♥Nur Kasih ♥ Nur in my heart ♥

I would never forget the 1st time this drama [1st episode] aired it created not just sort of phenomenon to the entire nation especially drama goers but as well created a mini stir in my little heart about love not just towards each other but towards Allah S.W.T. Sometimes people tend to see the things that only make them content and feel good about themselves but there are so many things lies beyond that, I'm still looking for it and learning to appreciate it if I’m lucky enough to get the ‘NUR’.

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I am/was an avid follower like other millions viewers even our mothers. It was 30th May a night before we moved out from Emerald Park and the night before Ayah’s 51st birthday and after almost 6 moons away and 25 episodes later today[yesterday,Raya Haji] 27th November 2009 I [we all actually!] sat anxiously in front of the TV and waiting patiently for the ending 1 of the best Malay drama I've ever watch so far[2nd have to be Sephia']. Even 1 of my buddy in our 'Nur Kasih-ains' click texted 30 minutes in advance to remind all of us not to missed it!hahaha.YES,we are so thoughtful when it comes to stuff like this*what to do!simply us!*

I said it once in 1 of my earliest entry and I will say it again, without doubt definitely Khabir Bhatia&Mira Mustaffa is one of my favourite director and screen/story writers. Thanks to them I cried buckets of tears, typical me.*sigh*

Each and every one of the actors carry their role with such elan that they go deep into the skin of the character and portrayed the roles as if we been knowing them for a long time, how we pity Nur, how we respect Aidil, how we hate Siti Sarah, how we feel for Katrina's suffering, how we angry with Adam, and others.

The finale as highly expected was a happy ending, for me its totally credit to the TRP or else TV3 would be dare and different enough to take the risk in allowing the director to offer such twist that were more dramatic yet give some morals to be seriously and critically thought about by us.

The theme song by Yasin;'Nur Kasih' gives me goosebumps everytime I listen to it. It have the simplest yet meaningful lyrics with soothing melody. Among the lines that I adore are:-

Resah hati yang ku pendam pada takdir dan harapan,
Detik waktu dan suratan siapa tahu ketentuan ku mencari
cahaya dalam bayang kegelapan...
Aku kembali pada kerana masih mencari yang hakiki
Sinar pasti...janji suci yang abadi.

Best closing; the line that we all been hearing from our parents and even in the holy Quran:-

‘Apabila malaikat menjemput, terputuslah amalan anak-anak Adam kecuali ilmu yang bermanfaat, sedekah jariah dan doa anak-anak yang soleh’.

me,loving NUR & thinking about getting the DVD box set:)

Am I JEALOUS?

Jealousy is 1 of the 7 evil feelings, if we able to stay away from being jealous people say we will succeedly avoid the other evils.Is it true?I don't know.But 1 thing for sure I am feeling jealous.As much as I hate it, I just can't help it.I'm a normal human being after all.


But they told me its good to feel that way as I'm channeling in to the right way,really?I did?*huh* This is what girlfriends tell us when we feel down,they lie to make us happy, they wont tell the truth because they know we can't handle it, they say nice things because they want to make long story short.


But again I hate to feel jealous as she's 1 of my good friend I shouldn't feel that should I?It just doesn't feel right, feels like I've been pretending in front of that person that I'm okay with it,I'm happy for her,etc2.Know what,bunch of lies that are.


Well I guess I'm big enough to know what is real and what is reel so I've decided that our friendships is far more important than anything else,so why don't I just play the game with the hope that Allah will guide my heart and keep this jealousy far..far away!Amin.

me,typcal girl with typical jealousy:)

Ending of new phase.

Great! Almost come to its end before I get to officially enjoy the so called ‘honeymoon phase’ or the beginning of it. I guess no such period when we are in the short semester*sigh*

It’s already end of the 4th week of my final semester of 2nd year of Degree in Law, by the time I finished writing this entry I’ve entered the 5th week. Can’t believe early next year we going to be 3rd year student, the feeling same as if I was going to our final year in secondary school only that the responsibilities and burden now weight more and the pressure getting worst.*doublesigh*


1 short semester, 2 months, 3 subjects, 4 hours of lectures, 5 days of classes [no more Wednesday movies day out & Friday the flying home day!] and millions of dramas.


Mr.Gary, like we all know is everyone sweetheart; especially the juniors batch! He gives advices almost in each and every lecture or tutorials. He keeps reminding us since like the 1st semester the importance of hardworking-ness as a law student. Nothing will come your way if we don’t look for it determinedly! Which is like 100% true.


Dr.Myint Zan on the other hand is not just us but everyone’s favourite. Hands down. We even go for lunches together after class, see who ever said there should be bold line between the lecture-student relationships. I feel proud to actually have the opportunity to meet a living genius, never thought will encountered one in this lifetime. He is so damn smart, brilliant, knowledgeable, etc like no one ever be. Everything is at his fingertips; he’s like a walking Wikipedia. Although he kind a bad with remembering names [still call me Kaiyisah and refer her as Saiyidah,hahaha] but he is damn good with dates(but not in getting dates, its his joke by the way!)


Last but not least is Pza’s Academic Advisor, Mr.Aqil from Jordan. This is our 1st time in his class. His teaching technique identical with Dr.Neha, which explained why they are indeed very close friends.1 thing in common between us is that both are short tempered kind a person only that his is like 7 times worst than mine.


Also working in the Law Mooting Committee under the Sponsorship Division which is a new experience for me, this time I have to kick start without Ayah’s help and contacts like last time during Law Night with the contribution card (felt like marathon day all over again!). Still happy to be able working under Saiful's leadership yet again, and to have Sarah&Jin Liang as my partners.


In short can’t wait for this semester to end successfully as by that time Ayah & Mama will be back home! Miss them.

me, looking back at the past 1 year:)

Back to school!

1 habit that is hard to kick away since I was a little girl is the fetish of organizing all my books, bags or stationeries in my pencil case again and again when I’m getting bored or stress with works, study or revision in the middle of the night or even getting drained with LIFE literally. Honestly speaking it happened every now and then which is like most of the time me being a student as it’s a tough life to lead y’all, if you know what I mean. hahaha.

This is my activity couple nights ago. It kind a give me time to chill and relax before get back to my work again. Some people eat when they tense up and some people sing but me, arranging my pencil case does the trick.

my class bag this sem, grey Elle. Have new aim for next sem's bag,saw 1 cun Elle bag at Parkson.

my little black diary, the stories & secret of the year lie in there.

my stationeries, Wild Channel pencil case since I was 16.

p/s: Desperately seeking for new girly+sporty pencil case for a brand new year as 3rd year student next year. Wish to buy Manchester United pencil case like Pza got for Afif's birthday or like Saiful's ; but couldn't find any. Maybe I'll ask Mun to get 1 for me from UK,or maybe Ena if she planning to go there anytime soon.hehehe.

Lovin' it!

me,driving during a rainy day

I simply love rainy days. Today's weather couldn't be more perfect. After long raining at night, the cold breeze in the morning gives the sign that I’ll be having great day ahead. Nice blue sky. And the birds seem chirping happily same as what I feel at that particular moment. Angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa. It feels like nothing can go wrong.

I do like sunny days as well but the sound of rains drop and the scenery after rains stop is to picture perfect. Rain have this effect on me that it made me missing, love and appreciate all those people I’ve always love and cherish even MORE! I cant seems to find reason to hate anyone on this perfect day although on normal day they would be on my hating list,owh how I wish even when its not raining I can be this saint.*sigh!*

1 thing worth waiting after rain is the breath taking rainbow,SubhanaAllah God's great creation!Since we were little girl till now Ayah loves showing us everytime he saw a rainbow came across after rainy days.I miss them!

But for now 'rain..rain go away come again another day as I have lots of laundry to do'.hehehe.

me,loving both sun & the rainbow after rain:)

Not so famous-cookies-amor!

When I baked for the first time its like love at the first sight as they would say(although I think its a myth!)as I discovered baking is so much fun that cooking.Frankly speaking I never ever thought people would like(love would sounded like exaggerating although I know for sure some of them DO LOVE them!) them left alone eat them!


I'm happy for the fact that Pza loves them,she is my 1st cookies 'fan' but not the last though as the fan base is expanding day by day.hehehe. Although her 1st comment of them being closely tasted like 'Famous Amos' a bit too good to be true but whatever it is I'll take it with an open heart as its a good thing to say after all.


Dislikes cooking for the fact it have so many rules plus too many ingredients to be prepared by ourselves!BORING! So baking is obviously a better choice,although my parents keep insisting us to learn how to cook.I believe I'm relatively a good cook,I mean for own survival not for others. Personally I think its a great way for releasing stress.Well..well..this entry meant to be a 'soft copy' of my[and my sister] choc chip cookie's recipe so here it goes:

250g of cake flour
150g of icing sugar
70g Van Houten chocolate chip
1 egg(yoke only)
1/4 tea spoon of baking powder
Salt (secukup rasa)

Tadaaaaaaa...hot baked from the oven!




Not so famous-cookies-amor









me love baking!:)

Piece of my heart.

Decision of letting the person you loved walking away from your life although for a short separation is a decision made only for the sake of you want them to be happy. That kind of decision never was or will it be an easy task yet we need to face it.Now I know personally how it feels to let a piece of your heart walked away.So close yet so far.Every moment I have them in my mind,all I can do is pray and hope everything will be fine like others are doing too.

All I can say is,its sucks to be parents-less for 40 days.


Miss Ayah&Mama tremendously.♥

This is it!

Seconds away before Ayah&Mama leaving for Haji,moments away before they leaving Malaysia to Makkah Al-Mukarammah and this is it..coming 40 days the 3 of us will have to stand on our own feet,literally for every single matter.

I've been preparing emotionally and only emotionally for this short separation.Praying with all my heart everything going to be fine, friends please pray for their health,safety and in getting Haji Mabrur too.Amin.

♥me,missing them already:')

Dear Allah.

Ya Allah give me strength, give me patient and foremost give me sensible and sane thinking so that I can face those who pretend more Malay, Islamic, and better than I am just because I just be the way I am. Never did I’ve been hurt in such this cheap way, never did I felt so down and never did I felt so much hatred in my heart. Ya Allah please protect me from any stupid act, reaction or from reciprocating in such a filthy way like some people did. I may not the best or perfect Muslim but I'm trying and have full faith in You, never will I question your plans for me in this journey. Plus I am blessed that my parents taught me better than that certain people who clearly showed how cheap the upbringing planted in that person all this while regardless whatever they tried to portrayed the end still came out as horrible stink!

Please keep my focus on the right path and again from the bottom of my heart I am sorry if you think I’ve done something wrong to that person. I just feel like an idiot and dead beat to give chance after chance but at the end of the day people still take me as the bad person. For God sake never did I talked that kind of shittiest way about that person or the family and yet again that person chose to follow what the same people who had back stabbed her in the past said. May those people who spread and want to believe the negative part of the story also be blessed by You. And please You know I didn’t seek You only when this things happened so please guide me as You always do.

1 thing crosses my mind the moment I get to know about this (ALL THE LOVE AND THANKS TO THE PEOPLE LOVED ME!) is what a typical shallow Malay mind, I guess I have underestimated that person, that person does not look as dumb as that person look but actually DUMBER. Just 1 thing, please say whatever you want about me but leave my family alone. I don’t want have anything to do with this kind of person Ya Allah, if this is the best for me than let it be.

Ya Allah, jauhkanlah aku dari sebarang kemungkaran dan kemaksiatan.Amin.

Enough said, I know you with me. Please stay.

me,wishing Happy 25th Anniversary to Ayah&Mama♥

Dont!

People always say(don't ask me who are they,but I know they exist!) that the more others tell you don't do something or stop you from doing the more you want to do it. Basically this apply to all mothers who keep saying don't to their children the whole time, I know no matter what age we are we remain a little girl to our parents. Personally I hate those who keep giving orders as if we(our life) belonged to them. Stop emotionally blackmail us with the love and care excuses because don't you think we love our own self?So think again before avert people go after their passion.


But I love how (some) people giving opportunity to those who keen to actually go out and play,discover the world ourselves, take the risk at our own decision, learn something from it and try to not repeat the same mistakes.That for me the true sense of living your life to the fullest, rather than keep listening what to do and take orders from others. We can thank them for the reminder though but we can take it from there. We can't pleased everyone can we, and even if we try we wont be happy because we didn't pleased ourselves at the first place.

So please stop saying don't to me.

me, don't accept don't as an answer :)