Until being told I didn’t realised[in denial] that I used ‘euwww please lah’ quite often in my daily life, but most of the time I used it when the girls, all whom of course such a sweetheart in their own way trying to be a match maker. Seriously I tell you, if they even have second thought or have doubts in continue their studies to be doctors, lawyers, accountants, etc they can anytime open a match making company and making millions out of it. They live, breathe and play the role as cupid to the T. Blame the influence in Hindi or Tamil movies, thanks to the marriage pundits now even the girls bring the chart of compatibility of behaviour and things that both of you like if not zodiac signs[extreme no? That's what the Tok Sami are doing]. They just being nice, no one can deny their sincere intention. Although they never do it seriously but when suddenly if their guys friend added you at FB, or send message or something you know something is wrong somewhere. And the turning point is when they say, ‘he’s my good friend, very nice you know, love this like you, act like that, vagera vagera.[etc etc] Sounds like a perfect match for you’. Yup this is when I give that look and say..........clever! Euwww, pleaselah!
Sometimes you being treated as if you are 57 years old, living as a spinster with 17 cats in your apartment. And I would like to make a counter statement that I have nothing against mamak guys ok, I’m proud to be half of that blood so no need to make assumption I don’t like them just because my eyes are only for Ranbir now. When the method of telling them in the nicest way won’t work, like text message, face to face although I try to put it in a humorous way, try to tell them at straight at their wall[FB wall that is,the so IN thing these days people!]. Believe me most of the time it works, although not long but until they find another ‘suitable candidate’ you’ll have time to chill and breathe before all this process start all over again. The only reason that makes me smile behind all of this drama is that I know they worry, love me, and actually give a thought or two about my life. Owh I feel loved because they just want me to be happy like they are. But for now thanks, but no thanks.
All the greatest love stories are between strangers.-Anjaana Anjaani-
"A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her." -So, be a good one in order to get better one. InsyaAllah. Amin.
Sometimes it takes a stranger to say or do something in order for us to find back our smile, they might just say something simple but somehow it brings back old memories, do an act which reminds you to some people from your past and those little little things that makes you happy although it may not last long but indeed those moments are to be remembered because after so long you can actually see that wide grin on your face.
I was in the cinema last week, while waiting for the movie to start there was this bunch of 3 aunties sitting at the seats behind mine. I found their conversations were very funny and their humours were as bad as when I listen to my Mom’s. Not that it’s a bad thing but it gives me a sigh of relief knowing that actually my mother’s sense of humour similar like how women her age joked.
They are like in their middle age, having a day off from work and decide to go watch Eat.Pray.Love ( An awesome movie I tell you!)
Conversation 1: ‘Do you guys know that Fauziah from our Management Department? She’s like the same age as ours you know,43 or something but look at her lah so slim. Life is so unfair!’
Hahaha: It makes me laughed for the reason that although all 3 of them are overweight and mocking how life is so unfair to them, they were saying all those stuff while munching all the junk foods. Really help eh?
Coversation 2: “I’m so angry with the change of my position in the company, memanglah its a higher position and they say it’s for our own good but I don’t care I’m going to give them a piece of my mind through FB!Do these people have one?’.”No lah,I don’t think they have, that’s make our job easier what, just bash them all we want*Evillaugh*
Hahaha: It gives me a stomach pain when Mama asked me about how to open a FB account, these aunties really act like teenagers and seriously not just me even the girl beside me was laughing.
Conversation 3: When they were gossiping about something I don’t understand suddenly 1 of them says.”Kau ni cakap macam keling lah!”, all of them were laughing nonstop until 1 of them reply back “We are what?”.
Hahaha: I never find calling names or being racist as funny but the way they put it, as they all are Indians who speaks really good Malay I find it so Malaysian in a way.
Coversation 4: “Ok2, the movie start already. I simply love Julia Roberts since ‘Pretty Woman’.”Owh I love Richard Gere more, give him to me for 1 day I know what to do with him. He’s so good looking since the day we were younger and slimmer than now”.
Hahaha: OMG!Can you believe, these aunties talking about their crushes so openly in public, reminds me to the girls when they talking about their ‘cupcakes’. LOL.
A mantra people always said; Never takes yourself too seriously, no one will survived this life alive anyway :)
Once you spread or caused miseries to other’s life, a wise thing to do next is stop there! Have some mercy atleast for the sake of humanity. Don’t even bother to control how they deal with it, atleast give them that freedom. That’s what we called freedom of speech and expression under Section 10 of our Federal Constitution. Call me over sensitive,or melodramatic or even a cry baby but at the end of the day yes I’m a very fragile soul inside despite portraying this strong image on the outside. Some people do their own revenge and call it karma. Oh please, thats not the way. Karma happens on its own. Learn to just be happy and stop creating dramas![quoting Jess]So one way to avoid creating a self proclaimed ‘karma’ I rather be screaming my lungs out, letting go all that my heart feels, all the pain and hurtful bruises. And people can keep asking and asking because they just being concern, hope they’ll get tired one day as,” honey if I’ve been sealed my lips all this while what makes you think I will spill the beans now”. Yes, there’s a bit of optimistic there of how things will change in future but no one really stand behind me this time as they already gave up their faith. I’m a one man standing starting now. They could easily like this(while snapping my fingers,papp) to say ‘I’ve told you so!’, but they didn’t. I was quite sure they were about to say it but they didn’t, and that shows how great a person they are and how blessed I am to have their friendship.
If that going to heal the scars then that’s what I should do, why should I bother about others. That’s the purpose of having a blog, no one force you to write one nor to read others’. The last thing I need to hear or being told about now is from a slut,yup I said it. There’s always first time for everything even a bad one, and today 8th October 2010 is the first time I ever feel like calling someone a slut. Forgive me Allah but who says I’m perfect,no one is and make this my last time uttering that word. Beat it! I stand by what I said. Ofcourse you are in your own league because only you have zero dignity to join the league so you can say whatever you want, your illegal actions already spoke louder than your words. You can wear that mask as long as you like, it just that we know the fact long time ago and been laughing towards your stupidity since then so please spare us your horror. When we open our hearts and thinking about giving you a chance as everyone does a mistake, you come commit the same error and be proud of it. On that note, be happy with yur sluttiest self and let us stay away from you hopefully hamesha and forever.
Liars never lose trust because they never had it and yet I’m here hopelessly hoping all that were true indeed. Say it, stupid me!
Hate saying goodbyes. Even hate the thought of have to say it sooner or later. I always believe what Peyton painted on her bedroom’s wall in One Tree Hill that ‘people only come to leave’ ; its indeed true. I always try to avoid to say goodbye because most of the time when we say it, seems like we have no intention to meet again, nor we have plan to keep in touch.Goodbye can either be for good reasons or bad ones,but mostly its for the latter and its really heartbreaking when you know you don’t want to say so but only did because the other person said it. What is the best way to say goodbye?I would say none. Goodbye haunts me everytime a phase ends,like when high school came to the end, when holidays are over, when people moved away, etc. It sucks to say goodbye, but somehow we just have to swallow the fact that it is one of those thing which is inevitable in this life. There’s a very famous Irish sayings which IK gave not so long ago, it goes like this :
May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sunshine warm up your face
The rain fall soft on your feet
May green be the grass you walk upon
May blue be the skies above you
May pure be the joys of your surrounding
May true be the hearts that love you
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the palm o his hand.
I choose not to say goodbye until the thought of wondering if I’ve ever cross your mind vanish.
How come its so easy for them to say such words?How come it comes naturally for them?How come everytime I tried to project those words with enthusiasm, all of them kinda stuck in my throat, the far I can go is to cover my face with a pillow and started to scream like a maniac those words!And funnily sometimes I dont even know some of the meaning, strictly copy from movies or observations from real life situations. As I watch movies(some!) they tend to give ideas that by doing so it'll help us to lessen the pain in our heart or we can even feel good by making others feel bad.
I've seen how when anger controlled some people they act like someone they are not, I've heard those dirty words even in daily life when they think its 'cool' to say such words even when situation did not need them to say so, I'm even living my life surrounded by them for almost my whole life. So why can't all this exposures teach me to be one of them, its because I am me,I am not them.On that note I'm talking about cursing/talking bad or dirty words. Its important to control our anger, its like the most crucial balance that I need in my life to be a better person as being a person who lack of patient it will be a tough journey for me. But whoever says life will be a smooth journey right?
"A strong person is not the person who throws his adversaries to the ground. A strong person is the person who contains himself when he is angry." - Rasulullah SAW
InsyaAllah, Im sorry for my words never ever meant it. I was angry and heartbroken,its not hatred.
*Devoted & dependent person who love her parents & family to death*A learning muslimah *Frustrated ex-science stream head girl*Lawyer in training*Millionaire in the making*Movie buff,t.v addict &music devotee*Bollywood fanatic*Movie Director wannabe*
