Grey's Anatomy BIGGEEST maniac fan I AM.(literally)

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Caution: This is the most normal behaviour as you can get of a hardcore fan so don’t bother to wonder as why I speak about the cast of Grey’s Anatomy as if I know them. Well by now I think if you can stand my SRK addiction, this is nothing compare to that!

I easily get attached to someone or something which has been part of my life for so long eventhough they are not real, eventhough they are just fictional characters played by real people but still when their problems, their issues, their crises become yours you know they basically part of your life literally. When they cry I have tears going down my cheeks as well, when someone hurt them I feel upset for no reason, when they died I grieve for episodes or even seasons, when they do something stupid I cursed them, and things like that you know. Ya I know sounds a bit psycho,but what to do!

There are different series for different phase in my life, alot of them actually but those which worth mentioned here would be Sesame Street, The Nanny Sabrina, The Teenage Witch and The Cosby Show during my early childhood, Gilmore Girls, Charmed , One Tree Hill, etc during my teenage-hood, and here come the mind blowing Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, How I Met Your Mother, Ugly Betty, Glee, Private Practise, Venezuela series, Hindi and TVB dramas, etc during my 2nd phase of teenage-hood.haha. Adult-hood is far far away ok. Lately I love shows like The Good Wife!! Yes, I'm the biggest potato couch if I have all the time in the world and of course the remote control. But seriously, these soap operas really entertain your life somehow, not that our life is not interesting and dramatic enough but they give us the reason to escape to a fantasy land where anything is possible!

Well as this week is all about my GA, I must say that Shonda Rhimes (the creator and the MAN behind GA) is my favourite writer ever, simply because about 6-7 years ago she brought Grey’s Anatomy into my life and millions others fans who are simply addicted to the incredible heart wrenching show. She never failed to put the element of surprise in each season, when you thought the ending of the former season was at its best, you were proven wrong yet again and again. At its 7th season now, I’m too damn excited waiting for the musical episode simply because Sara Ramirez a.k.a Dr.Callie Torres the hottest orthopaedic in the show got to show her Broadway talent as she’ll be the vital character in this musical event coming in just less than 24 hours. She never really got the chance to do so, although she had her fair share of onscreen’s crisis, but for once she’ll get the limelight all for the right reason not like when her husband cheated on her, or when her husband’s bestfriend betrayed her, the person she loved walk off from her life without justification, and etc. She’s been through a lot of downs rather than ups in her life so for once yes we all hope for a better ending for her and Arizona (yeaaayyy!) Been waiting for a month now as GA took a hiatus from the 1st half of this season, the promos keep giving me mini heart attacks though. What the hell happened? I guess we need to wait until 31st March (1 DAY TO GO,BREATHE!a day late for us viewers outside USA). I do really hope that (it better be!) nothing going to happened to Callie. And I also hope that GA will never comes to its end like how ER is still running after numbers of seasons.

The Musical Event will be THE awesome-est episode ever, I know for sure!

As I'm writing this, less than 19 hours left now for the most anticipated episode ever! :')

THE DAY of The Musical Event.

PEOPLE WHO DON’T WATCH GREY’S ANATOMY: YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW TOMORROW IS IMPORTANT TO OUR LIVES.

3 days to The Musical Event.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?



Song : Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
By Sara Ramirez, Kevin Mckidd and Chandra Wilson. The doctors sing it beautifully!

3 1/2 days to The Musical Event.

The brain is the human body’s most mysterious organ. It learns. It changes. It adapts. It tells us what we see. What we hear. It lets us feel love. I think it holds our soul. And no matter how much research we do, no one can really say how all that delicate gray matter inside our skull works. And when it’s hurt, when the human brain is traumatized, well, that’s when it gets even more mysterious. –Dr. Callie Torres-

If this sneak peek didn't stir your emotional, I don't know what will. The 1 line Sara sings from Grey's Anatomy theme song really give out goosebumps, 'Nobody knows where they might end up,nobody knows where they might wake up'. Its by Psapp title Cosy In The Rocket and its my favourite theme song by a series (not a surprise right!)

MUSIC is another vital character in Grey's Anatomy which won our hearts since the 1st episode!:)

5 days before The Musical Event

Even the sneak peek made my cry. 5 days to go. Excitedly nervous.

Chasing Cars!

Countdown begins : 7 days to go for Grey's Anatomy Musical Event!

From the beginning, the music of Grey’s Anatomy has been the heart of the show we love. Has touched us, moved us, and stayed with us long after we experienced it. Thursday March 31^st, creator Shonda Rhimes will do something that never been done before. From the promos I can say that it is potentially of becoming one of the greatest episodes, they are doing something which is pretty unknown to all of them (except the great singer herself, Sara Ramirez!) GA’s the music event, will be a completely different attempt, very emotional, intense, they will bring these songs to life in a way that the audience hadn’t seen before and it’s going to be mind blowing amazing episode.

The music plays such a big part even my life, I got to know numbers of great track performed by most of non commercial success singers which stay unheard of by many people if not for GA, the team do have great ears for awesome songs. They fit each situation beautifully, project each situation perfectly and make us cry, laugh, and sing along from the word go. I don’t really follow series except for certain chosen one (most are legal dramas) and GA is definitely one of the lucky ones, being a loyal fan since season 1 itself. This song by The Fray totally bring us back to the early season and those memories with former characters like George and Izzie do make us miss them badly. Somehow this song has a very deep effect on me since the first time I listened to it, the hopeless feeling of want to help someone you love but your hands are tied up. The hopeless feeling sometimes killing us, hoping for something better to happened but at the same time you can't do much about it. All we can do is sit and pray and hope the best outcome will miraculously appeared.

7 days to go for THE day, couldn’t be more anxious.

Biggest day.

You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it's happening. You don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you fail your exam. The day you have to tell your parents bad news. The day you get your heart broken. The day you decide you need to let go and move on. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you have to parted away from your bestfriends just because life lead us to the different path. The day you got your true calling of what you want to do in your life. The day you realize there's not enough time, because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. If you say the perfect days are your biggest day let me tell you there's no such thing as perfect day. For me a day is perfect enough if I'm surrounded by the people that I love from the moment I woke up till the second I go to bed. That's how I defined a perfect day. I may have a bad day, crappy time at school or work, worse day with people around me but if I know my loved ones are there then its more than enough for me.




P/S: On this one of the biggest day of your life, I just want to wish you my dear leng lui Jyemei or should I call you Mrs.Chan now a long life happy married life. Been waiting it for a while now and when I got your sms I'm just to excited and happy for you although it's just a registration and although customary ceremony is not so soon just want you to know you are the most gorgeous bride ever. And I know beautiful bright babies are coming your way soon. Totally over the moon, simply for the reason that people like you give us the reason to believe that somewhere out there there is a right person waiting for us. Our own knight in shining armour and a true love hopefully. You've been through a lot, ups and downs and you are one of the people I looked up at since I was in my first year so ya when you got your happy ending I couldn't be more excited. Lots of love and hugs!

Just hang in there, your biggest day is yet to come :)

Desire

As students we know what we want, to become somebody and to get there we’ll do almost everything; suffers through killers exam, endure hundred hours of almost half of our life in schools, you name it we’ll do it (NOT NECESSARILY WHOLEHEARTEDLY) But the toughest part is reconciling the thing we want to be with all the other things that we want. The thing is, the most crucial part that we must remind ourself again and again before desiring something while living under our parents’ roof, getting allowance from them, eat what they buy and cook, shopping with their salary and others is that we don’t; I repeat we do not get the liberty to desire luxury things nor the freedom to make our own decision based on our choice. Not before we start working and knows all the hardwork needed and pain endured in preparing one decent meal for our loved ones. Given a chance I would live my life totally differently, seriously. I am not what I am today if not for my parents’ says, I would study different course, I would choose different career path, I would dress differently,etc. In between me and God there are parents, so I don’t get to desire things as much as I would to. The rebellious side of me don’t agree with atleast 80% of the decision my parents made for me but hey who am I to complain. Just suck it in.

Too often the things you want the most is the things you can’t have. Desires leave our hearts broken, desire can wrecked your life, but as tough as wanting something can be the people who suffers the most are those who don’t know what they want.

Desire to live a happy life forever :)

Dreaming of you.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I would stay up and think of you
And I would wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Because I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you...Yes, I do

I can't stop dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly...

I was just 10 when I first saw 'Selena' but it will remain my favourite movie of all time. There's not even 1 time I watched it without crying my heart out, legend sometimes gone at unexpected time. Sometimes its too early that we feel it's not the time yet. This song has such sentimental value for me, touch my heart with every single line. Beautiful voice and melody. And here I do hope 1 day I will stop dreaming about you.

STOP invading my dreams.......

Smile :')

Sadness gives me reason to put my Nat King Cole's playlist in the replay mode. No more tears at this moment so even though my heart is aching I'll try to smile.................................................

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile......................................................

Please stay by my side and smile with me :)