Freedom of...

Dr.Azmi Shahrom's writing always makes or gets me thinking. I mean the real thinking not the dramatic or fiction one where suddenly I can see people flying, running around the tress while singing, delivered dialogues after being shot for dozen of times, etc. I really ‘feel’ what he’s trying to say in his writing on freedom, that was the latest concept delivered by him that I read many weeks ago as been too busy now days rarely have time to follow his column every week. For someone who's coolly brilliantly man like him when he talks we tends to listen and most of the time AGREES and nod all the way.

The idea of people actually create new types of freedom as we are breathing doesn’t make them legal nor make them practicable, but by saying that doesn’t impede us from actually performing them. With or without it written down in the Federal Constitution (FC) people still self proclaiming that we are indeed deserved each and almost most of the rights or freedom. Forget that I’m talking as someone who is going through a course of law education but as human we do want certain rights to be implemented just because we feel strong about it no matter how ridiculous others might think about it. Basically its human nature when we mad at someone, hate at something, angry with the world, we cant really think straight although we are straight in real life(not intended to be funny but just feel to write it,hahaha!sue me!) So what Dr.Azmi trying to say is you can practice whatever right you think you have but at the end of the day does anyone care to make it lawful? Will those people work towards it if it doesn’t benefit them? Or can it possible to be achieved without big names and stronger power and position to back us up? All questions are hanging without be answered because essentially they are meant to be think about. And it stops there, just to be think about and not bring into action.

Lets see the conclusion we can draw from those thought; all that can I say here is that ‘People, it is true that you can lie, cheat, backstabbing, racist, etc as that’s your right but morally speaking do you want to be known as person that knows his/her rights but when asked what are they stand for you cant reciprocate its positiveness? It didn’t really make any sense as why we were fighting for it at the first place when we know at the end of the day those rights only build more rivalry and crushed down more friendship or relationship’. It may sounds as if I’m trying to hard or to be good but it’s not as I know for sure most of us believe or support the same thinking. Plus I'm nobody and last person on earth to be talking about what is morally right or wrong when me myself still learning and will continue doing so forever

me,wishing for my TRUE freedom in future:)

My own Along.

Below are conversations between two sisters who are totally diverse in each characteristic and every cell in their body. The only thing made them click and stick with each other is for the fact they are nuts and share same set of parents and annoying younger brother.

1^st January 2010

Adik: Alongggggggggggg, jom turun makan.( calling my sister, let’s eat dinner)

Along: Woiii, aku kan dekat je dgn ko nape nak jerit. Aku x pekak lagi lah! Ko ni mcm gergasilah!( why do you need to scream when I’m so near to you, I’m not deaf ok! You sound like a giant!)

Adik: Mana ada aku jeritlah,ni suara normal. Azam baru xnak jerit2lh, nanti dpt high BP! (Where got I scream, this is my normal voice. Plus my new resolution doesn’t want to scream anymore, chance of getting high BP is high!)

Along: Hahahahahaha, azam ko tu da berzaman aku dgr! (Sarcastically says; you and your resolution will never work! Been hearing that for ages!)

P/s: Seriously I scream/shout less this New Year. I stop says a lot of things like shut up, calling names to my brother, keep most of things to myself, etc.

Pp/s: Feel better as a person when I cut off my anger, short-temperness, reacting to annoying & ignorant people and know what I’ve even been a role model to dear ones without realising it. Love is all what I’m going to spread after this. Only to those who deserved it.

Ppp/s: Screaming or shouting does rises up our blood pressure so stop doing it unless you want to get heart attack and die young.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,me not screaming just practising high notes!haha:)

So true but so not wrong!

"The qualities we love about a person in a relationship is not real, but the qualities we try to change about them are",

"In a relationship we don't really love a person the way they are but we love the changes they willing to do for us", quotes from The Legend of Zorro.


So true?But so not wrong in doing that?Its up to each individual to agree on that. No one have the rights to prejudice if there are people like this, if they happy together so what?

me, love Mexico:)

Forever uncivilised!

بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

Allah augments one's honour who forgives.

That’s the only possible reason I can think of as why I feel the need in forgetting your fault even without your apologize. But it’s all changed the moment you give me your wicked witch look and arrogant-stupid stare after my so polite ‘hi’. I guess some people do not look as stupid as they appear to be but stupider, dumber and ignorance AND if there is such award for such loser you will absolutely won it hands down!

I’m sorry God, but I’m still a learning Muslimah who can’t shut her mouth up neither can I fully stop doing what You hated! I guess the ‘Nur’ thingy in my name does make it sense after all. But with Your & their love I know for sure I'm heading the right way.InsyaAllah.

Sincerely pissed off,

SINRM.

me, can never be so assured as now about HOW MUCH I HATE YOU!:)

Overrated!

I used to think marriage and love are overrated by society. Obviously I can’t say that out loud though unless I want to get a backlash from my traditional happily married parents or from the religious point of view itself which affirmed that ‘half of your religion is complete once you get married’.

Sincerely I was afraid being me I won’t survive a relationship left alone a marriage, I don’t want to be the 1st in my family to go through divorce although they say there’s always first time for everything but please not this one. Undeniably the freaking out is for my lack of a lots of ladies’ expertise like cooking, motherly attitude, etc but I personally think love itself is overrated. There’s no such thing as love unconditionally as we love someone for some conditions attached to it.

I was 15 when I read something that I couldn’t agree more, quote from Shahrukh’s interview; “If you feel you don’t love anymore the person you married for love, there’s something wrong with you not that person”, this was asked as many superstars alongside him faced divorces or caught red-handed that year. It’s true, so I’m keeping my love for the person who deserved it. Until that time arrived my ‘I love you’ is not going to be wasted for any guy. Sometimes we fall for person that we think we can compromise for own benefit, sometimes for the wrong person who we care so much but they keep lying to us, sometimes we fall for the person that take us only as buddy and yes it hurts. But we choose to keep smiling for everyone’s good.

In short love is overrated. Full stop. But then again we can’t fight what have written for us by God, can we?

me, looking for true sincere love without lies:)

Masuk Islam or masuk Melayu?

The word is converting to Islam so the translation not ‘dia masuk Melayu’ instead ‘dia masuk Islam’. For once get it right people, everywhere I go, anywhere I read Malaysians tends to favour the former than the latter sentence. Like what Human Right tries to implement is that people can change their religion, political parties, and name but no one can change their ethnicity or race. I’m not the right person to talk about this as I will forever be confusedly indecisive about my ethnicity and racial background.

me, between malfunction and malcindian?:)

Strictly personal/private!

“It’s personal, sorry I don’t discuss this openly or with strangers”, what come first in your mind when someone said that? For me it clearly shows that the matters are not for public discussion or in ‘short none of your business, so would you mind!’ Why is it so hard for strangers to understand that there are some stories for keep and there are some can be read like a book. I can be politically correct when I need to, but there's a limit.


Personal or private matters means something close to your heart as an individual and only those who you trust or love deserved to know, and that is when you decide to let them know instead of knowing from others. I’m sick of people who query about me from people but me; they never dare enough to straightforward come asked face to face with me in order to know the truth. Really respect those who does, instantly click with them as I know these are people who I can put my faith on.



Since this whole network profile came out from nowhere our private life has been a discussion publicly whether we like it or not, we just have to blindly LIVE WITH IT! Owh how I wish we can sue those people and became millionaire overnight, as we cant that’s why I hate law! hahaha. How I wish I live in a world where murder is legal and how I wish you never be part of my life. 1 thing that never fails to make me wonder why lah those people so interested in me, I’m not even a celebrity or a pretty girl like 1 of those popular girls. I guess it is true after all that 1 man’s pain is other man’s pleasure.



Bluntly, only those who don’t know what the words mean will keep bothering others, I mean please do concern about your personal issues and those who matters to you and leave me alone. Frankly speaking I won’t mind having this issue if my communication skills are great or I have the best confidence ever, see how self centred one can be.hehehe.

Not interested in YOU,yes YOU! :)

Delay.

That short word defines most of us as student. I said most not all. Most includes me; delay is 1 of my many terrible middle names. I wrote a list of things to do this holiday and although number of them successfully done there are important things I purposely put it on delay because I just realised what the hell was I thinking when I even decided to listed them down. They are so not me. I mean the real me know I won’t do the chores so why even bother give them a chance. Maybe the ‘new’ me thought this brand new year will bring little more sense of prudent and start acting like my age which is so young indeed! The things that didn’t make it to the cut, not even get the chance to see the sunlight:

1) Study! Hahaha. Wishes to finished the 3 Law books I brought back, I’m so embarrassed to even state the books’ title as they are simple reading yet I never seems to finish them since 1^st year of degree. 3^rd year sounds like a good number to start reading habit or I’ll end up being just a student forever,hint: repeating papers! CHOYYYYYYYYY!

2) Seriously start saving as I have 3 vacations for this year, and bunch of ‘must have things’. InsyaAllah if they are on but that’s not really the highlight here as all I need to do is cutback my expenses. In 2 weeks of holiday I’ve spent extravagantly RM400 in 2 days and manage to keep five 50 cent shilling for my Mickey Mouse tabung, which is like ridiculous as when my dad asked did I bought new handbag?shoes?dress?dvds? the answer is always no! It shows that I spent for unnecessary stuff. Here is my another unwanted middle name; spendthrift!*sigh* And aunties and uncles who so keen on match making for me as if I’m 76 years old and desperate to settle down, please find a millionaire if you guys are like SERIOUS.

3) Kick off the laziness of learning some ladies thingy. Not that important but I want to do it. No motivation except for the moment my mom literally screams to my ears, hahaha. Definitely the gene successfully passed down to us, we quite good in screaming business.

4) Have a balance lifestyle meaning please start eat and exercise well SINRM! Well does not mean jog for 1 day and leave it for next 2 weeks then start back with playing badminton and aerobic. Hopefully new semester new regime. Btw, is it just me or you guys also find The Biggest Loser Asia is so unmotivated, Asian can be such bummers at time!

5) Try to spend more time to read the books I bought, I love reading, period. Until last year I’m a booker (the term we came up with for those who buy books but takes time in finished them from cover to cover) but not anymore, I will be a complete reader this time. Totally not related to the same title movie by Kate Winslet.

6) Control my addiction towards watching movies in cinema, buying dvds, etc and channel the equal if not more passion towards books and cases. While I’m writing this me and sist planning for another movie outing day tomorrow, and about to tune in to TV3 for ‘Snakes in the plane’*sighhhhhh* The addiction getting worse I guess, as now every single incidents in daily life make it to my ‘movie draft’. Even if I mad at people I just sit down calmly and in slow motion punch the person, swearing so many bad words in Hindi, finally strangle that person to death and all of these only happen in my world of imagination.

7) Find affordable way to start a small business especially for a student like us which now is the right time to start stabilising my financial for long term plan. The talk we had couple weeks ago just can’t walk out of my mind. Money is indeed EVERYTHING.

8) As I spent most of my past 3-4 years away from home, I try my best not to be the old rebel middle child and stop quarrel or fighting with that boy but every single steps of calming down that I read or learn never seems to work when it comes to him. ‘I HATE YOU’ is definitely our tagline and not going to change for some times now as it’s been like 10 years. Owh how I wish my world is annoying child proof!

me, not going to delay anymore.Hopefully!:)