What a YEAR!

Its about 1 hour and 10 minutes to let go 2010. I would like to........

♥ Thanks to those who loved me unconditionally sincerely all this while, they made my heart bigger and my life happier.

♥Thanks to those who have supported me through ups and downs,thick and thin as well as just being by my side through good and bad days.

♥Thanks to those who hated me, they made me a stronger person by giving me chances to change the negative sides of myself and improving as a Muslim and person in whole.

♥Thanks to those who were worried about me, they let me know that they actually cared and all their TLCs will be cherished forever by me.

♥Thanks to those who left me, they made me realize that nothing lasts forever no matter how bad we hope and pray for it but at the end of the day HE has different plans for us.Better ones hopefully.

♥Thanks to those who entered my life, they made me who I am today. Welcoming more new people for a exciting new year.We can never have enough friends as they say :)

♥In short from the bottom of my heart I just want to THANK YOU to all of you for simply being there in my life at some points, some corners, some events regardless whatever I might have meant to you.Wishing all a HAPPY PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR 2011.May GOD bless all of us,Amin.

♥Turn over a complete new and greener leaf :)

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I have the habit of saying hamesha and forever for every single thing that I love and wish to keep it with me for the rest of my life until 3 days ago a good friend of mine says, "Never say forever. Forever is a very long time. Time has its way in changing things." Unfortunately the statement is true no matter how bad we wish it wasn't.

The last 10 days:(

Gamophobia.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

-Bette Davis-

Make things RIGHT.

At many times we tend to do mistakes in our life, one after another. At all times, it's whether we get hurt or we hurt another people we love. Mistakes change our life and the way we are, little by little. Often, we regret what we have done but seldom notice the changes. Eventually, those mistakes will strike again and we start to realize that we have not done with the past. It is then come the urge to make things right. That's when we have to revisit the past, recollect the pieces, fix the damages and make things right.

A new resolution which keep pending year after year is to lead a mistake-less life(of course it is impossible but looking at those which are avoidable) because I'm afraid there are people(our loved ones) out there experience unbearable hurt once we commit a mistake , when you have felt it you don't want others to suffer the same because it's killing you slowly.Emotionally.Tired of people who keeps regretting their mistakes but doing nothing about it(one of the finger pointing at me obviously). Tired also with those who replicating the same promise but no progress and yet repeat the same old mistakes and curse life, God, others for it. But not our own self.

Never say never and also it's never too late as people like to say so let's make things right.

New life mantra :)

Unanswerable questions.

Why are you always in hurry?

Why do you scared?

Why do you change the radio station?

Why do you change the topic?

Why do you stop doing this and that?

Why do you change your style?

Why do you still hold on that?

Why do you still keep that memories?

Why do you always excuse yourself?

Why do we have to convince you for most things now days?

Why are you still holding to something uncertain?

Why?Why?Why?

Do you know that not all questions can be answered with words? Sometimes it is better if only we have the answer rather than trying to make others understand something that God knows whether they will or not. At the end of the day I believe that a smile do hides everything.

I don't even know what will happen in the future. But I still believe that God is good and only good.

Will we or won't we?

Sick thoughts and bet of most people, sports viewers who confidently declared that INDONESIA will purposely lose to THAILAND in order to make sure MALAYSIA won't make it to semi final of the AFF Suzuki Cup but they proved all of us wrong when they won the game with 2-1.Thanks to 2 penalties accomplished by former Selangor player,Bambang. Yes, we do have political differences but sometimes when it come to sport we just have to put that aside and just play for the spirit of it.With seniors players in the squad I really hope we can bring back the cup this time, enough with becoming only semi finalist. Can only get the leisure of watching sports at home, put aside stress of studies,etc and enjoy the game.GOALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

Bad habits Part II

I hate myself for being able to spend like no body business even when I'm like super broke. What that phrase mean was, I do have the cash but it should be use for other purposes. Which is far important than spending it carelessly like water. I wish to change that(again!) in this new year. I hate the fact that everyone around me already have their own income(MOST if not all),yet me still receiving allowances from my father and sister and for the record I don't know(actually I think I know,the whole world knows.In denial!) why they never...never enough for me although I plan each time on how and what I should spend them on. Seriously I do. I'm a planner you see. When I'm a state of miserably broke especially when its holiday I tend to hate myself even more, its killing me when TopGear (we subscribe the magazine monthly) arrived at our home because I know I am not destined to own those hot rides! It requires damn hard work to even buy the cheapest ride in that mag, which is like *cryblood* Again it is really killing me slowly to go to the most happening motor show, and looking at all those beautiful rides and that is all I can do...for now. Its fine with me to not have the luxury to buy the best dresses, stilettos, jeweleries,vagera2 but being me since like forever I can already picture myself in a Porsche or riding a Harley so more than the high end fashion couture I want them more than anything so for now that's my mission and passion.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Ok I feel better now.

I have fetish for cars and bikes:)

A brand NEW YEAR.

I do have high hopes in this brand new year, especially for a happier life, to be a better Muslim and person in general, improve my performance in academics, personal achievement in various fields that I have passion for, financial wise as well as life in whole. In short the hopes are dedicated to me,myself. Its all up to me to make it work so InsyaAllah with a focused mind, prayers and hardworking I'll be able to achieve 70% of them. Salam Awal Muharram to dear all Muslims around the world, on this meaningful day lets us start it with the right step.

Doa Awal Tahun dibaca 3 kali selepas maghrib pada malam satu Muharram. Sesiapa yang membaca doa ini, Syaitan berkata

“Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan

dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan”.

Berikut adalah Doa Awal Tahun

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Amin to all wishes:)

Selfish in a selfless way.

The old me would have asked 1001 questions out of care and genuine curiosity.It hit me the hard way that as much as I want it to stay the same way now I just can’t.Have to discipline myself the right way because the time is getting too close, before drowning much deeper I need to gasp for air when there's still time. It’s my turn now to say more than for me, for once I’m being selfish in a selfless way. The best for the both world. No doubts they are nice human being but it takes more than that from now on because I'm strong enough to walk away, but broken enough to look back.

I miss you a little. A little too much, a little too often, and a little bit more each day

Bad habit

Moral of the story: Procrastination is bad for health.

When you think by doing something else (somewhat that you hate and avoid all your life like wrapping freaking 30+ statutes and text books) can get your mind from thinking the same thing, can distract your mind from thinking about the same person, and can divert your attention to something more important at the moment (like studying for your exam) you are completely wrong. I tried by wrapping all (most) of my statutes (killing my hip and back, seriously!) and at the end of the 3 hours I realised it’s just a waste of time because there’s nothing can help you but yourself. But at least one job done, almost. Must find other ways, this cannot be continue forever.Sick!

Wrapping books is so damn boring, its a girl job totally not for me.*sigh!*