Guilt can kill.

It kills me slowly each day; when unpredictable things take place it really hurt you especially when you’ve prayed the best and really hard for the one who you care deeply. I won’t lie by saying that I’m not happy, grateful and relieve because I’m truly do but at the same time I really feel sad because that person doesn’t deserve the outcome at all because that person worked way harder than me, that person gave me supports and encouragements more than anyone else when it comes to that particular subject and that person loves it more than I would ever be in this lifetime. I wish I could say life is not fair, I could give you a big and tight hug and cry but for what? It would just add more heartache to that person, and that is the last thing that person needs now because for now all we got to give that person is best wishes and lucks. I have completely belief in that person that that person can do this and survive like that person always does. So don’t give up my dear friend, there’s always first time for everything and I do sincerely hope this is your last first time. Amin. See you at the end of this journey with a smile and don’t hate it because you didn’t make it but love it even more because you know you will endure it like you always do. Thanks for always be there for me even when I have no desire to do the best but you push me to perform reasonably well. I know God has his own agenda behind all this so don’t worry and just do your best. Why just me, all of us have faith in you even when you are not.

How long will I live with this guilt?

1,2,3,4 yes I can dance:)

Dancing is an art of one to express their feeling, the freedom in the movements somehow is so rejuvenated especially when you do it in such a carefree manner, no force, more like to the willingness in enjoying them. Being exposed to Bollywood choreographers and their routines since my younger days developed the soft spot in me towards dancing. My idea of perfect routines and choreographies starts and ends with Farah Khan’s school of dancing. For me to dance is actually to have fun with ourselves and make others happy watching them although it may not turn out as perfect as what we practise. The humiliation is just for a moment, however the memories are for life to be treasured. Never in million years I would ever think I’ll get involve in naach gaana experiences, especially not in my University life but it happened and that’s why people say never say never. Sincere from my heart, I love doing it but they are not as a career backup or something, it’s just a way of me spending quality time with my loved ones when we still have the opportunity because once we leave student’s life we’ll be on different path and only time will tell whether we’ll be able to keep the bonding. InsyaAllah. The next best thing about joining all this new find hobby is meeting new people, making new friends and just enjoying our passion.

Shall we dance?Waiting for the time to learn Indian dance.

Break Ke Baad Theatrical Trailer

Seriously God?You can't be funnier than this.From 'I hate luv storys' to 'Break ke baad'?Irony.Thanks, cant wait for this movie to come out.(doing the two thumbs up!)

Hindictionary: Break ke baad = after break up.


p/s: feel free to ask for translation for the dialogue :)

I simply love ironies. *sighhhhh*

Baking over cooking any day.

It's not because I don't know how to cook, well to be precise I'm not good at it rather than I don't know(it's not brain surgery,duhh) it's simply because for me cooking is boring and predictable. Baking on the other hand is way fun, challenging and adventurous. People who facing trouble to sleep at night should try their hands on baking, I don't say it'll help you into sleeping but at least for me it helps a lot in releasing stress and we’ll start to focus on other things. In short baking is a good friend during bad times. Plus family and friends love whatever I baked,(not that much of variety though,still learning) that's an extra points of happiness for me.

I guess baking is 1 of my hobby :)

Worst case scenario

Worst case scenario is not only applicable when you are trapped in a dead end situation, but it also applies to the time when you started to eat all your words and be friends with someone you despise, someone you never like for God know what reasons, someone who have and live a complete opposite different principles from what you believe in, someone who you thinks portray a plastic or fake image in front of others, someone who doesn’t even care about you and only use you when they need you, someone who (before) you would never suggest to others to be friends with, someone who when be talked about in front you (before) in a good manner you’ll be automatically do faces or give negative comments, someone who you would never thought in 1000 years to be your emergency friends in these kind of time, someone who you don’t even bother to know about them personally or socially, someone who....this...and that...and a lot more but when worst time comes even the worst is better than nothing I guess. It’s a shocking situation to see some people stick/stuck with their so called ‘friends’ for the sake of having ‘friends’ at the end of the day.

Well everyone have the rights to define what a ‘friend’ is to them, for me a friend is someone who dare and care enough to correct me when I’m wrong but still we manage to sustain the same value of respect towards each other and maintain and cherish the sacred relationship for the rest of our life despite our differences. Don’t treat a friend like a liquid paper, where we only need them to correct our wrongs or when we need someone to back us up when we think we’ve screwed up. We may not like certain behaviours of our friends (and vice versa) but with tolerance and sincere confession everything is InsyaAllah will be well at the end of the day because a friendship is not a 1-2 days relationship, it should be for the rest of our life regardless whether we are taking the same path in the future or not. I’ve learnt the hard way I guess in judging who is actually our true friends are, but it’s better to realised it now than never because true friends do stick around forever. Amin.

I'm blessed with great F.R.I.E.N.D.S for life :)

Am not strong.

True strength is keeping everything together inside when everyone expects you to fall apart.

p/s: You'll always remain inside me forever and after although you've made me exit yours.

Thanks Taufik Thum for the line:')

Just

Looking for something else but instead found another. Planning to do that but stuck with this. Hoping to go somewhere but feet firmly planted on the ground,not moving. Missing things but not motivated to go after. All the songs aren't helping.

p/s: Thanks Jo :)


Insomniac sucks!

Roon runs

Just when u think things cant get any worse, they do and when people ask you to stop talking about the sores of the life its never that easy especially when bad things keep happening. No matter how hard you try to be positive somehow there will be bits of life reminding you to the dark side of it every now and then, moreover when you are away from your loved ones. For me personally sports is one of the way that manage to keep me away from stress, either watching them(recent Commonwealth Games Delhi 2010, recent addition to my list of enjoyable sports is addicted to tennis,table tennis and hockey), cheering for your favourite team(Manchester United), involve yourself in a competition(a healthy one,like on weekly basis), etc. This week's hottest news (devastating for us Red Devilians) from EPL is when Roon announced that he wants to leave the comfort nest of Old Trafford to another team and refused to continue his contract with MU. After CR7 left we just cant afford to lose another gifted player like Roon but as what we know, behind every dismissal of star player in MU is that one famous mastermind called Fergie for short. He can be the one who bring you to the limelight of stardom of a living legend in the football world but in a second he also can destroyed your life if you give him the shit of 'I'm a bigger star than the manager'(attitude problems!) just because you earn 700k pound sterling in a week. As an avid reader of ESPN website and also ardent visitor to the team's official page (love the visual visit, hoping that one day I will be there in person) I've found a letter written specially to Wayne Rooney.Can't help but to agree with our correspondent, so read on.








ESPN Soccernet - Correspondents - Manchester United - An Open Letter to Wayne Rooney

Dear Mr. Rooney,

In light of your statement of intent to leave our football club I, on behalf of Manchester United fans, would like to respond with a few thoughts of my own.

Firstly, I would like to thank you very much for playing for us with such distinction for six years. It has been a pleasure to see you terrorise our opponents and kiss the club badge every time you scored a goal. It is a testament to your abilities as a footballer that a Liverpudlian should be so welcomed into the arms of Mancunia.

In light of the quality of your football, it was no drama at all for us to rally around you after your petulant sending off in the 2006 World Cup. It was also a matter of duty for us to support you after your abject displays in South Africa.

We have chanted your name, and thrown the full weight of our support behind you, despite consistent off-the-field incidents involving cigarettes, alcohol and ladies of the night.

When, in March, you stated your desire to stay with the club until the end of your career, till death us do part, it was a terrific boon for us all. That vow of allegiance really gave credence to the values of support that we so cherish.

As you know Wayne, we fans have been doing it tough of late. Our love of the club has been horribly muddied by the ownership issue and the fact that the money we spend in good faith is being used to finance debt we didn’t accrue.

It would be lovely if our hard-earned cash were being spent on people like Leo Messi and Fernando Torres, men who would probably keep you out of the team. But the thing is, United have never really operated like that. We usually either raise or buy players young and blood them in the first team, onto greater heights.

I suppose you would have known all that. But it is irrelevant now because you’re leaving. I suppose you’ll end up in Madrid and Barcelona. I wish you good luck with the Spanish lessons and if you need any tips on how good life is after United give David Beckham a call, he’ll tell you.

Alternatively, you’ll end up in London with Chelsea and John Terry. The nightlife down there is fantastic and if you ever get lonely there’s no need to worry. All of your friends from the press, the guys who’ve been so terrific to you over the last little bit, are just around the corner. All the time.

Of course, you could choose to stay local and pop down the road to Manchester City. That’d be nice wouldn’t it? Although I can’t speak for all of us, I suspect being ‘out and about’ in the town should be removed from your schedule if that’s the case.

You could have stayed at United Wayne, as you pledged to do, through thick and thin, but after the last week that’s not really an option. The options open to you look peachy and free of grief. Good luck with the big decision.

Anyway Wayne, we’ve got to get busy with the two things that concern us the most now. Winning football matches and getting rid of the Glazers. You’re obviously no use to us on either count now so you’d better get going.

We wish you all the best with the next club badge you kiss.

Try not to let the door hit you on the way out, there's a good lad.

Regards

Mark Payne

Manchester United Correspondent, ESPN

Not everyone deserved a second chance

'iRobo un kathil,I love you sollatta?'

There’s Ajith,Surya,etc but if you want to watch your first Tamil movie in cinema make sure it’s by the Superstar himself, Rajnikanth. To be honest I’m not his biggest fan; I prefer Kamal Hassan any day for his intense serious roles or slapstick funny characters. But growing up watching Rajni’s movies like Muthu, Padayappa, Chandramukhi, Sivaji,etc it just have to be his movie or nothing at all and that’s why when Endhiran been declared the biggest and the most expensive project from Indian film fraternity, plus the hypes and positive reviews especially the animation and graphic we decided to join the bandwagon of the actor’s well wisher this time around. Oh boy we have not been disappointed, not this time although there are some flaws but they just ought to be there or else it won’t be called a Tamil movie. Fortunately most of my friends also shared the same passion about experiencing our first Tamil movie in the theatre, I must say AR Rahman music does influence me more than Rajni himself. I’m a big fan of the music maestro’s works, although I don’t understand most of the words but I love ‘Kaddal Anukkal’, ‘Kalimanjaro’, ‘Irumbile Oru Idhaiyam’,etc.They all are so hummable. Being a Malaysian this is one of the way to express our freedom either to join other races in celebrating their excitement or to watch whatever movie we want, but some people still have this sceptical mind that ‘No way you’ve watched a Tamil movie. You are a Malay, you don’t speak Tamil’. So what? I’ve watched this movie twice already and to all who have second thought about the so called bombastic or exaggerated statements made so far, go and enjoy it yourself.

ENDHIRAN

We don’t have to speak the language to fall in love with the people