Shut up and suck it in.

Once you spread or caused miseries to other’s life, a wise thing to do next is stop there! Have some mercy atleast for the sake of humanity. Don’t even bother to control how they deal with it, atleast give them that freedom. That’s what we called freedom of speech and expression under Section 10 of our Federal Constitution. Call me over sensitive,or melodramatic or even a cry baby but at the end of the day yes I’m a very fragile soul inside despite portraying this strong image on the outside. Some people do their own revenge and call it karma. Oh please, thats not the way. Karma happens on its own. Learn to just be happy and stop creating dramas![quoting Jess] So one way to avoid creating a self proclaimed ‘karma’ I rather be screaming my lungs out, letting go all that my heart feels, all the pain and hurtful bruises. And people can keep asking and asking because they just being concern, hope they’ll get tired one day as,” honey if I’ve been sealed my lips all this while what makes you think I will spill the beans now”. Yes, there’s a bit of optimistic there of how things will change in future but no one really stand behind me this time as they already gave up their faith. I’m a one man standing starting now. They could easily like this(while snapping my fingers,papp) to say ‘I’ve told you so!’, but they didn’t. I was quite sure they were about to say it but they didn’t, and that shows how great a person they are and how blessed I am to have their friendship.

If that going to heal the scars then that’s what I should do, why should I bother about others. That’s the purpose of having a blog, no one force you to write one nor to read others’. The last thing I need to hear or being told about now is from a slut,yup I said it. There’s always first time for everything even a bad one, and today 8th October 2010 is the first time I ever feel like calling someone a slut. Forgive me Allah but who says I’m perfect,no one is and make this my last time uttering that word. Beat it! I stand by what I said. Ofcourse you are in your own league because only you have zero dignity to join the league so you can say whatever you want, your illegal actions already spoke louder than your words. You can wear that mask as long as you like, it just that we know the fact long time ago and been laughing towards your stupidity since then so please spare us your horror. When we open our hearts and thinking about giving you a chance as everyone does a mistake, you come commit the same error and be proud of it. On that note, be happy with yur sluttiest self and let us stay away from you hopefully hamesha and forever.

Liars never lose trust because they never had it and yet I’m here hopelessly hoping all that were true indeed. Say it, stupid me!

Best way to say goodbye?None.

Hate saying goodbyes. Even hate the thought of have to say it sooner or later. I always believe what Peyton painted on her bedroom’s wall in One Tree Hill that ‘people only come to leave’ ; its indeed true. I always try to avoid to say goodbye because most of the time when we say it, seems like we have no intention to meet again, nor we have plan to keep in touch.Goodbye can either be for good reasons or bad ones,but mostly its for the latter and its really heartbreaking when you know you don’t want to say so but only did because the other person said it. What is the best way to say goodbye?I would say none. Goodbye haunts me everytime a phase ends,like when high school came to the end, when holidays are over, when people moved away, etc. It sucks to say goodbye, but somehow we just have to swallow the fact that it is one of those thing which is inevitable in this life. There’s a very famous Irish sayings which IK gave not so long ago, it goes like this :

May the road rise to meet you

May the wind be always at your back

May the sunshine warm up your face

The rain fall soft on your feet

May green be the grass you walk upon

May blue be the skies above you

May pure be the joys of your surrounding

May true be the hearts that love you

And until we meet again

May God hold you in the palm o his hand.

I choose not to say goodbye until the thought of wondering if I’ve ever cross your mind vanish.

Less 1 s*** in my life.TQVM.

How come its so easy for them to say such words?How come it comes naturally for them?How come everytime I tried to project those words with enthusiasm, all of them kinda stuck in my throat, the far I can go is to cover my face with a pillow and started to scream like a maniac those words!And funnily sometimes I dont even know some of the meaning, strictly copy from movies or observations from real life situations. As I watch movies(some!) they tend to give ideas that by doing so it'll help us to lessen the pain in our heart or we can even feel good by making others feel bad.


I've seen how when anger controlled some people they act like someone they are not, I've heard those dirty words even in daily life when they think its 'cool' to say such words even when situation did not need them to say so, I'm even living my life surrounded by them for almost my whole life. So why can't all this exposures teach me to be one of them, its because I am me,I am not them.On that note I'm talking about cursing/talking bad or dirty words. Its important to control our anger, its like the most crucial balance that I need in my life to be a better person as being a person who lack of patient it will be a tough journey for me. But whoever says life will be a smooth journey right?

"A strong person is not the person who throws his adversaries to the ground. A strong person is the person who contains himself when he is angry." - Rasulullah SAW

InsyaAllah, Im sorry for my words never ever meant it. I was angry and heartbroken,its not hatred.

For the rest of my life

कभी कभी अदिति जिन्दगी (Sometimes life...)

Sometimes we meet someone along the way,
And it breaks our heart when they go away,
Eyes demand tears, its hard to disobey,
But I believe everything's gonna be ok,

Sometimes we feel so down and blue,
Every day like a bitter drew,
It's hard to smile,feel happy or even to fake it,
But I believe everything's gonna be ok,

Sometimes you love someone but you can't be with them,

So let them go although it's hurting and killing you inside,

If they return to you, it was meant to be,

If they don't their love was never yours to begin with,

Just think how much they love you,
When you cry,they cry with you,
They can't hold a note but to make you happy they sing for you,
Sometimes the world is a dark place,
But the blackest night cracks with the dawn's ray,

Sometimes we find a friend along the way,
Feels surreal,like a dream when they go away,
But try to go on and laugh a bit,or how about a little smile,
Because they say your happiness spreads joy all around,

The sun emerges and warms the ground,
Can you hear what the wind has to say?
Friends though parted, meet again,
Knows it or not but flowers do blossom again,
So you should keep believing that everything's gonna be ok.

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Have a little faith that everything's gonna be ok

Month of forgiveness.

People asks for forgiveness, so do I,
Sorry at first sounds convincing, too many of it sounds fake,
Sorry from the heart is acceptable, sorry merely for being selfish is hurting,
Don't say sorry for something you have always planned because that's the biggest heartache,
To move on, to be happy, to let others cry then just say you’re sorry fast,

No one is perfect but we don’t have to be one to avoid apology,

At the end of the day, your happiness is more important than mine so,
The moment I can forgive myself for keep believing in your sorry then I'll think about others.

Heartache is no fun

Dear Ramadhan,please let me be part of you again.

It's been a very emotional Ramadhan indeed. I feel sorry for myself for many reasons;

I've missed a lot of chances to collect pahala in this blessed month due to so called busy-ness,


even before this month started I've missed Manchester United's games(ALL!since they beat Chelsea 3-nil for the 1st cup of this season,I know its that long),


yet again I've missed (4 years in a row) to start study early for final exam,

I missed quality times that I've should find and spend with my family,


I've missed the signs which lead me to the biggest stupidity I have ever done,I've misjudged some people(completely my bad),


I've missed quite a number of good movies(latest my fav KAJOL&Arjun Rampal's 'We Are Family' is in cinemas NOW!)


I've failed to read between the lines, actually between hundred or maybe thousands of sweet and fake lines,


BUT


I'm also thankful that HIM and them will always be by my side,


I'm grateful that HE'll always be there to lead me,I can always lean on HIM,


I'm lucky to once thought I've met love,


I'm blessed to at least have a bit of sanity and iman in me,


I'm happy that rather have the ability to feel hurt than feel nothing at all.


And so many feelings I wish I can write here but I'm too tired and irrational at the moment so hope this Raya and final exam will pass by without me realise it and hopefully it'll be good for all of us.InsyaAllah.

Saiyidah Izzati Nur,remember this;Allah wont test you, if He knows that u cant handle it.

Ramadhan once again.

As colourful and excited the bazaars are,the same feeling I have every Ramadhan. Tremendously grateful to be at home ♥ Selamat berpuasa,bertarawikh&berbuka to all :) Let us appreciate this chance, one more time given by the Creator. Alhamdulillah.

Among my favourite quote when it comes to my own personal sensitivity towards my beautiful religion :)

"I don't normally talk about my religion publicly because I don't want people to associate me and my flaws with this beautiful thing. And I believe it is beautiful if you learn it the right way" - Dave Chappelle

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak is here again. Thank you Allah.

Lies.

A wise friend of Iman once said; 'There is always 3 sides of a story, his story,her story and the TRUTH'. What a wise thought eh? I agree.

The 'Pencil'.

There are some stories that makes you stop for a second and actually say,'hey that's so true' and these are what we called inspirational kind of stories. Those which give us sense of direction in this life, which made us proud to be who we are as a person without comparing with others, to appreciate what we have in life and to be a better person we must work hard without depending on others too much and last but not least no more DAYDREAMING and PROCRASTINATION. Thanks Mr.TES for the email.

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:

‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’

His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn’t seem very special.
‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.’

‘First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.’
‘

Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.

‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.’

‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.’

‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action’


'Like the flowing river' by Paulo Coelho.

:)

Spent 1 day in awe of UM's law library and found this: " Law,says the Judge as he looks down his nose, Speaking clearly and most severely Law is as I have told you before Law is as you know I suppose Law is but let me explain it once more Law is the Law." W.H AUDEN, extract from Law is like Love." Will continue reading LAW:)