolite

I'm not normally an impolite person nor I'm rude(I think!except with family members that's a whole different story),so when I'm being one I realised it quite fast and apologize to those who concern but in some situations I just need to wear the mask and act like one in order to let other feels good about their self because they are indeed a good person. An advise from a wise friend of mine; in order to let go and make someone move on, we have to ignore them totally no matter how hurtful it can be, let them hate you for their own benefit and they will eventually depend less on their feelings towards you and slowly will focus on other things. And when they have come to their senses, they will then understand your intentions. That is my pure and only sincere intention. I'm sorry.

Let go.

All praise for HIM :')

There has been few happy occasions lately,especially the convocations of my girls.Although its not my turn yet but I'm indeed very proud and happy for all of them.They are my person,who always wish me well and pray for my success as well. It feels like just yesterday we were still in school,I grew up with these girls and I'm so glad and excited to get the chance to be there and shared their happiness on their convocation day.I'm blessed to share the warm love from their big family as well,congratulations again girls!Love you all and wish you all the very best with future undertakings :)

And Alhamdulillah,syukur Ya Allah after celebrated Along and Boboy's birthday yesterday.1st of November and my jaan Shah Rukh today I received the long awaited good news.Syukur again,after 5 long years I am now a Law graduate.Its a suspense final semester though,but I'm so grateful for His blessing and everything in between.It seems my 'work' starts tomorrow,hope I'll get through 1 phase at a time.Amin.

I wish all my friends the best in whatever they decided to do:)

Unavoidable.

This is not the path of my choice,but I'll have to take the high road.
This is not my original plan,but I have to accept.
Sometimes you don't want to leave but sometimes you just have to learn how to.
Sometimes we want to stay,but sometimes we need to let go.
Don't make decisions when you're angry.
Don't make promises when you're happy.

Unforeseen circumstances.

Lights&colours

It's not always easy to speak your mind, sometimes you need to be forced to do it. Sometimes, it's better to just keep things to yourself, play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So you shut your mouth, keep your secret, and find other ways to keep yourself happy.They say the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity, it's probably true. But sometimes, it's the only way to stay alive.

All these lights and bright colours will only mean something if my words were taken at how sincerely I meant it.

Are we ready?

Months of anticipation at last coming down to the final 3 days!Planning for a wonderful Diwali this year since I've missed all the happiness and fun of Raya thanks to final exam.It shall starts with a date with my love ♥

Completely loving all the songs esp dil dara :)

13 years.

This date 13 years ago when I was just 10 years old, a movie which continues to be my favourite ever movie until today was released.Since then KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI has joined the league of my ultimate love stories and KARAN JOHAR has me as his loyal fan for life.I personally think he is the best debut director Bollywood ever produced with 10 Filmfare awards in that year.Try to beat that!I fell head over heels again for Shah Rukh that time,and no doubt Kajol remains as my one and only favourite actress from the Indian fraternity.There's nothing that I dont like about the movie,absolutely nothing because from my eyes KKHH is perfect to the T.From my bias judgement this is an epic love story considering the fact I still can watch it again and again although I've watched for only God knows how many times.


With this I'm ending this entry with the most endearing quote that I love from the first time I heard Rahul said it in the movie;


"Hum ek baar jeete hai ek baar marte hai shadi bhi ek baar hoti hai aur pyaar...ek hi baar hota hai"

Tum nahi samjoghe,aaj bhi kuch kuch hota hai ♥

God is Great.

I just don't want to leave this place,to be back in the concrete jungle where everything moves fast,everyone in a hectic life,and every single things cost you. I hate packing luggage and unpacked them all over again, I rather stuck in this island forever and living my Hawaii Five-O kinda life,because it seems so wonderful here.Everywhere I turn I cant's stop saying MasyaAllah because he is the great painting of these breathtaking scenery.1 day when I start making my own money I would love to travel to all the beautiful islands. I'm always in awe of the sea's creatures, there are so many beneath it that drive the curiosity out of me every time I'm in the middle of it.

There's a life underneath the sea,so much to discovered:)

I'm a BIG girl.

Emilia- Big Big World

The reason why Mix.Fm is my favourite radio station regardless of the fact that they keep changing their djs and contrary to popular belief that they were designed for middle aged people is simply because they play the tracks which bring good old memories to me every time I tuned to them. This song transported me back to the year 1998,when life was so much more uncomplicated,and in 2011 I'm still listening to this easy catchy tune.I'm going to dedicate each verse of this song to the person who I wrote last entry of mine.

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

We never get to old to miss our friends :')

Just another story.

Finally eh you've hit that button. In real life you have already disconnected us for only God knows why so for me its just about time for you to do it in the cyber world, nothing to be shock of. Nothing to be regret of as I know it,you know it,we all know it that it was solely your choice.So don't blame us now when we are HAPPIER without you. Its been a wonderful journey knowing you this 5 years and like you said, wish we would know earlier but somehow you prove your words are just words and you take a sudden 360 degrees turn from all the beautiful things we had and act as if we never knew before. You left us just like that!(add a snap here) without a sign nor warning.Until the day I die I would never regret having you as 1 of my bestest friends ever but hey, again you've made up your mind and I'm pretty sure you are not going to change it anytime soon.I just hate it when you talk to someone every single day and then it just stops. And they leave you with no choice, clueless.


I'm just going to appreciate my life and the friends I have with me all this while and like what In-chan told me,'I believe there is nothing sadder than lose a friend, but lose a faith in yourself, is even worse, right? So don't let it affect u in any way'. Just remember one thing,I will be your friend if you need me, even if you've hurt me because I just can't bare the thought of being estranged from anyone I've always care about. Completely hate it,it's my worst nightmare.

LIFE GOES ON,AS IT NEVER ENDS. -BSB,SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY-

Boboy goes PLKN.

There was a phase in my life where I hated, despised, and detested my brother. Like SERIOUSLY. And now as we both grow up, nothing has changed much really. But being the wiser one I can say that now days I have slow down my role as ‘the mean bad elder sister’ and let him do all the thinking as what’s best for his life. That’s basically 1 of my mission this long break, to not to stressed up over petty things and keep calm even when I feel the need to jump on him and strangle him but I need to let go. As much as I’m over the moon about the calling from National Service(NS) there’s a tiny part in myself where I feel a bit worried about him handling the world outside, surviving among strangers and others since all this while we have provided him with almost every comfort an ungrateful brat ever wished for. Well I need to keep it positive, he’ll be fine I guess. He’s not a little boy anymore, he’s like 6 feet something, 3 times my size, and all his big talks come in handy now that he has the chance to prove he is capable of taking care of himself. I know my parents are damn worry too although they show a sign of happiness that their little boy is now in a mission to serve the country (exaggerate!) but deep down inside I just pray and hope that he will become more responsible (as if he is all this time!) and grow up to be a kind son who respects his parents and treat them like how normal children will do. That is my only wish.

I wanted so bad to join PLKN during my time but too bad I wasn’t selected!

As Destiny's Child's Emotion playing at the background,here I am sitting with mixed emotions of what is my real feeling since I'm now(not official until final results come out)granted with this freedom of not being a student anymore.For the last 3 days since our last paper,I've been spending quality and wonderful time with friends especially with my classmates of colourful characters from the special small batch January intake of 2008.Each and everyone of 31 of them leave footprints in either good or bad way in my life,I'm glad I know them but more blessed to have them as part of my family for the rest of my life.I barely sleep this past 3 days and that explains the record of 17 straight hours of sleeping today.Wake up with headache but with the same emo feeling of leaving this place,my room looks like a hurricane has hit it with junks all over the place.4 years of memories in this huge room,some to keep,some to give away and some are meant to be thrown away in order for me to keep moving forward.My view on Melaka in whole changed dramatically as I'm about to kiss farewell and goodbye,maybe the curse,the anger,the dissatisfaction towards this place is solely on reason of that we've been away from home heaven home but truthfully its actually a nice place once you explore it with people you love.

Less than 6 hours I'll reach home after a month but again less than 24 hours I'll leave it again for ME time,seriously need time to just chill and breathe and shall starts the process the thought of what's my plan for future.Not just important but I'll used this opportunity to come clean and say whatever been in my heart for the last 4 years with them.When these people been with me through thick and thin therefore I should be honest with them,that's the least I can do.Sadly our early plan could not be carried out due to some unfortunate events took place in between times but as long as we're having great time together who cares where we spend it together right.Back from vacation I'll have to settle a lot of delayed appointments,won't be home most of the time,really hope as new semester kick off I'll be home and just be with my family doing nothing.With hope that I would not be a student anymore at that time.Amin.Can't wait for Boboy's exam to finished so that we can have our family's vacation,feels like forever I've not meet them so hope everything's going to be fine.Until then,let's continue with this packing.Its raining heavily now,same goes in my heart as each notes,stuff,gifts,etc I'm packing has its own piece of memory.

Thank you for everything Melaka;especially life experinces which I'll never gain anywhere else:')

1 line

With this 1 line, it wrap up the 5 extraordinary years with this beautiful people who they called friends but for me they are the extended family I never had. With this 1 line I will carry those beautiful memories between us forever, till death do us apart that is. With this 1 line I hope in 1 more day to go I will say farewell and so long to my University life but a relation for life with these great souls which I'm grateful enough to find at the very beginning of my early adulthood. With this 1 line I'm going to cry my heart out because like a kid who doesn't want to go to school without her kindergarten's friends I feel alone exploring new world without them by my side. With this 1 line I'm going to embrace whatever awaits for me in the future and with this 1 line I will forever cherish our blessed friendship. Amin.

With this 1 line, I hope there will never be even 1 day where I have to live without the smiles and laughters of you girls; 'Can't imagine how's life going to be after 5 years having you in the house, now we won't having you walking with us to campus and back.But pretty sure exciting stuff is waiting your way out there!'.


Love them sincerely.

How's life going to be alone out there,that's the question.

Scared and freaking out(as usual) but I'm eager to go out and create my own stuff.It's about time I guess.

I'll be fine I guess.Hopefully.With all the prayers and wellwishes I believe I will succeed.InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah please let tomorrow's paper be my last FINAL final paper after 5 struggling years in the law school.Please.

With that 1 line I'm going to go all out.Amin.

Completed 16 years of being a student:')

I'm not talented.

There's reason why we respect,love and look up to MALE/EXPERIENCED lecturers;simply because they won't entertained ASS-KISSERS!They are totally impartial and they are the real epitome of what a 'teacher' should be. YOU and your cronies should include in your teaching guidelines that we don't need to open our mouth in all freaking tutorial class and just be a YES MAN to all your ridiculous antics to get the high marks those undeserved people got.That will do to be your favourite student in this mean world right?!

Mode: The worst course marks in my 5 years as a law student,I mean for us who are not blessed with the talent of kissing a$$!!!

F: 'Sabarlah Cheda,sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar'.

Berusaha sedaya-upaya bersabar,counting backwards from 100..99..98..97..

What comes after a Summer break?Soap-opera(s)

Such a bad timing for all my favourite series to kick off their latest season, after their long 3 months summer hiatus yayy they are all finally here starting tomorrow.They are 1 of the many reasons that keep me going for this final exam. Can't wait for it to end fast so that my holiday will be full with laughter,drama and tears thanks to the awesome-ness of all this series.

Grey's Anatomy known for its unbelievable music touch,1 of its kind. Their music director Alexandra Patsavas is my hero apart from the creator Shonda Rhimes.She's the mastermind for all the great songs selection,for the past 6 years(since the 1st season) I've discovered amazing talent who I don't think I'll heard if not for this show.She's the rock behind each song that has been picked which suits each scene perfectly.

How can a law student not be watching any legal drama right?At first Julianna Margulies is the only reason why I started watching (childhood's memory with ER and George Clooney).But then its add up to Josh Charles(as the sexy charming Will Gardner,who can say no that sultry brooding eyes?),Archie Panjabi(Kalinda is definitely my favourite,so mysterious yet to be unravel this new season),Christine Baranski (great actor with years of portfolio as an evidence), Matt Czuchry (crush since Gilmore Girl) and Alan Cumming (Eli Gold is the most interesting character in this drama,there is just something with guys with accent isn't it?hahaha). The Good Wife is also an Emmy's choice for the past 3 years.

1 big(straight,gay,multi-cultural,traditional) happy family.They say nothing is impossible,guess what.Its deadly IMPOSSIBLE for one to watch Modern Family without laughing until their jaw and stomach in pain.They say I'm funny,but I think they'll only know the real meaning of funny when they watch this family.They are THE epitome of funny.The best thing about them is that they are so funny with a straight face.My father would never get why we(Boboy&me) love this show and couldn't stop laughing hysterically each time we watched it.

p/s: Was watching Emmy's yesterday just to find out whether my favourite 'family' win anything,and yes they did!The best ensemble casts for comedy and Phil&Claire Dunphy (Ty Burell & Julie Bowen) won best supporting actor and actress in a comedy drama.Bravo!

Been watching since my early teenage-hood,they never failed to surprised me each season and its quite sad they are coming to its end already with this 8th season.They made housewives sound so cool and not such a bad idea, for me atleast.

My life stars and ends with music. How can 1 not like a musical drama/movie?Life is so life-less without music.Plus Mr.Schue is like the hottest teacher ever!How I wish my school back then have a Glee club and a cool teacher like him.Most characters are leaving after this new season so I don't know whether my loyalty will still be there, hoping for more screen times for Santana and Brittany,they are so cute and mean together!

I look up to Barney,he's the sole or maybe major(because I love Ted,Marshall,Lily&Robin too) reason why I love this show.If only there's a female version of Barney I can totally relate with,he loves a person the best he knows without expecting nor promising much.That's how 1 should love anyone.'When I feel sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead' Barney is so awesome!

Ok back to misery;Evidence Law,Criminal Procedure Law & Professional Practise are the only 'shows' I should be watching now!

Aftermath.

They say every words count as prayers, I wish I can say good thing after my 1st paper yesterday 'like wow,what an easy test that was and I'm glad I read all the spot topics!' but instead it sounded like this 'damn @$##**% you uncivilized CIVIL PROCEDURE II,why must you combined with so many sub-topics,can't you just like stand on your own!Ya Allah tolong lah jangan failed as I've came so close to the finish line already'. We realised only 1 single thing after each final exams(in particular) that is, why human's brain can function every single day,it functions for 24hours a day,7days a week and its been freaking functioning right from the time we were born and it only stops when we are taking exams! And the aftermath of yesterday's paper was,' that civil II paper just now, had given me multiple abrasions and lacerations, severe brain bruising, grade 2 concussions, and a 2 seconds fail of chest or whatever the right terms are...and exactly, it was brutal'.

And for today's paper,I just want to dedicate the 'successful' attempt in answering those 100marks questions only to the only bunch of no life people, who liked to over think such simple issues and bring nothing but misery to our life even after they are long dead and gone.Yeah, to all Jurisprudence scholars out there or where ever you guys are please accept my sincere dedication of my 'A+' result later. Updates for the next 3 papers I hope will sound a bit more cheerful than this 1. Amin.

Never thought it's going to be this challenging and heart-breaking!

What it takes to ' Tear Us Apart'

Nadhira feat Ron E Jones 'Tear Us Apart'

I'm so scared to let things go,especially the good memories and to lose hope and faith in myself when it is so damn close to the end of one beginning and in the same time I'm eager for a brand new start of another phase.God,please give all of us strength in reaching our destination of this long 5 years journey. Beautiful songs help me go through stress moments. This one is definitely one of my latest favourite, local talent who sounds so international. Breathe in and out,calm and focus back on the right track.

All the best to all where ever you are:)

2nd thought.

Some things just crossed your mind for no reasons.After we finished our mock trial yesterday,the burden of 4 months feels like flying off our shoulder immediately especially after hearing the great news.Before that, I would like to wish congratulations to both of our firms,Pamela Pang & Partners as well as Rai,Hana & Partners. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

I feel very..very very tired (just to show how tired all of us are) and my legs were seriously killing me (I feel old,very old indeed!Thanks to the cold weather and long hours of standing and going here and there to settle stuffs) so out of no where I said,'Feels like getting married,so that I'll always have someone to rub my feet whenever I'm tired' and they laughed their heart out hearing me saying that since I never really see myself getting married.The best question I think was when they asked,'Are you sure you need a husband?I think a maid will do.' ha ha ha.Well,moral of the story is please get married for a BETTER reason ok.

Rejoiced after 15 straight hours of sleep:)

Lazying theme song

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks

Final FINAL exam in 2 weeks. Notes and books still left untouched. Lazying around. Munching foods non-stop. Lepak-ing with gfs. Unravel a 1 year secret everyone wants to know. Looking back at the lovely pictures. Write an email thinking to press the button send but keep it in draft instead. Do it over and over again. 5 last papers that'll determine whether or not I can say bye-bye to MMU. Have not firm-hunting for chambering place. Planning for a vacation but a lone-ranger backpacker sounds almost impossible. One of the most stressful phase in my life so far. Weight issue. Size issue. Friendships issues. Heart issues. Trust issue. List of things to get brings to M.I.A.M.I (Money Is A Major Issue). Ahhh time to get things together and plan my future well. Ok,that sounds a bit too serious.LOL.

Forever young!

Jealousy.

I hate having all the wrong feeling at all the wrong time for all the right person.I hate being jealous when the fact is I shouldn't have any feeling,but its not like we can control what to feel right.Jealousy sucks! If you're not jealous, then you don't love the person. If you don't love the person, then you're not supposed to be jealous. Like Arizona said,' Jealousy is a green eyed monster', better keep it in and control it as long as you can as once you let it go out it'll destroy a lot of relationships and hurts a lot of hearts.

I've been wishing for someone to be mine. But now, I wish for maturity to realize that even if someone wouldn't be mine, I'll still be fine. And that person will be with someone better.

Maaf.

A lot of heart warming sms/tweets/messages asking for forgiveness coming in. But why are our egos so big that we can't do this more often and more sincerely?1 thing to ponders upon this Raya not only a reminder for myself as well as for friends out there.

I would also like to quote my friend P;"You ask for my forgiveness but you can't find it in your heart to forgive mine?? Well, that is plain selfish and redundant. Don't bother sending me Raya wish".

I'm pretty sure both of us are thinking about the same person but who knows I might be wrong. Nobody's perfect, and you know what sorry is not such a hard word to say out loud, if I can say it, when we actually did say it so what stops you from uttering those words? Life is too short buddy (still traumatize and hugely affected by scenes from Final Destination 5, stupid scary laser eye treatment!) so make every seconds count because no one knows whether will we still be here for next Raya (so many people have left us for the past 1 year, those who I never expected but 'ajal maut di tangan Tuhan'.)

'Nobody knows where we might end up..nobody knows' -Psapp,The Rocket.

Merdeka Raya

I didn't plan to be this mean on this blessed and happy day but who can stop me from bragging about our big win against Arsenal?Its 8-2 ok,come on at least give me a week until next weekend's game. I missed the 1st 2 weeks' games since EPL kick started, I've already missed the Community Shield we won against Manchester City so I'm not gonna let this one passed by.Its so great to finally watching this young squad playing, De Gea gave me heart attack for letting the early goals but its understandable for goalkeeper to get used with English style of playing since in La Liga I personally think the game is a bit too fast and too many tricks played by the players. Its a wise bid Ferguson made to buy Young because that boy can surely scores, the decision to give away Welbeck as a loan player to Sunderland definitely pays back and the magic combination the rest like Smalling, Jones and Cleverly have is unbelievable and need to be witnessed by yourselves to know I'm not exaggerating. Its a nice feeling to be back home after so long,on the comfort of your couch, accompanied by your loud family members and watch your favourite team playing, and the icing on the cake was they win big!2nd history made by them after won 9-0 against Ipswich long time ago. And for Arsene Wenger, do something man! There are reasons why Fabregas, Nasri and the rest left The Gunners.Yes great players just want to play in the 1s squad of 11 but winning trophies boost their pride, confidence and price as well so start buying players especially defenders. This raya is just a simple one for our family, having so many things happened lately I'm just glad and grateful to be celebrating with my small family. Untill next time Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin and Happy 54th Independence Day to all Malaysians.

ManUtd lapan Arsenal dua,
Gembira hati tidak terkata,
Ramadhan hampir meninggalkan kita,
Menandakan Raya sudah tiba. :)

Have a wonderful holiday everyone:)

Bye-bye.

Ramadhan has come to its end,do I regret anything? Absolutely yes,being so caught up in final year's priorities limited my time to seek and gain more deeds.Nevertheless I feel very grateful to be able to go through this month with friends yet again. I'll always maintain that they are the extended families I never had ever. By far this year, 23rd Ramadhan as a Muslim really test my patient in terms of handling stress problems encountered left right and front which didn't give us signal before dropping by. Whether problems related with school matters,people behaviours,future planning,etc only 1 thing I've decided to follow which is to; 'Live without pretending, Love without depending, Listen without defending, and Speak without offending.' As long as we live our life with full sincerity, whatever judgmental perceptions people want to put on us let them be because we can't control what others want to think about us an we? Until next time,happy final night Tarawikh and drive safely to those who have left to kampung and have great time with beloved families.

With love from city girl :)

Let go.

Being nice to someone you hate or to someone who treats you bad doesn't make you a hypocrite but it shows you have matured enough and your parents have taught you well.Thanks, Alhamdulillah ♥

It's been a lovely weather this past few days,lets seek for Lailatul Qadar night.

5 years ♥

'Because when the sun shines, we'll shine together, Told you I'll be here forever, Said I'll always be your friend, Took an oath,I'ma stick it out till the end.'

That's a promise my friend, a promise we made 5 years ago under a rainbow coloured umbrella.You'll always be here in my ♥ whether you still are my friend or not. Just because you have left doesn't meet I'm not going to stay around..a bit longer. With the hope and continuous prayers you'll take a detour and come back.

Its raining but we are here to stay :')

I miss last Ramadhan:')

Its 5.00am, 13th day of Ramadhan. Here I am taking 5 minutes break from 1001 things of our heart-less PP curse ( I can't imagine how Nik,Angie, and other counsels are doing their tremendous heavy part compare to mine.), my last duty of balancing MULS’ account, outlines for all the assignments, daily chores, etc. It’s almost half way of this blessed month, yet I feel so empty. Now days its all about rushing. Rush to do research for our assignments, rush to finished the preparation for mock-trial, rush to completed my list of things to do before going back to home for Raya, rush to plan a lot of meet up with close friends cum family, rush to understand all the blur topics of each subjects, I’m even rushing from Tarawikh to house because my head just can’t let go the million things we need to get done. They even haunt me during my sleep. The promise I made to myself in becoming a better Muslim have yet to be fulfilled, I really hope the 2^nd half of Ramadhan will open up ways for me to spend more time in finding Lailatul Qadar. InsyaAllah.

It’s almost sound as if I'm always finding reason to blame our hectic schedule as a final year student, but I'm not. I'm not that old procrastinator anymore. It’s even impossible to take break and go home for berbuka puasa with family without feeling guilty abandoning the unfinished business in Melaka, we don't even have time to go out berbuka with friends yet like we religiously do every year since I've entered my Degree life, I miss those who have gone a bit more in this month maybe since I know we literally have no one anymore to visit on 1^st day of Raya. So I open that one songs’ folder which I hope could cheer me a little bit this cold, lonely morning. Raya songs' folder that is. The calls from Ayah and Mama since early this week until today make me sebak to the max, and the text from Along earlier made me sad, like depressed gloomy sad. Its true this coming Raya we don't really have anywhere to go. The life sad of a small family like us, that is why I can’t imagine how life would be if not for the 4 people I have in my life regardless how imperfect I am they always be there for me. How can one not have tears for moment like this? More than for stress of the works; burden I would like to blame these tears for the melodramatic lyrics of the Raya songs I’m listening right now.

It’s bizarre to think about the things that have changed from last Ramadhan till date, whether it’s for the better or for the worse both have impeccable effect on me for making the person I am today. Somehow this busy schedule give us the opportunity to forget for a little while about things we don’t wish to think, no matter how hurtful it is since you see the problem walks in front of you every day of our life but you just have to give your damn best not to think about it. We have tried our best, now the only thing we can do is tawakal and doa. If He wants to help us, He will. Maybe for now, this is for everyone’s best. Not in million years would I ever think that we would’ve end up here. Never. But yet I’ve been proven wrong. Never say never Cheda. I’ll always cherish all the great fond memories we had shared along the years, till the day I know what’s the problem, you shall always remain part of me. Forever. (Sigh of relief) Ok time to get back to work while waiting for Subuh azan. Life goes on. And ya nothing lasts forever so appreciate whatever you have today because you never know until when they’ll be by your side.

These moments were my BEST Ramadhan I had so far during my University life, I have no regrets meeting and knowing these great friends. Where ever they will be later in future I wish them all the happiness regardless we will be in each others' life or not at that time. Only love and prayers for them, nothing less.

p/s: Watching everyone busy doing shopping for their kids at the mall just now make me feels pathetic with my dull life that I went there only to by all the criminal evidence stuff, the 'BLOOD', zip lock bag for the evidence, etc. Haven't do any Raya shopping yet!

Raya songs mode ON. Sebak. Sedih. Terharu.