Feel down anyone?

I try. I like. I love. I care. That’s not enough to make people happy. I failed.

Just be myself. I always wanted to be the heroine in this whole drama thing but ends up being the villain. No more expectations next time. I failed.

I thought I’ve learnt from mistakes. Again I’ve failed. Disappointments are the only thing I keep giving them.

I focus. I read. I understand. I wrote 4 full pages of what I thought is knowledge. But what I thought remained that way. I failed.

I thought I’ve woke up. I thought the journey was awakening enough. I thought I be able to wake myself up when I’m about to fall asleep but I’m such a selfish person. I’ve failed.

I love them my way. But my way could be a selfish way to others. Am I taking them for granted? Knowing they will always be here and won’t turn away make me the way I am? I failed.

I thought I’ve changed for the better. Clearly I have but evidently the other way round. I failed.

BOUNCE BACK WHEN MARCH ENDS! BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME, IF THEY SAY& BELIEVE I'M NOT A FAILURE THAN WHY SHOULD I? THERE IS ALWAYS FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING AND IM NOT THE EXCEPTION SO YES I’LL BE BACK BETTER NEXT MONTH.PROMISE!ONLY TO MYSELF.

March by far is the most unpleasant month in this year. When I thought is not possible for anything else (BAD) to happened, He surprises me. But again He would never test us with something that He knows we could not stand so bear it as something better waiting for us ahead.

me,BOUNCING BACK!:)

Im NOT a informer

Listen to me, I'm the informer
I'm telling on a friend
Say can't you see, she adores you
It's a message she's shy to send

Listen to me, oh I'm the informer
What I'm saying, you already know
See people want what they cannot have
People want what's not their own

But don't turn away
Hear what I say

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Listen to me, see I'm the informer
I'm telling on a friend
Oh can't you see, she adores you
It's a message she's shy to send

Oh don't turn away
Hear what I say

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Don't turn away
Hear what I say

She thinks of you at work, she thinks of you at home
Thinking late at night, when it's dark and she's alone
Why can't you take her out and spend some of your dough
Pretend that she is just your friend, deep inside she knows

She's in love with you, but she's too shy to say it
Don't know if you know, but she's infatuated
Cares for no-one else, you're the apple of her eye
Will you be good to her, or will you make her cry?

Jools Holland,Ruby Turner & The Rhythm IS the PERFECT song!

Thanks Numan. A friend like you is what I need to wake me up when I'm about to choose or take the wrong path. Hope along this journey more friends along side me will lead each other to the road that is blessed by Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Cinta Paling Agung adalah Cinta Allah dan Rasul-Nya.Masakan engkau peroleh cinta manusia jika engkau tidak mencintai "Pemiliknya". A man should love his religion,his God,his Prophet before he knows how to love a woman.

Alhamdulillah:)

Try sleeping with a broken heart.

Alicia Keys- Try Sleeping With A broken Heart

Love watching So You Think You Can Dance(SYTYCD) since like forever and each time the contemporary routine by Mia Michael has this effect that makes me go gaga over her choreographs. Her intense,romantic and dramatically moves never failed to move my emotions . Even her choices of songs for each dance are very heart wrenching and this is 1 of my favourite!

My famous silence.

There are some moments in life without words, Willy Wonka in Charlie and The Chocolate Factory.

me,experiencing wordless moments...

Ouch!

When a heart breaker experiences a heartbreaking moment herself, it hurt the most. The last time I felt hurt badly like this, is like...never. So now I know myself how sucks it feel, and all this while I thought they just making up stories about we can feel our heart literally crying. It turns out to be true, letting go something or someone you love without them knowing how much they means to us cause us so much pain. All the tears are blamed to the horrible exams we just went through, it’s easy that way because last thing we want parents to worry about is us at this age. They seem worry why we are not the way we are before, but I’ve no reasons to talk, or eat or do anything but sighing. And friends and loved ones deserved to be happy even when we are not.

Oh God if I know it will feel this awful I will never took the steps because indirectly I’m hurting you too and that never going to make my life easier.

I love Disney. Full stop. Been watching them since like forever and 1 day I know I will have my childhood dreams come true in Disneyland, they can say about age but heart stays the way we want it to be. Not like other girls who loves all the princess my choice is Princess Jasmine. I love her so much that they take me as her, my Disney on Ice favourite moment is when Aladdin and Princess Jasmine emerge and lovely skating around the rink with this lovely song on the background. I’m a sucker when it comes to love story or romantic movies, never get enough of them because I believe in such beautiful fairy-tale. And till next time I shall wait for my prince charming ♥

p/s: hope will make it this year too to Disney on Ice. Last year I had great time and hopefully this year sisters day out will be as fun as ever.

A whole new world - Aladdin&Princess Jamine

I can show you the world

Shinning, shimmering, splendid

Tell me, princess, now when did

You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes

Take you wonder by wonder

Over, sideways and under

On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

No one to tell us no or where to go

Or say we’re only dreaming

A whole new world

A dazzling place I never knew

But when I’m way up here

It’s crystal clear

That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights

Indescribable feeling

Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling

Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world

A hundred thousand things to see

I'm like a shooting star

I've come so far

I can't go back to where I used to be

Every turn a surprise

Every moment red-letter

I'll chase them anywhere

There's time to spare

Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world

That's where we'll be

A thrilling chase

A wondrous place

For you and me

me,still using Disney handkerchiefs:)

THEM.

Sometimes a stranger’s expression or a friend’s comfort or loved ones’ wise line can lighten up our day or even year and some even life. They don’t have to ask whether they are important in our life or not because they should know they mean the world to us. Something should be felt rather than be asked repeatedly as it shows the level of our understanding towards each other. And if it can’t be realize maybe we are not meant to be in each other space, we need that ‘something’ which we don’t know what but it can just make us bond or click together easily. A healthy relationship or friendship they say doesn’t necessarily need a regular check up but it’s important to be able to pick up from where we left the last time. Some people are expressive about their love and some are not really showing their appreciative side but that doesn’t mean they are selfish, should just value each and everyone’s individuality. What one have might complete ourselves and vice versa and if it lasted clearly that person sees something in us and if they don’t life still goes on isn’t it?

me,tired dancing this tunes.