Emotional Tuesday

He who doesn’t get all latest gossips comes to me. He who gets all ‘new’ tittle-tattles seeks our confirmation. The moment I give him the look and say “It’s like ages ago lah C” and here comes the reply “Ish, You ni x pernah nak update I kan” and every single time I would be unsure whether I have registered the right course when I first came here as there are actually people who depends on me to tell them latest stories in our own tiny tinsel town. The reason why I don't feel the need to tell is do we even know this people? But neither do I like to disappoint a friend*evil laugh!*This can either be in class, during lunch break (like today), in gap between classes or even before lecturers entered the class. This activity the only one (not really) that can make us dump our books, cases for a minute without feeling guilty about it.

Okay, now seriously (somehow) we end up as editors to this latest rumours (harmless one of course dear people, not something sinful like mengumpat, mengata,etc) alliance and C is our field reporter which any day might getting fired(joking!) for his incompetency as every time(for almost 2 years and a half) its only me who bring the foods on our table.

Thanks to our stalker quality and certainly thanks to the much-loved social networking page that all of us are loyal user to it, we get to know the latest, hot from the oven break-ups/link-ups/gossips and sometimes we don’t even bother to get into it but all of them been literally thrown in front of our faces. I hate to read ugly arguments from friends who just having a bad break up with their former partners, also hate being in the situations where both sides are my friends (experiences 4 times so far), even nastier when the guys start trashing the girls (or vice versa) who once they loved (how fast people change I tell you thanks to hatred, scary) and to think about it we have all the rights in deciding whether to or not to display our personal information to public. It’s our absolute choice. No one can force us nor make us do anything that we don’t want to. Who actually cares who you are dating with? Seriously, we aren't FAMOUS people. Get that straight! Relationship is a sacred attach between two souls so I don't see the necessary why others need to poke their nose or intervene when they are obviously not needed in the scenes.Don't you think if people really wants you to know they will tell you personally, so until they do try to understand you are not important in their life. Duhh?! Was it really that hard to tolerate?No hard feeling though.

This emotional talk started the moment C could not tolerate how easy people bounce back and jump from 1 relationship to the other, from 1 guy/girl to next partner, from ‘I love you’ to ‘Go to hell, f*** off!’ and all of that in as fast as 1 day! Can you believe that? But hey it does happen, and you know it’s true. I have my own view but seriously who even cares to know what they are, but as C said if this how people act now days better stay alone and live life on our own terms and if the right person comes time will tell and you will know it’s for keep and not for pleasure. For now enjoy our life, appreciate people around us and make a lot of money first! That is so true and I so second that motion.

The less we know, the better for us:)

Colourless Monday

Why people relate Monday with the colour blue?

Why Blue?

It’s a fact that Blue is my least favourite colour, it just doesn’t suit me [doesn’t bring the best out of me considered as least [not the point for this entry!].LOL!

But I couldn’t stop wondering when people always sighing “ahh the Monday blues” every time Sunday is about to end. I have nothing against Monday personally, but I hate certain hours in that day for example CLASSES! [The ONLY point of this whole entry] Save for if its holiday I completely adore Monday! Why just Monday I love each and every day of whenever I got time off!

What should I say about Monday that haven’t’ been said before?

I should set up this entry’s mood with what lecturers suffered from just literally have to face us [the EASILY DISTRACTED LAW STUDENTS] when it comes to the first day of the week [honestly, when it comes to us (ME!) it’s actually everyday in the week. Seriously deep in heart I do want to resign from this little club ‘Lazy Club’ where I am the self appointed President, soon I hope. Really soon.

Situation 1: So, when can constructive trusts arose?

The lecturer can either experiences a sudden silence treatment as if she was talking in a alien language or the little pigeons that making sounds outside the class’s window get more attention from us as we kind of more interested in talking back to them or knowing what is the problem they are facing rather than replying the lecturer’s question.

Situation 2: Rendang, Sup, Kurma, Kicap and Merah are the majority shareholders in the company. Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla and the question is can Kurma be removed by the company’s solicitor?

I mean like, seriously you think we can stay focus after getting questions using foods name? And what worse is it’s already passing our lunch time and now stuck in a 2 hours tutorial! Hence come the chit-chatting from the backbenchers (bb):-

Me: Pza, macam mana nak masak sup telur?

Bb1: hahahaha.Gila ke?focus lah!

Bb2: (a friend who also loves FOOD and only pretend to focus in this class): Ntah budak gemok ni, org tengah jawab Qs tanya pasal masak plak!hehehe.

Bb3: cheda,rendang b**i sedap you know.Pernah makan or not? I eat all kind of meat, you just name it. I’m a meat eater[with that proud grin]

Me: Euwww,Jin stop it!Gila!

Bb4: Oit..oit..shut up lah!Bising only!You still owe me burgers,don’t forget ah?hahaha.

Me: Owh,shut up Uncle Neo!Ya lorr,its been 2 years lupa got burgers date with you. Shall plan soon:D

Me: Oitt girls, got any makanan tak?

Bb5: Huh? Did I hear it right? Makanan, now?hehe. Lapar ke? Kesian (NOT!)

And the conversation continues despite the discussion still going on.


Situation 3: Any questions? Anything you do not understand? Or can I ask questions if you don’t have any?

From head held high all of us suddenly look down as if we just drop our pen or books. And when the lecturer dismisses the class we can actually hear huhahuhahuhahuhahuha [indicating how cheerful and energetic we are in real life] and makes the lecturers wondering ‘Why all of you didn’t act like this in my class?’, 'Because we respect you Miss, so wont make noise during lecturer hours', 'Owh please!(while making that cute disbelief and sarcastic face) hahaha.

There are MANY more situations like this but what I’m trying to say here is that Monday is when we haven’t fully recovered from our holiday/weekend mode, in short we take time and maybe when the time arrived its already another weekend so there go another effort in making a new Monday a lovely day that it SHOULD be rather than how we WANT it to be. The bottomline is we love and appreciate our lecturers sincerely and it’s not their fault at all as they are giving their best in guiding and teaching us, they being nice all the time(MOST!), they do not punish us like when we were in school, etc but all the blunders are completely ours!

To all dear lecturers, you guys are amazing and superb human beings who just trying your best in making us as good or better than yourself in future but we can take it from there. I mean you are done with your part and now it’s completely up to us to WAKE UP! Its better now or never.

It takes me 1 step at a time to be a better ME :)

Feel down anyone?

I try. I like. I love. I care. That’s not enough to make people happy. I failed.

Just be myself. I always wanted to be the heroine in this whole drama thing but ends up being the villain. No more expectations next time. I failed.

I thought I’ve learnt from mistakes. Again I’ve failed. Disappointments are the only thing I keep giving them.

I focus. I read. I understand. I wrote 4 full pages of what I thought is knowledge. But what I thought remained that way. I failed.

I thought I’ve woke up. I thought the journey was awakening enough. I thought I be able to wake myself up when I’m about to fall asleep but I’m such a selfish person. I’ve failed.

I love them my way. But my way could be a selfish way to others. Am I taking them for granted? Knowing they will always be here and won’t turn away make me the way I am? I failed.

I thought I’ve changed for the better. Clearly I have but evidently the other way round. I failed.

BOUNCE BACK WHEN MARCH ENDS! BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME, IF THEY SAY& BELIEVE I'M NOT A FAILURE THAN WHY SHOULD I? THERE IS ALWAYS FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING AND IM NOT THE EXCEPTION SO YES I’LL BE BACK BETTER NEXT MONTH.PROMISE!ONLY TO MYSELF.

March by far is the most unpleasant month in this year. When I thought is not possible for anything else (BAD) to happened, He surprises me. But again He would never test us with something that He knows we could not stand so bear it as something better waiting for us ahead.

me,BOUNCING BACK!:)

Im NOT a informer

Listen to me, I'm the informer
I'm telling on a friend
Say can't you see, she adores you
It's a message she's shy to send

Listen to me, oh I'm the informer
What I'm saying, you already know
See people want what they cannot have
People want what's not their own

But don't turn away
Hear what I say

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Listen to me, see I'm the informer
I'm telling on a friend
Oh can't you see, she adores you
It's a message she's shy to send

Oh don't turn away
Hear what I say

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Don't turn away
Hear what I say

She thinks of you at work, she thinks of you at home
Thinking late at night, when it's dark and she's alone
Why can't you take her out and spend some of your dough
Pretend that she is just your friend, deep inside she knows

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Jools Holland,Ruby Turner & The Rhythm IS the PERFECT song!

Thanks Numan. A friend like you is what I need to wake me up when I'm about to choose or take the wrong path. Hope along this journey more friends along side me will lead each other to the road that is blessed by Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Cinta Paling Agung adalah Cinta Allah dan Rasul-Nya.Masakan engkau peroleh cinta manusia jika engkau tidak mencintai "Pemiliknya". A man should love his religion,his God,his Prophet before he knows how to love a woman.

Alhamdulillah:)

Try sleeping with a broken heart.

Alicia Keys- Try Sleeping With A broken Heart

Love watching So You Think You Can Dance(SYTYCD) since like forever and each time the contemporary routine by Mia Michael has this effect that makes me go gaga over her choreographs. Her intense,romantic and dramatically moves never failed to move my emotions . Even her choices of songs for each dance are very heart wrenching and this is 1 of my favourite!

My famous silence.

There are some moments in life without words, Willy Wonka in Charlie and The Chocolate Factory.

me,experiencing wordless moments...

Ouch!

When a heart breaker experiences a heartbreaking moment herself, it hurt the most. The last time I felt hurt badly like this, is like...never. So now I know myself how sucks it feel, and all this while I thought they just making up stories about we can feel our heart literally crying. It turns out to be true, letting go something or someone you love without them knowing how much they means to us cause us so much pain. All the tears are blamed to the horrible exams we just went through, it’s easy that way because last thing we want parents to worry about is us at this age. They seem worry why we are not the way we are before, but I’ve no reasons to talk, or eat or do anything but sighing. And friends and loved ones deserved to be happy even when we are not.

Oh God if I know it will feel this awful I will never took the steps because indirectly I’m hurting you too and that never going to make my life easier.

I love Disney. Full stop. Been watching them since like forever and 1 day I know I will have my childhood dreams come true in Disneyland, they can say about age but heart stays the way we want it to be. Not like other girls who loves all the princess my choice is Princess Jasmine. I love her so much that they take me as her, my Disney on Ice favourite moment is when Aladdin and Princess Jasmine emerge and lovely skating around the rink with this lovely song on the background. I’m a sucker when it comes to love story or romantic movies, never get enough of them because I believe in such beautiful fairy-tale. And till next time I shall wait for my prince charming ♥

p/s: hope will make it this year too to Disney on Ice. Last year I had great time and hopefully this year sisters day out will be as fun as ever.

A whole new world - Aladdin&Princess Jamine

I can show you the world

Shinning, shimmering, splendid

Tell me, princess, now when did

You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes

Take you wonder by wonder

Over, sideways and under

On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

No one to tell us no or where to go

Or say we’re only dreaming

A whole new world

A dazzling place I never knew

But when I’m way up here

It’s crystal clear

That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights

Indescribable feeling

Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling

Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world

A hundred thousand things to see

I'm like a shooting star

I've come so far

I can't go back to where I used to be

Every turn a surprise

Every moment red-letter

I'll chase them anywhere

There's time to spare

Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world

That's where we'll be

A thrilling chase

A wondrous place

For you and me

me,still using Disney handkerchiefs:)