Best way to say goodbye?None.

Hate saying goodbyes. Even hate the thought of have to say it sooner or later. I always believe what Peyton painted on her bedroom’s wall in One Tree Hill that ‘people only come to leave’ ; its indeed true. I always try to avoid to say goodbye because most of the time when we say it, seems like we have no intention to meet again, nor we have plan to keep in touch.Goodbye can either be for good reasons or bad ones,but mostly its for the latter and its really heartbreaking when you know you don’t want to say so but only did because the other person said it. What is the best way to say goodbye?I would say none. Goodbye haunts me everytime a phase ends,like when high school came to the end, when holidays are over, when people moved away, etc. It sucks to say goodbye, but somehow we just have to swallow the fact that it is one of those thing which is inevitable in this life. There’s a very famous Irish sayings which IK gave not so long ago, it goes like this :

May the road rise to meet you

May the wind be always at your back

May the sunshine warm up your face

The rain fall soft on your feet

May green be the grass you walk upon

May blue be the skies above you

May pure be the joys of your surrounding

May true be the hearts that love you

And until we meet again

May God hold you in the palm o his hand.

I choose not to say goodbye until the thought of wondering if I’ve ever cross your mind vanish.

Less 1 s*** in my life.TQVM.

How come its so easy for them to say such words?How come it comes naturally for them?How come everytime I tried to project those words with enthusiasm, all of them kinda stuck in my throat, the far I can go is to cover my face with a pillow and started to scream like a maniac those words!And funnily sometimes I dont even know some of the meaning, strictly copy from movies or observations from real life situations. As I watch movies(some!) they tend to give ideas that by doing so it'll help us to lessen the pain in our heart or we can even feel good by making others feel bad.


I've seen how when anger controlled some people they act like someone they are not, I've heard those dirty words even in daily life when they think its 'cool' to say such words even when situation did not need them to say so, I'm even living my life surrounded by them for almost my whole life. So why can't all this exposures teach me to be one of them, its because I am me,I am not them.On that note I'm talking about cursing/talking bad or dirty words. Its important to control our anger, its like the most crucial balance that I need in my life to be a better person as being a person who lack of patient it will be a tough journey for me. But whoever says life will be a smooth journey right?

"A strong person is not the person who throws his adversaries to the ground. A strong person is the person who contains himself when he is angry." - Rasulullah SAW

InsyaAllah, Im sorry for my words never ever meant it. I was angry and heartbroken,its not hatred.

For the rest of my life

कभी कभी अदिति जिन्दगी (Sometimes life...)

Sometimes we meet someone along the way,
And it breaks our heart when they go away,
Eyes demand tears, its hard to disobey,
But I believe everything's gonna be ok,

Sometimes we feel so down and blue,
Every day like a bitter drew,
It's hard to smile,feel happy or even to fake it,
But I believe everything's gonna be ok,

Sometimes you love someone but you can't be with them,

So let them go although it's hurting and killing you inside,

If they return to you, it was meant to be,

If they don't their love was never yours to begin with,

Just think how much they love you,
When you cry,they cry with you,
They can't hold a note but to make you happy they sing for you,
Sometimes the world is a dark place,
But the blackest night cracks with the dawn's ray,

Sometimes we find a friend along the way,
Feels surreal,like a dream when they go away,
But try to go on and laugh a bit,or how about a little smile,
Because they say your happiness spreads joy all around,

The sun emerges and warms the ground,
Can you hear what the wind has to say?
Friends though parted, meet again,
Knows it or not but flowers do blossom again,
So you should keep believing that everything's gonna be ok.

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Have a little faith that everything's gonna be ok

Month of forgiveness.

People asks for forgiveness, so do I,
Sorry at first sounds convincing, too many of it sounds fake,
Sorry from the heart is acceptable, sorry merely for being selfish is hurting,
Don't say sorry for something you have always planned because that's the biggest heartache,
To move on, to be happy, to let others cry then just say you’re sorry fast,

No one is perfect but we don’t have to be one to avoid apology,

At the end of the day, your happiness is more important than mine so,
The moment I can forgive myself for keep believing in your sorry then I'll think about others.

Heartache is no fun

Dear Ramadhan,please let me be part of you again.

It's been a very emotional Ramadhan indeed. I feel sorry for myself for many reasons;

I've missed a lot of chances to collect pahala in this blessed month due to so called busy-ness,


even before this month started I've missed Manchester United's games(ALL!since they beat Chelsea 3-nil for the 1st cup of this season,I know its that long),


yet again I've missed (4 years in a row) to start study early for final exam,

I missed quality times that I've should find and spend with my family,


I've missed the signs which lead me to the biggest stupidity I have ever done,I've misjudged some people(completely my bad),


I've missed quite a number of good movies(latest my fav KAJOL&Arjun Rampal's 'We Are Family' is in cinemas NOW!)


I've failed to read between the lines, actually between hundred or maybe thousands of sweet and fake lines,


BUT


I'm also thankful that HIM and them will always be by my side,


I'm grateful that HE'll always be there to lead me,I can always lean on HIM,


I'm lucky to once thought I've met love,


I'm blessed to at least have a bit of sanity and iman in me,


I'm happy that rather have the ability to feel hurt than feel nothing at all.


And so many feelings I wish I can write here but I'm too tired and irrational at the moment so hope this Raya and final exam will pass by without me realise it and hopefully it'll be good for all of us.InsyaAllah.

Saiyidah Izzati Nur,remember this;Allah wont test you, if He knows that u cant handle it.

Ramadhan once again.

As colourful and excited the bazaars are,the same feeling I have every Ramadhan. Tremendously grateful to be at home ♥ Selamat berpuasa,bertarawikh&berbuka to all :) Let us appreciate this chance, one more time given by the Creator. Alhamdulillah.

Among my favourite quote when it comes to my own personal sensitivity towards my beautiful religion :)

"I don't normally talk about my religion publicly because I don't want people to associate me and my flaws with this beautiful thing. And I believe it is beautiful if you learn it the right way" - Dave Chappelle

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak is here again. Thank you Allah.

Lies.

A wise friend of Iman once said; 'There is always 3 sides of a story, his story,her story and the TRUTH'. What a wise thought eh? I agree.

The 'Pencil'.

There are some stories that makes you stop for a second and actually say,'hey that's so true' and these are what we called inspirational kind of stories. Those which give us sense of direction in this life, which made us proud to be who we are as a person without comparing with others, to appreciate what we have in life and to be a better person we must work hard without depending on others too much and last but not least no more DAYDREAMING and PROCRASTINATION. Thanks Mr.TES for the email.

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:

‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’

His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn’t seem very special.
‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.’

‘First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.’
‘

Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.

‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.’

‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.’

‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action’


'Like the flowing river' by Paulo Coelho.

:)

Spent 1 day in awe of UM's law library and found this: " Law,says the Judge as he looks down his nose, Speaking clearly and most severely Law is as I have told you before Law is as you know I suppose Law is but let me explain it once more Law is the Law." W.H AUDEN, extract from Law is like Love." Will continue reading LAW:)

They asked and I answered. 5 seconds... all of them say simultaneously,”Aren’t you the best and the only point one should consider of? There should be no reasons beyond you”.

I thought I'm the only one who thinks like that but well, great minds think alike I must say.

What's in the name?

When Shakespeare wrote ‘What’s in the name?’ for sure there’s incident or justified reasons behind it isn’t it? So that’s exactly my question, what’s in the name? Especially mine. (I don’t really bother with others’, why should I? hahaha)

Story 1: Wish I could ask people to stop asking me about my “unique” name when it comes to why is it the ‘NUR’ is placed at the last. No I’m not angry or what so ever but I wish I have the answer though, pardon me that I never really thought of sitting down and have a serious heart to heart talk with my parents of the story behind it. I love history but some things are beautiful to be left untold. Especially to those guys who know for a fact I won’t reply the messages and please improve your pick up line, it’s so lame and boring when you try to get girl’s hp number but praising her name and for the record please just keep your number.

Story 2: Why would she call my name for every class? It’s because only she has the most detectable instinct of me actually day dreaming rather than focusing to her lectures; or maybe she is the only one who really bothers. I’m not kidding but every classes and tutorials she keeps calling my name and the terrified and paranoid I am I would be ducking or hiding behind whoever sitting in front of me. Yes its hurt, try to sit in the same posture for an hour or more! Not the normal posture ok, the one we have to do when the person in front of us is actually smaller and way slimmer than we are. Ms.CK is the nicest person I 've known and that’s why I feel sorry (for myself) every time I’m not able to give the most sense reply. But I just realised that actually I kind a like the subject [this happened when there’s only 9 hours 30 minutes left before I sit for the paper last Friday] so second half of this semester I’ll try harder to surprise myself and also her in good way that is.

Story 3: Last week Ms.A asked me why my friends refer me as ‘Cheda’ but not ‘Saiyidah’ when she herself never called me using my real name instead; ‘Kajol’[no objection though, so flattering!] so during our lunch time the story continues and Pza recalled back our first meeting which is way back 4 years ago during our foundation time. In short, it reminds me of why I need a nickname. Most of the time when I introduced myself to new people “Hye, my name is Saiyidah” they will immediately start giving me this weird don’t-you-have-a-nickname-or-something-that-easy-for-us-to-pronounce? look and that’s why Cheda seems convenient for all. They told me that it took quite an effort to say the name so as I won’t compromise with other pronunciations or the other 2 names, Cheda it is. Plus my bff given me the nickname in 2003 so since then I’m loving it :)

My name is SIN and I am not a terrorist!