Daily tales.

As I was watching the much awaited wedding episode yesterday, from the first scene it turned out to be all that I was not expected! Sadly or unfortunately I would say but as the story goes by I realised, hey this is what life is all about. That thing they did, the problem they faced and all the drama arose yesterday are exactly how real life functioned. Shonda is sheer brilliant, she knows that she can leave the fairytales storyline to others shows as that is so not her niche. We all remember the bed time stories of our childhood, the shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turned into a Prince, Sleeping Beauty is awaken by a kiss, once upon a time and then they live happily ever after. Fairy tales, the stuff of dreams. The problem is, fairy tales don't come true. Its the other stories, the one that begin with dark and stormy night and ends unspeakable, the nightmares that all seems to become reality. The person that invented the phrase happily ever after should have his ass kick so hard. Once upon a time, happily ever after the stories we hear are stuff of dreams. Fairytales don't come true. Reality is much stormier, much happier, much scarier. Reality is much more interesting than happily ever after.I know bumpy journey awaits for Calzona in future but for now I just feel happy for them.

People should fight for a marriage not a wedding.-Callie-

CALZONA ♥

What is funny and intriguing about the hoo-haa surrounding the wedding is that all the Bible quoter's are complaining about homosexual story-lines yet they don't comment on the pre-marital sex, stealing, lies, backstabbing, cheating, gossiping, killing etc of the show and many other tv shows and movies. The truth is shows/movies are a mirror image, a snap shot of what you will face in the real world regardless you like it or not(no one really cares what is your take on every issues) and how people live in it. All religions and non have their own life and we all have to respect that, respect their choice doesn't mean you have to agree with it but simply live your life the way that makes you happy by not discriminates others on how they choose to lead theirs. We are all the same in His eyes therefore no need for us to judge others, who gave us the license to do so? And the choices we made, make us who we are and how we live our lives. Love is Gods message, love all no matter what. We all deserve to have a loving family and friends, having said that we don't need to agree with them ALL the time and the way we show our love its up to us.

Coming back to Calzona I personally think there could be no better way to end their beautiful relationship, I believe so despite being a Muslim this is what I felt is the best in GA's storyline :) Have always love them despite the dramas,break-ups,etc because somehow they always managed to overcome it. Callie is always my favourite character, added Arizona to the picture they make a great couple. Being straight doesn't necessary give you the power to hate these people, as long as they do not trouble you in whatever way they are free to love whomever they want. How they conduct themselves play an important role to, its whether they deserved our respect or not. Some people just over do it until you feel they are not honest enough being gay,it feels fake and pretending so to grab others' attention if you know what I mean. I've always love weddings (its totally 2 different thing between a marriage and a wedding), regardless there'll be a groom or not. But for the big white dress, the flowers, the smiley faces, overdose of pinkinsh-ness(lovely!),the cakes, the dance,etc ooohhh can't wait for tomorrow's night.

♥ Callie&Arizona and their adorable baby; Sofia Robbins Sloan Toress. With 3 surnames she certainly doesn't need a middle name.

Its bound to happen.

Change. We (I) don’t like it, we fear it. But, we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anyone who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here’s the truth; sometimes the more things change the more they stay the same. And sometimes change is good. Sometimes change is everything.

2 days before yet another history to be made in GA:') I'm super excited,yayyy!

3 days before THE 'White Wedding'

Universe & you

Favourite lines:

'You know there's no need to hide away
You know I tell the truth
We are just the same
I can feel everything you do
Hear everything you say
Even when you're miles away
Cause I am me, the universe and you
When you're on your own
I'll send you a sign
Just so you know
I am me, the universe and you'

I love KT Tunstall's original version but I love Jessica Capshaw (she pleasantly surprised me, all of us for the fact) and Sara Ramirez's more, this duet killed other songs in the music event. It captivates the emotion these two are going through beautifully, when Arizona made a plea to Callie to please continue live for her I cried because somehow I feel how much pain must she going through. Because being alone she felt hopeless, without her strongest support system plus being bashed by the cruel Mark (yayy, now they are the bestest of friend and co-parenting their child together). To say their love story and this duet is just beautiful would be an understatement, because I'm pretty blown away with this one. CALZONA should stay forver Shonda, we the GA's Mcfans demand that!Can't wait for this Friday, 3 more days for the most pinkish and girliest wedding ever. See I never witness this kind of wedding nor do I think I would be ever invited to one plus as 1 from 13 millions devoted fan I know this happy ending didn't come easy but like what JCap said; 'In Grey's Anatomy its not about simply loving someone but loving someone you shouldn't or loving someone in a difficult situation'. I'm sure I'll cry at their wedding, my favourite part in every wedding is always the vows part so I'm looking forward as what both got to say as their journey has been the bumpiest of all the couple in all seasons.

Its wonderful to see how they portrayed 2 strong characters who able to see beyond just the gender to fall in love:')

M5 Live in KL

'Secret'from their 1st album +'What's love got to do' by Tina Turner = Mind blowing mix!

Everyone has a secret
But can they keep it
Oh no they can’t

Oh what's love got to do, got to do with it
What's love but a second hand emotion
What's love got to do, got to do with it
Who needs a heart
When a heart can be broken

Post M5.

Waiting for all audiences came in, long before the concert started.

The man and his guys.

He's so..so..so damn hot!

Early to arrived, waiting in long que with new friends:)

1 of the many passes.

Concert virgin went nuts!

Dear Adam Levine,

'I'm so attracted to you, the feeling mutual too. I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday, Maybe we're better off this way, It's better that we break.'

As much as you get me infatuated I think its better that we break for now, because too much of this love wont help me get over this misery.


Until next rendezvous, I'm a devoted Maroon 5's lover !

6m: Its a long way back.

The length of your recovery is determined by the extent of your injuries. And it’s not always successful. No matter how hard we work at it. Some wounds might never fully heal. You might have to adjust to a whole new way of living. Things may have changed too radically to ever go back to what they were. You might not even recognize yourself. It’s like you haven’t recovered anything at all. You’re a whole new person with a whole new life.

5 days before THE royal wedding :')

Maroon 5: Infatuated

What's not to be infatuated with this guy? Amazing voice, breathtaking showmanship, cool crowd puller, and the BEST part is what you heard in the 3 awesome records by Maroon 5 so far is what you get in their live performance. I may lost my voice after the 5th song but it was such a great concert ( feels like it ends too soon, we want more!) that all of us continue singing and screaming all the way especially when the hot..hot..hot Adam started to speaks in Malay and the rest of the time we can't even hear what he said ; overshadowed by the 2 long hours of people literally screaming their heart out. Adam Levine is such a superb singer, he sings sad and joy songs so naturally and the guitar battles between him and the gorgeous silkiest hair ever; James Valentine and Mickey were the highlights of their gig. I love when he introduced each member of thier tour team, Jesse's introduction was my favourite as I always love that guy who can play keyboard and guitar with such elaan'. Same goes to Matt's, drumer is totally my thing if I were to be in a band(daydreaming!) He didn't sing my or K-run's favourite songs (in our wish list) but its ok because he did choose some of the famous song too. I personally think the best part was when he did the rendition of MJ's songs as well as that famous 80s song by Tina Turner 'What's love got to do' ( its an all time favourite too). As a fan, Adam conducted us beautifully while singing along with him for the most awaited song of the night I would say especially for the ladies; 'She will be loved'. Its seemed like a symphony when he divided us to 3 large groups, it was fun too you know killing your throat with thousands other fans. In all it was an awesome experience for a concert virgin like me! More concert in future I bet, but only if they deserve it. I wont simply go to concert just for the sake of going, I'll choose wisely like how Maroon 5 was chosen by me after 9 years:)

Now she is finally loved!;)

Reality.

You see the smile that's on my mouth,
It's hiding the words that don't come out,
All of the friends who think I'm blessed,
They don't know my head is in a mess.






The Story, Brandi Carlile/Sara Ramirez :')

Maroon is the colour of my life!

I guess without realised it I do have lots of red/maroon clothes in my closet or maybe I wear them often enough to make people asking whether its my favourite colour like last week the people from my office after weeks of wondering why I always turn in up red/maroon baju kurung finally asked me. And in return I couldn't get more excited telling them I'm going for Maroon 5's concert. Excited! 6 days to go............................

It's Ayah's favourite colour too! ;)

✫ MAROON 5 MADNESS ✫

You know how people always say that girls love bad guys? Well my bad guy is definitely ADAM LEVINE from Maroon 5, he’s like the perfect definition of McYummy if there will ever be that character in GA. And again like what Ludacris said in Bieber’s Baby song that; ‘When I was 13, I had my first love’ well in my story I was 14. And Mr.Levine is that lucky guy,I love Maroon 5 which former known as Kara’s Flower since they came out with their debut record called Songs About Jane and I was totally blown away ( you see, I was 15-20kgs lighter back then so its explained why,ha ha ha) and I'm continue INFATUATED by their awesome-ness with ‘It Wont Be Too Soon Before Long’ and the latest album called ‘Hands All Over’, I swear to God that I can play the 2nd one over and over again because Levine is such a genius, not just he penned all the songs but he and the band make each tracks related with the next one as if when you listen from the word go till the end its like a story telling. Its like a journey of a love story but not a good one, but still each and every songs rocked! I’m a concert virgin (who haven’t told her parents yet that she’s totally going for the concert in less than 7 days*gulp*) so I’m allowed to be this damn excited ok! Seriously when I heard they are coming I can already see myself in that stadium jumping like maniac and sing a long with millions (exaggeration!) of their other fans, been waiting this moment for the past 2-3 months and when I finally confirmed my ticket last Monday I couldn't be more thrilled! They are totally my all time rockstar, its a like a teenage-hood dream comes true, InsyaAlah. Well I waited long enough and I’m pretty sure Levine is the right guy for me, I waited for Timberlake but he never come pun, before that I waited for the BSB boys but then I was too young therefore I was not ready physically nor mentally and the list goes on. For their concert I have 7 songs request which I think Malaysia's local radio station never really bother to play because their aren’t really the ‘globally commercially success’ type of Maroon 5’s songs but that doesn’t mean they are less in quality from the rest. They are :

1) Little Of Your Time

2) Nothing Lasts Forever

3) Cant Stop

4) Goodnight Goodnight

5) Not Falling Apart

6) Better That We Break

7) Back At Your Door AND special bonus track

INFATUATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG,can’t wait for this 9 long years affair to be finally sealed next Friday.

Been there.Still there actually.

BELIEBER. Yup, that’s what they called themselves. The maniac fan of Justin Bieber, hottest pop star, probably the most powerful 17 years old boy in the world today. Let them be is what I say, because at 1 point I was there in their shoes. Why just me, all of us been there and done that. I mean, I was (still am) a huge fan of most teenage sensation during my time (which is not so long ago, mind you) so when these kids expressing their love in such bizarre way I could totally relate to it because we all went through that phase and years later we’ll look back and have a good laugh about it since we really thought we would grow up to be as famous or rich or as pretty as the people we adored or for some people (one of them is me obviously) we actually thought we will marry them one day (Howie D and Kevin from BSB, JT, Duncan James from Blue, etc to name just a few). Come on we had our fun and fair share being a maniac fan back in the 90s & 2000s with our pop sensation Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, etc. Are you trying to say you never ever worship or go gaga at such extreme level for a singer or any boyband? Not even a movie star? Liar! The point here is that I AM NOT A BELIEBER but come on people, leave that kid alone. The Bieber Fever won’t last that long, believe me. Actually his awesome collaboration with Rascal Flats, Usher, Miley Cyrus, etc do made great music. Give it a try, no harm experimenting with good music especially when it makes you feel young at heart. And to haters out there (including the much jealous Boboy!) what do you get by making stupid comments, posting ridiculous parody videos about that boy? As you are doing it you just making him more famous than he already is and at the same time he's making million bucks each seconds passed. Try listen to his songs first, you might end up as a fan. Well, never say never baby!

If this kid has no talent he won’t be able to pull this out with such great talent; Rascal Flatts. Personally I think this is 1 awesome collaboration♥ 1 request though after the concert tonight, Beliebers please make way for Maroon 5 ok ;)

'Did you forget all the plans you made with me? Cos baby I didn't, That should be me holding your hand..that should be me making you laugh..that should be me,this is so sad..that should be me..'

False hope.

For someone who continues hoping when she knows that the hope is false, the last thing she needs to hear is someone to tell her about how false is the false hope. Its devastating, its like a bitch slap across the face. To be thinking all the time whether that someone who gave the false hope thinks about me, to be wondering whether that someone mentioned me in daily life, to be dreaming about the hopes that we still count on despite knowing there is no hopes, its totally suck to get that reminder again. It takes 224 days to be where I am today, I can't believe I am here again. I can't believe I'm going down this rabbit hole again, I have to start all over...all over again. I don't even know how to do that. Oh God, a false hope give me a reason again to grieve over a hope. A false hope that is, please remember that! Don't know why I keep forgetting........

I'm such a stupid..stupid hopeless person! :'C

Secrets.

I bet each and everyone of us has skeleton in our closet, whether we like it or not how boring is our life is everybody got something to hide about. Everybody has something we don't talk about out loud, something we comfortable keeping it quietly down the rabbit hole deep down inside our heart because for me once I decide to let my secret fly free out there I will lose a lot of thing and people I love around me. So I decided long time ago to die with this secret, I will take it along with me the day I leave this world. Because I'm fighting hard all these years to suffer alone so there's no point in giving up now, the skeleton is there to stay in the closet and I keep it locked from the inside and nobody is invited to know about it. The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not. One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide; we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything, until you don't have room for anything else, until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst. Personally for me secrets are suck as scars are! Especially when you are holding to others' secrets,its killing me slowly inside especially when the secrets taking a toll in me. Its tiring but for the trust they have in me I shall hold on them loyally.

Is it a secret that IMYSM?

Grey effect.

'We can be ordinary apart or extraordinary together'.
-Meredith Grey,Grey's Anatomy-

Rising above.

I tried being friends, try to rise above. I really tried hard doing it. But now I'm over it (trying) so now I'm going to the more traditional way of totally hating your guts. I tried to convince myself in these few months that I'm the bad person, I even said it out loud but it just doesn't work that way. I don't deserved it, I treat you with nothing but love and respect, but have you ever tried to stop and think what is it like to try for me. I don't think you did, all you did was you dismissed my dreams and you don't even give a sh*t whether I'm happy or not all you care was you're done. I don't trust you, why would I? Hate the fact that they thought the ego was about something else when the truth is I don't give a damn about that tiny issue as what important to me is that you've hurt my loved ones. I need to focus and keep rising above and there's no chance for them to hear me talking trash about you, all this while only smile can I give to them. A bitter one that is. Enough of words, I'm tired people.

Contest addiction.

*The most recent contest I won; 'Who are JJ & Ean talking to' by Hitz.fm.

You know, there are types of addiction where we don't need to seek for shrink's advice but still be sane? And I'm proud I'm suffered from 1 of them, which is addiction in joining contest. I was 13 if I could really recall the first time I’ve pick up the phone and call a radio station to win stuff, and I was disappointed with the fact that I wasn't old enough! They asked me,'Do your parents know you're joining this?' Seriously? Come on, you know how much have I missed thanks to the age requirement? That was the time I wish 'Owh 18 please be here fast!' and boy how I regret that wish now I tell you. Now, I don't care if I have to stuck at the age 13 forever! Ok get back to what I was saying, joining live contest TV/Radio give you some sort of adrenalin rush compare to nowdays' method where most companies opt to run contests through sms. For me there's no fun when you just sit there, waiting for questions to be sent in your inbox, you answered them (like hundred of them, its all about the MONEY baby!) and waiting for the results whether you win it or not. I like the ‘traditional’ way, see the ad about latest contest running, get the form, collect the things that they want(eg: code bar, the packet, etc), make a slogan, post to them as many as you possibly can and waited for months before the results came out. That's the real rush; I know it sounds wasting of time but that’s my take on satisfaction. So people, please don't do it if you think that way (I really hope you guys won't be interested in joining though as I can't afford more competition as if now it’s so easy to win or even get through the phone line).


Through all these years, my family and friends have been a big part in most contests I’ve joined whether as supporters or part of the contest itself when I need them. They really are until today, they know how I work and sometimes it can be a little irritating with the calling, (when I’m the redial mode I can keep dialling for hundreds of time and will be completely ignoring the people around me until I know the time is up then only I stop), the collecting things, etc but they just play along with it happily. The first ever prize I've ever won is this striking orange Swatch from F&N, I still have it as I’m a huge watch collector. It was the first time they run such contest where we need to collect the labels during festivals and send to them as many as we can, the sweetest part of that is I can remember how supportive was my late grandmother. She helped me collect the labels and every week will pass it to me. Each contest whether I won them or not have memorable stories attached to it, and so far I'm blessed with so many things that I have won. I’m thrilled that now I start giving tips to friends on how hey can win stuff too; did you know there are actually tricks behind my successful calls or winning? Yes, you won’t believe me until you try yourself. Actually you have to know when is the exact time to call in (not necessarily when they say wait for the cue to call before calling, they just bluffing to avoid too many calls at the same time!) and what each beep tones stands for when you call a radio station and etc. Better save some tricks for myself, hey I need to be selfish ok. They say I'm lucky but hey you can be 1 of the lucky people too if you have the same passion as me. Just try your luck ok, who knows what might come your way.

Its all about the MONEY, sometimes ;)

Nobody knows.

Nobody knows where they might end up,
Nobody knows, not you nor me,
Nobody knows where they might wake up,
Nobody knows.

But 1 thing I know that I learn to forgive cos' no one is perfect.
No one. Not you nor me.
And forgiving certainly made my heart more tranquil.


IMY even when IHY :'/

Grey's Anatomy BIGGEEST maniac fan I AM.(literally)

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Caution: This is the most normal behaviour as you can get of a hardcore fan so don’t bother to wonder as why I speak about the cast of Grey’s Anatomy as if I know them. Well by now I think if you can stand my SRK addiction, this is nothing compare to that!

I easily get attached to someone or something which has been part of my life for so long eventhough they are not real, eventhough they are just fictional characters played by real people but still when their problems, their issues, their crises become yours you know they basically part of your life literally. When they cry I have tears going down my cheeks as well, when someone hurt them I feel upset for no reason, when they died I grieve for episodes or even seasons, when they do something stupid I cursed them, and things like that you know. Ya I know sounds a bit psycho,but what to do!

There are different series for different phase in my life, alot of them actually but those which worth mentioned here would be Sesame Street, The Nanny Sabrina, The Teenage Witch and The Cosby Show during my early childhood, Gilmore Girls, Charmed , One Tree Hill, etc during my teenage-hood, and here come the mind blowing Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, How I Met Your Mother, Ugly Betty, Glee, Private Practise, Venezuela series, Hindi and TVB dramas, etc during my 2nd phase of teenage-hood.haha. Adult-hood is far far away ok. Lately I love shows like The Good Wife!! Yes, I'm the biggest potato couch if I have all the time in the world and of course the remote control. But seriously, these soap operas really entertain your life somehow, not that our life is not interesting and dramatic enough but they give us the reason to escape to a fantasy land where anything is possible!

Well as this week is all about my GA, I must say that Shonda Rhimes (the creator and the MAN behind GA) is my favourite writer ever, simply because about 6-7 years ago she brought Grey’s Anatomy into my life and millions others fans who are simply addicted to the incredible heart wrenching show. She never failed to put the element of surprise in each season, when you thought the ending of the former season was at its best, you were proven wrong yet again and again. At its 7th season now, I’m too damn excited waiting for the musical episode simply because Sara Ramirez a.k.a Dr.Callie Torres the hottest orthopaedic in the show got to show her Broadway talent as she’ll be the vital character in this musical event coming in just less than 24 hours. She never really got the chance to do so, although she had her fair share of onscreen’s crisis, but for once she’ll get the limelight all for the right reason not like when her husband cheated on her, or when her husband’s bestfriend betrayed her, the person she loved walk off from her life without justification, and etc. She’s been through a lot of downs rather than ups in her life so for once yes we all hope for a better ending for her and Arizona (yeaaayyy!) Been waiting for a month now as GA took a hiatus from the 1st half of this season, the promos keep giving me mini heart attacks though. What the hell happened? I guess we need to wait until 31st March (1 DAY TO GO,BREATHE!a day late for us viewers outside USA). I do really hope that (it better be!) nothing going to happened to Callie. And I also hope that GA will never comes to its end like how ER is still running after numbers of seasons.

The Musical Event will be THE awesome-est episode ever, I know for sure!

As I'm writing this, less than 19 hours left now for the most anticipated episode ever! :')

THE DAY of The Musical Event.

PEOPLE WHO DON’T WATCH GREY’S ANATOMY: YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW TOMORROW IS IMPORTANT TO OUR LIVES.

3 days to The Musical Event.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?



Song : Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
By Sara Ramirez, Kevin Mckidd and Chandra Wilson. The doctors sing it beautifully!