Unanswerable questions.

Why are you always in hurry?

Why do you scared?

Why do you change the radio station?

Why do you change the topic?

Why do you stop doing this and that?

Why do you change your style?

Why do you still hold on that?

Why do you still keep that memories?

Why do you always excuse yourself?

Why do we have to convince you for most things now days?

Why are you still holding to something uncertain?

Why?Why?Why?

Do you know that not all questions can be answered with words? Sometimes it is better if only we have the answer rather than trying to make others understand something that God knows whether they will or not. At the end of the day I believe that a smile do hides everything.

I don't even know what will happen in the future. But I still believe that God is good and only good.

Will we or won't we?

Sick thoughts and bet of most people, sports viewers who confidently declared that INDONESIA will purposely lose to THAILAND in order to make sure MALAYSIA won't make it to semi final of the AFF Suzuki Cup but they proved all of us wrong when they won the game with 2-1.Thanks to 2 penalties accomplished by former Selangor player,Bambang. Yes, we do have political differences but sometimes when it come to sport we just have to put that aside and just play for the spirit of it.With seniors players in the squad I really hope we can bring back the cup this time, enough with becoming only semi finalist. Can only get the leisure of watching sports at home, put aside stress of studies,etc and enjoy the game.GOALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

Bad habits Part II

I hate myself for being able to spend like no body business even when I'm like super broke. What that phrase mean was, I do have the cash but it should be use for other purposes. Which is far important than spending it carelessly like water. I wish to change that(again!) in this new year. I hate the fact that everyone around me already have their own income(MOST if not all),yet me still receiving allowances from my father and sister and for the record I don't know(actually I think I know,the whole world knows.In denial!) why they never...never enough for me although I plan each time on how and what I should spend them on. Seriously I do. I'm a planner you see. When I'm a state of miserably broke especially when its holiday I tend to hate myself even more, its killing me when TopGear (we subscribe the magazine monthly) arrived at our home because I know I am not destined to own those hot rides! It requires damn hard work to even buy the cheapest ride in that mag, which is like *cryblood* Again it is really killing me slowly to go to the most happening motor show, and looking at all those beautiful rides and that is all I can do...for now. Its fine with me to not have the luxury to buy the best dresses, stilettos, jeweleries,vagera2 but being me since like forever I can already picture myself in a Porsche or riding a Harley so more than the high end fashion couture I want them more than anything so for now that's my mission and passion.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Ok I feel better now.

I have fetish for cars and bikes:)

A brand NEW YEAR.

I do have high hopes in this brand new year, especially for a happier life, to be a better Muslim and person in general, improve my performance in academics, personal achievement in various fields that I have passion for, financial wise as well as life in whole. In short the hopes are dedicated to me,myself. Its all up to me to make it work so InsyaAllah with a focused mind, prayers and hardworking I'll be able to achieve 70% of them. Salam Awal Muharram to dear all Muslims around the world, on this meaningful day lets us start it with the right step.

Doa Awal Tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam satu Muharram. Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan

dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan”.

Berikut adalah Doa Awal Tahun

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Amin to all wishes:)

Selfish in a selfless way.

The old me would have asked 1001 questions out of care and genuine curiosity.It hit me the hard way that as much as I want it to stay the same way now I just can’t.Have to discipline myself the right way because the time is getting too close, before drowning much deeper I need to gasp for air when there's still time. It’s my turn now to say more than for me, for once I’m being selfish in a selfless way. The best for the both world. No doubts they are nice human being but it takes more than that from now on because I'm strong enough to walk away, but broken enough to look back.

I miss you a little. A little too much, a little too often, and a little bit more each day

Bad habit

Moral of the story: Procrastination is bad for health.

When you think by doing something else (somewhat that you hate and avoid all your life like wrapping freaking 30+ statutes and text books) can get your mind from thinking the same thing, can distract your mind from thinking about the same person, and can divert your attention to something more important at the moment (like studying for your exam) you are completely wrong. I tried by wrapping all (most) of my statutes (killing my hip and back, seriously!) and at the end of the 3 hours I realised it’s just a waste of time because there’s nothing can help you but yourself. But at least one job done, almost. Must find other ways, this cannot be continue forever.Sick!

Wrapping books is so damn boring, its a girl job totally not for me.*sigh!*

Farewell my friend

We dedicated this for you dear Gemy;

We thought of you with love
Today but that is nothing new
We though about you
Yesterday and days
Before that too

We think of you in silence and from far
All we have now is memories and
Your picture in a frame,of our mind

Your memory is our keepsake
With which we'll never part
GOD has you in His keeping
We have you in our heart.

365 days have passed,
You are still being missed by all,
More than you, we need this,
Thee 30th November shall be our farewell day from now on
Because forever you will always remain part of Damai-ians.

With ♥ D.30th Nov 2010.

Bring in Berbatov!

Ms.Wong once told us in our first year that nearing your exam you’ll face a lot of troubles to study. Not because you do not want to but the circumstances forced you not to. That’s exactly what happened each and every paper of us for the next 3 years, and now we are all facing the final year never changed even a bit. Last Saturday when I was about to start to study for my Professional Practise(PP) and Evidence midterm Manchester United(MU) decided to play their best game so far in this season. I’ve been missing a lot of their games lately especially since the new season, but the weekends that I spent at home I tried to catch them and last weekend was the night for Dimitar Berbatov. When the critics trashed him by saying it might be his last season with the Red Devils due to his bad performance last season he scored 5 goals against Blackburn (7-1 for us) none of striker from EPL can beat that, not in this season but last season we saw how Jermain Defoe of Tottenham scored the same against Wigan Athletic when they won 9-1. The Bulgarian contributed to a record breaking Saturday for MU after such a long gap in the Barclays Premiere League. Berbatov became only the fourth player to scored five goals in a match, joining a very exclusive club, Premier League legend Alan Shearer did it in Newcastle's 8-0 victory against Sheffield Wednesday in November 1999 and Andy Cole also managed it for United against Ipswich Town in a memorable 9-0 triumph in March 1995. I never know about the 9-0 victory until Saiful told me. That night Nani, Rooney and Ji-Sung played their best game as well as most of the chances given to Berbatov initiated by their amazing moves from the middle field. What excites me the most is that a day after we won, Chelsea maintained their consistency by draw 1-1 against Newcastle United and we are once again on the top of the league. With such a little difference, the 3 teams behind us will not give up to try their hands on the cup for season 2010/2011. If we could retain the same team spirit and constancy our place to UEFA is already secured.

Serve us right!Couple of days after the victorious night,West Ham humiliated our young guns with 4-0 in the Caring Cup round.Darn it!The time we'll have to play against Liverpool for FA Cup in January I really do hope Fergie will put the best out there.

At the end of the night, the books had to give up to the great football game that I could never say NO too.

A RED Monday it is:)

Little Black Dress

Thanks to Belinda who introduced me this awesome series of Little Black Dress (LBD), since then I’m addicted to the so called ‘It’s a girl thing’ for their simple yet funny written stories. Not even single book that I read without laughing my heart out, somewhere in the middle all of them have a pinch of sarcasm like how I am in real life. All narrative related to the life of a girl, whether it’s about career, love, passion, making decision, etc. When I pick a novel I prefer a light reading, compare to a heavy science fiction kind of reading, for that I prefer to watch movies. To readers out there I suggest that you guys go to Bookxcess http://bookxcessblog.com/ for a way cheaper price (damn serious, so cheap even for hard cover!)(most) compare to other bookstore. Located in Amcorp Mall, Petaling Jaya, I guaranteed that you would love this place at first visit. I can spend hours in here mainly because they have variety of titles with good quality of books straight from USA sold to us in factory price. I’ve just completed my Cecelia Ahern’s collection, was looking for ‘The last lecture by Randy Pausch’ and ‘Can you keep a secret? by Sophie Kinsella’ which are both for dear friends of mine but they were out of stock so I have to wait AGAIN. As I grow older I find that books are a wise choice to give as a gift for their special day instead of spending on things that becomes meaningless after a period of time. But at the end of the day, the thought that counts.

Love can wait, can we?

Psycho and devastated girl who ACCIDENTALLY murdered her ex-fiance.

Old memories are hard to left behind.

Good things in life come with baggage.

Still reading.



Do you know the recipe for love?

Reading is the cheapest entertainment one can afford :)