GOD has been really kind..couldnt asked for more(",)

this will be my 2 weeks summary as its been a hectic life for me for the past 2 weeks since the day i got MMU's letter..not that im complaining or what but im grateful and emotion dried up at the same time!from the medical checkups where the funny 1st time experience doing X-ray session to meeting with madam nallini at delifrance cafe the spot where i usually hangout while waiting for mama finishes her duty..i have a confession to make,actually i saw her 1st at the medicine area but she seems so busy so i just walk away[not proud of it=(] but really nice of her to came and greet me and have a short chat about all of our plan for future..it was the same day when afif & iza went to kedah to pursue their study,i fell something lost when he gone..he such a great buddy,1st ever my male friend that so caring!=)

mama burfday went really2 well as what we had planned,this is mama 50th year so me and along bought presents(as we always did!)but this year we spend extra time to really find the right gift..as usual Boboy not include in the list of people who actually contributed ideas,sweats or penny to this whole thing..but still he's the fav child,so does he cares?i dont think so!!!=( maybe im just so jealous which is not good as a person/sister/daughter but i cant help it..afif and me still contact each other as he asked for my help for his group work and they met atilla!but i really worried knowing his appendix attacked him again,this time is as horrible as the time he spent time in the hospital where he told me 1st(kinda shock but happy-.-)then later told iza..lucky sarah's home in kedah near to their place so sarah took them home as afif can get a little rest plus their class didnt start yet..remember up north they have holiday on friday&saturday not sunday..wish him will get well soon because not just far from family but it will somehow affect the concentration on his study!

after filled up all the forms from MMU,and ayah had bank-in the booking money as well as the registration fee the inside voice in me is now louder than ever of how i want&will(insyaALLAH) study really hard and smart but didnt meant i wont enjoy my life as a teenager there because ayah told me not to apply for PTPTN loan and he will pay by himself..really freakout when i know that ksya and pza didnt get the offer so i tried my best to help them and the minute they get it the journey of me finding the right place(apartment) for us to stay for the whole 4 years we'll stay there and finally i found 1 suitable enough 4 us(hopefully!)according to along's experince and advice..so everything is settled now!thank GOD..now my focus is on the packinging deal!

really exhausted with the idea itself of what to buy,what to left home for the moment,and what to list a.s.a.p..i spent a lot of ayah's money but it looks kinda worth it because with only rm200 i bought a lot of things,kalau hari biase dgn rm200 aku akn membazir je thats why this year resolutions to be really2 saving!!!=) plus pergi bazar stadium & amcorp mall beli lg mcm2,ayah bg rm100..the shakespeares notebook is awesome man,looks very artistic with all th quotes by the great poet himself..also bought a new novel which i wanted to buy the last time i went there!the super cool shoes i saw on sunday drive me crazy im sooo want all of them..but i need to control my self,i will save my own cash to buy all the 'luxurious' im craving for..but the future have to come 1st!its a total chaotic in my mind about all the stuff i ned to settle before the due date which is only left 5 days from now..the time is ticking...gulp*-'..

im happy but worried while waiting for all the cds i've won at THR,and also all the prizes i won everywhere..add to the list is when i won recently at FLY a colbie caillat cd,COCO..tried to se mika's happy ending as fs background music nut there's audio prob so for now my J.T's 'till the end of time' will fill the space..lovin' it!thrilled knowing MU still at the top of the league,but they can do better than 2 goals on sunday..ron himself have plenty of oppotunities,very2 devastating watching all the chances end well because arsenal is not letting MU alone in this battle..i have to console myself slowly from now on to not to dpends a lot on entertainment as i wont have t.v at melaka!wHoaaaaaaaaaaa...frustrating man after 19 years!lebih2 bila aku tgk iklan kat 8tv yg ugly bety and DH akan start anytime soon..plus HEROES+SURVIVOR:CHINA+CSI+AMAZING RACE ASIA+PROJECT RUNWAY+KOREAN DRAMAS+HINDI MOVIES AT CINEMA+MOVIES+ASTITVA AT ZEE TV...waAaaaaaaaaaaa..=( but cHeda u can do it!

after quite a while me and ena chatted 1-2 days earlier,she just finished her exam so they were planning for travelling plan..but unfortunately they cant travel to another country so they'r going at north of poland..hope she'll have a great time,coz she deserved it!=) while my new friend,shush from jaipur,INDIA is really kind to actually help me with allthe FILMFARE thing..i desperately seeking for the last year 3 issues where i missed..also try ask from the dealer for giant SA sect 18!shanti at kl have difficulties with ayah's cek so we eed to re-do it again..hope averything will be fine!everywhere possible for me to find bolywod stuff i will bargain good price for it..its my passion!hehehe..tomorrow will be full for me as i have a lot of things to get done including meeting my good frens before leaving..

till next time..chow~

my most awaited day of 2008..till date..=)

im happy i could discipline myself to follow the chedaness for this new year so hopefully can maintain for the rest of this year and life as well..but sadly *aunty visit* on the 2nd day so tertangguh jap!best betol(alhamdulillah)4 the past 2-3 months da x dpt saket2 yg giler2 saket 2..on friday im so dispointed,stressful,and frustrated ble tau mr.dev x simpan all the past months nye filmfare mags!!!arghh,i paid for it remember!but cant blamed him alone,drg kan da pindah so ssh gak,actually still in renovation kiosk baru kat cap square k.l..now i need to find the covers with srk,shahid,and abhi on its cover so ask zah's help to find it for me!rase x best x dpt penuhkn collectio as i've been buying since im 15 so..tp die bwk gy jumpe dealer in kl,not so far from kl sentral itself where we met mr.dev..along the way to the dealer place we chat a lil bit,i really need to improve my confidence speaking english coz kinda scared..haha..cant believemr.dev was OXFORD LAW STUDENT!it was my 1st time to atually communicate personally wif sum1 who had studied there..plus he offered me a job as i have so much passion in b'wood world!ssh gaks,gy k.l ngan along pusing2 smpi sesat tp x jumpe gaks..kalo ade pon drg soh wat appoinment dtg sok!byk cantek,igt ktrg ni byk mase ke..plus,KL doesnt looked or felt like malaysia because there are so many foreigners in the sense of not pelancong but pekerja asing!!im so afraid walking in kl,rase x selamat betul..last2,balek je terus coz da waktu org balek keje!sempat singgah 18 beli goreng pisang yg ayah suke 2,guess what i met mkck zie while waiting in que..i hate meeting people i know well outside!and also the gurl named bedah,juz a smile 4 her because we'r not friends at all only acquaintances..sabtu gy lagi jj bkt.tinggi,i really like that new shopping complex,its way better that mid..i hate wif all of them keep mocking me because of me waking up late every day since i finished my foundation..at least i do house chores not that i hanging out je kn!x payahlh nk kutuk2 mcm bgs sgt..im sad but i'll try not to do it coz dont want it to be a habit..coz its a BAD habit!yesterday i had so0oo much fun hanging out wif pza and afif..and pain tough!best gak maen skating kat pyramid but the consequences mmg saket gler tulang temulangku di seluruh badan ni..baring je spnjg mase soh ar sape lg tkg urut(boboy) picit kaki,senang je as usual ckp or janji the exact word nk bli ape2 berkaitan anime..hehe=) temankn fif shopping stuff as he's going to left us to cont study at uitm kedah!he such a gud friend..=)will miss him..im sad bacause we will not studying together anymore,when we were we had so many great memories..but ofcz as a fren im happy coz he is happy aight..pza drove,she picked n dropped me at sbg ktm..geram gler x dpt settlekn hal laptop 2 lg coz we went to the wrong place lar!and the most awaited thingin my life till date is to cont my degree in law and today cita2ku telah tercapai!!!YA ALLAH,YA TUHANKU..SYUKUR YG AMAT!i got reply from MMU MELAKA,but damn sad coz have to leave home and my family!waiting gud news from ksya and pza,coz i desperately want SWEET BUNCH stick tgther..tc=)

CONTOVERSIAL DAY!!!

like others day,after subuh prayer aku tido blek ar kn although try nk bgn awal thn br ni..i try my best!started yesterday i try my hand on yoga,yeah u heard me right..YOGA!saket2 1 badan & lenguh2 kaki exercise n try mende 2 but as long as dpt kuruskn perutku ini..aku rela!hehe=p

aku bace je dlm paper amik panduan dr pakar yoga m'sia yg pernah msk nescafe kick start 2,ninie ahmad...ok2,thats not what im trying to write here with that contoversial headline!the story is,as usual lps mandi aku akn relax2 bace paper kn so ari ni mmg shock n breaking news man 4 the whole nation!!!our health minister confessed that he's the 1 in the sex vcd yg tersebar luas kat media n kat negeri johor baru2 ni...his wife and family cool enough to admit they forgive him and that family should stick together during highs and lows but...but...this is cheating man!i bet his marriage wont be the same anymore!let it side,the worst part is he said that the woman in the video is his 'personal friend'...duhhhhh!!!dont u have ur wife,doesnt that personal enough...*sighhh* men always act like they're didnt commit anything wrong but it is!!!and the latest news i heard,he had resigned all the post he hold before..aku sure mesti pm ngan kabinet yg so die quit even chua kate die da berbincang and sume akn br'jln dgn baik..give me a break!u make m'sia sounds so cheap..but,heyy who am i to judge kn!well2,lets move to another topic..hmmm..today azie da msk dorm baru (tgkt 5,gila ar!mst slim gler weyh!)but look on the positive side she'll never to faced any problems created by the gurls there!and aku x paham nape drg ade test urine,maybe sume U kot buat mcm 2..n the funny part z after 2nd bottle of water pun she cant pee!!hahaha..today,1st time in 2008 i have my 'aunty visit'..no wonder after quite a good beginning for me in this year(where the behaviour counts)tetibe ari ni aku cpt naek marah lak..please,dont mad at me..its the hoemones!hahaha..n not to forget that aku tgk dvd 'knocked up'!what a disaster movie,nyesal beli..although i like katherine hiegl tp the story is crap!membazir rm10 je..x sabar nk tgk all the dvds yg afifi belikn,free lak 2 mamat 2 bg..frustrated man x dpt uitm!afif ngan iza je dpt..coz drg mhn pra-ijazah!

the endless hunt for happiness begins...NOW!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL...BYE2 2007,HELLOOOO 2008...hope this year will be bigger and better in every aspect!whether its health,wealth,study,family and everythinglh..as it is 2008 so the no itself brings the meaning of prosperity so hope i can spend a lot of money for my future!x mau hangat2 tahi ayam da thn ni,so segala azam yg aku listkn hopefully akn displin utk mencapainya..aminnn..ok,so here r my resolutions for this year!

1)BERUSAHA MENJADI INSAN(ANAK,ADIK,PELAJAR,RAKAN,INDIVIDU,etc) YG CEMERLANG DI DUNIA & AKHIRAT...SEIMBANG HENDAKNYA!

2)LIVE LIFE THE HEALTHY WAY,LOSE SOME WEIGHT..=) eat what u want,but exercise!

3)SAVE MONEY FOR FUTURE,doesnt meant not to spent..hehehe.."NEVER CUT OUR EXPENSES,BUT INCREASE OUR INCOME"..

4)SUMBANG SESUATU PADA MASYARAKAT...charity,women or NGO's organizations..

5)MORE READING STARTS TODAY!improve my ability to speak well..

6)BE A DISCIPLINE PERSON,BEHAVE MYSELF!nk tgktkn tahap kesabaranku yg lemah ini..ngehehe..-.- x mau gado2 n jerit2 ngan boboy da..

7)ENJOY LIFE,COZ OUR LIFE IS SO SHORT...JUST DO WHATEVER I THINK I HAVE PASSION IN!

8)SET GOALS FOR EVERY SINGLE THING I WANT TO ACHIEVE IN THE FUTURE!

INSYA ALLAH...=)

whoaaa cant believe lar!!

sukar utk dipercayai yg 2007 has comes to its end and less than 20 minutes 2008 will come..wushhh,cepatnye mase berlalu!maybe coz i wasted time like water(sometimes without realizing it)thats why never felt 2007 really worth to be remembered..theres a lot of happiness and sadness (more 2 sadness actually)this year,hope new year brings great things to my life!aminnnn..memula start blog ni juz 4 the sake of nk dpt A dlm comp sc but after a while i feel really boring and tiring to write diary every single day so this blog came in handy..i guess im not that kuno after all,hahaha..=P well2,technology does help a lot this day isnt it..ape2 pon aku harap i'll learn from all my mistakes i had done this year and it will guide me and give me lesson to create a better day of tomorrow!mintak2lh dpt lksanakn sume azam yg aku harap n plankn,n more important 2 practice my 'cHedaNess" as smooth as i plan..ni thn last dpt rase umur yg belas2 coz next year da br'tmbh2 tua maa..ups and downs are part of our life so aku berdoalh spaya dikuatkn iman and semoga dijauhkn dr perkara2 yg dimungkari olehNYA...ok,nyte!

history tends to repeat itself...-.-

if last year saddam hussein shocked the world with his death mandatory been finalized at the end of year,this year is no less because we once again been shocked with the assassination of the democratic seeker of pakistan a.k.a the iron lady for the pakistan politic,BENAZIR BHUTTO.from my reading,reservations,and instinct i can confidently say that all this are the agenda or propaganda of the highest position in pakistan and that side,YOU KNOW WHO no need much explanation or i might getting a sue from someone out there..hahaha=p as for me,i like the idea of politic itself but not the idea of getting involved in it because i think law student should know a tit bit at least about the outside world,the crucial decision making world of politic!but if you are not in the field to know about this topic i think as an individual we should try to understand how it works or who control the politic system in one's country or organization or etc..if not for ourselves benefit,for who else isnt it?as they say,'politic is dirty' but who am i to judge aight..as long as it brings our nation to front or to higher level,i have no problem..im hoping,next year the year of 2008 will bring much more HAPPINESS in this world!!!

7 days counting to activate the 'cHedaneSS'!

when i thought nothing can beat the worst year i had last year,2006 when all the bad things happen continuously in my life guess i was wrong because this year is not least in the worst or unlucky or whatever is supposed to be defined area...today,26th of December 2007 is the day where i 1st experienced of losing a person called friend or should i say acquaintance because we're not close in personal level but we were classmate during our 1st n 2nd year in primary school plus she was my neighbour..she passed away this morning because of TB,thats what i've been told..al-fatihah to arwah siti mastura ibrahim..i always believe in ajal tidak mengenal usia but when it comes to the person who used to know i was so shock that i couldnt believe it until the 3rd person confirmed it,at such a young age who would believe that..but ajal di tangan ALLAH,i totally realised it!the one thing i can say confidently that i hate to death is to faced death it self,more over when it happens to the person we love..maybe because im living and been brought up in a very2 small family,the feeling of losing someone is always at the back of my mind because i had quite experiences also..thats why i always apreciate love that i got from my family although im not he fav 1 but i dont really care as im used to fighting for love..=( people,the quote where it says 'we'll never appreciate things until it gone' is trully true..hari ni betul2 buat aku sebak ngan insaf yg amat,TUHAN ITU MAHA BESAR..kita hanyalh hamba2nya,aku yg selalu cuai dan lalai ni hopefully dpt jd lebih baek dr ari ni as my new resolution!

im missing ENA already!!!

im crying..i cried 5 hours ago when i thought that ena took her flight already when she didnt pick u her phone..gosh,time really flies from us and cant believe that my bestfriend not in the same country with me anymore!it was just like yesterday we are buddies,classmate and were sitting beside each other..it was just like yesterday she asked me whether i want to go to boarding school coz she will follow me to..it was like juz yesterday she left me at the old school coz she's moving to a new place..n now,wallah she's in her flight to poland and will pursue her study in medic for 6 incredible long years!!who will believe that if we didnt experinced it ourselves..my eyes trully watered the second i flashback all the memories i went hrough all these years..im missing ena already,as well as im missing z,cva,alya and my fellow sweet bunch sisters!ena deserved every little success she's having today..i respect her as fren because she the only person i know as a friend who stand by what she thinks are right..she rather call a spade a spade!she wont compromise with something that opposite her principle and live with will people talk or think about it later!!i cant never be like her..while im listening to kci and jojo's 'all my life' im writing this blog and boy im crying like a baby..its a very emotional day and night for me!lastly,i wanna wish ena all the best in her life because throughly from the bottom of my heart she trully2 deserve it!!!i wish with GOD's guidance i'll be able to control and set my own destiny and future!!wake up SAIYIDAH IZZATI NUR,u already past 19 years of ur life..its now that u do something in ur life..sumthing dat will make ur family and frens of who u r!!I LOVE ALL MY FRENS..all those who i call frens!!

terkejutnya aku!!!

apa da jadi ngan sume classmate ku dahulu!!!i still cant believe what i saw yesterday..first of all i dont think me,myself change drastically since high school except for the weight i gain =) but this is too much because i barely know them anymore!!i feel relieved know that z,cva,ena,alya,and nard are still my gud frens because they are all what i ever need...tapi bile smlm aku tgk gmbr2 yg tersebar atau sengaja disebarkan oleh sesetengah pihak i juz feel damn shocked!is it the old frens i know..ape da jadi dengan drg yang dulu,yang selalu memberiku kata-kata nasihat tentang aurat,pergaulan,and stuff..WHAT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!where are they?!inikah yang terjadi bila ibu bapa jauh di mata dan kawan-kawan mengawal kehidupan kite..bila teman lelaki mengawas pergerakan kite?!if this what frens and bf for i think better i live wif my parents forever coz she's changing so much that i could'nt believe she is what she is!!i used to respect her for her life principle but now go to hell with all the crap talk..what i can say is that i hope she realised what she is doing and regret it before it to late..

sports n me!

i always been a sporty gurl since i can remember...its all begins when my parents were expecting me n my dad always brought the whole family to watch football games at the stadium moreover when Selangor team is playing..sebab tulah aku rasa terminat dengan sume sports coz mengikut kata doktor bayi di dalam perut ibu mengandung akan mudah terpengaruh dengan apa yang ibunya lakukan ketika menantikan kelahirannya!!hehehe=p they were actually expecting a baby boy but i was born and im a girl so mama x suka sgt mase sekolah2 dulu aku asik gy wakil sekolah 4 badminton bola baling, and my fav at school is netball and i being the C for 7 years and also tekwando...although i do play indoor games like board games but that for me is not real sports at all!! i like involved with sports since primary scholl is mainly because i love competition and excitement,dalh plak 2 geng2 sports sume classmate kebanyakannya so we enjoy every minute we spend together outside the classroom..kalau cikgu nak marah pu x leh coz we never neglect our education,indeed we help to bring up the school name to a higher level!i joined the taekwando club since i was 5 years old and i managed to get black belt when i was 12 but then i quit for a while because of injury and now i wanted to continue if possible to the highest level like our sports minister Datuk Azalina Othman..=) the reason i love badminton is because my dad always encourage us( me and my sist) to exercise when we were younger so at our backyard we set a badminton net and starting then badminton is a regular in our daily life every evening. and the other greatest passion for me in sports is football!!before i used to watch both which is local as well as foreign but the decreased quality in local teams perfomance i get fed up to watch them but ofcourse sometimes i do care for the Malaysian team..I watched English Premiere League (EPL) usually with my dad coz no one else in my house shared the same hobby like us and although we support different teams but we watched it as for the sports spirit not fanatic for certain group like what are teenagers now day doing..they dont even know who is the team but because someone is good looking in the team they support them,they dont know the game or the position but still its like ridiculous to talk something without even know about it properly...i supports Manchester United (MU) since they won the Europe Cup in 1999 and continue till now and i will forever be their biggest fan!i wish one day i can go to Old Trafford,ENGLAND to watch their game as well as i want to go at least once to the World Cup because that is the biggest thing that could happen in the football world!!

kenapa?why?kyu?

kenapa saya suka toll gate girl?i barely watch malay drama but when i watch sumthing that i like then it will be in my heart for a long period..salah 1 drama melayu yg aku suke (ksya pun!) ialah cter toll gate girl natural acted by the cute amy mastura n the blur rashid salleh..cter 2 amat mendalam mksd die bg diriku walaupun nmpk sempoi je jalan cerita die,sbbnya adalah kerana aku x pernah rase kehidupan keluarga bahagia di kampung yg aman permai dan damai sumelh..coz both grandparents pun dok kat tgh2 bandar yg sesak di K.L so bosanlh x dpt nak mandi sungai, tgk padi menhijau,n etc..agaknya mesti best kan duduk kat kampung yang cantik mcm dlm cter 2 coz nmpk mcm bebas dr pencemaran,after a long years staying in a big city with pollution that getting worst from day to day i guess when im old i want to build a village house look alike in the drama and it have to be in the middle of paddy field !!lagipun hbgn drg satu family dlm drama 2 mcm best sgt, yelh hidup skrg ni msg2 busy dgn kerja n tanggungjawab msg2 so xde mase sgt nak really hang out sm2.lebih2 lg waktu hari raya dgr lagu raya skrg pun leh sebak n nanges coz rindu sgt kat nenek Jo..i still cant believe she already left us forever last year,she's the only one i had other than mama,ayah,along n boboy but now she also gone so whats the meaning HARI RAYA 2 me now?!!i guess nothing..we not like others kid,we dont have cousins..i so used to it till that i feel 'who need cousins anyway'?...but im so lucky to have great friends around me so i still have the reason to celebrate raya!=)

'HOT' bbQ!!

best nye ari ni!!setelah berpenat selama seminggu dpt gak merhtkn bdn ku yg semakin ari semakin tua ni ye arr da lame gler x gy exercise dpt gak gy jog ari ni..today is my best friend zah' s burday and i was the 1st one 2 wished her last nite!!=) bulan 5 ni ramai nye kwn2 ku yg mymbut hari ketuaan mereka..and not to forget ayah also! byk nye budget nak kene plan elok2 ni..ok..that wasnt our topic today coz today i wanna write about the great day i have today!!



1st of all i met fafau (fara fauzana) and also fbi(faizal ismail)..i juz love them,they'r so damn funny & friendly and they r after all among my fav djs ever!!pg2 lg da soh ayah anta ke mc'd sect.3 and x sangka btol ar org2 shah alam ni mmg pemalas nak bgn pagi coz xlh ramai sgt kat booth HOt.Fm 2..x kesahlah coz yg best dpt jumpe drg and win some great stuff and also got free voucher from Mc'donald!n happy gak dpt jumpe my former neighbour mkck mud ngan kak ani,they r so lucky 2 be the 1st 50 people to reached there and got rm50 voucher..ayah ngan mama gy pasar coz nak blikan udang 4 our BBQ ari ni, so sementara menunggu they pick me up aku pun mcm biaselh suke je sesi bergambar kn so ajak fafau n fbi amik gmbr!!then join je contest yg drg wat, contest wif me have a long history...i juz love joining contest whether its in radion,newspapers&magazines, or tv as long as the prizes is want i like 2 win then juz msk jelh!!n thanks 2 Mix.Fm i have a life oppurtunity 2 meet my fav Shah Rukh Khan n also thanks 2 Hitz.fm i met G.C...ok2,the reason why i wanna meet them is juz dat i love 2 know how is it exactly to be on-air for a radio station when they are outdoor location n today i got the answer..its not that difficult actually,whether being inside or outside its juz the same!!n to being part of the live crew so excited 4 me..=)

moving from HOT.FM to HOT BBQ kat college(KU)..td da lwt smpi dgn udang2ku coz mama lmbt menyiangnye disbbkan slh dgr info yg diberikan oleh ku n mereka sukar mempercayai bhw BBQ itu akn diadakan pd pagi ini!!!aku pun x percaya pd mulanya,waaaaaaaaa....lmbt ooo smpi nsb baek da b'tau sarah n pn.adlina so xlh drg tr'tggu2 lgpun da ramai yg ada n drg sume start dgn bkr ayam!!ari ni ari sgt panas tp bestlh coz sume pun mcm seronok dpt relax2 n rapatkan hbgn antara mentor ngan mantee2 sume kn..ari ni pun x formal sgt so i like,afif jd pak bakar ayam so aku take incharge camera n iza n ksya jd 'mantee2' ku utk ari ni dan memgang videoku utk merakam karenakh dan aksi yg tanpa diduga akn menjelma!=p bestlh coz lps 3 semester dpt gak aku bermesra dan dpt tgkp gmbr ngan MR.A n ari ni die nmpk makin chubby..x kesahlh asalkan die bahagia=) oklh,ape2 pun lps da bakar lauk2 2 sume n tibe time makan ujan turun plak so best arr mkn mcm ala2 romantik lebih2 dgn kehadiran ustaz ngan kamal..hahaha...ade gak part yg x best tp aku rase ktrg pun rase mcm 2 gak so juz let it go lh kn!!

i wish..=)

i never ever thought my life as a college student would be real tough like today..seriously, i meant it!when i was in school i always wished that i'll be a college student as soon as possible but now im wishing im back at school..I MISS SCHOOLING DAYS BADLY!there are millions of reasons why i want to go back to the past and top of my list is i miss all my good friends coz we had soooooooo much fun and is not that im not loving all the great friends i have now is just that all my classmate or school's friends know me well because we grow up together so they understand me better i would say. Not just that, i missed the fame i got back then not that im being chocky but almost everyone knew who is Saiyidah Izzati Nur because the good things not because the bad side, today i have to build back my image from bottom and its hard!!with position we can get a lot of things easier and its actually an advantage for a student because the principle,teachers, and everyone in the school being so nice to us so we go to school with a happy feeling as we know we will spend quality time there!and 1 thing about new friends is that they judge ourselves the second they meet us and that is so not cool..but not all of them just certain people!they made me feel that im the worst leader when im the best head girl, club's president,etc back then(as the teachers said,hahahaha)...and back then there are so little people that want to have problems with you,but now its totally different but all that actually help me a lot to grow up!

but back to reality where i am today, im really lucky to have such a cool bunch of new friends...we are at the same 'state of mind' if you get what i meant!i can always depend on them whereever,or whenever i need them!!ehmm, i guess i need to let go the past and live with the present with what i have now and what is coming in the future as good as i can handle it..so,bring it on coz if i can get through the ups and downs in my life for almost 19 years i bet i can face the next 20-30 years..touchwood!chow..