Unwanted souvenir

People have scars, at all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal history, proofs of their old wounds, most of all our old wounds heal living nothing behind except scars but some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry around and the pain is still lingered. What’s worst; between new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should have heal long ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us of where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future, that’s what we like to think but that’s not the way it is. Is it? Something we just have to learn over and over and over again. Scars are souvenirs we never asked for. Try getting used to having them at unforeseen times, believe me they aren’t going anywhere. But as they say, those that didn’t kill you will only make you strong but how long can we stand the pain? Because there’s no such thing as painkillers for our heartache. No, I’m not a bitter person I’m just feel like writing after seen how many scars we all have and after heard about a new wound that my good friend just got, I know how hurt you must feel. I do that’s why I hope yours will heal soon. Till that happens lets just all of us not to be that ‘clumsy’ because we can’t afford another scar, can we?

Don't make scars as your best friend; then again as if we have a say on this matter.

TGIF!

Alhamdulillah. Everything seems to be on the right track so far, everything seems great and going smoothly so far, everyone from both of my masters,the lawyers,the staffs and the chambering pupil are nice bunch of people (so far)who teach me and guide me a lot especially during this early phase of the 3 months journey. I couldn't ask for a better firm for my attachment (its similar to internship, its just that we law students we like to be different from others kan.hehe.) Problems are bound to encountered soon enough but for now I just want to gain as much experience as I could and along the way have fun too, never thought these so call 'professional' people are as crazy and demented as I am or as we are because they are totally normal people behind those black and white attire and those thick books and cases. I laughed a lot too in this first week, so just hope I'll continue laughing all the way during the time I finishes my log book until my final presentation. In between free time, lunch time, and or some lunch date with master here and there along the way I bug my girls about how's their days, got eye candy or not, whats happening in my place, etc. Miss them so much!


New kid on the block therefore I play everything safe and low, get green light to wear other than black and white from my master but I shall show my true 'colour' slowly.hahaha. Its time to observe, who can be your friend and who shall remain your senior or just colleague. Whatever it is I just want to learn everything about conveyancing and litigation (yes,I'm lucky to get both field in the same firm compare to lots of my friends who stuck with the same boring routine of conveyancing) and hope by the end of this attachment I'll get to decide whether I'm going to practice or not after graduated.


Working life made me realised and appreciated weekends more than before. Times seems to be so limited with all the workloads, family time, social hangouts,etc. Wonder if my plan to get a part time job will ever be accomplished, so far I learnt the hard way that part time job does not means only for weekend honey. Thanks to Levi's, Baskin Robbins, Secret Recipe, Subway, etc for telling me that. I will not stop trying though, for THE vacation's sake!

Just peek into the REAL world and it sems wonderful out there, SO FAR! :)

LA phase.

I don’t think I’ve ever feel this nervous, not even when I was about to enter my first day in school. I didn’t cry nor did I threw any tantrums like how most normal kids do when they about to start their standard one. I dropped off from my kindergarten when I was 5 (few weeks after joined) because I felt they teach me things that I already know, so yes at 5 I have the guts to tell my parents to stop sending me to nursery and let me stay at home, basically they and my sister taught me afterwards. I was a home school girl at my early age, and they did teach me a lot of things and I can say I end up quite smart, nicely and beautifully (there’s no harm with some exaggeration) at the time I joined school and at the end of schooling days. That was because when I was 7 my parents were busy expecting my little brother, and he was born if I’m not mistaken during my 2^nd week in school so I was prepared to be independent even at that age. Plus I never thought school as a frightening place to be at, I love meeting new friends because I always regard myself as people’s person. I have no problem with teachers, my peers love me (I like to believe that way, let me be), extra classes or curriculum never tensed me as I love the times I spent in school. But tomorrow as I’m about to start my legal attachment (LA) I feel serious numbers of butterflies in my stomach, I’m pretty sure I want my father to send and wait for me this time at least until break time. I never asked him to do those 14 years ago but now I am. It’s that time, time for us to face the real world. Not that we are all living in an imaginary bubble and unreal world all this while but this is it where every words and actions count, everything will be on your shoulders alone and no one can help you. I need to take care of not only my reputation but also my lecturers’, my parents’, my law school’s and also my university’s. You have to help yourself in gaining more knowledge and experiences which will later helped you in chambering world if not the real tough legal field. All the best to everyone who is doing LA starting tomorrow, it’s ok to be scared because you are not alone and its never a bad thing to feel nervous when you are about to start a new phase. Have a wonderful LA-ing and hope all of us will survived this in 1 piece at the end. Keep smiling!

Relax,everything's going to be fine. InsyaAllah :)

Dhobi Ghat

Director: Kiran Rao
Date & cinema: 29th January 2010, TGV Pyramid
Actors: Aamir Khan,introducing Prateik,Monica Dogra and Kriti Malhotra

The storyline, acting, cinematography, background songs, the monologue and the silence between scenes are so dark, intense and the debut director who is also Aamir's wife successfully captured the essence of loneliness of all the characters beautifully without having to tell too much details about each of their motive coming to a new city to start their life all over again. As the movie goes on the audience figured out about that themselves, yes its a bit slow but all for the right reasons. Must give credit to all the newcomers especially my favourite ; it has to be Monica as she played her character so naturally and with such elaan, Prateik truly proved he has the Smita Patil's genes while for Kriti she projects her pain and emotions through her sad eyes and voice as she was the voice throughout this movie. Kudos to all of them , who would believe this wa their first work alongside the perfectionist Khan himself. Well for Aamir, what else can I say that haven't been said as he is the best with his craft. Simply the right Hindi movie (glad it was my first) for me to kickstart this new year as it filled this empty and intense moment of my life perfectly, I would recommend this movie to all movie goers who can stand watching a quality movie who doesn't bother to create some scenes just to make the audience feels good when they come out from the cinema. It tells from an honest perspective of view of how hard can struggling be especially for someone who wants to live their dream in this mean world.

Good movies makes me feel good :)

Gila

As we were talking about the same group of people yesterday (hopefully that was the last time we even give shit about them as they are proven to be an ungrateful bunch of selfish people) I would like to stand on my belief again and over again no matter how bad they treat(ed) us, its not an obligation for us to reciprocate towards their action in the same filthy way like what they did. By doing that we are showing to the world that we are no better from them, when we know we are. Just because they talked bad about us, we don’t have to do the same because you see even after all the malice done we still care enough to help them, care enough to feel sorry for them, care enough to work our ass off to make sure they are happy, care enough to protect them from others’ mean speculation and accusations, care enough to be GOOD HUMAN. For what you asked? For our own self satisfaction because like what I said before,’our mama taught us way better that that’. So we came to aconclusion that we are indeed those gila people who stupid enough to be kind and bother to care and never stop caring even after been trash down by the same people who beg for our supports and help when things didn't go well on their side. Gila for the fact that no sane people would feel guilty doing bad things to their enemies even when we treat them as one of us,with love like how we are with other friends but this is what we got in return. Because of these people I’m tired being nice, I’m tired for doing all the favour sincerely but these people never failed to make us smile and give us more reasons to be a better person. Amin.

And yes I’m proud to be one of those GILA people.

A happily Gila person :)

SRK meets SIN Part III.

I'm sad that my tight schedule (nearing my legal attachment) didn't allowed me to hangout for movies or drinks with my new lovely friends and the fact that I have to turned down every invitation really makes me feel bad. Never would I thought I'd find friends who talks, dreams, and go gaga over SRK as much as I do and really do hope our friendship will not starts and ends with those 2 days journey and after a week I'm quite sure it will continue for a lifetime. I can go on and on about this new found friendship because the fact that poor all my awesome friends who has been VERY loyal and patient listener until I swear if the phrase 'listen till my ears bleeding' is true that's what exactly happened to them after years of listening to my never ending love stories cum imaginary affairs with my Mr.Khan. I don't care if they were pretending all this while because they are damn good in doing it, and that's what friends for right?We don't necessary have to like the same thing, it would be boring if that's the scenario. I have friends who shared the same passion for football, some who are loyal supporters of Manchester United but the rest who aren't belong to the same group that does not mean we can't be friends. We need people to thrash talk at, to wrestle with when our team lost, etc and tadaaa they are those people. We can fight and bickering all day long like how siblings are and not talking to each other for a period of time because of this thing but at the end of the day we will laughed about it and life continue from where we left out. From my sight that's what a healthy and perfect relationship all about, balance I would say and if you don't think that way I'm sorry. Maybe that's why we are not friends :)

Being a student from local University which accepts students from all over the world didn't stop me to be amazed of the friendship I build with these people from India,Kenya, Mauritius,Singapore, Dubai/USA/Bangladesh, etc simply for the fact that they are fan of SRK ♥

My new neighbour in the SRK Lane, yup she's a Shah Alamian as well who studying in UITM which located like only 5 mins from my home. Gosh this will be an amazing journey from now on as she's the BEST informer one can get. Seriously!

Friends all the way from Monash University, Subang.

I'm a bit reluctant to act as my normal self in front of the lawyers but it doesn't pay to be fake right so just wear your own skin ;)



SRK is the word!

♥

SRK meets SIN Part II.

24 hours of chasing finally paid off, although Jurisprudence was always at the back of my mind being the last final paper for this semester. When we are too excited we tend to do something we forgot that we shouldn't or cannot do, I almost texted someone out of conscious before a scream from outside waken me up. I completely forgot I lost the right, regardless of less one more person to share every tit bits of happiness took place in my life I gained 9 new friends. Pictures are taken from my own red hot Sony (grow older when it becomes slower and slower, really need my own DSLR) as well as courtesy of the willingly sacrifice himself for our happiness ; Fahad, and the talented and good looking director wannabe, Nirmal.

Shah Rukh Khan with the DON's get up; ugly wig and the stubble Look rough and tough eh? Biceps some more this time, macho to the max!

Thanks to SRK's head of security's Mr.Yusuf, he kept his promise. He was indeed touched by our preserverance and determination.

SRK while signing MY picture!

Leaving for shooting at Penjara Sg.Udang,Melaka.

Classic SRK in black and white mood.

I can feel and see how exhausted he is at that time, regardless he still spent some times for us.

With the dashing director cum actor and great singer, the Akhtar's gena is obviously in Farhan.

The man who makes it possible for us to watch DON in Malaysia.

Macho DON look.

Suave criminal look.




Boman is such a funny and humble star.



SRK.Enough said.

SRK meets SIN.

He is indeed a very good looking guy who have nice build body(for DON) only the wig and stubble for his character making him look bad.Anything for a role, that's Shah Rukh for you. That should explain the latest Filmafare award he won for best actor in leading role for 'My Name Is Khan'.

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Started my die hard-stalking-24hours journey at 11am after a decision made completely out of adrenalin-excited rush the night before. With Pza as my biggest supporter cum driver-videocam girl-PA-etc we travelled to Penjara Sg.Udang (my first time going to jail, only SRK can make me do that) met bunch of lovely people came from all over the world (Singapore,India,Kenya,Mauritious,etc) who adores SRK as much as I do and we become friends, waited there for 6 hours only to get a glimpse of SRK. Decides to heading back to the hotel after our informer (Mr.Martin from The Star) told that after spending time with the CM, the crew will continue shooting until night (uncertain time).Gathered back at the hotel lobby around 8.30, making more new friends who included 3 sporting and funny lawyers (who happened to know our very own lecturer; Mr.Guru Dhillon) and 2 good looking brothers all the way from Rawang. Waiting and waiting. Paid off when we got to meet Farhan Akhtar ( Don’s director as well as 1 of my all time favourite director cum actor cum singer and he is DAMN GOOD LOOKING!) also Boman Irani (1 of the best actor and human being as he is so humble,funny and warm).Making more friends with the bodyguards, hotel staffs, film crews, and also SRK’s head of security (even he is good looking) The night ends with disappointment. The man himself s nowhere to be found, in between we try our level best to pursuit anyone possible to make our dream come true. We send personal message and MY video camera to his room, but he was super exhausted and after all he’s a human too you know. SRK still has my name card,marker and the A4 picture. As a true hardcore we are (some stayed the whole night in the car at the hotel) we came back the next morning ( this time I tagged Ksya and Sarah along) touched by our perseverance and high determination the head of security managed somehow to convince SRK to come and meet us, yayyyyyyyyyy! Alhamdulillah. He signed some posters, snapped some pictures, and off he goes. We all leaving with great memories and wide smiles and tears of joy (read: MEHJAZEEB). Now with instant popularity gained through articles in The Star, NDTV and some claimed they saw us in news TV3 I hope I’ll have a 3^rd date with my jaan Shah Rukh Khan in future.

What I’ll cherished the most in my life about this journey and experience is the new friends a.k.a psycho fans-ship I found in Darina, Erum, Fahad, Sabeeha, Sabeena, Marda, Ahsif, Raj and Nirmal. Will try to maintain this sweet friendship.