Gila

As we were talking about the same group of people yesterday (hopefully that was the last time we even give shit about them as they are proven to be an ungrateful bunch of selfish people) I would like to stand on my belief again and over again no matter how bad they treat(ed) us, its not an obligation for us to reciprocate towards their action in the same filthy way like what they did. By doing that we are showing to the world that we are no better from them, when we know we are. Just because they talked bad about us, we don’t have to do the same because you see even after all the malice done we still care enough to help them, care enough to feel sorry for them, care enough to work our ass off to make sure they are happy, care enough to protect them from others’ mean speculation and accusations, care enough to be GOOD HUMAN. For what you asked? For our own self satisfaction because like what I said before,’our mama taught us way better that that’. So we came to aconclusion that we are indeed those gila people who stupid enough to be kind and bother to care and never stop caring even after been trash down by the same people who beg for our supports and help when things didn't go well on their side. Gila for the fact that no sane people would feel guilty doing bad things to their enemies even when we treat them as one of us,with love like how we are with other friends but this is what we got in return. Because of these people I’m tired being nice, I’m tired for doing all the favour sincerely but these people never failed to make us smile and give us more reasons to be a better person. Amin.

And yes I’m proud to be one of those GILA people.

A happily Gila person :)

SRK meets SIN Part III.

I'm sad that my tight schedule (nearing my legal attachment) didn't allowed me to hangout for movies or drinks with my new lovely friends and the fact that I have to turned down every invitation really makes me feel bad. Never would I thought I'd find friends who talks, dreams, and go gaga over SRK as much as I do and really do hope our friendship will not starts and ends with those 2 days journey and after a week I'm quite sure it will continue for a lifetime. I can go on and on about this new found friendship because the fact that poor all my awesome friends who has been VERY loyal and patient listener until I swear if the phrase 'listen till my ears bleeding' is true that's what exactly happened to them after years of listening to my never ending love stories cum imaginary affairs with my Mr.Khan. I don't care if they were pretending all this while because they are damn good in doing it, and that's what friends for right?We don't necessary have to like the same thing, it would be boring if that's the scenario. I have friends who shared the same passion for football, some who are loyal supporters of Manchester United but the rest who aren't belong to the same group that does not mean we can't be friends. We need people to thrash talk at, to wrestle with when our team lost, etc and tadaaa they are those people. We can fight and bickering all day long like how siblings are and not talking to each other for a period of time because of this thing but at the end of the day we will laughed about it and life continue from where we left out. From my sight that's what a healthy and perfect relationship all about, balance I would say and if you don't think that way I'm sorry. Maybe that's why we are not friends :)

Being a student from local University which accepts students from all over the world didn't stop me to be amazed of the friendship I build with these people from India,Kenya, Mauritius,Singapore, Dubai/USA/Bangladesh, etc simply for the fact that they are fan of SRK ♥

My new neighbour in the SRK Lane, yup she's a Shah Alamian as well who studying in UITM which located like only 5 mins from my home. Gosh this will be an amazing journey from now on as she's the BEST informer one can get. Seriously!

Friends all the way from Monash University, Subang.

I'm a bit reluctant to act as my normal self in front of the lawyers but it doesn't pay to be fake right so just wear your own skin ;)



SRK is the word!

♥

SRK meets SIN Part II.

24 hours of chasing finally paid off, although Jurisprudence was always at the back of my mind being the last final paper for this semester. When we are too excited we tend to do something we forgot that we shouldn't or cannot do, I almost texted someone out of conscious before a scream from outside waken me up. I completely forgot I lost the right, regardless of less one more person to share every tit bits of happiness took place in my life I gained 9 new friends. Pictures are taken from my own red hot Sony (grow older when it becomes slower and slower, really need my own DSLR) as well as courtesy of the willingly sacrifice himself for our happiness ; Fahad, and the talented and good looking director wannabe, Nirmal.

Shah Rukh Khan with the DON's get up; ugly wig and the stubble Look rough and tough eh? Biceps some more this time, macho to the max!

Thanks to SRK's head of security's Mr.Yusuf, he kept his promise. He was indeed touched by our preserverance and determination.

SRK while signing MY picture!

Leaving for shooting at Penjara Sg.Udang,Melaka.

Classic SRK in black and white mood.

I can feel and see how exhausted he is at that time, regardless he still spent some times for us.

With the dashing director cum actor and great singer, the Akhtar's gena is obviously in Farhan.

The man who makes it possible for us to watch DON in Malaysia.

Macho DON look.

Suave criminal look.




Boman is such a funny and humble star.



SRK.Enough said.

SRK meets SIN.

He is indeed a very good looking guy who have nice build body(for DON) only the wig and stubble for his character making him look bad.Anything for a role, that's Shah Rukh for you. That should explain the latest Filmafare award he won for best actor in leading role for 'My Name Is Khan'.

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Started my die hard-stalking-24hours journey at 11am after a decision made completely out of adrenalin-excited rush the night before. With Pza as my biggest supporter cum driver-videocam girl-PA-etc we travelled to Penjara Sg.Udang (my first time going to jail, only SRK can make me do that) met bunch of lovely people came from all over the world (Singapore,India,Kenya,Mauritious,etc) who adores SRK as much as I do and we become friends, waited there for 6 hours only to get a glimpse of SRK. Decides to heading back to the hotel after our informer (Mr.Martin from The Star) told that after spending time with the CM, the crew will continue shooting until night (uncertain time).Gathered back at the hotel lobby around 8.30, making more new friends who included 3 sporting and funny lawyers (who happened to know our very own lecturer; Mr.Guru Dhillon) and 2 good looking brothers all the way from Rawang. Waiting and waiting. Paid off when we got to meet Farhan Akhtar ( Don’s director as well as 1 of my all time favourite director cum actor cum singer and he is DAMN GOOD LOOKING!) also Boman Irani (1 of the best actor and human being as he is so humble,funny and warm).Making more friends with the bodyguards, hotel staffs, film crews, and also SRK’s head of security (even he is good looking) The night ends with disappointment. The man himself s nowhere to be found, in between we try our level best to pursuit anyone possible to make our dream come true. We send personal message and MY video camera to his room, but he was super exhausted and after all he’s a human too you know. SRK still has my name card,marker and the A4 picture. As a true hardcore we are (some stayed the whole night in the car at the hotel) we came back the next morning ( this time I tagged Ksya and Sarah along) touched by our perseverance and high determination the head of security managed somehow to convince SRK to come and meet us, yayyyyyyyyyy! Alhamdulillah. He signed some posters, snapped some pictures, and off he goes. We all leaving with great memories and wide smiles and tears of joy (read: MEHJAZEEB). Now with instant popularity gained through articles in The Star, NDTV and some claimed they saw us in news TV3 I hope I’ll have a 3^rd date with my jaan Shah Rukh Khan in future.

What I’ll cherished the most in my life about this journey and experience is the new friends a.k.a psycho fans-ship I found in Darina, Erum, Fahad, Sabeeha, Sabeena, Marda, Ahsif, Raj and Nirmal. Will try to maintain this sweet friendship.

Saga of 4th year final exam Part I

I was 5 when I decided not to get married. Ever. I’m a big believer of the marriage institution though; don’t get me wrong it’s just that I have issues.

I was 9 when I decided I’ll never wear spectacle, and here I am almost 12 years down the lane I broke my 7^th spectacle 2 days ago.

I was 12 when I decided to get straight As for all my major exams (UPSR,PMR & SPM) in school because I thought they guaranteed EXTRAORDINARY life afterwards. I was daydreaming. I still am. Because I WAS that type of student back then, I was taught to be one so as much I hate to judge students nowdays who competing each other to get as much As as possible so screw the results just do the best and do what makes you happy. Record doesn’t mean anything if you don’t work hard enough to maintain or improve in future.

I was 13 when I decided to love Shahrukh Khan and Kajol forever, and they shall remain my favourite actors forever and hamesha. I know they will.

I was 16 when I decided I would never enter or studied in a private university. Hey, guess where I am right now reading law? Same year I decided not to regret the opportunities I left behind those great boarding schools and IPTA but it's hard to not to.

I was 18 when I decided to not to look back and move on because there will never be a chance, but I’m still here stuck in the same place.

I was 21 when I decided it will be an everlasting precious thing I will always cherish and treasured but it only happened in fairy tales or others’ life not mine. Sadly.

It was just 2 weeks ago that I decided not to cross the 50kgs and stay 47-48kgs as long as I stay fit, but home cooked meals and study week and CNY vacation destroyed everything. The scary part is I seem to enjoy. And now my jeans feel tight, I start to have stomach and a** now like real huge one. Like serious tight for the first time since.....I can’t really remember.

I am always one those people who always believe ‘Nahhh it won’t happened to me” for every single bad thing, accident, etc but today yes it did happened. Someone stole my purse and it doesn’t look as big or heavy as before because my friends used to called it ‘a weapon to kill bulldog’. Lesson to be remembered indeed.

In short, what I am trying to say is things will never work the way we want them to be. Ever. So we can say never, would not, cannot but who are we to decide at the end of the day. Just be careful in life regardless whatever you do. We never know what’s going to happened any second from now.

Still haven't decide what I want. In life, generally.

We have laughed together, its time to cry.

I never believe in saying,’ I know how hard it is for you, I understand. Don’t cry, I know how much it hurts’ because if I don’t feel that person’s pain or the trouble they are going through why should I uttered those line just to make he/she feels better. The last thing they want to hear is a bunch of crap or lies so stop saying those words unless you have been in their shoes before or you know how much ache they are bearing at the moment, and until you feels so just be by their side and let them cry. Let them cry all they want if that what it takes to restore them to their usual self, even if takes moons to be able to succeed. On that note I just want to share this current favourite song of mine, I’m pretty sure it will remain desired for a long time because even after several weeks, the addiction for this song refuses to die down thanks to its R&B ballade with a touch of jazz feel.

It’s hard for me to move on from something I love just because it’s not the flavour of the season anymore, I mean I eat the same thing my whole life which is chicken without failed nor I start to feel bored with the same taste despite people around me telling me to try something new. I listen to same tune, although I do open to new tracks. I love the same people, and of course it’s expanding from day to day but...yeah,that’s all about it. I love the same people, eg: SRK ♥ Let there be millions of Ranbir coming my way my loyalty and pyaar only for Shahrukh *gulpcantpromisegulp*

I would like to dedicate this to a great friend of mine who is going a rough phase. I know you are strong (way stronger than I am) so without doubt you will get over this, hugs from far. Love you C.

Cry Baby by Cee-Lo Green taken from 'The Lady Killer'

Don't cry baby
If this makes you cry, girl I didn't mean it
Next time I should lie, the truth is inconvenient
I bet if you'd try, you could live without me
I really don't know why, you bother to cry about me

Cry, cry, cry baby, I guess that I'm a bad guy now
Cry, cry, cry baby, just like all the other ones
Cry , cry, cry baby

I hate to see you cry, sad to say I've seen it
We should say goodbye and this time really mean it
Once some time goes by, I'm sure that you'll feel better
But if she needs to cry, then maybe I should let her

Cry, cry, cry baby, I guess that I'm a bad guy now
Cry, cry, cry baby, just like all the other ones

Cry , cry, cry baby

Help me cry away, yeah
What more can I say, to you

Cry, cry, cry baby, I guess that I'm a bad guy now
Cry, cry, cry baby, just like all the other ones
Cry, cry baby, feel the wall around your heart
Cry, cry baby, baby, oh, oh, oh, just like all the other ones
Oh,oh,oh, Just like all the other ones
Cry, cry, cry baby
I wanna see you cry baby, cry baby

Don't cry baby.




The ONLY in my playlist right now :')

Flying with metal wings.

Vacation used to be luxury but in today's world it has become more like a necessity. I've read somewhere that our university's life is probably the longest vacation one can have but try to be a student in these days you would scream to the person who dares to say we are on vacation these 5 years or more. Its so hectic not just with books,cases or due dates for assignments but real life dramas. The stress, the sweat, tears and blood we put down these years eating us inside slowly but stop being selfish and try to appreciate our parents more than we already claim we have.


Looking out the beautiful blue sky from the plane's window I hope to find some peace from past events that took place but no matter where you are they come haunted you. For the rest of your life. But it is indeed true somewhere that no man needs a vacation so much as the person who has just had one.

Vacation is like love; anticipated with pleasure, experienced with discomfort, and remembered with nostalgia. -Unknown author-

Need a REAL vacation soon :)

Stop to care.

5 moons. I must stop having this feeling of obligation to care now. Stop to care for others, when they are obviously doesn't have the mutual feeling why should I bother. But that's the problem. I care too much. I care even when I shouldn't. I care when I know it hurts. I care even more when I'm attached to someone. I care about someone who has entered my life although after they left. I still care to care. I don't know if its a good thing but till the end I don't think I will ever stop to care. Who cares if that someone doesn't care anymore because its totally my choice to care and continue doing so. I feel good when I care, once I don't means I've moved on and that is something I not quite want to do just yet.

The fact is that we are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

Care too much is not good for your heart.

25th January

They say I'm good with numbers and dates. Indeed I am.I guess.

3 years ago on this date I took my first step in Bachelor of Law (Hons), with 3 other friends for life I entered this course with such unstoppable eagerness and maximum curiosity, since then; events, new friends, high profile dramas made my life here more colourful than its already is. Looking back our early days in this 'challenging' University called MMU I feel proud and grateful that I've survived (so far!) in this mean...mean world!

Now, 7 kgs lighter and much more wiser(I like to believe) I hope to continue walking forward regardless how many obstacles coming our way.

Someday many years from now, We'll sit beside the candles glow. Exchanging tales about our past. And laughing as the memories flow. And when that distant day arrives. I know it will be understood. That friendship is the key to live. And we were friends and it was good. - Eileen Hehl

My friends for life are my family ♥

5 stages of grief.

When people gone, leave or walk away from our life,
We go through five distinct stages of grief,
First, we going to deny it because the lost is so unthinkable that we can't imagine that it's true,
We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves,
Then we bargain, we beg, we plead, we offer everything that we have,
We even offered off our soul for exchange for just one more day,
When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to be maintained,
We falling into depression, despair until finally we have to accept that we have done everything that we can.

We let go. We let go and moved into acceptance.



Grief maybe a thing we all have in common,
But it looks different on everyone,
It isn't just death we have to grief, its life, it's lost, its change,
And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, it has to hurt so bad,
The thing we got to try to remember is that they bring new hopes,
That's how you stay alive, when it hurts so much you can't breathe,
That's how you survived,
But remember that one day, somehow impossibly you won't feel this way,
It won't hurt this much.




Grief comes in its own time for everyone,
And on its own way, so the best that we can do,
The best that everyone can do is to strive honesty,
The really crappy thing, the worst part about grief is that you can't control it,
The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes,
And let it go when we can,
The most terrible part is when the minute you think you passed it,
It starts all over again and always, everytime it takes your breathe away.



There are five stages of grief; they looked differently on all of us,
But they are always five,
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.


I'm still stuck in the first stage, to let go is beyond my control.





YOU?

RED

Sweet Bunch ♥

With people from legal field ♥

My Jan intake 2008 (some of them are missing) ♥

Shrekkers ♥

Going to buy more sarees ♥

Its the end of my 4 wonderful years in this exciting(can't think of any better word) LAW School, just realised I wore red for all my law nights unintentionally planned ; Granc Gala as freshie, Le Banquet as committee, Le Prestige as an audience and lastly Grand Royale as final year student who danced and sang(disastrous,on my part!). Each and every law night has their own of great stories to be told and remembered, and for this year I'm so happy to finally live up my Bollywood dream of wearing saree, contrary to popular belief its actually very comfortable. Thanks a lot to those who helped patiently behind the scene with the red gorgeous saree, thanks ♥. Its been a rollercoaster journey both mentally and emotionally since last year's law night till the recent one, untold griefs and happiness bundle up all in 1 night make it more special for me especially when at the end of the day I survived and viable to my very best. These past few weeks really tested our patient in dealing with.....people basically but the appreciations, smiles, compliments, etc that we received that night wash off all the pain, scars and sadness.



I started this journey with the girls and I'm grateful to end this route with them as well, along side many other good friends who I love, respect and will forever cherish to have their friendship. Why am I talking as if we already finished our study when we still have 9 months to go until we officially a law graduated, 3 months of Legal Attachment waiting to slaughtered us, 2 final exams to go through while we tearing our hair off our heads and thousands of dramas to be faced in coming days until that October comes. Till then, lets buried our heads in the acts, cases and law books.


p/s: RED DEVILS scored 5-0 against Birmingham the same night, Berbatov's 2nd hatrick for this season. GLORY GLORY! What's more can I ask for!

I will sincerely miss my Jan Intake 2008 once it ends :')