3 1/2 days to The Musical Event.

The brain is the human body’s most mysterious organ. It learns. It changes. It adapts. It tells us what we see. What we hear. It lets us feel love. I think it holds our soul. And no matter how much research we do, no one can really say how all that delicate gray matter inside our skull works. And when it’s hurt, when the human brain is traumatized, well, that’s when it gets even more mysterious. –Dr. Callie Torres-

If this sneak peek didn't stir your emotional, I don't know what will. The 1 line Sara sings from Grey's Anatomy theme song really give out goosebumps, 'Nobody knows where they might end up,nobody knows where they might wake up'. Its by Psapp title Cosy In The Rocket and its my favourite theme song by a series (not a surprise right!)

MUSIC is another vital character in Grey's Anatomy which won our hearts since the 1st episode!:)

5 days before The Musical Event

Even the sneak peek made my cry. 5 days to go. Excitedly nervous.

Chasing Cars!

Countdown begins : 7 days to go for Grey's Anatomy Musical Event!

From the beginning, the music of Grey’s Anatomy has been the heart of the show we love. Has touched us, moved us, and stayed with us long after we experienced it. Thursday March 31^st, creator Shonda Rhimes will do something that never been done before. From the promos I can say that it is potentially of becoming one of the greatest episodes, they are doing something which is pretty unknown to all of them (except the great singer herself, Sara Ramirez!) GA’s the music event, will be a completely different attempt, very emotional, intense, they will bring these songs to life in a way that the audience hadn’t seen before and it’s going to be mind blowing amazing episode.

The music plays such a big part even my life, I got to know numbers of great track performed by most of non commercial success singers which stay unheard of by many people if not for GA, the team do have great ears for awesome songs. They fit each situation beautifully, project each situation perfectly and make us cry, laugh, and sing along from the word go. I don’t really follow series except for certain chosen one (most are legal dramas) and GA is definitely one of the lucky ones, being a loyal fan since season 1 itself. This song by The Fray totally bring us back to the early season and those memories with former characters like George and Izzie do make us miss them badly. Somehow this song has a very deep effect on me since the first time I listened to it, the hopeless feeling of want to help someone you love but your hands are tied up. The hopeless feeling sometimes killing us, hoping for something better to happened but at the same time you can't do much about it. All we can do is sit and pray and hope the best outcome will miraculously appeared.

7 days to go for THE day, couldn’t be more anxious.

Biggest day.

You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it's happening. You don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you fail your exam. The day you have to tell your parents bad news. The day you get your heart broken. The day you decide you need to let go and move on. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you have to parted away from your bestfriends just because life lead us to the different path. The day you got your true calling of what you want to do in your life. The day you realize there's not enough time, because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. If you say the perfect days are your biggest day let me tell you there's no such thing as perfect day. For me a day is perfect enough if I'm surrounded by the people that I love from the moment I woke up till the second I go to bed. That's how I defined a perfect day. I may have a bad day, crappy time at school or work, worse day with people around me but if I know my loved ones are there then its more than enough for me.




P/S: On this one of the biggest day of your life, I just want to wish you my dear leng lui Jyemei or should I call you Mrs.Chan now a long life happy married life. Been waiting it for a while now and when I got your sms I'm just to excited and happy for you although it's just a registration and although customary ceremony is not so soon just want you to know you are the most gorgeous bride ever. And I know beautiful bright babies are coming your way soon. Totally over the moon, simply for the reason that people like you give us the reason to believe that somewhere out there there is a right person waiting for us. Our own knight in shining armour and a true love hopefully. You've been through a lot, ups and downs and you are one of the people I looked up at since I was in my first year so ya when you got your happy ending I couldn't be more excited. Lots of love and hugs!

Just hang in there, your biggest day is yet to come :)

Desire

As students we know what we want, to become somebody and to get there we’ll do almost everything; suffers through killers exam, endure hundred hours of almost half of our life in schools, you name it we’ll do it (NOT NECESSARILY WHOLEHEARTEDLY) But the toughest part is reconciling the thing we want to be with all the other things that we want. The thing is, the most crucial part that we must remind ourself again and again before desiring something while living under our parents’ roof, getting allowance from them, eat what they buy and cook, shopping with their salary and others is that we don’t; I repeat we do not get the liberty to desire luxury things nor the freedom to make our own decision based on our choice. Not before we start working and knows all the hardwork needed and pain endured in preparing one decent meal for our loved ones. Given a chance I would live my life totally differently, seriously. I am not what I am today if not for my parents’ says, I would study different course, I would choose different career path, I would dress differently,etc. In between me and God there are parents, so I don’t get to desire things as much as I would to. The rebellious side of me don’t agree with atleast 80% of the decision my parents made for me but hey who am I to complain. Just suck it in.

Too often the things you want the most is the things you can’t have. Desires leave our hearts broken, desire can wrecked your life, but as tough as wanting something can be the people who suffers the most are those who don’t know what they want.

Desire to live a happy life forever :)

Dreaming of you.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I would stay up and think of you
And I would wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Because I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you...Yes, I do

I can't stop dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly...

I was just 10 when I first saw 'Selena' but it will remain my favourite movie of all time. There's not even 1 time I watched it without crying my heart out, legend sometimes gone at unexpected time. Sometimes its too early that we feel it's not the time yet. This song has such sentimental value for me, touch my heart with every single line. Beautiful voice and melody. And here I do hope 1 day I will stop dreaming about you.

STOP invading my dreams.......

Smile :')

Sadness gives me reason to put my Nat King Cole's playlist in the replay mode. No more tears at this moment so even though my heart is aching I'll try to smile.................................................

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile......................................................

Please stay by my side and smile with me :)

Unwanted souvenir

People have scars, at all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal history, proofs of their old wounds, most of all our old wounds heal living nothing behind except scars but some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry around and the pain is still lingered. What’s worst; between new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should have heal long ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us of where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future, that’s what we like to think but that’s not the way it is. Is it? Something we just have to learn over and over and over again. Scars are souvenirs we never asked for. Try getting used to having them at unforeseen times, believe me they aren’t going anywhere. But as they say, those that didn’t kill you will only make you strong but how long can we stand the pain? Because there’s no such thing as painkillers for our heartache. No, I’m not a bitter person I’m just feel like writing after seen how many scars we all have and after heard about a new wound that my good friend just got, I know how hurt you must feel. I do that’s why I hope yours will heal soon. Till that happens lets just all of us not to be that ‘clumsy’ because we can’t afford another scar, can we?

Don't make scars as your best friend; then again as if we have a say on this matter.

TGIF!

Alhamdulillah. Everything seems to be on the right track so far, everything seems great and going smoothly so far, everyone from both of my masters,the lawyers,the staffs and the chambering pupil are nice bunch of people (so far)who teach me and guide me a lot especially during this early phase of the 3 months journey. I couldn't ask for a better firm for my attachment (its similar to internship, its just that we law students we like to be different from others kan.hehe.) Problems are bound to encountered soon enough but for now I just want to gain as much experience as I could and along the way have fun too, never thought these so call 'professional' people are as crazy and demented as I am or as we are because they are totally normal people behind those black and white attire and those thick books and cases. I laughed a lot too in this first week, so just hope I'll continue laughing all the way during the time I finishes my log book until my final presentation. In between free time, lunch time, and or some lunch date with master here and there along the way I bug my girls about how's their days, got eye candy or not, whats happening in my place, etc. Miss them so much!


New kid on the block therefore I play everything safe and low, get green light to wear other than black and white from my master but I shall show my true 'colour' slowly.hahaha. Its time to observe, who can be your friend and who shall remain your senior or just colleague. Whatever it is I just want to learn everything about conveyancing and litigation (yes,I'm lucky to get both field in the same firm compare to lots of my friends who stuck with the same boring routine of conveyancing) and hope by the end of this attachment I'll get to decide whether I'm going to practice or not after graduated.


Working life made me realised and appreciated weekends more than before. Times seems to be so limited with all the workloads, family time, social hangouts,etc. Wonder if my plan to get a part time job will ever be accomplished, so far I learnt the hard way that part time job does not means only for weekend honey. Thanks to Levi's, Baskin Robbins, Secret Recipe, Subway, etc for telling me that. I will not stop trying though, for THE vacation's sake!

Just peek into the REAL world and it sems wonderful out there, SO FAR! :)