53 and counting ♥

You are a big part of my life, you are the main reason I want to be a better person, you are the sole motivation for me to become somebody 1 fine day, all my life I’ve been thinking ways to make you proud and hopefully with continuance support and love from you I’ll outdo myself and make you smile and say ‘that’s my daughter’. On this day I just hope and pray there will be more birthdays and happy wonderful years ahead for you because I need more times to reach that somewhere where you can be proud of me . Happy 53^rd Birthday Ayah.

Ayah believes in making your loved ones happy on your important days such us birthdays, anniversaries, etc so today went to around KL and The Gardens the activity was we shop he pays. Who doesn't love birthdays if this is the case with everyone we know?hehe.

Gone are the days where men are like MY (our) FATHER. PERIOD.

Doomed!

The title depicts how doomed I am once the new semester opened next week as I pretty much screwed up my final report, Mr.T going to have the time of his life bambooing me for not following his ultimate rules! And I have planned what I'm going to do while he's doing that, I will give him the straightest face one can give, as its obvious my fault so no use to answered him back. I will try not to cry, it'll look completely stupid for an oversize final year student to cry over a final report (but I think I'm gonna cry for some other reason,we'll see what HE has for me in store.GOD be mercy,please!) And if he or the rest of LA's board ask me of how has this attachment changed me? Well, first and foremost this program helped me MUCH in gaining 12kgs and pretty much like what Pza said it has definitely changed our figure!For once in my life I shop for size L!Thank you.Now that the Damai-ians' girls called me Kim K of OBVIOUS reason none of my slacks are fit anymore,baju kurung it is for the rest of final semester(pray that'll be my final sem) or maybe the rest of my life until I get back my 47kgs figure.Aerobic class here we (the Moks) come!

Time does flies when you least expect them to be or when you are having good time, thanks to the great people in Khamdan & Co. We shall meet again, going to consider the chambering offer;)

3 tables for different department within the 3months, this has to be my fav!

ALSA pretty much like a summer camp after a long schooling days, can't wait for NC in November!

Whole body still aching after 2 days, but I'll be back next year!Got to do the things you love for free is the awesome-ness feeling ever! Next up,bunjee jumping y'all!

By now Barcelona is celebrating their victory defeating MU 3-1 in final of Champions League, Pep's boys showed us what is world class football game is all about!The fast game was really entertaining, all of their 3 strikers scored each goals but hey I'm proud with the Red Devils as this was our 3rd finals in 4 years. How can we complain about that? Thanks for 1 of the lawyer in my firm for the merchandise above! Coolio!

Finally last week rewarded me with an educational appearance in The Star , due to Youth Event and hey for once I'm thrilled its not about chasing a super star!

Activities help me heal:)

Flashback........

We may think we left the past behind, but it has a way catching up with us. I'll face that in less than 10 days, whether I like it or not I have no choice but to suck it up. When we want to run far away, we are forced to confront our past. And the secrets that already deep buried will come back into the light, and then if we were strong enough we are able to move on . Yes, we all need to leave the past behind and move on towards the future and if we're lucky we will get help getting there. Life never stop to surprise me but yet still its surprising how much of difference 266 days can make.

Kitne door kitne paas............

Poetry can startle you, awaken you, make you fall in love, take your breath away. When those words sink in, you'll never look at your life or your journey the same way again. Especially when it comes to Urdu or Hindi poems, purely lovely in its own language. Translations won't captured the essence of its beauty but still to spread the love you need to let people know what it means. Thanks alot Atif for sharing, I must say most great poetry I know and love their works are from Pakistan.

To kia hua (It matters not)

The evening's the same,
But you're not here,
Now this journey,
Halfheartedly.
Must be made,
Must be continued,
It matters not,
That you have gone,
Far..................
From me,
Far..................
Having broken my heart,
Far.................


To someone else,
Yo now belong,
Your happiness is what I pray for,
For your sake, things turned out well,
It matters not, that you have gone,
Far..................
From me,
Far..................
Having broken my heart,
Far.................

I have not being defeated,
Why?From me,
Why?Broken my heart,
The evening's the same,
But you're not here,
Now this journey,
Halfheartedly.
Must be made,
Must be continued,
It matters not,
That you have gone,
Far..................
From me,
Far..................
Having broken my heart,
Far.................

It matters not,

That you have gone.

I wish I could be friends with you, but every time I hear your name, I still feel a little something that I can't let go of.

Caught up in hectic-ness.

Without much sounds like a celebrity this past 1 week been really hectic, away for the weekend feels great especially got to meet up with new fun friends but now time to come back to reality and get done with THE report then I'll get back to leisure once again before 6th June arrived. When we are so caught up in to many things we tend to forget our responsibility towards HIM but lucky we got friends who will always remind ourselves indirectly in the nicest way. These 3 phrase have been my favourites this past 6-7 days as they keep my feet grounded on the ground no matter how busy I get. Thanks to Sabeena :)

‘You are the servant, He is the Master. Prayers come from you, answers come from Him. Abstinence comes from you, protection comes from Him. Repentance comes from you, acceptance comes from Him. Go towards him walking, He will come to you running.’

To completely trust in God is to be like a child who knows deeply that even if he does not call for the mother, the mother is totally aware of his condition and is looking after him. - Imam Al Ghazali

I have chosen the path of Allah and by his Grace none shall take me off that path till the day I am wrapped in the white piece of cloth - InsyAllah.

My week is SURREAL!

At lunch hour today, the shock of my life is when these lovely voice on the phone say 'Hye cheddarrrrrr! and I'm pretty sure I heard something about parmesan! Dilly and JD called just to say happy that we finally met yesterday and we borak2 a bit as well especially about next morning's topic. I'm totally over the moon man, it reminds me to the topic Dilly promised me to discuss on air 1 day about the unique nickname. They still can't get over with the cheese thing I guess,hehehe.

And tonight, Dilly walled me up with super nice things to say : "Am very glad we finally got to meet u yesterday! Nice to put a face to the voice! And what a pretty face too! :) "

Now you tell me, how not to LOVE MIX.FM even more!!!

Am still smiling, its been a while so let it be..... :)

ⒶⓂⒺⓇⒾⒸⒶⓃ ⒾⒹⓄⓁ ⑨ : Lee Dewyze

'Hallelujah'

'Sweet Serendipity'

Autograph session, shook his hand and chat for like 3 secs!

Yayyy, got it signed ♥

I am the lucky guest ;)

MIX.FM rocks!

Serena C, she said this pose look hot!hahaha.

My 2 favourite persons in the morning, Dilly & JD!

The thing I have for American Idol all these years is something similar to what my Mom has for AF which I will never get and will never try to understand pun. Lee is 1 of those Idols who I approved his winning as he truly deserved it, all the songs he sang LIVE yesterday in the showcase are from 'Live It Up' and he has such great voice. The best is he's so damn humble! Maybe because from a normal guy who works in a paint shop he tends to appreciate the fans more as he is used to be 'us' you know.More than feeling happy to meet and greet Lee Dewyze I was far more excited and happier to finally meet my favourite DJs from Mix.Fm who is the cute Dilly & JD. Just with 1 hi and just by saying my name,Dilly instantly recognized me and gave me the warmest hug ever,in person her voice is as cute as ON AIR and the fact that even JD remembers me is like so surreal!Then we chatted a bit,take some pics and the OMG2 moment (obviously just from my side,hehehe) then we say bye2. I LOVE MIX.FM EVEN MORE! And ya I meet new friends (all are school kids, the oldest I guess not old than 16. Owh I feel very old!) and HOT magazine took our pics and we made our way to their blog and magazine HERE.

Idol fever continues tomorrow, who will be in the Top 2?Please 1 of them is Haley!

CHAMP19ONS!

We lost to Chelsea - AWAY. We lost to Liverpool - AWAY. We lost to Arsenal - AWAY. But we didn't lose against the big 3 at OLD TRAFFORD. Its not about being INVINCIBLE, its about being there at the top when it matters. Congratulations on the 19th title Manchester United. 19 titles is extraordinary. As the number of haters grow,so does the titles and cups in our cabinet :)

With all the indenial supports till the end of GLORIEST road, RED DEVILIAN I am!

Daily tales.

As I was watching the much awaited wedding episode yesterday, from the first scene it turned out to be all that I was not expected! Sadly or unfortunately I would say but as the story goes by I realised, hey this is what life is all about. That thing they did, the problem they faced and all the drama arose yesterday are exactly how real life functioned. Shonda is sheer brilliant, she knows that she can leave the fairytales storyline to others shows as that is so not her niche. We all remember the bed time stories of our childhood, the shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turned into a Prince, Sleeping Beauty is awaken by a kiss, once upon a time and then they live happily ever after. Fairy tales, the stuff of dreams. The problem is, fairy tales don't come true. Its the other stories, the one that begin with dark and stormy night and ends unspeakable, the nightmares that all seems to become reality. The person that invented the phrase happily ever after should have his ass kick so hard. Once upon a time, happily ever after the stories we hear are stuff of dreams. Fairytales don't come true. Reality is much stormier, much happier, much scarier. Reality is much more interesting than happily ever after.I know bumpy journey awaits for Calzona in future but for now I just feel happy for them.

People should fight for a marriage not a wedding.-Callie-

CALZONA ♥

What is funny and intriguing about the hoo-haa surrounding the wedding is that all the Bible quoter's are complaining about homosexual story-lines yet they don't comment on the pre-marital sex, stealing, lies, backstabbing, cheating, gossiping, killing etc of the show and many other tv shows and movies. The truth is shows/movies are a mirror image, a snap shot of what you will face in the real world regardless you like it or not(no one really cares what is your take on every issues) and how people live in it. All religions and non have their own life and we all have to respect that, respect their choice doesn't mean you have to agree with it but simply live your life the way that makes you happy by not discriminates others on how they choose to lead theirs. We are all the same in His eyes therefore no need for us to judge others, who gave us the license to do so? And the choices we made, make us who we are and how we live our lives. Love is Gods message, love all no matter what. We all deserve to have a loving family and friends, having said that we don't need to agree with them ALL the time and the way we show our love its up to us.

Coming back to Calzona I personally think there could be no better way to end their beautiful relationship, I believe so despite being a Muslim this is what I felt is the best in GA's storyline :) Have always love them despite the dramas,break-ups,etc because somehow they always managed to overcome it. Callie is always my favourite character, added Arizona to the picture they make a great couple. Being straight doesn't necessary give you the power to hate these people, as long as they do not trouble you in whatever way they are free to love whomever they want. How they conduct themselves play an important role to, its whether they deserved our respect or not. Some people just over do it until you feel they are not honest enough being gay,it feels fake and pretending so to grab others' attention if you know what I mean. I've always love weddings (its totally 2 different thing between a marriage and a wedding), regardless there'll be a groom or not. But for the big white dress, the flowers, the smiley faces, overdose of pinkinsh-ness(lovely!),the cakes, the dance,etc ooohhh can't wait for tomorrow's night.

♥ Callie&Arizona and their adorable baby; Sofia Robbins Sloan Toress. With 3 surnames she certainly doesn't need a middle name.

Its bound to happen.

Change. We (I) don’t like it, we fear it. But, we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anyone who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here’s the truth; sometimes the more things change the more they stay the same. And sometimes change is good. Sometimes change is everything.

2 days before yet another history to be made in GA:') I'm super excited,yayyy!

3 days before THE 'White Wedding'

Universe & you

Favourite lines:

'You know there's no need to hide away
You know I tell the truth
We are just the same
I can feel everything you do
Hear everything you say
Even when you're miles away
Cause I am me, the universe and you
When you're on your own
I'll send you a sign
Just so you know
I am me, the universe and you'

I love KT Tunstall's original version but I love Jessica Capshaw (she pleasantly surprised me, all of us for the fact) and Sara Ramirez's more, this duet killed other songs in the music event. It captivates the emotion these two are going through beautifully, when Arizona made a plea to Callie to please continue live for her I cried because somehow I feel how much pain must she going through. Because being alone she felt hopeless, without her strongest support system plus being bashed by the cruel Mark (yayy, now they are the bestest of friend and co-parenting their child together). To say their love story and this duet is just beautiful would be an understatement, because I'm pretty blown away with this one. CALZONA should stay forver Shonda, we the GA's Mcfans demand that!Can't wait for this Friday, 3 more days for the most pinkish and girliest wedding ever. See I never witness this kind of wedding nor do I think I would be ever invited to one plus as 1 from 13 millions devoted fan I know this happy ending didn't come easy but like what JCap said; 'In Grey's Anatomy its not about simply loving someone but loving someone you shouldn't or loving someone in a difficult situation'. I'm sure I'll cry at their wedding, my favourite part in every wedding is always the vows part so I'm looking forward as what both got to say as their journey has been the bumpiest of all the couple in all seasons.

Its wonderful to see how they portrayed 2 strong characters who able to see beyond just the gender to fall in love:')

M5 Live in KL

'Secret'from their 1st album +'What's love got to do' by Tina Turner = Mind blowing mix!

Everyone has a secret
But can they keep it
Oh no they can’t

Oh what's love got to do, got to do with it
What's love but a second hand emotion
What's love got to do, got to do with it
Who needs a heart
When a heart can be broken

Post M5.

Waiting for all audiences came in, long before the concert started.

The man and his guys.

He's so..so..so damn hot!

Early to arrived, waiting in long que with new friends:)

1 of the many passes.

Concert virgin went nuts!

Dear Adam Levine,

'I'm so attracted to you, the feeling mutual too. I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday, Maybe we're better off this way, It's better that we break.'

As much as you get me infatuated I think its better that we break for now, because too much of this love wont help me get over this misery.


Until next rendezvous, I'm a devoted Maroon 5's lover !

6m: Its a long way back.

The length of your recovery is determined by the extent of your injuries. And it’s not always successful. No matter how hard we work at it. Some wounds might never fully heal. You might have to adjust to a whole new way of living. Things may have changed too radically to ever go back to what they were. You might not even recognize yourself. It’s like you haven’t recovered anything at all. You’re a whole new person with a whole new life.

5 days before THE royal wedding :')