Thursday, October 13, 2011

God is Great.

I just don't want to leave this place,to be back in the concrete jungle where everything moves fast,everyone in a hectic life,and every single things cost you. I hate packing luggage and unpacked them all over again, I rather stuck in this island forever and living my Hawaii Five-O kinda life,because it seems so wonderful here.Everywhere I turn I cant's stop saying MasyaAllah because he is the great painting of these breathtaking scenery.1 day when I start making my own money I would love to travel to all the beautiful islands. I'm always in awe of the sea's creatures, there are so many beneath it that drive the curiosity out of me every time I'm in the middle of it.






























There's a life underneath the sea,so much to discovered:)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I'm a BIG girl.

Emilia- Big Big World





The reason why Mix.Fm is my favourite radio station regardless of the fact that they keep changing their djs and contrary to popular belief that they were designed for middle aged people is simply because they play the tracks which bring good old memories to me every time I tuned to them. This song transported me back to the year 1998,when life was so much more uncomplicated,and in 2011 I'm still listening to this easy catchy tune.I'm going to dedicate each verse of this song to the person who I wrote last entry of mine.




I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone


We never get to old to miss our friends :')

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Just another story.

Finally eh you've hit that button. In real life you have already disconnected us for only God knows why so for me its just about time for you to do it in the cyber world, nothing to be shock of. Nothing to be regret of as I know it,you know it,we all know it that it was solely your choice.So don't blame us now when we are HAPPIER without you. Its been a wonderful journey knowing you this 5 years and like you said, wish we would know earlier but somehow you prove your words are just words and you take a sudden 360 degrees turn from all the beautiful things we had and act as if we never knew before. You left us just like that!(add a snap here) without a sign nor warning.Until the day I die I would never regret having you as 1 of my bestest friends ever but hey, again you've made up your mind and I'm pretty sure you are not going to change it anytime soon.I just hate it when you talk to someone every single day and then it just stops. And they leave you with no choice, clueless.


I'm just going to appreciate my life and the friends I have with me all this while and like what In-chan told me,'I believe there is nothing sadder than lose a friend, but lose a faith in yourself, is even worse, right? So don't let it affect u in any way'. Just remember one thing,I will be your friend if you need me, even if you've hurt me because I just can't bare the thought of being estranged from anyone I've always care about. Completely hate it,it's my worst nightmare.





LIFE GOES ON,AS IT NEVER ENDS. -BSB,SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY-

Monday, October 10, 2011

Boboy goes PLKN.

There was a phase in my life where I hated, despised, and detested my brother. Like SERIOUSLY. And now as we both grow up, nothing has changed much really. But being the wiser one I can say that now days I have slow down my role as ‘the mean bad elder sister’ and let him do all the thinking as what’s best for his life. That’s basically 1 of my mission this long break, to not to stressed up over petty things and keep calm even when I feel the need to jump on him and strangle him but I need to let go. As much as I’m over the moon about the calling from National Service(NS) there’s a tiny part in myself where I feel a bit worried about him handling the world outside, surviving among strangers and others since all this while we have provided him with almost every comfort an ungrateful brat ever wished for. Well I need to keep it positive, he’ll be fine I guess. He’s not a little boy anymore, he’s like 6 feet something, 3 times my size, and all his big talks come in handy now that he has the chance to prove he is capable of taking care of himself. I know my parents are damn worry too although they show a sign of happiness that their little boy is now in a mission to serve the country (exaggerate!) but deep down inside I just pray and hope that he will become more responsible (as if he is all this time!) and grow up to be a kind son who respects his parents and treat them like how normal children will do. That is my only wish.

I wanted so bad to join PLKN during my time but too bad I wasn’t selected!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

As Destiny's Child's Emotion playing at the background,here I am sitting with mixed emotions of what is my real feeling since I'm now(not official until final results come out)granted with this freedom of not being a student anymore.For the last 3 days since our last paper,I've been spending quality and wonderful time with friends especially with my classmates of colourful characters from the special small batch January intake of 2008.Each and everyone of 31 of them leave footprints in either good or bad way in my life,I'm glad I know them but more blessed to have them as part of my family for the rest of my life.I barely sleep this past 3 days and that explains the record of 17 straight hours of sleeping today.Wake up with headache but with the same emo feeling of leaving this place,my room looks like a hurricane has hit it with junks all over the place.4 years of memories in this huge room,some to keep,some to give away and some are meant to be thrown away in order for me to keep moving forward.My view on Melaka in whole changed dramatically as I'm about to kiss farewell and goodbye,maybe the curse,the anger,the dissatisfaction towards this place is solely on reason of that we've been away from home heaven home but truthfully its actually a nice place once you explore it with people you love.


Less than 6 hours I'll reach home after a month but again less than 24 hours I'll leave it again for ME time,seriously need time to just chill and breathe and shall starts the process the thought of what's my plan for future.Not just important but I'll used this opportunity to come clean and say whatever been in my heart for the last 4 years with them.When these people been with me through thick and thin therefore I should be honest with them,that's the least I can do.Sadly our early plan could not be carried out due to some unfortunate events took place in between times but as long as we're having great time together who cares where we spend it together right.Back from vacation I'll have to settle a lot of delayed appointments,won't be home most of the time,really hope as new semester kick off I'll be home and just be with my family doing nothing.With hope that I would not be a student anymore at that time.Amin.Can't wait for Boboy's exam to finished so that we can have our family's vacation,feels like forever I've not meet them so hope everything's going to be fine.Until then,let's continue with this packing.Its raining heavily now,same goes in my heart as each notes,stuff,gifts,etc I'm packing has its own piece of memory.


Thank you for everything Melaka;especially life experinces which I'll never gain anywhere else:')

Thursday, September 29, 2011

1 line

With this 1 line, it wrap up the 5 extraordinary years with this beautiful people who they called friends but for me they are the extended family I never had. With this 1 line I will carry those beautiful memories between us forever, till death do us apart that is. With this 1 line I hope in 1 more day to go I will say farewell and so long to my University life but a relation for life with these great souls which I'm grateful enough to find at the very beginning of my early adulthood. With this 1 line I'm going to cry my heart out because like a kid who doesn't want to go to school without her kindergarten's friends I feel alone exploring new world without them by my side. With this 1 line I'm going to embrace whatever awaits for me in the future and with this 1 line I will forever cherish our blessed friendship. Amin.

With this 1 line, I hope there will never be even 1 day where I have to live without the smiles and laughters of you girls; 'Can't imagine how's life going to be after 5 years having you in the house, now we won't having you walking with us to campus and back.But pretty sure exciting stuff is waiting your way out there!'.


Love them sincerely.

How's life going to be alone out there,that's the question.

Scared and freaking out(as usual) but I'm eager to go out and create my own stuff.It's about time I guess.

I'll be fine I guess.Hopefully.With all the prayers and wellwishes I believe I will succeed.InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah please let tomorrow's paper be my last FINAL final paper after 5 struggling years in the law school.Please.

With that 1 line I'm going to go all out.Amin.



Completed 16 years of being a student:')

Friday, September 23, 2011

I'm not talented.

There's reason why we respect,love and look up to MALE/EXPERIENCED lecturers;simply because they won't entertained ASS-KISSERS!They are totally impartial and they are the real epitome of what a 'teacher' should be. YOU and your cronies should include in your teaching guidelines that we don't need to open our mouth in all freaking tutorial class and just be a YES MAN to all your ridiculous antics to get the high marks those undeserved people got.That will do to be your favourite student in this mean world right?!

Mode: The worst course marks in my 5 years as a law student,I mean for us who are not blessed with the talent of kissing a$$!!!

F: 'Sabarlah Cheda,sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar'.



Berusaha sedaya-upaya bersabar,counting backwards from 100..99..98..97..

Thursday, September 22, 2011

What comes after a Summer break?Soap-opera(s)

Such a bad timing for all my favourite series to kick off their latest season, after their long 3 months summer hiatus yayy they are all finally here starting tomorrow.They are 1 of the many reasons that keep me going for this final exam. Can't wait for it to end fast so that my holiday will be full with laughter,drama and tears thanks to the awesome-ness of all this series.





Grey's Anatomy known for its unbelievable music touch,1 of its kind. Their music director Alexandra Patsavas is my hero apart from the creator Shonda Rhimes.She's the mastermind for all the great songs selection,for the past 6 years(since the 1st season) I've discovered amazing talent who I don't think I'll heard if not for this show.She's the rock behind each song that has been picked which suits each scene perfectly.




How can a law student not be watching any legal drama right?At first Julianna Margulies is the only reason why I started watching (childhood's memory with ER and George Clooney).But then its add up to Josh Charles(as the sexy charming Will Gardner,who can say no that sultry brooding eyes?),Archie Panjabi(Kalinda is definitely my favourite,so mysterious yet to be unravel this new season),Christine Baranski (great actor with years of portfolio as an evidence), Matt Czuchry (crush since Gilmore Girl) and Alan Cumming (Eli Gold is the most interesting character in this drama,there is just something with guys with accent isn't it?hahaha). The Good Wife is also an Emmy's choice for the past 3 years.






1 big(straight,gay,multi-cultural,traditional) happy family.They say nothing is impossible,guess what.Its deadly IMPOSSIBLE for one to watch Modern Family without laughing until their jaw and stomach in pain.They say I'm funny,but I think they'll only know the real meaning of funny when they watch this family.They are THE epitome of funny.The best thing about them is that they are so funny with a straight face.My father would never get why we(Boboy&me) love this show and couldn't stop laughing hysterically each time we watched it.

p/s: Was watching Emmy's yesterday just to find out whether my favourite 'family' win anything,and yes they did!The best ensemble casts for comedy and Phil&Claire Dunphy (Ty Burell & Julie Bowen) won best supporting actor and actress in a comedy drama.Bravo!





Been watching since my early teenage-hood,they never failed to surprised me each season and its quite sad they are coming to its end already with this 8th season.They made housewives sound so cool and not such a bad idea, for me atleast.




My life stars and ends with music. How can 1 not like a musical drama/movie?Life is so life-less without music.Plus Mr.Schue is like the hottest teacher ever!How I wish my school back then have a Glee club and a cool teacher like him.Most characters are leaving after this new season so I don't know whether my loyalty will still be there, hoping for more screen times for Santana and Brittany,they are so cute and mean together!




I look up to Barney,he's the sole or maybe major(because I love Ted,Marshall,Lily&Robin too) reason why I love this show.If only there's a female version of Barney I can totally relate with,he loves a person the best he knows without expecting nor promising much.That's how 1 should love anyone.'When I feel sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead' Barney is so awesome!



Ok back to misery;Evidence Law,Criminal Procedure Law & Professional Practise are the only 'shows' I should be watching now!



Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Aftermath.

They say every words count as prayers, I wish I can say good thing after my 1st paper yesterday 'like wow,what an easy test that was and I'm glad I read all the spot topics!' but instead it sounded like this 'damn @$##**% you uncivilized CIVIL PROCEDURE II,why must you combined with so many sub-topics,can't you just like stand on your own!Ya Allah tolong lah jangan failed as I've came so close to the finish line already'. We realised only 1 single thing after each final exams(in particular) that is, why human's brain can function every single day,it functions for 24hours a day,7days a week and its been freaking functioning right from the time we were born and it only stops when we are taking exams! And the aftermath of yesterday's paper was,' that civil II paper just now, had given me multiple abrasions and lacerations, severe brain bruising, grade 2 concussions, and a 2 seconds fail of chest or whatever the right terms are...and exactly, it was brutal'.

And for today's paper,I just want to dedicate the 'successful' attempt in answering those 100marks questions only to the only bunch
of no life people, who liked to over think such simple issues and bring nothing but misery to our life even after they are long dead and gone.Yeah, to all Jurisprudence scholars out there or where ever you guys are please accept my sincere dedication of my 'A+' result later. Updates for the next 3 papers I hope will sound a bit more cheerful than this 1. Amin.



Never thought it's going to be this challenging and heart-breaking!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

What it takes to ' Tear Us Apart'

Nadhira feat Ron E Jones 'Tear Us Apart'





I'm so scared to let things go,especially the good memories and to lose hope and faith in myself when it is so damn close to the end of one beginning and in the same time I'm eager for a brand new start of another phase.God,please give all of us strength in reaching our destination of this long 5 years journey. Beautiful songs help me go through stress moments. This one is definitely one of my latest favourite, local talent who sounds so international. Breathe in and out,calm and focus back on the right track.


All the best to all where ever you are:)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

2nd thought.

Some things just crossed your mind for no reasons.After we finished our mock trial yesterday,the burden of 4 months feels like flying off our shoulder immediately especially after hearing the great news.Before that, I would like to wish congratulations to both of our firms,Pamela Pang & Partners as well as Rai,Hana & Partners. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

I feel very..very very tired (just to show how tired all of us are) and my legs were seriously killing me (I feel old,very old indeed!Thanks to the cold weather and long hours of standing and going here and there to settle stuffs) so out of no where I said,'Feels like getting married,so that I'll always have someone to rub my feet whenever I'm tired' and they laughed their heart out hearing me saying that since I never really see myself getting married.The best question I think was when they asked,'Are you sure you need a husband?I think a maid will do.' ha ha ha.Well,moral of the story is please get married for a BETTER reason ok.



Rejoiced after 15 straight hours of sleep:)

Monday, September 5, 2011

Lazying theme song

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks






Final FINAL exam in 2 weeks. Notes and books still left untouched. Lazying around. Munching foods non-stop. Lepak-ing with gfs. Unravel a 1 year secret everyone wants to know. Looking back at the lovely pictures. Write an email thinking to press the button send but keep it in draft instead. Do it over and over again. 5 last papers that'll determine whether or not I can say bye-bye to MMU. Have not firm-hunting for chambering place. Planning for a vacation but a lone-ranger backpacker sounds almost impossible. One of the most stressful phase in my life so far. Weight issue. Size issue. Friendships issues. Heart issues. Trust issue. List of things to get brings to M.I.A.M.I (Money Is A Major Issue). Ahhh time to get things together and plan my future well. Ok,that sounds a bit too serious.LOL.


Forever young!



Friday, September 2, 2011

Jealousy.

I hate having all the wrong feeling at all the wrong time for all the right person.I hate being jealous when the fact is I shouldn't have any feeling,but its not like we can control what to feel right.Jealousy sucks! If you're not jealous, then you don't love the person. If you don't love the person, then you're not supposed to be jealous. Like Arizona said,' Jealousy is a green eyed monster', better keep it in and control it as long as you can as once you let it go out it'll destroy a lot of relationships and hurts a lot of hearts.





I've been wishing for someone to be mine. But now, I wish for maturity to realize that even if someone wouldn't be mine, I'll still be fine. And that person will be with someone better.

Maaf.

A lot of heart warming sms/tweets/messages asking for forgiveness coming in. But why are our egos so big that we can't do this more often and more sincerely?1 thing to ponders upon this Raya not only a reminder for myself as well as for friends out there.

I would also like to quote my friend P;"You ask for my forgiveness but you can't find it in your heart to forgive mine?? Well, that is plain selfish and redundant. Don't bother sending me Raya wish".


I'm pretty sure both of us are thinking about the same person but who knows I might be wrong. Nobody's perfect, and you know what sorry is not such a hard word to say out loud, if I can say it, when we actually did say it so what stops you from uttering those words? Life is too short buddy (still traumatize and hugely affected by scenes from Final Destination 5, stupid scary laser eye treatment!) so make every seconds count because no one knows whether will we still be here for next Raya (so many people have left us for the past 1 year, those who I never expected but 'ajal maut di tangan Tuhan'.)


'Nobody knows where we might end up..nobody knows' -Psapp,The Rocket.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Merdeka Raya

I didn't plan to be this mean on this blessed and happy day but who can stop me from bragging about our big win against Arsenal?Its 8-2 ok,come on at least give me a week until next weekend's game. I missed the 1st 2 weeks' games since EPL kick started, I've already missed the Community Shield we won against Manchester City so I'm not gonna let this one passed by.Its so great to finally watching this young squad playing, De Gea gave me heart attack for letting the early goals but its understandable for goalkeeper to get used with English style of playing since in La Liga I personally think the game is a bit too fast and too many tricks played by the players. Its a wise bid Ferguson made to buy Young because that boy can surely scores, the decision to give away Welbeck as a loan player to Sunderland definitely pays back and the magic combination the rest like Smalling, Jones and Cleverly have is unbelievable and need to be witnessed by yourselves to know I'm not exaggerating. Its a nice feeling to be back home after so long,on the comfort of your couch, accompanied by your loud family members and watch your favourite team playing, and the icing on the cake was they win big!2nd history made by them after won 9-0 against Ipswich long time ago. And for Arsene Wenger, do something man! There are reasons why Fabregas, Nasri and the rest left The Gunners.Yes great players just want to play in the 1s squad of 11 but winning trophies boost their pride, confidence and price as well so start buying players especially defenders. This raya is just a simple one for our family, having so many things happened lately I'm just glad and grateful to be celebrating with my small family. Untill next time Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin and Happy 54th Independence Day to all Malaysians.

ManUtd lapan Arsenal dua,
Gembira hati tidak terkata,
Ramadhan hampir meninggalkan kita,
Menandakan Raya sudah tiba. :)

Have a wonderful holiday everyone:)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Bye-bye.

Ramadhan has come to its end,do I regret anything? Absolutely yes,being so caught up in final year's priorities limited my time to seek and gain more deeds.Nevertheless I feel very grateful to be able to go through this month with friends yet again. I'll always maintain that they are the extended families I never had ever. By far this year, 23rd Ramadhan as a Muslim really test my patient in terms of handling stress problems encountered left right and front which didn't give us signal before dropping by. Whether problems related with school matters,people behaviours,future planning,etc only 1 thing I've decided to follow which is to; 'Live without pretending, Love without depending, Listen without defending, and Speak without offending.' As long as we live our life with full sincerity, whatever judgmental perceptions people want to put on us let them be because we can't control what others want to think about us an we? Until next time,happy final night Tarawikh and drive safely to those who have left to kampung and have great time with beloved families.


With love from city girl :)

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Let go.

Being nice to someone you hate or to someone who treats you bad doesn't make you a hypocrite but it shows you have matured enough and your parents have taught you well.Thanks, Alhamdulillah ♥



It's been a lovely weather this past few days,lets seek for Lailatul Qadar night.

Friday, August 19, 2011

5 years ♥

'Because when the sun shines, we'll shine together, Told you I'll be here forever, Said I'll always be your friend, Took an oath,I'ma stick it out till the end.'

That's a promise my friend, a promise we made 5 years ago under a rainbow coloured umbrella.You'll always be here in my ♥ whether you still are my friend or not. Just because you have left doesn't meet I'm not going to stay around..a bit longer. With the hope and continuous prayers you'll take a detour and come back.



Its raining but we are here to stay :')

Sunday, August 14, 2011

I miss last Ramadhan:')

Its 5.00am, 13th day of Ramadhan. Here I am taking 5 minutes break from 1001 things of our heart-less PP curse ( I can't imagine how Nik,Angie, and other counsels are doing their tremendous heavy part compare to mine.), my last duty of balancing MULS’ account, outlines for all the assignments, daily chores, etc. It’s almost half way of this blessed month, yet I feel so empty. Now days its all about rushing. Rush to do research for our assignments, rush to finished the preparation for mock-trial, rush to completed my list of things to do before going back to home for Raya, rush to plan a lot of meet up with close friends cum family, rush to understand all the blur topics of each subjects, I’m even rushing from Tarawikh to house because my head just can’t let go the million things we need to get done. They even haunt me during my sleep. The promise I made to myself in becoming a better Muslim have yet to be fulfilled, I really hope the 2nd half of Ramadhan will open up ways for me to spend more time in finding Lailatul Qadar. InsyaAllah.

It’s almost sound as if I'm always finding reason to blame our hectic schedule as a final year student, but I'm not. I'm not that old procrastinator anymore. It’s even impossible to take break and go home for berbuka puasa with family without feeling guilty abandoning the unfinished business in Melaka, we don't even have time to go out berbuka with friends yet like we religiously do every year since I've entered my Degree life, I miss those who have gone a bit more in this month maybe since I know we literally have no one anymore to visit on 1st day of Raya. So I open that one songs’ folder which I hope could cheer me a little bit this cold, lonely morning. Raya songs' folder that is. The calls from Ayah and Mama since early this week until today make me sebak to the max, and the text from Along earlier made me sad, like depressed gloomy sad. Its true this coming Raya we don't really have anywhere to go. The life sad of a small family like us, that is why I can’t imagine how life would be if not for the 4 people I have in my life regardless how imperfect I am they always be there for me. How can one not have tears for moment like this? More than for stress of the works; burden I would like to blame these tears for the melodramatic lyrics of the Raya songs I’m listening right now.


It’s bizarre to think about the things that have changed from last Ramadhan till date, whether it’s for the better or for the worse both have impeccable effect on me for making the person I am today. Somehow this busy schedule give us the opportunity to forget for a little while about things we don’t wish to think, no matter how hurtful it is since you see the problem walks in front of you every day of our life but you just have to give your damn best not to think about it. We have tried our best, now the only thing we can do is tawakal and doa. If He wants to help us, He will. Maybe for now, this is for everyone’s best. Not in million years would I ever think that we would’ve end up here. Never. But yet I’ve been proven wrong. Never say never Cheda. I’ll always cherish all the great fond memories we had shared along the years, till the day I know what’s the problem, you shall always remain part of me. Forever. (Sigh of relief) Ok time to get back to work while waiting for Subuh azan. Life goes on. And ya nothing lasts forever so appreciate whatever you have today because you never know until when they’ll be by your side.


These moments were my BEST Ramadhan I had so far during my University life, I have no regrets meeting and knowing these great friends. Where ever they will be later in future I wish them all the happiness regardless we will be in each others' life or not at that time. Only love and prayers for them, nothing less.
















p/s: Watching everyone busy doing shopping for their kids at the mall just now make me feels pathetic with my dull life that I went there only to by all the criminal evidence stuff, the 'BLOOD', zip lock bag for the evidence, etc. Haven't do any Raya shopping yet!

Raya songs mode ON. Sebak. Sedih. Terharu.

Friday, August 5, 2011

That moment when...

That awkward moment when...your non-Muslim friends confused whether to air kiss your cheek 2 or 3 times when we meet and hug.

That guilty moment when...you sing an inappropriate song in the Mosque,last Tuesday (and many times before) 1 song that is stuck in my head was OMG by Usher.I have this tendency of humming and singing songs that I hate,the moment I realised it I would say 'Damn,I hate this song..wth did I sing it!


That horror moment when...you wake up from a bad dream and feels like its really happened to you when you sleep, sweating, you feel scared, etc.But so sad the feeling was never the same with good dreams!*sigh*


That dejavu' moment when...you meet someone who says or do something that reminds you to a past situation,and all you did was stand there and try to think really hard when did this occurred until someone have to ask,'hey,are you even listening to what I say?'


That humiliating moment when...your mother still treats you like a 7 years old especially when meeting her friends,she'll order you to;'Salam aunty,cium tangan orang tua, cakap sopan2,etc' as if I won't do it if she doesn't tell me to.


That coincidence moment when...you called your lecturer and find out her caller ringtone is the song that you listen every night,Ms.As's is 'Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart' by Alicia Keys.Still love how she text me,referring me as Kajol.hehehe.


That sad moment when...all the thing you can think of in your lectures 'is 'my student life is coming to its end in few more days' and this feeling has been with me since 1st class in this semester.Yes I will miss my University life but at the same time I can't wait for that freedom of not facing some people who give you nothing but pain and troubles.


That panic moment when...you have so much on your plate that you have trouble to figure out which 1 should you chew first,with so little time I'm trying my best to balance my final year student life.I don't have extra time to juggle other things for now.Especially not another drama as I have enough slots right now,including the unwanted ones.


That confusing moment when...your friend changed into someone you can't recognized at all.It feels like you never know this person. Why and how that person changed is a mystery no one will ever succeed in unravel it.And that is when Keane's song 'Everybody's changing keep playing again and again in your mind.


That stupid moment when...you have a fight with your brother about some international football players from few leagues who have had affairs with women out of wedlock but end up with serious topic like religion and who's guilty when a man commit an infidelity. Until your father has to stop you and ask,'What this will give you?Will they pay you to take their side?'.


That irritating moment when...while you are doing your Tarawikh prayer and suddenly boooommMMMM!!!!! The boys outside the mosque were playing fire crackers,and instead of paying attention and khusyuk to your prayer all you can think of is; 'Kalau aku jumpa budak2 ni mmg best gile kalau dapat belasah dorang!Buat sakit jantung aku je tiap malam terkejut macam ni!' then you remember hat OMG its Ramadhan and you are praying for God's sake.There goes your pahala.


That childish moment when...all you can think of on a sunny day during Ramadhan is a swimming pool full of your favourite drink and you are swimming while drinking it.I know right! I have this crazy thing over Pepsi,its not that I drink it on regular day.I rarely drink any carbonated drinks except for when I go for movies.


That inferior moment when...you saw guys who wear skinnier jeans that you are!and they even prettier than girls,arghhhhh.Ok that's it.



Yeah,there are always moments that make you feel this and that but you can never say it out loud.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Positively patient

Even in this blessed month I dare to admit that I'm not a patient person, because I am although its getting better as year goes by seiring dengan penambahan umur (older and wiser). But I learn to be one now, that's how much I care about you.That's how much we care about you! Friendship always has its ups and downs, it taught us to be patient as well. Its not what you try to held back infront of your friends which might hurt his/her feeling but to control your self not to talk bad behind them. InsyaAllah I will keep my words and promise till the day I die, because they are family and as family members you just don't wash your dirty linens on public no matter how mad you are. As they say keep your words positive because your words become your behaviors. That's a great mantra for life. Yes it's true, you are not responsible for what people think about you but you are responsible for what you give them to think about you. All I can do now is to keep praying and have faith in God (Do dua for them and help them for Allah SWT's sake), that your ego won't stay up in your head as long as you wish it to be. I've tried all I can possibly do, we cannot possibly help the unhappy by being one of them plus my life is too damn wonderfully happy to think about you and the unresolved and unknown (mystery unravel!) issues all the time. I've said this before and let me say it again, giving up is not a choice and I refused to even to think about it until the day you realised your mistake and it will NEVER too late to say it out loud as we will NEVER judge you no matter what. Demi Allah, I meant each words I said. And now the attitude you are carrying with you reminds me to one phrase," Since Shaitan has been locked up in Ramadhan, all what we are showing now is our true colours.".



p/s: From 1 woman to another,(euwwwwwwwwwww!) Please women,do not blame the hormon for every single of your bitchiness!That's just plain heartless and selfish!


Insight of Ramadhan :
When breaking fast & suhoor, Allah remind us in Qur'an, "Eat & drink: But waste not by excess, for Allah loveth not the wasters." (7:31)

Monday, August 1, 2011

Hikmah Tarawikh

Feels like sharing the hikmah behind each night of Tarawikh, every year I will look back at the book about the hikmah to remind myself of what I might be missing out of each night.Hope all of us granted good health to perform all ibadah in this month.Amin:)


1. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Pertama
Diampuni dosa orang-orang yang beriman sebagaimana keadaannya baru dilahirkan.

2. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kedua
Diampunkan dosa orang-orang yang beriman yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih, serta dosa-dosa kedua ibubapanya.

3. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketiga
Para malaikat di bawah 'Arasy menyeru kepada manusia yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih itu agar meneruskan solatnya pada malam-malam yang lain, semoga Allah akan mengampunkan dosa-dosa mereka.

4. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keempat
Orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih akan memperolehi pahala sebagaimana pahala yang diperolehi oleh orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat, Zabur, Injil dan Al-Quran.

5. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelima
Allah SWT akan mengurniakan pahala seumpama pahala orang-orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang di Masjidil Haram, Masjidil Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsa.

6. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keenam
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya pahala seumpama pahala malaikat-malaikat yang bertawaf di Baitul Makmur serta setiap batu dan tanah berdoa untuk keampunan orang-orang yang mengerjakan tarawih malam itu.

7. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketujuh
Seolah-olah ia dapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa a.s serta menolong Nabi itu menentang musuhnya Fir’aun dan Hamman.

8. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelapan
Allah S.W.T mengurniakan pahala orang yang bersolat tarawih sebagaimana pahala yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Ibrahim a.s.

9. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesembilan
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan pahala dan dinaikkan mutu ibadat hamba-Nya seperti Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

10. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesepuluh
Allah SWT mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.

11. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesebelas
Ia meninggal dunia di dalam keadaan bersih dari dosa seperti baru dilahirkan.

12. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduabelas
Ia akan dibangkitkan pada hari kiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya-cahaya.

13. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketigabelas
Ia akan datang pada hari kiamat di dalam keadaan aman sentosa dari sebarang kejahatan dan keburukan.

14. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keempatbelas
Malaikat-malaikat akan datang menyaksikan mereka bersolat Tarawih serta Allah S.W.T. tidak akan menyesatkan mereka.

15. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelimabelas
Semua malaikat yang memikul ‘Arasy dan Kursi akan berselawat dan mendoakannya supaya Allah mengampunkannya.

16. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keenambelas
Allah S.W.T. menuliskan baginya dari kalangan mereka yang terlepas dari api neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga.

17. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketujuhbelas
Allah S.W.T menuliskan baginya pahala pada malam ini sebanyak pahala Nabi-Nabi.

18. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kelapanbelas
Malaikat akan menyeru: Wahai hamba Allah sesungguhnya Allah telah redha denganmu dan dengan kedua ibu bapamu (yang masih hidup atau yang sudah mati).

19. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Kesembilanbelas
Allah S.W.T akan meninggikan darjatnya di dalam Syurga Firdaus.

20. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh
Allah S.W.T mengurniakan kepadanya pahala sekelian orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang soleh.

21. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh satu
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah mahligai di dalam syurga yang diperbuat dari cahaya.

22. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh dua
Ia akan datang pada hari kiamat di dalam keadaan aman dari sebarang huru-hara pada hari tersebut.

23. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tiga
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah bandar di dalam syurga daripada cahaya.

24. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh empat
Allah S.W.T akan membuka peluang untuk dua puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

25. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lima
Allah S.W.T akan mengangkat seksa kubur darinya.

26. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh enam
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan pahala empat puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

27. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tujuh
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya kemudahan untuk melintasi titian sirat sepantas kilat.

28. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lapan
Allah S.W.T akan menaikkan kedudukannya seribu darjat di akhirat.

29. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh sembilan
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya pahala seribu haji yang mabrur.

30. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketigapuluh
Allah S.W.T akan memberi penghormatan kepada orang yang bertarawih pada malam terakhir dengan firman-Nya (yang bermaksud): Wahai hambaku!, makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang Engkau ingini untuk dimakan di dalam syurga dan mandilah kamu di dalam sungai yang bernama salsabil serta minumlah air dari telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. yang bernama Al-Kautsa.

Have a blessed Ramadhan :)